Chapter Ten – Waking up and letting go
BPOV
My eyes flew open as my mind sprung to one person. Jacob. I was perfectly content in pretending to be asleep until his face blasted its way into my thoughts and I just had to see his face again. Why? I don't know. It was like I would find closure if he was behind me, I would know then that my nightmare would be completely over just because he was here.
I knew Angela was sat with me but not once did I hear his voice. It was just Angela's sweet voice that was calming me. No deep voice was letting me know I was safe. He told me he was going to be here, so where was he?
"Bella?" I heard a sweet, scared voice ask. Angela. I gasped out a breathe of air as I gazed around the brightly lit room. My sight took a while to get used to the newfound colour. I blinked a few time and eventually I was able to see the room around me. I was laid on a bed that was in centre of a bright white room. Hospital, I sighed. I hate hospitals, they make me feel we. I should now I have spent all my life been rushed in and out of one because of my lack of coordination.
My gaze found Angela who was preached on a seat next to the bed. She smiled at me timidly but I didn't return it. I was confused and concerned about Jake. I looked around the room, fanatically searching it all for him. He wasn't there however. Just as I thought even before my eyes opened.
I looked down at myself and saw the tubes coming out of my nose and m hand. Tears welled up in my eyes when I realised that my ordeal with James was over. Not once had it hit me in all the time I had been laid in this room, that I was free again. Free of James.
I knew it was my own fault that I had been locked in that room. I had trust 'Mike' and fell for his charm. Why did I never notice that he wasn't who he had said he was? I was ashamed more than anything, ashamed that I was too trusting and vulnerable. James saw this and led me into his trap.
Truth be told, I didn't know who my kidnapper was at first. It wasn't until he spoke and showed his face that I realised that I had been a fool.
"Are you ok Bella? Do you want me to call a nurse?" Angela asked me with alarm. She was always a great person and friend. Her caring ways won over just about anyone.
My throat hurt as I tried to get the words out that seemed to never want to leave my mouth. "Jake?" I settled for that simple word knowing that Angela would know who I was talking about.
She did but confusion set in on her face. She didn't know why I wanted to speak to him. Nobody did, not even me. "Let me go and get him" She stood and walked from the room, leaving me to my thoughts. He was still here? Was the only thing that seemed to cross my mind. He didn't leave. The relief that filled me was almost painful. I felt my breathing speed up when I realized that I would see him again.
After only minutes of my waiting Angela was back, alone. Her expression held remorse and confusion. "He must have gone back to the station. Sorry" Her words stung me. It was clear she didn't know that I had feeling for Jake, she thought I wanted to see him about the case. But I didn't I just wanted him here with me. She returned to her seat and placed her hands on mine. She squeezed it gently. That extra pressure on my hand and that care from Angela made my tears fall down my face and sobs to fall from my mouth.
"Bella, don't worry everything will be fine now. Shh" She pulled me into a hug the best she could without disturbing my injuries. She was wrong; everything wasn't going to be alright.
I don't know why I feel so much sadness. I should be relieved that my ordeal was over. But I was feeling like my heart had been ripped out and stomped on. I couldn't understand it though. I shouldn't be feeling this way, Jacob Black is a police officer that helped me. I didn't know a thing about him. So why do I feel so devastated that he is not here with me?
JPOV
I strolled into the station and straight into my office. If anyone was to see me they would have thought I'd have gone mad. My usually clean suit was dirty and my face held nothing but anger, aimed at myself. I'd developed feeling for someone that I didn't know and someone that would never love me back just simply because she wouldn't want to. I had dug this hole for myself so now I must lie in it.
I have made my decision. I will not speak to Bella again. Quil and Embry can handle the case from now on. I don't want a thing to do with it. This way I will spare my feelings and nobody will get hurt. Except me.
I was drowning in my own thoughts when Quil popped his head through the door. He gave me a confused look and closing the door fully behind him. "I thought you were at the hospital with Bella. When I saw the light on I thought Jessica was going through you draws again" He smiled but it fainted when I didn't return it.
"What's up man?" He asked me and slumped into a chair opposite me. "Why are you not at the hospital?"
I didn't answer him instead, I changed the conversation. "I'm passing the case over to you and Embry. I don't want anything to do with it"
"You've gotten to emotionally involved haven't you?" He shook his head. "Ok man, I'll take over for you" He stood up and walked back to the door. "Just so you know, you and Bella seemed to have something special. Not many people can bond over a few phone calls. Don't throw it away." He gave me one last smile before he left the room and closed the door.
--
Hope you like it!
This story has about three chapters left. These chapters will be longer. I can't believe how short my chapters are! I'm trying to add more but this one wasn't really much and was sort of a filler before the next chapter which will be set months after this.
The next chapter is half written and was meant to be posted instead of this but I just wanted to give you a change to see it from Bella's point of view and what she thought when Jacob wasn't there.
Just uploaded a Sam and Bella story! Check it out, it's called Knocked out by Love
Bex
xxx