Chapter 10
An hour seemed to go by and we didn't move out of the bed at all for anything in the world as I had moved from his chest to lean on the bed frame like him letting our eyes meet and see how much he had wanted this to happen for us. I felt my mind fell relaxed for the first time in a long time, even my heart felt a little skipping when I looked at Dave, my heart also felt loved like never before with anyone. I like that feeling putting my hand slowly on Dave cheek feeling the warmness on his cheek as he smiled at me sweetly before taking my hand in his and kissing the palm slowly then leaning down to me and letting out lips meet in a soft nice kiss. I got to admit this is nice with Dave just to lay here without moving, talking, interrupts or anything. It felt like the whole world has disappeared and it was only me and him left to live in it. Somehow I feel like I want this though in a way, I like how I can trust him and know he'll be home to have a conversation during TV or go shopping with me, or be with me when it's time to go to bed. It'd be nice to have him there late at night if I got scared to hug up next to him when I'm scared late at night, to feel him close to me. I want that so much, but I can't leave Randy. My heart seemed to agree with that thought letting it sit in my mind to remind me that I can't leave him.
Dave's movement made me look back at him again see him raise up slowly and go straight to the bathroom slowly giving me a smile before he shut the door. I felt my whole body get goosebumps all over it as I moved up as well wrapping the sheet Randy me and picking out a fresh pair of clothes finally feeling the guilt and betrayal coming rising in my heart making me almost cry at the thought that I did finally cheat on Randy after all the times I preached to him to stop cheating I turn around and do the thing that he does. I didn't know whether to be made or angry as I put on a robe that was on the dresser by the bathroom door and dropped the sheet back on the bed starting to making the bed half way good so he'll think I slept in it, I could only pray as I finished his side trying to hold back tears that seemed to be coming anyway as I wiped my cheek before glancing at the clock to see that it was almost time for the meeting that had slipped my mind. I dried it in away because both men were going to be there and something told me that Dave out be looking at me with eyes that are going to be filled with so love and excitement for us that I wouldn't be able to miss him even in a crowded room. Don't get me wrong I love how he has that in his eyes, but I think I just fueled his love even more than it already was about an hour ago when he came to the door. I don't think I would have done anything different though, when we made love everything seemed magically in a way that was more passionate and caring that made it seemed to last forever. I don't know how to explain it, I mean with Randy it was just love that didn't seem to mean anything to him.
The door opening to the bathroom made me look up trying to hide my slight excitement to see him even though it was only in the bathroom for maybe five or ten minutes at the least I guess. My hands finished up the bed quickly before going over to grab my clothes; in all honesty I didn't know whether to move on to the bathroom or kiss before I went to the bathroom. If I don't then I'll hurt his feelings, but if I do then that'll just make it the situation escalade even more. This seemed to be giving me a slight headache. My headache stopped when I felt a pair of arms come around my waist and pull me close to his chest making me put my arms around his neck. This felt so wrong in so many ways, but I'm scared that I do push away he might just try harder or hurt his feeling. My thoughts stopped as his lips came to mine in a peck as we pulled back I finally noticed that he was full dressed with his sunglasses in his jacket pocket. I felt relief come over me suddenly finally letting me know that he was leaving, I realized that Randy could come back anytime now. Autograph appearances don't really last that long, sometimes I wish they would like right now. This afternoon has been so nice and comfortable I don't want to let that go. What if this never happens again? What if I don't feel that same way with Randy? What if my feelings change for Randy? What Randy Randy's out? A million thoughts came through my mind making me feel dizzy and lope as I removed myself from his arms and went to sit gentle on the bed trying to calm myself from my heart beating to rapidly. If Randy finds out, I just know I'll never hear the end of it from him. I could already telling me now how I've always been on his back and that here I am cheating on him with his friend whose in the evolution with him. Every thought that I had came through me seemed to just disappear when Dave came over to move me up off the bed gently before bringing me back down to sit on his lap where he touched my forehead to his slowly letting us sit there for a few minutes before his voice spoke out in a soft but gently whisper that floated around the room slowly making it glow.
He whispered "I hate leaving like this because this feels so wrong, I feel like this is just about sex. Believe me it isn't I promise. I love you and I'll call you later ok."
I nodded letting him give me a quick peck before getting up off his lap and letting him leave. I promised myself that I wouldn't cry. I can't cry anymore my eyes will get more and more bloodshot and I can't handle that right now. I've already got enough on my plate at the moment. I moved now going over to the chair grabbing my outfit before going in the bathroom and taking a long shower, after I took a long shower I walked over to the mirror looking at my reflection slowly as I tried so hard not to cry that when I looked in the mirror I saw myself as a cheater with blood shot eyes who let some tears fall down my cheeks yet again before I splashed some water on my face. I started on my outfit hearing the hotel door click open and Randy's loud voice rang out sweetly.
He yelled "Baby where you at?"
I looked away from the memory now staring at the bathroom door listening to his soft footsteps that were quickly brushing lightly on the carpet as I expected him to be looking around right about now. I felt nervousness rising up in my stomach making me almost puke, but I held it back. Guilt came along with nervousness except the guilt came in my chest covering the whole heart. My voice rang out before I could get it to choose to be normal or happy, but when I did yell back at him. My voice was nice and normal with a little cheery on the side. I want him to think that nothing is wrong and that I'm the same person he left an hour ago not someone who just cheated on their boyfriend. God, now every time I look at him, I'm going to hear that telling me over and over in my mind every minute we are going to be together. The feeling came strong staying in my stomach sticking to its own decision.
I yelled "Bathroom babe. I'll be out in a minute."
I slipped on my outfit pulling out my short hair that touched my shoulders lightly giving myself one glance in the mirror before going over to the bathroom door slowly touching the handle to the bathroom knob feeling the coolness on the knob cooling my hand softly before I walked out to see him sitting on the edge of the right side of the bed smiling at me along with motioning me to come over to him as I stood there trying to pull a smile to my face hoping that it will be believable. I felt like it would be slight believable for him, but for him it would be thank goodness. Relief washed over me almost letting out a heavy sigh from me. My mind came back now remembering that Randy wanted me to come close to him. My legs moved before even getting told to do so which didn't surprise me at all, they always do that. They seemed to know what to do before I do as does my mind. My legs moved slowly over to him trying to clear my mind and not think about anything else, but the cheating kept coming back making me feel even worse than I do now. Randy's voice rang out normally grabbing my waist looking up at me now showing the love that I didn't seem before we broke up. It made me feel warm and tingly seeing that almost letting my mind forget that I cheated on him.
He asked "You ready meetings on in fifteen minutes at the arena?"
I said "Yeah. Let me grab my shoes, coat, and purse."
He nodded making me lean down to kiss him lightly feeling the tinglyness spread through my whole body along with goosebumps. His lips were sweet and soft turning the kiss into a passionate one as I pulled away smiling before walking away slowly still trying to get myself to forget earlier today, but somehow I can't its burned into my mind. Like a brand of cow got burned to tell everyone who owns the cows. I watched them do that on bonanza once on an episode. If it would go away maybe I would feel a little better, but I don't think that's going to happen though. I reached for a white pair of 2 inch white heels that had silver on the bottom of them as I slipped my feet slowly in them feeling coldness laying inside the shoe as I wrapped my warm coat around me along with grabbing my bag. Randy was already behind me wrapping his arms around my waist giving me little kisses on my neck. I felt like this was going to turn into something more than I could handle right now as I stopped him smiling sweet trying to be nice and not rude at the moment. My voice rang out in a soft nice whisper telling him how I feel right now maybe he'll get the picture.
I whispered "Sweet later right now we've got to get to the arena for the meeting before we both get into trouble and/or fired."
His eyes agreed with me as he said nothing, he is too ashamed I guess. Heck I don't know and right now I don't feel like getting into the whole thing, all I want is to get to the arena along with through this day. This isn't how imagined my life going today. I thought it would be a nice quiet day, only I was totally wrong in every way. Each day just brings more and more problems to my table so much that I can't handle all of them.
Randy's hand grabbing my hand softly brought me to the real world as we started out of the hotel room and off to the elevators waiting on them seemed like a lifetime had passed when we heard the bell ring for us to get on as the doors opened. I looked in before my feet got on the elevator to see it's empty for the first time I've been here. It's always filled with people who get off on different floor every minute of the door. I wonder why this thing doesn't give up half the time running 24 hours a day, I guess they keep a repairman on the time to make sure the elevators are running well and nothing happens. The ding seemed to make my legs move, but brought me back to thinking of earlier seeing Dave in his outfit made me change my mind, maybe if he came normal in just a blue jeans and a wife beater. Nope I'd still think he's hot, gosh darn it. I can't think of him like this, this is wrong to be thinking and looking at someone else when I love Randy. I need to calm myself and think of him as my friend and what happened this afternoon. Can I do that? My thoughts got sidetracked when I bumped into Randy's back on accident, making him turn around slowly to me to check on me and when our eyes met I saw that he was scared and worried at the same time. All I could was nodded at him giving him a sweet smile as he gave me the eye to make sure I was telling the truth only I am, my thoughts have been else were. I stopped myself from almost floating back again when I got in the black town car stretch limo with black leather seats and a flat screen TV that is turned off at the moment. I slide over to the right side of the seat seeing another two sitting seats as I felt Randy slide in and grab my hand kissing my palm before I laid my head on his right shoulder trying to not think about Dave that seemed to pop in my mind as the drive seemed to go smooth as my thoughts came to Dave, my thoughts seemed to be going back to this afternoon and how he was dressed. I wasn't expecting that, I mean I bet he just came from a meeting or something. Then wouldn't have Randy had a meeting to? Maybe Randy went before his autograph signing that's why he was rushing earlier. The pieces seemed to fall into place except how I kissed him and how we ended up in bed together. Don't get me wrong it was so nice and comfortable when we just laid there in each other arms not worrying about anything in the world. I want that with Randy that comfortableness as we just laid down wrapped in each other's arms hearing the entire world disappear until the next morning. That'll be the day when that happens as I almost made myself laugh.
The car stopping made me look up ahead at a dark tinted window that no one was able to out or in. I heard the driver's front door open and closed quickly as I noticed that the he's rushing probably scared of getting yelled at or something more awful. I can only imagine what the stars do when they're late like evolution with triple h, now that's what I would be scared of seeing as how he's always in a bad mood. Does the guy even get in a good mood and be nice to people. Somehow I didn't believe he has ever gotten in a good mood in his life. Randy's hand came in mine with a gentle squeeze pulling me out of the limo and next to him as he walked on not even giving the guy a thank you or anything, but I did as I saw him smile lightly before he got back in the car and started to drive away slowly. I looked ahead now scared of seeing even one head on and how I look. I look a mess, I already know I do. I can't help it though if they look. It shows the scares of what this man I love made me go through. I almost let myself begin to cry looking at him now and everything that we went through and now what were going to go through if Randy finds out about me and Dave that's going to go up in flames I already know it will. That's for later though as I focused back on the building see a white door with a steel handle on it as Randy opened for me and him letting me go first as he came in after me grabbing my hand in his again. The building was huge with all kinds of pipes and lots of lights that hung down. Luggage boxes were everywhere now with WWE logos on them as is monitors on USA channel icon at the bottom right and a count down on the middle of the screen. I couldn't see the number though because Randy led us into the catering room for the meeting walking us quickly over to evolutions table. Dave sat on the right as Hunter sat at the middle beside Ric on his left side; they all sat at the back of the table looking up at the middle of the room for the meeting seeing Vince talking to some executives before the meeting will begin. I didn't know whether to go talk to him or stay here with Randy. Randy grabbed a nearby chair and placed it next to his as everyone else got seated like us ready for the meeting to start.
Vince's voice rang out normal like getting everyone's attention as he started the meeting.
Vince said "Let's get this meeting started; the reason why everyone is here is to talk about the new HD program were starting in next month for the universe to get more action. So I want you all to be sharper than normally. I have another thing to tell you."
I noticed that Randy got up telling me he had to run an errand for Hunter real quick and he scooped off before I could even give him answer as Vince brought back my attention to him saying my name. His voice sound proud and excited at the same time.
He said "Jennifer will be a new diva soon giving us more divas for more matches. All I need is someone to volunteer to train her and work with her in the gym daily."
Before anyone else John volunteer quickly rising up letting his voice rang out smooth showing his dimples as he smiled.
He said "I'll help her Vince."
Vince waited a few minutes before nodding and ending the meeting as everyone congratulated me as they walked by me. I didn't expect him to train me I was waiting on Dave to as I took a quick glance at Dave who looked away trying to hide his angry from everyone. I felt bad as well trying to make him look up at me to send him a gentle smile that might have made him feel better. Before I could get him to look at me, I felt a warm hand come around my shoulder making me turn to see who it was.
John with a nice dimples smile making me give him a smile back along with his voice coming out in an excited, but normal voice.
John said "We'll start tomorrow at 10:00 sharp alright."
I nodded realizing I didn't even get a heads up on the idea of me being a diva, I mean I'm not that pretty, I'm just plain average girl if I must say. John walked away slowly making me want to run over to Vince and ask him if he's crazy, I'm not diva material. I just do meeting, appearance, plain tickets, etc for some superstars and divas. I felt myself become more and more nervous about being on TV as I walked out the catering and started down the hall where I saw Randy's name on a billboard with his locker room number. 10 it said as I walked on trying to get to him and see why he didn't stay to volunteer to help me with my training instead of John. Don't get me wrong, John's the best choice and I'm grateful to him, but it's just that it's a good chance that we can spend some time together.
A voice yelling my name made me stop at locker room 4 as I glanced over my shoulder to see Dave was walking quickly to catch up to me smiling a little now. I smiled back as I walked into his speed now thinking how this is going to look to Randy as we passed number quickly and stopped at ten before I opened the door I took a deep breath and opened the door. There was Randy with some girl with long blonde hair on his lap kissing her passionate as I just screamed at them. Randy's natural reaction had to be too through the girl to the left side of the couch allowing me to get a good look at her face and finally realizing it was the desk clerk at the hotel. I felt my breath leave my mind for a moment making me almost feel like dying instantly right here. My breath came back as I noticed Randy was already up and off the couch and walking toward me only I felt Dave's arm pull me behind him as he stepped nose to nose with Randy, I felt all the angry and tension between them as did the rest of the arena before they spoke lightly.
Dave's said "Even with a second chance you still can't stop cheating."
Randy said "This isn't any of your business."
Then Randy pushed Dave so hard that the last thing I remember was falling and hitting my head making a sharp pain start before everything went black.
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