Yo everyone, how is your day
maybe no one wants to read this but well greeting is important, there is not much I want to say since I don't update it regularly but I will make sure to finish this story
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Azurine : oh maybe if someone want to die you can recommend to him/her to fixing my grammar, I'm sure he/she will die horribly JK. thank you, I hope I can meet your expectation
Betrayed Dream(BD what dead pool call him) : um yeah something like that, just trying to make Hachi receive Yui openly not just because some circumstance or something
3rd world person : thank you, I hope I can improve better to make readers not suffering from trying to fix my grammar (you should review the last chapter, not the 5th one)
anyways that is all, here you go
Note: it contains OOC
Disclaimer I don't own Oregairu
-Wednesday, Hikigaya resident-
I waking up by alarm sound from my phone, I raise up then walking out to the bathroom to do my morning routine
however, there is something odd today, since my wake up until done my needs I haven't hearing any sound from Komachi. after changing to my uniform, I walking down to the kitchen to checking her.
Reaching the kitchen I can't find anybody but on top of the table there's a plate of food with and a piece of paper, I walk closer then taking the paper and read it
'onii chan,
I left earlier because I have morning exercise today but don't worry, your lovely sister already prepared your food made with lots of love, kyaa that worth so much points
Notes: please get some stuff for me, it's on the refrigerator's door'
I know you're the best imouto, Komachi. But if you give your brother an errand to do, it minus Hachiman point you know. Sighing internally, I walk to taking the note and walking back to the table to eat my breakfast.
-Soubu high school-
Arriving at school I lock my bike immediately then walking to the school building, near the entrance door there's someone with blonde hair standing while playing with her phone.
At that time I feel bad omen, I know the possibility she waiting for me is near impossible but I know one thing for sure, if she spots me now I will get trouble for sure. For a second I thought to go home but then I denied it, I already cycling to get here, if I turn back now it will make my effort become vain and I don't like it.
Maybe I can go through the back door but I have another problem, my first class today is Hiratsuka-sensei class, so if I late to get there then my body will become the target of her wrath.
Before I have decided how to avoiding her, I feel strong gaze to my way. Looking my surrounding I don't feel any anomaly, other students still do their thing and walking to the school building, except the one who was standing near the entrance door
Now she isn't playing her phone anymore, she looking my way while ignoring everybody who glancing at her when they passing her standing place. I releasing long exhale, I know I can't avoiding this.
I walk again with both hand in my trousers to the school building, when our distance just a few step away, she begin to talk to me
"what are you doing to makes me waiting so long?" she said with annoyed tones, but that weird why is she waiting for me?
"waiting for me? why? We don't have any plan to go together"
I said what I think because I'm so confused with her attitude
"yeah I have to wait for you but its fine, you're here now, let's go"
"go? Where?"
"of course the classroom, do you want to be late?"
I'm not answering her but just following her to the locker room to changing shoes, I try questioning her again
"so why you had waited near the entrance?"
"nothing" she says shortly
"what do you really want?"
"nothing"
After done changing my shoes, I stand and looking at her to makes her say what is her true reason. she just ignoring me while checking her nails until someone approaching us
"Yumiko, sorry has made you wait"
Yuigahama yelling while running to our way, but after notice my presence, she slowing down her pace until stand between me and Miura
"huh, Hikki, why you're with Yumiko?"
Yuigahama faces full of questions looking at me who normally just alone but now I'm standing with cute bishoujo from our class. Before I can answer it, Miura starts speaking to Yuigahama
"let's go, the class almost started"
Even though she prompt us to move but her head just looking my way, I just nodded reflexive to her. She put satisfied smile and start walking first but stopped after realise Yuigahama didn't move, she asking Yuigahama again
"Yui, you're not coming with us?"
Yuigahama gets startled then walk to Miura, they walk together and talking about many things while I followed them in my lonesome. I feel uncomfortable here, I feel like something which must not be here.
Miura and Yuigahama walking like models while I just like a stalker who followed them from behind, it's clear to see that after we passing several students. They look so delightful when Miura and Yuigahama passing their place but changing to sour face when it's my turn, they looking my way with a disgusted face and start whispering.
I try to ignore their gaze and just looking forward, between the talk of two girls in front of me. Suddenly Miura takes a glance to my way, Then she smiling satisfied after looking my state, she looks like so happy because her plan is successful like what she predicted.
Even she just doing it for a brief second and she continued her talk with Yuigahama but I saw it already then everything she does becomes clear now. Even she is popular, she still talking with me ignoring other people judgment. But I know, she got her status and maintaining it isn't an easy task although I don't care about that.
She wants to do something normal things like normal friend to do with me, that explained one thing
I tried clear my throat then calling Yuigahama
"Yuigahama, can you go ahead first?"
Hearing my request, both of the girls in front of me stop walking then facing my way. Yuigahama ask me again confirming my question
"me going ahead? Why?" she asks with confused face
"um...There's something I need to do with Miura, alone"
Miura putting a mischievous smile after listening to my word, surely she has to know what I want to do. She looking at Yuigahama who still so confused with my word and just looking at me
"you hear him Yui, go ahead I will catch you later"
Yuigahama looking at Miura with a troubled face, even still hesitate, Yuigahama nodding and wave her hand to both of us. Miura waving back to Yuigahama while I just nod my head responding her, after Yuigahama far enough to not hear us, Miura face my way and asks me
"so, what do you want to do?"
She asks me but smiles widely to me, that mean she's in the playful mood now
"right, follow me" I walk away without waiting for her
"hoh, that so bold. Are you gonna attack me?"
Even she ask me like that but she still following me with confidence, it's showing from her step. We walk not too far and stopped on the dessert corridor where not many students passing around.
I turn around to facing Miura while she stopped few step away then just checking her nails
"is this what your way to do?"
"hmm"
Miura doesn't look at me and now playing with her hair
"this is about Yuigahama, right?"
"yeah, what about it?"
She still doesn't want to answer me directly, I need to specify it
"do you understand, what will happen if you continue it?"
Hearing my question she put confused face
"what are you talking about, I don't get anything at all"
*sigh* this woman, is she don't know what she would reap with her way doing this. I need to tell her before she regrets it
"don't you know? If you still do whatever plan you have, you will destroy your own reputation. It's even would raise new rumours at school, are you ready for that? Every student will talk about you at your back and it will last until graduate. Do you still gonna do that?"
Hearing every possibility I said, Miura can't hide her anxiety. She looks like indecisively and holding her tears
"I-I know that b-b-but..but you don't give me any choice. If you really want to stop me, just stay away from Yui"
Miura who always looking so strong and confidence at first, but now is nowhere to be seen now. Now it just a weak and frail girl, she just someone who want to protect her friend even she need to give her anything to do that.
Miura turn around while holding her tears and I just watching her leave until disappearing from my sight, I put both of my hands in each side pocket then walking to my classroom
I reach my class more than 20 minutes from the bell ring and of course, the lesson has begun, I open the door and breaking the lesson. Every pair of eyes looking my way, almost everyone just curious about who was disturbing the lesson and after looking at me they just going back to do their previous things before I come.
But several eyes still watching me, I try looking at everyone in the classroom to find Miura, I find her sitting at her table but just looking outside the window. I feel little relieved because she still attending the class even we just have little argument, although I know she's strong girl but after looking her another side like earlier, I can't help but worry about her
"oh isn't this Hikigaya"
The voice from in front of the class breaking my thought and looking at the source of the voice, then I remember I just entering the class in the middle of the lesson. From several eyes who was watching my way she is one of it, Hiratsuka-sensei. She walking slowly to my way with her weird smile on her face
"Hikigaya, give me one reason to not punish you"
"late is justice, like every hero who sho-"
*BAM*
I fall on my knees while holding my stomach after receiving sensei fist, she is just looking down at me while smiling
"sorry Hikigaya, I think today isn't the time for hero to shown up"
She walking back to her desk but doesn't forget to warn me
"I will let you off today, but the next time you repeat it, don't think you can see tomorrow"
Whoa, what is that? Are you an antagonist character from anime or something? whose lines do you take it from?
Even I still staggering to stand, I try to move my body to my desk and start listening to the lessons.
The bell has ringing to tell us lunch time begin, every student has to leave their desk and walk to wherever they need to relaxing their self. However, I still sitting at my chair while holding my stomach, even Hiratsuka-sensei fist from this morning really hurt but I stay in my chair because I have another reason. I resolve my decision and then standing to fill my stomach
"Hikki, are you alright?"
Yuigahama's voice from behind stopping my feet, I turn my body to face her
"oh no problem, it's my routine to have her fist from time to time"
"oh glad to hear you're fine, by the way, what happen to Yumiko, she looked so weird"
She takes a glance to the blonde with worried face, well this is it, she has asked me so I need to do it now
"Yuigahama, can you follow me for a second?"
"eh uh now? But I have . . ."
Her face reddened and she averting her face
"you can't?" I try to let her deciding
"eh no, I mean yes I can. Wait a second"
She nodding hard and then running to her group, she says something to them while bowing and then walk to her seat to take something. I guess it her bento since it warping by the brown cloth, then she just running to my way with huge smile on her face
"let's go" she says to me
"wait you don't have to bring your lunch, though"
"huh, aren't we going to have lunch together and talking like usual right?"
She looking so confused while tilting her head
"um no I mean. . . well whatever let's go"
I get little confused how to explains this to her, so I surrendered at last and let her be. She nodded and start following me leaving the classroom, I get a glimpse of Miura watching both of us leave.
Just several steps after walking outside of the classroom Yuigahama make her way to my side, she looked so happy like a child who gets invited to the park, she asks me with cheerful tones
"so we gonna go to 'there' again right?"
"we're going to the rooftop, what do you mean by 'there'?" I look at her questioningly
"isn't that obvious, I mean your favourite spot of course" she said with pride
"oh that what you mean, no there is no reason, I just wanna eat at the roof now"
"huh, but today is super wonderful, though and there is so cool and comfy"
I just get silenced hearing Yuigahama's word, she is right today weather is so clear and perfect at my favourite place if I eat my lunch now. But I don't want to do this at there, I don't want to remember this if I ever eat at there. We walking to the canteen to get my food before heading to the rooftop.
"Hikki, you just gonna eat that?"
Yuigahama says while pointing my only bread on my left hand while my right hand holding my favourite can MAXX COFFEE, both of us are sitting on the bench near the building hiding at the shadow, so the sunlight not gonna fry us
"don't worry, I'm not that hungry" I answer her shortly
"is that so, what are you gonna talking about?"
She asks me before munching her roll egg, I raise my bread and answer her question
"let's finishing our lunch first"
Yuigahama nodded approving my suggestion and we just eat our lunch quietly.
I eat my yakisoba bread slowly because just this what I bought from the canteen, truthfully I'm really hungry today but if I eat like my usual portion, I'm afraid what I gonna says will not be properly confessed. However, I still have my can of MAXX COFFEE so I think I'm fine.
After several minutes later Yuigahama already finished her bento and start to warping it back with the cloth, I just sipping my can while watching the sky
"Hikki, I'm done. You can tell me now"
Hearing her words, I take one more sip then put it on my left side. while still looking above the sky, I take a deep breath before calling her name
"Yuigahama"
"yes"
she replied immediately and watch everything I do, it's mean I have her full attention
"I think we don't need to talk anymore"
"huh, what do you mean?"
She isn't sure what have I said and get little shocked, I turn my head facing her and say it again
"I'm serious, we don't have to talk anymore"
I look at her eyes without hesitating, I just want her accept it and don't ask anything anymore
"is this my fault? is this because I joined the club?"
She looked so confused and want my explanation
"no, it isn't because of that"
I can't help turning my head to escaping her gaze
"is this related to Yumiko?"
I get freezes after hearing that name, I don't know why but I can't deny it like the first one. Is this because I don't want to lie to her? I think not, it's because of another reason. My silence makes Yuigahama sure about her guess and can't hold back her tears
"I know, there must be something happens between both of you and Yumiko after that incident"
Even she can't speak properly and still trying to erase her tears, she continues to speaking
"after she comes to the club, I know there is something happened between both of you. At first, I don't mind it because nothing changes but if this gonna happen, I really regret not doing anything about it"
Yuigahama standing while holding her tears, she turning around then running away leaving me alone. I don't try to hold her because I know this will gonna happen, I even predict she gonna slap me after hearing my confession. Yuigahama really a nice girl, I hope this gonna make her life better than before
"Kawasaki, I know you are in there"
I said without facing any direction and there is no answer come to me, I standing slowly and begin to walk to the door with both of my hand in my each side trouser pocket
"are you sure with what you have done?"
The voice from the above stopping my feet
"are you understand, what happen after what you have done?" she ask me again
"yeah don't worry, just make sure your breath not smelly"
"eehh?"
I start walking again to the door, I don't want to be late to the class
I reach my classroom and almost all the desk already been filled with my classmates, including Miura's elite group in there it just has some empty desk left. However I don't see a pink haired girl here, I walk to my desk and just waiting the bell ringing for ending the lunch.
Every time someone walking inside the classroom, I can't help to watch them passing the door. I don't know why but I hope she gonna pass that door. One by one student entering the class, I don't know their name but I don't care about it now. Slowly all empty desk has been filled with students from the outside but I haven't see Yuigahama, sensei then walking inside while holding a book for the material of the lesson.
It weird Yuigahama has left me first but why she isn't in the classroom, is there something happened to her? Suddenly there is someone running and stopped in the classroom door, with ragged breath Kawasaki entering the class slowly, maybe after the ring she has running to get here
"oh Kawasaki-san, glad you make it on time. Take a sit now, I will start the lesson"
Kawasaki who still trying to control her breath nodding to sensei and start walking to her desk. when she meets my gaze who watching her from the beginning, she turns her head around immediately, her cheek looking so red. She looks like so shy because come in late, she fastened her pace and sit down at her desk and facing in front of the class. I following her action and facing sensei who start writing on the blackboard, I still confused where is Yuigahama, now I can't remove her from my mind
"oh, I just remember something, Yuigahama-san is the student from this class right? She just gets permission to leaving earlier because under weather"
Suddenly sensei turning around then telling us something unbelievable, every student start whispering to asking their neighbour desk, there are several eyes looking my way but I didn't turn around to see it. I can't understand why she needs to leave early, sensei continue writing back on the blackboard to continuing the lesson while there still several eyes watching my back.
The class ended with surprise test from Hiratsuka-sensei, almost everyone gets troubled because of this sudden event but for me, it just pieces of cake. Different from them, Hiratsuka-sensei lesson is my favourite one, it's not because of the instructor but this is my strong point. While listening everyone talks about the test, I just packing my stuff with proud smile
Someone stopped beside my desk and do nothing, I turn to see it just to find Kawasaki with an uneasy face. She looks like want to say something to me but reluctant to do it, I just staring at her waiting what she gonna say. she decides to begin walking while muttering "see you tomorrow", I nod my head and my eyes following her leaving the room. Just before I remove my eyes from the door, someone already stands near my desk again. When I see who is it, I get little startled. The one who approaching me this time is Mr popular, Hayama Hayato.
"Hikigaya-kun right?" he asks me with his usual smile
"uh, do you need something?"
I nod my head and asking his reason looking for me
"there is something I want to ask a little, can we talk somewhere?"
He keeps smiling when asking that question but I don't care about it and trying to reject him
"I'm sorry, but I need to go to my club now"
I tried standing and left him behind but he blocks my way out
"can't you give me your little time, please"
I don't know how he manages it but his smile becomes so bright and I can't see him properly, maybe if I am a girl right now then I will confess to him already and get rejected. because I can't withstand his smile aura and which somehow attracting another students attention, I give up and accepting his request
"okay I will go with you, so can you stop doing that" I said with raising both of my hand
Hayama gets confused with what I said but nodded his head and start walking
"okay, follow me"
Even little hesitate and don't want to do this but I can't avoid it. I followed him from behind with several curious eyes watching our depart
I still following the school idol to wherever he go, we left the school building and walking on the sideline of the yards. now I have some idea where he gonna takes me, he wants to take me to the back of the school. It's cliche moments in the movies I often watch, usually if someone gets called to the back of the school where no one passing it means something bad gonna happen.
Maybe there are several people already waiting my arrival, maybe Hayama alone is enough to beat me without any witness or he just wants to talk private things to me so he doesn't want someone to hear our talk.
I get little worried to do this and slowly decreasing my pace, Hayama who just looking forward whole times, looking my way because realised our distance increasing. He smiled and then talk to me
"don't worry Hikigaya-kun, I am not planning to hurt you"
Even looking at his smile and talk calmly to me but I can't erase my suspicion to him. I decide to put a distance from him until he stopped near the incinerator, I followed him stopping myself and waiting for him to talking first
"so Hikigaya-kun, you know why I bring you here?"
Hayama said without turning around, huh are you a boss from the mafia or something? That pose looked so cool, but wait what the hell is he saying about? If I know what do you want to talk from the beginning I will not follow you around like this
"no, I don't know. It's not about the test right?"
After hear what I said, suddenly Hayama laughing loudly, he turning around to face me while still laughing. I can't help worried after seeing his state, I think there is some loose screw from his brain. Slowly his laugh grows weaker and then stopped, he start to ask me again
"tell me Hikigaya, what happened to Yuigahama?" he said coldly
"isn't sensei tell us if she is gotten sick and left earlier?"
"do you think I will believe that bullshit"
Hayama yelling at me with an angry face, he walks slowly to my way. Between his step, he asks me more questions
"you know who is the last one who talking with Yumiko this morning?"
He walks closer
"and who is the last one who talking to Yui before she left"
I feel I can't move my legs, Hayama walk closer until he stopped in front of me. I can't avert my face from him, I feel if I try to avert my eyes, I will lose my head immediately
"I thought you are just normal guy like average people, but I can't believe it, you can hurt two girls feeling in one day" he said with looking at my eyes
"what do you means with hurt them? I don-"
"HIKIGAYA"
Before I can finish my words, Hayama interjects it first
He glaring at me with bloody eyes, it feels he gonna kill me for sure
"if you make them crying again, don't you think you can have peaceful life at school"
He walk passing my place with bumping his shoulder to mine, I just watching him walks away. *sigh* its true, talking to riajuu is tiring but I wonder, is a leader really like to threat everyone? I'm glad not become part of them(riajuu). It's true, a loner is the best. With new resolve to myself, I walk to be where another loner spending the afternoon
"yo"
My first word when entering the club room
"good afternoon, Hikigaya-kun"
Yukinoshita replies my greeting and watches me for brief second then going back to read her book. I walk to my seat and put down my body on the chair without fixing my bag, at least this can calm my heart
"you seem tired Hikigaya-kun, what happen?"
Yukinoshita looking my way, she looked little worried but that impossible maybe I have some delusions because too tired
"well, you can say its a hard day for me"
I answer her question while resting my head on the chair so, I just watching the ceiling of the room now
"is that so? Isn't your daily life is so hard because of your eyes?"
I turn my head to glaring her and I see that. her joyful smile after successfully insulting me, I don't know why even I has been insulted but if I can see that smile I feel so calmed
"yeah, yeah, my eyes, my attitude and my own self are bad things"
She giggling after hearing my retort, the room feels so comfortable than before. Even at first I reluctant to coming here, but now I don't mind it, so weird.
"by the way, today Yuigahama is so late?"
Suddenly she asking about Yuigahama to me, I can't hide my shocked face hearing her question
"um sensei tell us, she is left earlier because of sickness" I tell her what I heard
"really? I hope she is fine"
She said then continuing her reading
"yeah, I hope so"
After that the room becomes so quiet, no sound can be heard, only my heart beat. I feel the time got stopped and I'm the only one who can move, Yukinoshita who supposed reading her book, never flipping the page she read. The silence where must be my sanctuary, but I can't feel it here. This silent is so painful, it is like someone strangling my neck. Finally, I get choked then coughing hard, Yukinoshita removing her attention from the book to my way then ask me
"are you okay Hikigaya-kun? Don't tell me you are sick too"
Her tones are so flat, different with what she said
"don't worry, I'm fine"
I cough two more times before Yukinoshita asks me again
"want a glass of tea?"
"yeah, please"
Yukinoshita put her book down then getting up and walking to the table where is the tea set. I don't know from who she get that tea set but I glad she doesn't make this become long argument like usual. after done making the tea, she brings me a glass of tea with paper glass and put it in front of me
"help yourself, Hikigaya-kun"
"thank you"
I give her simple thanks, then I take the tea and trying to heal my throat
"ouch"
The tea is still hot and it burns my tongue. after I pick it up, I still don't know if it is hot but before it reaches my mouth, I realise it's still too hot but it's already too late and my hand already pour it to my mouth. now I stick out my tongue and try to fan it with my hand, Yukinoshita who watching me gotten burned just giggles from her seat. Damn you, it's too far to count as joke
"at leash, vou need to wan me if tis stir hot" I try to give my protest
"pfft, sorry Hikigaya-kun, my bad"
She tried to apologise but failed because of her laugh, I still fanning my tongue to cool it down. Several times later after my tongue seems fine, I take my paper glass again and blow it slowly. After I think it's cool enough I take a little sip, woah its feel so good. Even though it is not as good as MAXX COFFEE but it's not bad for daily freshmen
"Yukinoshita"
"yes, what its?"
She looking my way with curious face
"it's delicious, thank you"
I raised my glass to let her know what I mean with a little smile
"of course it is. if you know the proper way to serve it, it's not difficult to make it"
She said with proud face while her hand pointing like a teacher who giving lecture
"I don't mind to drink it daily"
I said before slowly drink my tea again
"w-wh-what are you talking about, that means w-we..."
She becomes quiet and looking down before finishing what she said, I ignore it and begin reading my novel. Even though this is a hard day but if we end it with something nice it will not become too hard eh? I don't mind something like this
A/N: reaching the 10th chapter I will try to rewrite my earlier chapter, but don't worry I won't changing anything much