Parris walked into the building and walked over to the doorman. He nodded at her and called up to the room. Parris waited until he gave her the go ahead before she proceeded toward the elevator. She went up to the 5th floor, exited the elevator, and knocked on the door.
"Who is it?" Came his muffled voice from the other side of the door
"It's me," Parris answered
"Who is me?"
"Brother stop paying with me," Parris laughed
The door opened to reveal Jose, Jaana's boyfriend, laughing, "Stop being so loud in my hallway lil girl"
Parris walked in and hugged him, "I told you to stop calling me that"
"Why should I? Hell you are a little girl," Jose laughed
"No I'm not. I'm….."
"Yeah yeah I know! Your 5ft and 1&3 quarters," Jose finished for her
"Exactly!"
"You sound like your best friend," He laughed
The mention of Jaana made Parris tense up. She just lowered her head and nodded.
Jose sighed, "Don't worry I talked to her"
Parris just nodded not really knowing what to say because she knows how Jaana is. Jaana is truly someone that has a 'I don't give a fuck attitude' and shuts down automatically. After their little war of words this morning, she was sure Jaana wasn't going to speak two words to her; she didn't blame her.
"Look I talked to her, and even helped her relieve some tension," Jose said accomplishing his goal on getting Parris to smile, "She's cooled down. Plus I'll be here, and if she hasn't, I'm not gon let her be an complete ass."
Just as he said that Jaana walked into the living room. She looked over at Parris with no emotion at all. Parris sighed, yeah she isn't over it.
"I just put London and Lucy down for their nap. Come back in about an hour in a half," Jaana simply said
"Baby…." Jose tried to speak
"I don't want to hear it," Jaana said putting her hand up
"Oh well. The kids are sleep, so I think you and Parris should talk," He walked over to her
"We already did," Jaana said as she walked out of the living room back into the kitchen
"I'll see you later," Parris sighed knowing they weren't going to get anywhere right now
"Wait! Come on," He dragged her into the kitchen
Parris was pulled into the kitchen against her will to spot Jaana sitting down on a stool at their home bar in the middle of the kitchen. She was drinking coffee and eating some eggs. Parris cringe; she hates eggs. Jaana would always try to make her eat them or slip them into something she was eating. Parris wan ted to smile at the memory, but at the moment, smiling was the farthest thing from her mind. She knew Jaana knew they were standing there, ho9w could she not? She just chose to ignore their presence. She heard Jose sigh. Parris chuckled because Jose was mumbling under her breath.
"God why do I love her so much," Jose sighed
"You don't have to you know," Jaana said not even bothering to look their way
"I'm going to just ignore that comment. Parris go sit down, you're not leaving until you guys talk," Jose smiled
Parris sighed and went to have a seat knowing damn well Jose wasn't about to let her go. She sat across from Jaana. Jaana looked up at her, and she could have sworn she looked directly through her. This angered her.
"Why are you even mad?" Parris finally said
"I'm not mad," Jaana said simply
"Sure," Parris answered her
"Yup," Jaana smiled, "We talked; now she can go. Jose will call you when London wakes up," Jaana said again without making any eye contact
"Whatever Jaana," Parris sighed getting up
"You're such a selfish bitch," Jaana told her finally making eye contact with her
"Excuse you!" Parris turned around
"Jaana don't," Jose tried to calm her
"No. The type of shit you do, you do it and think no one suppose to give you criticism," Jaana said the look of disgust on her face
"I'm tired of you putting words in my mouth. I never said that. People tell me stuff just like you do, but they do it without judging me judging me and making me feel like crap!" Parris screamed
"Judging you? Making you feel like crap? Every since freshman year in high school I've done nothing but be there for you! Muthafuckas ain't never gave that much of a fuck about you like I have," Jaana said pissed
"This the shit you don't realize, you're not my only friend, I have others Jaana!"
"Oh yeah, which friends we talking about here? Your little fuck buddies you endured when you pushed me out of your life? Or the hoes you trilled the USA with? Or all the doctors you had to see? Which friends are you talking about?"
"Low blow babe," Jose told Jaana
"Nah brother that's what she's used to. She does nothing but throw me low blows," Parris said with her voice breaking
"Nah I used to always say or respond 'aw okay' or some shit like that, but now that I'm voicing my opinion you taking it as san attack. See there's a different from throwing you low blows and trying to get shit through your fucking head. YOU fucked me over in this friendship one to many times, and I still stayed by your side"
"Why can't you ever let the past go? You can't get over the shit that's supposed to already be resolved. And yes you stayed, but that's your choice to stay!"
"How the fuck am I supposed to let go of the past when you do shit that brings the past to the present? And that's the shit I'm talking about instead of appreciating that you have a crazy ass friend that's sticking by your side throughout all the bullshit, you just look as it as 'well you chose to stay so' That's like basically fucking saying I don't give a fuck if you're here or not," Jaana snapped
"I'm tired of having this conversation," Parris sighed
"Of course you are. When we're talking about your flaws, it's light unbearable for you to hear. Yesterday I saw a side in you I haven't seen in awhile, the side that fucked your life over a long time ago."
"I been going through a lot of shit, and you of all people….."
"SO MUTHAFUCKING WHAT! I'm going through shit, Jose's going through shit, a lot of people are going through shit! We're dealing with it without being a bitch to certain people and trashing a lot of people feelings. What you fail to realize is, YOU are responsible for the shit going on in your life. A lot of the situations you're going through, besides your family, you've put yourself in those situations. You can hate me all you want, but I'm not about to allow you to let your horrible choices fuck up my niece's life," Jaana said getting up from her seat
"I talk to Drake. I told him," Parris said crying now
"Get the fuck outta here!" Jaana smiled
"Yeah. I did it before I got here," Parris said
"Dude!" Jaana laughed "And you didn't tell me that why?"
"I feel if I say something that's going to start an argument, I don't say anything at all," Parris explained
"Yeah cause that's a smart idea," Jaana said sarcastically
"See there you go again," Parris sighed
"Okay we both have problems, but at least I acknowledge mine. Why did you have me sit here and us go back and forth instead of telling me you talked to Drake?"
"I guess maybe because I wanted to hear it, and because I'm scared. I can do all that stupid shit I did before again, and fuck this all up again," She admitted
"So because you're scared of messing this up by doing what you feel is right, you're just fucking this up to like, speed up the process?" Jose asked her
"Yeah I guess," Parris shrugged
"Yeah sister I love you, but that IS stupid as hell," Jose chuckled
Parris just laughed.
Jaana went over and grabbed Parris phone off the bar and brought it back over to her.
"What's this for?"
"I know you so I know you didn't let him get a word in when you told him, afraid of what he would've said. Call him, and at least hear him out," Jaana smiled
Parris just grabbed the phone from her and went into the living room. Jose and Jaana followed suit and sat down on the couch opposite of Parris wrapped in each other's arms. Parris smiled over at them before she called Drake.
"Parris!" He answered
"Hi"
"Hey"
"Look I know you're probably mad at me, but I just want to say I'm sorry. I know I do certain shit that pisses people off, but I don't be meaning to. Like Yo I don't know what the hell is going on inside of my head, but…."
"Parris shut up! I…..I….I want to see my daughter," He smiled into my phone