I don't own Twilight; just borrowing the characters, the story however is mine.
Chapter 10: I didn't Know (BPOV)
The day at the beach wasn't at all what I had expected, I mean it really was a lot of fun. I don't remember seeing my dad smile so much or be so affectionate with another woman since him and mom got divorced when I was 8. We played some volleyball, guys vs. girls and then mixed teams. Even the parents joined in a few which was funnier than shit when Esme served and hit poor Sue in the back of the head. We all laughed at that. We kids had water fights; the water was fucking cold as ice but felt good after sweating from volley ball. Billy made some awesome burgers and ribs. Oh my god I could've ate more if Emmett didn't beat me to them that damn bear.
I was getting a little agitated with Jane hanging all over Edward. What the hell is her problem, does she have to act like she's the queen of England all the time? I mean I get that her family comes from royalty in Italy but give me a break already. Edward was sure loving it and all her attention, wait why do I even care, he's just another fucking idiot boy. It was starting to get dark so the boys started up a bonfire, which was good cause I was starting to get cold.
"What's wrong, my sister getting to you?" Alec asks.
"Nah I'm good, just coming off my buzz that's all" I say to him and smile.
I noticed Edward finally looked at me when Alec came to sit by me near the bonfire. There were actually a lot of other people here now too, hmm when did they show up? Damn that shit was good that Jasper smoked with me, wonder where I can get some? Dad had the tunes on and all of sudden, he yells "holy shit I love this song!" Now for the Chief to swear, jump up and jam some old tune, ya he's buzzed.
"Bella, do you remember me singing this song to you?" Ironically I do, because he said it was the only song that made him think of mom after the divorce. "I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh lord. And I've been waiting for this moment for all my life, oh lord." He was using his bottle as a mic singing to Sue. "Can you feel it coming in the air tonight, oh lord? Well you told me you were drowning, I would not lend a hand, I've seen your face before my friend…" It actually made my heart break because the song is so heartbreaking as it is which means that bitch of a mother really hurt him bad. I guess that's why I have such a dislike for her, Emmett doesn't get it because he's her golden child.
I had to get up and walk way for a minute before my badass shell broke. Dad was still singing, "Well I remember, don't worry. How could I ever forget it's the 1st time the last time we ever met. All I know the reason why keep me silenced up..The hurt doesn't show but the pain still grows.." I lost it at that point; crocodile tears ran down my face as Em came to check on me.
"Are you ok? You know he's just drunk. Don't let it get to you Belly Bean" Emmett says trying to make me smile.
"You'll never understand what she did to him. And that song, you should really listen to the words. Because I remember many nights listening to dad cry listening to it from all that pain that bitch caused him." I said to my brother.
"Bells, please don't talk about mom that way, she is our mother." He says defending the bitch.
"No Em, she's your mother. As far as I'm concerned that lady sitting with dad trying to take that beer away is my mom. She's showed me more love in the last year that they've been dating than mom has since I was 8 years old." I say as the tears run down my cheek. Alice came over and told Em to just go away.
"It's ok Bella, don't worry about it ok? She's not gonna ever hurt you or him again" my sister and best friend says to me. With that I suck it up, wipe my tears away and walk back to the group.
"Hey Bells, you good? Look what I brought?" Jake says as he pulls his moms old acoustic guitar from its case out. Jakes mom died when he was about 10 and has always kept it. Billy said it was the only thing that kept him sane when she was dying from cancer. He use to play it for her but not so much anymore.
"Really Jakey? Billy is it ok?" I say to them. They both nod their head while I take the guitar. Leah just looks at them both in shock. I start tuning it a lil and strum it to make sure it sounds good. That's when I realize I'm gonna have to play for everyone. I've never played in front of anyone except Jake and Allie. Em didn't even know I played like I do.
"Any requests?" I ask nobody in particular.
"Freebird" Embry laughs thinking like the smart ass he is. Of course he didn't know I knew how to play it so when I started out with the chord he stopped laughing.
"Oh Bells can you play that song for me please?" Alice says with her pouty puppy dog eyes.
"Aw Allie, really? You want me to play that song? I don't think that's a good idea."
"Please…I won't make you wear heels for at least 2 weeks" she says still pouting.
I grunted, rolled my eyes and started to strum the song, here goes nothing. I start to play Michelle Branch Goodbye to you. That's when I notice Jane snuggle closer to Edward. He looks down at her and smiles and I stopped playing.
"She can't even play the song, try something else " the dumb bitch says. I should get up and smack that bitch so hard, but why was I mad?
"No really she can play it just shut up Jane! Go ahead Bella" Alice says giving Jane a evil look. Whoa don't piss off Alice, she kinda scared me too.
I start over and begin playing this time I really do a number and start singing too.
"Of all the things I believed in; I just want to get it over with I've been searching deep down in my soul, Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old feels like I'm starting all over again The last three years were just pretend and I say Goodbye to you. Goodbye to everything I thought I knew. You were the one I love
Tears form behind my eyes but I do not cry counting the days that past me by.
the one thing that I tried to hold on to."
I look at Alice as I play and smile at her, she's got tears in her eyes. I know what she's thinking about, her dad Royce but I keep playing and singing.
"I still get lost in your eyes. And it seems like I can't live a day without you Goodbye to you. Goodbye to everything I thought I knew. You were the one I love
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away to a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right.
the one thing that I tried to hold on to."
Jake pulls Leah closer to him, even Seth is cuddling with Emily. Esme and Carlisle are holding hands, can this get any more like a sappy movie?
"Oh yeah It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time Goodbye to you. Goodbye to everything I thought I knew And when the stars fall I will lie awake you're my shooting star"
I want what's yours and I want what's mine. I want you but I'm not giving in this time
you were the one I loved. The one thing that I tried to hold on to
the one thing that I tried to hold on to
Goodbye to you. Goodbye to everything I thought I knew. You were the one I love
the one thing that I tried to hold on to.
I just sat there, nobody moved. There was just the sound of the waves in the background and the crackling of the burning fire. Then someone did it, they clapped, everyone was clapping. If they could see me clearer they'd see me blushing. It felt like one of those stupid teenage love movies. I think I saw Esme tear up.
"Holy shit Bella that was fucking awesome" Edward says to me looking shocked.
"Edward, language." Esme chastise him.
"That was very beautiful Bella. You have a very lovely voice" she says to me.
"Ya Bells that was…wow beyond words" Alec said, damn my face feels warm and it's not from the fire.
"Thank you, it's one of the first songs I learned to play" I say, smiling while I look at Alice. Damn pixie loved that song so of course I had to learn how to play it.
"Did you know Edward can play guitar as well?" She says to me.
"Um no I didn't know that he did," I said to her handing the guitar back to Jake.
"Oh Eddie, will you play something?" Jane asks Edward and gives him a swoony kinda look. I wanted to walk over and smack the bitch but instead I just rolled my eyes.
"Maybe another time," he says looking at her.
"Em, where is dad?" I ask my brother just as he was going to kiss Rosalie, oops.
"He's probably with Sue," he says wagging his eyebrows at me, eww gross.
"We should probably start cleaning up and head back home huh?" I say to the group.
Everyone looked so comfy and cozy. There were a lot of couples snuggled up around the fire.
"Ya that sounds like a good idea, want some help" Alec says to me.
"Sure that would be nice" if he could see me better, he'd see me blush.
"OK everyone let's pitch in and keep our beautiful beach clean" that was Seth being funny. Everyone chuckled but got up folding blankets, chairs and cleaned up.
"Bella," Sue says to me "can I speak to you for a moment?"
"Sure Sue what's up?" Um this can't be good.
"Your dad has had one too many beers, you kids wanna crash at my house?"
Shit, not at all what I wanted to do but what other choice did we have?
"Oh I can give them a ride home Mrs. Clearwater" says Rosalie.
Huh, didn't see that one coming. Maybe she isn't bad after all?
"Are you sure? Esme, is that ok with you?" Sue asks.
"Of course that's fine, she'll be coming home right afterwards anyway won't you Rosalie?"
"Yes mother I will." Rosalie says.
"Ok, good, then your dad will be home in the morning or afternoon depending on when he wakes up" Sue says to me Alice and Emmet.
"Hey Bella, can I get your number? Maybe we can hang out, play some basketball?" Alec asks me. Jane is by Edward giving her phone number to him, typical tramp. Well I don't have a claim on him so what difference does it make. He's already met 1 town tramp why not hook up with the other? WTF is wrong with me?
At first I hesitate then I say "Sure, that sounds like fun." as I program my number in his phone. Wow had I known playing guitar would score me a call from Alec I would've played sooner. Easy dumbass, he only wants to play basketball. He kissed my cheek and walked away.
Everyone headed up the beach to their cars and I realized I didn't grab dad's flannel. When I turned around to grab it, I saw Edward kissing Jane. I stopped in my tracks and it felt like the wind got knocked outta me.
"Call me tomorrow Eddie" Jane giggled as she ran up the hill towards her brother. What the hell is that about, I felt, I felt shit was I jealous of Jane kissing Edward?
"Bella, I didn't know you could play?" Edward says to me
"Ya well there's a lot of stuff you don't know about me Eddie." I said to him with a disgusted voice. Why was I mad at him? "Stuff you'll never get to know" and with that I turned and walked away
"Bella….wait" he said. It was too late I was already at Rosalie's car ready for the night to end. What the hell is wrong with me, man I really need to get high when I get home. I should've asked Jasper if he had an extra joint with him.
**AN: Hope you enjoyed this one. I really like both the songs I used in the story; some of my other chapters will have music in them. Tell me what cha think…
Until next time ~Jesigrl**