AN: Helllooooooooo. So I got a 'fandom' ig, my username is 'thebookfreak7' if you wanna follow me. Onto the chap!
*all rights for TMI go to Cassandra Clare
*all rights for 'I don't wanna break' go to Christina Perri
Chapter 10; I Don't Wanna Break
Clary was sitting in English, nervously bouncing her leg. She'd noticed it was a habit she'd picked up ever since she found about her, condition.
Sebastian seemed to notice, and flicked her in the arm, shooting her a worried glance.
'It's nothing.' She mouthed to him, but he didn't buy it.
'I'll tell you later.' She gave in, turning back to the board once he gave her a nod of approval.
The minute the bell rang Clary flew out of her seat, not in hopes of avoiding Sebastian, though that was a perk, but a wave of nausea had taken her over. So she was racing to the bathroom, though she saw Sebastian not far behind.
By the time she reached the bathroom, Sebastian was running right along side her, knowing what was wrong without even needing to ask.
There were already about 4 girls in there, but Sebastian immediately shoved them all out, locking the door once they were gone.
He ran over to Clary and held her hair back, rubbing her back in a circular motion, attempting to soothe her.
It was soon over, but Clary stayed arched over the toilet, her fingers gripping the seat, her eyes squeezed shut. Sebastian carried her bridal style out of the stall, and sat down in a corner of the bathroom, holding Clary in his lap.
"Shhhh... It's okay. You're gonna be okay." He whispered to her as she sobbed into his chest.
Sebastian faintly registered hearing the bell ring, but he didn't care. His full focus was on Clary.
By the time Clary actually left the bathroom, it was lunch time. She walked in with Sebastian, and she could've sworn she saw a hint of jealousy flash across Jace's eyes. Although he sort of had a point. With her flushed face, messy hair, and Sebastian's arm thrown lazily across her shoulders, it did sort of look like they were, together.
Clary sat down next to Jace, squeezing his hand and giving him a quick kiss on the lips. She felt his tense posture immediately relax, and his subtle squeeze back on her hand.
"Where were you two?" Isabelle asked Clary and Sebastian.
"I, uhh... I sort of threw up again." Clary answered sadly.
"Hey. Look at me." Jace said, pulling her face towards his. "You will get through this. Nothing can stop you. Plus, I'll be by your side the whole time. Clary, you're going to get through this."
"Yeah, but look at me." Clary said resentfully.
She gestured to herself, and Jace looked at her. Really looked at her. Her already small, thin, frame was even thinner, and her usual voluminous, fiery red hair, was now dull, hanging limply. Her eyes were sunken in, and she was as pale as a ghost.
"Look at me." She repeated.
"I still think you're beautiful." He whispered sincerely.
"I don't wanna break." She whispered back. "I don't wanna break, and become too weak, and fragile for anything. I just want to love you. Can't I have that?" She asked before turning her head down to her lap.
Jace didn't have anything to say to that, so he just wrapped his arm around her, pulling her close, tucking her head under his chin.
Clary didn't feel like dealing with her mothers worried looks when she got home, so instead, she went to Jace's. She was currently seated at the piano, finishing up writing a song. Her fingers began to strike the piano keys, and the words started flowing out of her mouth.
Jace was worried for Clary. She was right. She looked like she was d-... Not doing well. But he knew that she could fight it, the only problem was, he didn't know if she knew. He didn't think she even held one shred of belief that she would live through this. He was walking up his stairs to the music room, when he heard it. Or rather, her.
"Woke up such a bad dream
I stayed, you were leaving
With my heart, you were stealing
I don't care, I'd let you take it
Showed up, like a good girl
I fell for your fable
But I'm no Cinderella
I don't care, I'd let you take it
Put us back together
You said, it's forever
But I know you're pretending
I don't care, I'd let you take it
All again...
And I just wanna love you
Don't wanna lose me
Don't wanna lose you, whoa oh
If it gets harder
Then I don't wanna break all alone
I wanna break in your
I just wanna love you
Don't wanna lose me
Don't wanna lose you, whoa oh
If it gets harder
Then I don't wanna break all alone
I wanna break in your
Whoa oh oh, whoa oh oh
(Don't wanna break in your)
And if it gets harder
Then I don't wanna break all alone
I wanna break in your arms"
By the time Clary reached this part of the song, there were a few stray tears falling down her face.
"Sometimes, when I'm sleeping
I still, feel you breathing
You stole, all my good dreams
I don't care, I'd let you take it
Come on, listen closely
To the sound, that our love made
If you go, I would follow
I don't care, I'd let you take it,
All again... mmmm
I just wanna love you
Don't wanna lose me
Don't wanna lose you, whoa oh
If it gets harder
Then I don't wanna break all alone
I wanna break in your
I just wanna love you
Don't wanna lose me
Don't wanna lose you, whoa oh
If it gets harder
Then I don't wanna break all alone
I wanna break in your
Whoa oh oh, whoa oh oh, whoa oh
And if it gets harder
Then I don't wanna break all alone
I wanna break in your
Whoa oh oh, whoa oh oh (Don't wanna break in your)
Whoa oh oh (Don't wanna break in your arms)
Whoa oh oh (Don't wanna break in your)
Whoa oh oh (Don't wanna break in your arms)
Whoa oh oh (Don't wanna break in your arms)
Whoa oh oh (Don't wanna break in your arms)
Whoa oh oh, whoa oh
I just wanna love you
Don't wanna lose me
Don't wanna lose you, whoa oh
If it gets harder
Then I don't wanna break all alone
I wanna break in your arms"
By the time Clary finished the song, there were constant tears streaming a path down her face. Jace slowly walked inside of the room, and wrapped his arms around her waist.
"That was beautiful." He said quietly.
"It was the truth." She answered softly.
AN: Sooooo this chapter was sort of a downer. Sorry 'bout that. It was also pretty short, but I have to go to dance, so I wanted to get one in, or else you'd be waiting probably at least another week. :/ (curses stupid busy schedule) Well, hope you enjoyed. Also, please check out my instagram, thebookfreak7 Thanks for reading, please review!
~FandomFreak1