Disclaimer : I do not own Fairy Tail nor do I profit from writing FanFiction.
Pairings : Natsu/Gray (main), LyoRay, NaLu, LoLu (so minor you won't even notice it)
Rating : M for sexual content.
Warnings : Yaoi, Shounen Ai, BL, whatever you call it. If you are triggered or disturbed by images of two guys kissing, I apologize and suggest you leave.
Natsu x Gray, established relationship. Unbeta-ed. Multi-chaptered.
Chapter 9 - Who am I?
"Fine." Gray paused. "But if we're fucking, we're fucking here."
"Here? What the hell, Gray?"
Gray took a deep breath and stood up. He wrapped his arms around Natsu and whispered in his ear, "Yes, right here, right now. Fuck me. Mark me for the world to see. Let everyone know that I am yours."
He withdrew. "I will always be yours." Then his eyes darkened for a second, "Even if you do not belong to me."
Coal eyes shot open.
Natsu sat up, sweat trickling down his back, drenching his vest.
Why? What was the reason for the panic in his heart?
His lips formed a word that came out in the form of a soft whisper.
"Liar."
You are no longer mine.
What were they?
Lyon wrapped his arms gently but firmly around Gray's torso, pulling the younger male against his chest. Staring at the peaceful, relaxed features, Lyon couldn't help but lean down and capture those pale lips in a brief kiss.
Brothers? Lovers?
An unwanted memory forced its way though, destroying the moment. The very same voice of the man he held that very moment, laced with acid that corroded all the way into his bones.
"We're fucking, Lyon. Not dating. I'm your roommate, not your fucking boyfriend."
The sliver haired Mage winced. Slowly and cautiously so as to not wake the other, he untangled their limbs and stood up. However, his efforts were fruitless. Awakened, Gray yawned and brought a hand up to shade his eyes from the light shining through the blinds. Instinctively, he opened his mouth to ask,"Mm. What's the time, Natsu?"
Lyon turned stiffly and entered the washroom, shutting the door quietly. He splashed cold water against his face, his eyes closing in an act of defeat.
I guess not.
"Three-year-quest, huh?" Natsu squinted at the squiggly symbols on the yellowed sheet of paper. "This better be worth it."
Shifting his line of vision to the rain pouring down heavily outside, he sighed and retreated further inside the dark, musky cave.
The steady pitter-patter of raindrops stirred a memory that wasn't exactly distant, but felt so far away.
"G-g-g- Gray... I'm freezing... Care to switch off the h-human air conditioner function for a f-few hours?" Rubbing his arms in effort to create friction and subsequently warmth, Natsu turned to his all too comfortable boyfriend.
Gray looked pissed. "Shut up. You're the human fireplace, just heat up the air around you. Dumbass." In truth, he was struggling to keep a cheeky grin off his face, and Natsu could read him like a book.
Unoffended, the dragon slayer shrugged dramatically.
"O, woe is me! Who could have predicted such misfortune would be bestowed upon such a lovely, handsome young man as myself! Being a hot, attractive person is hard. Savvy?"
The laughter Gray had been holding in finally burst out in the form of loud, boisterous guffaws.
Gosh, I love you.
"Fucking... Idiot..."
Natsu simply looked at his amused lover and smiled.
"Glad you think that my suffering is stupid. Now..." He scooted closer. "I can think of a much better way to warm myself."
Ceasing his chuckles at last, Gray turned to him with teary eyes. "Wha.. What?"
Like a predator stalking its unknowing prey, the dragon slayer pounced.
"What the... Get off me!"
They were rolling, rolling.
"Let's share body heat, Gray-chan!"
"Leave off the '-chan'! You know I hate it when people call me that."
"I'm not just 'people', I'm your beloved boyfriend, asshole. I'm hurt!"
After playful (?) banter for what felt like forever, the two boys rolled to a halt. Taking note of their current position, the raven leaned down and smirked.
"Looks like I'm topping tonight."
"Oh yes, definitely."
Taken aback, Gray felt a strong sense of unease at the innocent smile on his lover's face.
"... Really?"
"Totally." Natsu reached up and yanked Gray's head down, connecting their lips forcefully.
"I hate you."
"Love you too, boyfriend."
Gray scowled, a deep blush adorning his features. "I didn't mean that sort of topping. I can't believe I ended up riding you! This is so damn unfair."
The pink haired boy laughed heartily. "You made the best topping in the world. Even better than the toppings on Erza's strawberry cakes."
"Also, you filthy liar."
Natsu let out a sound like a confused, hurt little animal.
"I said, you filthy liar. You weren't cold at all in the first place! Don't think I didn't notice."
Grinning brightly, Natsu brought a hand to the back of his head. "You got me."
Gray scowled again. "You don't look particularly sorry."
"Why, that's because..." Strong arms wrapped around his bare back, pulling his naked skin flush against the other's. "I love you too much to feel remorse for making love to you."
"You... You complete and utter sap."
But Gray's lips were curved in a beautiful smile.
I want to be the one to make you smile again.
"Who am I, Gray?"
Taken by surprise by the sudden and random inquiry, Gray started. "Is this supposed to be a philosophical question?"
The other man's expression was blank.
"Okay, uh..." Gray hesitated. "You're... Lyon. Lamia Scale Mage, S class, stuck up."
Lyon cut him off. "Who am I to you, Gray? It's not important, just humor me."
Gray pondered for a few short moments before answering.
"You are my base. My source. You are who I go to when nobody is there for me. You are the only constant in my life." Seriously, he caught Lyon's gaze and continued, "And I can't tell you just how much I appreciate you."
Reaching out with his left hand, Gray did an uncharacteristic act of caressing the silver-haired man's cheek. "Lyon, you're irreplaceable. Important. Please see that."
Lyon leaned into the touch. Once again, Gray knew exactly what was up. He felt like a wimp, but still he asked.
"So I'm not just a convenient substitute?"
Gray bit his lip. Then he slowly but surely intertwined his fingers with Lyon's, all the while maintaining eye contact. "Is this a good enough answer for you?"
Lyon could not be one hundred percent sure yet. No harm in confirming.
"Then... What are we? Is there even a 'we'?"
To be perfectly honest, Gray felt horrible. Like the dirtiest scum on the earth. Seeing just how much he had pulled the prideful Mage down made him overwhelmed with guilt.
"Lyon, I'm sorry."
The elder disciple's heart lodged in his throat.
"I never apologized for being a jerk, did I? When I said we were just fuck buddies, Lyon... I meant it. Look, I fucked up. I mean..." Gray paused. "We being fuck buddies means that there was room for our relationship to progress. That I wanted to be... More. Shit, what the hell am I saying? Bottom line is, I'm sorry."
Hope was blossoming like a spring flower. "Answer the question."
"We are... Or rather, I wish for us to be..." Red was creeping across his cheeks. "Lovers. I'm not pulling your leg. I mean this."
All the heaviness lifted from his heart, Lyon smiled contentedly.
"Then kiss me."
Gray did.
Hi guys. Please don't kill me. I know I haven't updated in ages and this chapter is way too short to compensate, I'm so sorry. I'm seriously having some problems with this fic, but I refuse to give up. I like the plot too much for that.
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