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Chapter Ten
ARIZONA'S POV
God, this woman is intoxicating. Everything about her turns me on and I don't even know how I'm still breathing right now. I mean, her body is pressed against my own. Our legs tangled. Her hands are all over my skin. She's so naturally sexual and wow…in bed? In bed, she is an absolute goddess. Everything she does brings me to the edge, and it has done all night. Even just thinking about her leaves me a little breathless. Just thinking about her makes me want to scream her name for the entire world to hear. I've never been so aroused by another woman. Never. "God, I cannot get enough of you, Arizona." Her words sending my body crazy, she curls her fingers deep inside of me and my back arches from the bed. Her lips around my nipple, she teases and tugs and I'm not sure how much longer I can hold on. "You feel so good." Running the flat of her tongue over the swollen bud she has been giving her full attention to, her thumb brushes my clit and the moan that leaves my throat surprises even me. "You gonna come for me, beautiful?" Her eyes dark, I pull her up my body and into a kiss.
"Fuck." I breathe against her mouth as she pumps in and out of me. "O-Oh, God. Y-Yes…right there." Smiling against my mouth, the tip of her tongue runs across my bottom lip and it sends an almighty sensation straight to my core. Like my body doesn't have enough to cope with already. "So close." I moan as she strengthens her thrusts and applies a little extra pressure where she knows I want and need it. "Eliza…" My head thrown back into the pillow, my eyes slam shut and she trails her lips down the skin between my breasts. "Fuck." My nails digging into her back, she moans in appreciation and slows her movements inside of me. "God…what the hell are you doing to me." I pant as my body becomes that little bit more sensitive. "I swear, ugh."
"I'm just making you feel good, Arizona." The loss of contact felt as her fingers glide out of me, she brings them up to her mouth and slips them between her lips. "So wet." She moans as I watch on, my body completely spent, yet throbbing for more.
"I think I may die before this day is out."
"It's only morning." She smirks. " And I allowed you a few hours sleep. What more do you want?"
"Oh, I couldn't possibly want anymore." I breathe out as she shifts a little and comes to partially rest against me. "Last night was awesome, by the way."
"Mm, I know." She agrees. "Thank you for staying over."
"You're welcome." I smile as I run my fingers through her hair. "Your bed is so much more comfortable than mine."
"Well, my bed is happy to have you in it whenever you like." A slight giggle erupting in her throat, a silence falls between us and it's honestly the first time I've had the opportunity to think about the change in my life. The change since Eliza appeared in it. It's all good thoughts, and if I'm being honest, I took her job at the club last night better than I expected. I mean, I am okay with it all, but I didn't think I'd find myself there and wanting her to dance for me. I didn't think I'd find myself here this morning, either. At least, not like this. Not totally naked and more than satisfied. Her cell buzzing on the nightstand, she reaches behind herself and brings it between our bodies.
Hey, gorgeous. What time are we meeting? J x
Furrowing my brow, I know I shouldn't be reading her messages from other people but it's hard not to when she has it in full view. It's also hard not to when someone else is calling the naked woman you're in bed with 'gorgeous'.
12? I have to fit my workout in but 12 should be fine. Where? E x
My place. Maybe we could work out together… J x
You couldn't keep up with me. E x
See you at 12 then. J x
Locking her cell, she throws it down on the bed beside her and I fix my gaze on the ceiling above us. I don't know if that message actually means anything, and I guess I don't have any right to question her or what we are. We aren't exclusive and we've only just taken the next step in this relationship that I feel is building between us. Does she feel it, too? Or does she just see this as being a casual thing? I know I've told her that I want this with her…but what exactly is it that I want? What is it that she thinks we are doing? It's not like I know everything about her and I'm ready to meet her parents, but I figured maybe one day soon we could become more than what we are right now. I figured one day soon I'd probably be able to call her my girlfriend. Even if it has to be discreet because of what she does. I wouldn't mind. People have seen me at the club and I wouldn't want her to get into any trouble being seen with me, but yeah…I'd like there to be something more between us. Don't jump into anything right now, Arizona. You've just had an awesome night…don't ruin it now.
"I don't want to leave this bed." She sighs as she glances up at me. "But soon, I have to."
"Yeah...I should head home and work on my book."
"Any other plans for the day?" She asks as her fingertips graze my skin. "I don't know what your weekends usually involve."
"Just...writing."
"It is pretty amazing what you write, though." Propping herself up on her elbow, she stares down at me and narrows her eyes a little. "What exactly got you into writing raunchy lesbian stuff?"
"I don't know." I shrug. "Figured there was an opening for it, and nobody else is really focused on it."
"No, you're right." She agrees. "I've been looking for something like that for a long time. I was so impressed when I finally found your work."
"I'm glad you enjoy it."
"Enjoy it?" She raises her eyebrow. "If only you knew just how much I enjoyed it."
"Mm…I can imagine." A slight blush creeping up her neck, she drops her gaze a little and smiles.
"Feels kind of amazing having the woman who wrote it all in my bed, too." Dropping her head to my shoulder, she places a kiss below my ear and settles down. "Certainly not how I imagined New York being when I moved here."
"Well, New York is full of endless possibilities," I reply. "You never know what is out there waiting for you. It's what I love about this place."
"Yeah, I have fallen in love with this city. That's for sure." Sensing a change in her mood, I turn my head a little and meet her eyes.
"Everything okay?"
"Yeah." She gives me a small smile. "Just…I have to leave soon and I really don't want to."
"You have things to be getting on with, Eliza." Sitting up on my elbows, she rolls away from me and swings her legs over the edge of her bed. "I'll see you soon, though, right?" I don't know if I'm asking her that question, or trying to reassure myself out loud.
"Sure, you will." She glances over her shoulder at me before slipping a tank top over her head and standing. "Can I get you some coffee before you leave?"
"Coffee would be nice."
I've been home for a few hours now, and that freaking message is playing on my mind. I don't know why since it's none of my business, but yeah…it's gotten me a little worried. Maybe I should have brought it up. Maybe I should have questioned who it was from. I don't know. Eliza has given me nothing to suggest that she is seeing other people, but I guess it's just my own mind playing tricks on me. I need to talk this out with someone. The only person I have is Teddy. She is the only one I trust enough with my personal life. Sure, we haven't spoken in over a week, but I know she will always be there for me when I need her. I know she will soon see past all of this and give me her honest opinion. My cell in my hand, I pull up the message tab and hit my best friends number into the address bar.
Hey, are you busy? Az x
Nope. Just walking around the streets since my best friend deserted me. T x
Can you come by? I'm at home. Az x
Sure. I'll be there in five. T x
Great. Let yourself in. Az x
Locking my cell, I place it down on the desk I'm sat behind and close up my MacBook for the day. I can't concentrate on anything other than my personal life right now so it's useless even trying. It's useless trying to pull myself away from my own thoughts because it will only make me more insane than I feel right now.
I want to text Eliza and I want to just see her, but that's not how this goes. At least, I don't think it is. She is busy right now and I have to accept that. She is busy with another woman and even though it's killing me inside, we aren't at that point where we question each other. We aren't at that point where it is okay to be pissed about who we have in our lives. She's a beautiful woman so of course, she is going to have other women after her. How could I ever possibly be the only one? How could I ever possibly be the one who comes out of all of this happy and content with my life? It's not how it ever works for me and I'd be a fool to think that this could ever be different.
Maybe I'm too needy. I don't know. My ex broke up with me because of the fact that I wanted us to move in together and even though it hurt at the time, Teddy was right. Anyone who doesn't want to commit themselves fully to a relationship is better off out of my life. Honestly, I'd have been happy with us living separately. Sharing a home isn't for everyone and I guess I see that now. Some people prefer their own space. Their own private time. When I think back now, I guess I should have seen it from the start. Cheryl always found a way to change the conversation when I would bring it up. She would always have an excuse as to why that particular time wasn't right for moving in together. We were together for almost three years, so yeah…I should have known she would never move in. I suppose it's no big deal, really, but to me…it is. It was. When I'm in, I'm all in. Nothing and nobody else matters when I'm in love and happy. Maybe I should just keep this casual with Eliza right now. Maybe I should just go with whatever comes each day and take it from there.
"Hello?" My apartment door opening, Teddy peeks her head around it and gives me a smile. "There you are. I was beginning to forget what you looked like." Closing the door once she is inside, she slips her keys back into her jacket pocket and stands a little uncomfortably. "So?"
"Sorry about last week." I turn to face her fully. "I just…I didn't like what you said about her."
"I know." She gives me a nod in agreement. "I shouldn't have said what I did, and I'm sorry."
"Apology accepted." Standing, I move into my living room and Teddy follows behind me. "I know you probably don't care and you don't want to hear any of this, but I need your advice, Ted's."
"Hit me." She shrugs. "I'm just happy to be here right now."
"It's about Eliza." I raise an eyebrow but she doesn't seem phased at all. Good, maybe? "Are you sure you want to be the one I vent to? Without judgment?"
"Without judgment." She agrees as she flops down on my couch. "I'm here as your friend."
"I slept with her." My words rushed out, I have to say it before I back out. "Last night."
"O..kay." My best friend furrows her brow. "Was it not good?"
"Good? It was freaking amazing…" I laugh. "I just…I don't know if I'm deeper than she is."
"Why? What happened?" Teddy sits forward and studies my face. "Did she ask you to leave after it?"
"N-No." I smile. "I stayed the night. "
"So, what then?"
"I don't know." I shrug. "I'm worried that this may be moving too fast. That I may be moving too fast. She's so gorgeous and the sex? Wow…but what if that is all it is? What if this is just sex. A casual thing?"
"Have you asked her about it?"
"No. And I'm not sure it's a good idea to get into that kind of conversation just yet. Everything is new and fresh. I don't want to ruin that with my own worries. She may not be into that kinda thing. You know…the deep conversation. She doesn't seem like that type."
"Look, Arizona." Teddy stands and runs her fingers through her hair. "Is she really who you want? Like, seriously?"
"She's amazing, Teddy."
"That's not what I asked." She smiles and steps a little closer to me. "You know how I feel about her, and even though what I said was totally out of line, you can dress it up however you like but the fact still remains...she's a stripper. She dances for money and she gives people what they want. What they think they need."
"It's not like that." I sigh. "She's totally different outside of the club."
"But she still works at that club." Her eyebrow raised, I drop my gaze and shake my head. "You have to understand that."
"Understand what?" I ask as I slump down on a kitchen stool.
"That she may not feel the same way as you feel. She is used to being desired. She is used to the attention and the lust people have for her. It's who she is. It's what her job entails. Sure, she may be a really nice girl and you two may seem to be hitting it off, but can you honestly say that you trust her 100%? Can you honestly say that whenever she is at that club, you can be totally at ease with all of this?"
"I don't know." I breathe out.
"So, don't get too attached. Don't fall in head first, Arizona. You have to take a step back and wait for her to come to you. If she really wants something with you, she will chase you. She will call and text and just show up here and make you see her. Make you listen. If she doesn't, well, I guess you know the answers to the questions you have."
"I think I'm just being a little dramatic, but I really like her Teddy. I know you don't approve, and that's fine, but I really like her."
"I know you do." She smiles. "And if you're happy, my opinion is irrelevant. Just…be careful is all I'm saying. Don't get hurt, please?"
"I won't." Pulling my best friend into a hug, she tightens her grip around my waist and sighs. "I'm thinking way too much into this."
"You must have a reason for feeling this way, no?"
"Just…when we were in bed this morning, she got a text. I don't know who from, but it could have possibly suggested that she has someone else in her life, too."
"Look, Arizona…I won't lie, I do get a bad feeling about her. I get a bad feeling about the situation you have put yourself in." She pulls back and gives me a sad smile. "I'll support you, but I don't like where this is going. I really don't."
"I'm a big girl, Teddy. If this turns out to be nothing, I'll hold up my hands and you can give me the whole 'I told you so' speech, but she's nice. She's so much more than what you've ever seen at the club. That is her job, nothing more."
"Then why are you already questioning her?" She asks, her tone soft. "Seriously?"
"Because I'm just being stupid." I smile as I try to reassure us both. "You know how I get."
"Yeah, I do." She agrees. "And usually…you are right. Usually, you are a good judge of character. So?"
"So, nothing." I sigh. "I'll just take it one day at a time. Maybe give myself a few days to think things over. I don't know."
"Good idea." Teddy smiles. "Give yourself some time to figure out what is going on between you guys. Talk to her, or don't. Just do whatever you think is best."
"Thanks for coming over." I smile. "Whatever happens, like if Eliza and I become something…I need you to be okay with it, Teddy. I need my best friend in my life."
"I'll do my best, okay?" She gives me a genuine smile and rounds my kitchen island. "How about we spend today together?"
"Oh, uh…I don't know if Eliza is coming by this evening before she leaves for work." Grabbing my cell from my desk, I pull up our last messages and send off a quick one. "Let me just check."
Hey…will I see you tonight? Az x
"Coffee?" Teddy calls from the kitchen.
"Sure." I smile as I chew on my lip and wait for a response from Eliza. "Maybe we could grab dinner together if Eliza is busy?"
"Dinner sounds good, but takeout is the only option tonight. I cannot and I will not dress up. I wanna lounge tonight." She shrugs as she heads my way with a fresh coffee. "Takeout work for you?"
Hey. Sorry but this evening is a little crazy for me. I have to be at the club earlier and I have stuff on beforehand. E x
"Yeah." I sigh as I realize that I won't see the brunette I woke beside this morning. "Takeout is just what I need right now."
Enjoy. Stay safe. Az x
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