Thank you Angiepanda1 for the awesome review, it meant a lot and gave me extra drive to keep writing this story.
And just for a visual…Skylar's muse is Ian Somerhalder
This is gonna be another long one…
It's so hard to think this could fade away
But what goes up much come down
Why can't we just live life with no consequence
And always live in the now
Forget about the sunrise
Fight the sleep in your eyes
I don't wanna miss a second with you
Let's stay this way forever
Its only getting better if we want it to
~December~
Castiel let out a long pitiful sigh…the words from his history book starting to blur and blend together. Four very long hours of straight studying was turning his brain into mush. Tomorrow was the last day of school before Christmas break and he couldn't wait another second. The past week had been nothing but studying and cramming for everyone. Especially Lily and Balthazar…Cas prayed that all the late night studying sessions would help.
Tomorrow brought the promise of so many things…no more homework, time with his friends, Christmas, a planned camping trip with everyone…and finally a chance to just be with Lily. Everything had hit all at once when Lily ran out of her Math class in tears, Balthazar following close behind. After getting her to calm down she explained that if she didn't get at least a B on her midterm, she was going to fail and have to take summer school to make it up. Balth was in the same boat and looked just as defeated. Cas pulled the girls together and helped their friends study nearly every night.
Now he just had to brush up on History facts before the mid term tomorrow and all would be well…if only he could get Lily and Michael to stop distracting him. They weren't really doing it to be mean…just wanted him to relax and not stress out so much but he couldn't help it. History and him…were not friends. Lily even tried to help him…she loved History and was acing the class…was even planning on taking Honors History next semester. He blamed the fact that he had "dick" as his teacher…while she had Mr. Cranmer…one of the few amazing teachers on campus.
He felt his phone vibrate in his pocket and hesitated…everyone of his friends were trying their best to keep him from breaking down from the self inflicting stress he was creating for himself…it made him smile every time. He had friends…amazing friends at that. Shaking his head he pulled the cell out and laughed….4 new text messages, 1 picture message, and one video message…
Video Message from The Roche! Sent at 9:30 pm
Castiel barked out a loud laugh, Balth was lying upside down on the couch, Charlie and Ruby next to him.
"Caaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaassie! Stop studying and come over dammit! We miss you buddy!" Charlie sung out.
"Dude…you're brilliant already, you don't need all this extra studying! Come over Castiel…we have cooooookies," Balthazar teased before cracking up. He recognized the pair of hands that suddenly appeared in the video, tickling Balthazar until the phone crashed to the floor. The screen moved around quickly and suddenly Lily's face appeared.
"Baby…listen to your friends…get off your cute little ass and join us… I love you Cas!" She blew a kiss at the screen before panning back at his friends rolling around laughing on the floor. Cas stared at this phone, happy little tears filling his eyes. They made him feel so overwhelmed at times…but he wouldn't change it for anything. Rubbing his eyes he opened the other messages.
Picture Message from Baby Girl: Sent at 8:00 pm
Cas grinned…she was holding up the stuffed black cat he had won for her at the carnival. Her lips were set in a pout but clearly she was trying to hide the big smile forcing it's way through. Underneath read "I miss you baby." Ever since Halloween, she'd been calling him that more and more. He closed his eyes and sighed…whether or not it made him the 'girl' in the relationship (which Balth loved to tease and point out), he absolutely loved it. He'd tried a few different endearing nicknames but nothing ever felt right.
Though the night of his birthday he had called her Baby Girl…and got a very…enthusiastic response from her…while at the top of the Ferris wheel.
Message From Ruby Rue: Sent at 8:15 pm
Hey baby boy! We miss you bro!
Message from Char Bear: Sent at 8:45pm
Cassie, I swear to god if you don't answer at least one of us we're coming after you!
Castiel laughed shaking his head. The girls were becoming the sisters he had always wanted. He loved them both but he felt the closest with Ruby…she was even going to join Drama next semester!
Message from Balthazar: Sent at 9:00 pm
I don't know how long I can keep the girls on lock down bro! Haha!
Message from Baby Girl: Sent at 9:20 pm
Answer your messages! :O(
Castiel shook his head again and was about to drop his phone on the desk when it vibrated. There was a new message from Lily and he bit his lip. He didn't need to open it…he could hear the familiar roar of her car out side. He wasn't a car guy…and never would be…but he loved that car…especially snuggling up with Lily in the backseat.
Message from Baby Girl: Sent at 9:45 pm
I feel like I haven't seen you in days…any more studying and you're just gonna fry your brain. Please come outside.
Cas couldn't fight them anymore…even Michael had been on his case all day…and he knew in the long run that they were right. It would help to get his mind refreshed for a little bit. He grabbed his trench coat from off his bed and hurried to the front door.
"About damn time little brother…you two need to be back by at least midnight," Michael grinned up at him from the couch. Cas had a brief moment of guilt…he'd been leaving Michael by himself a lot lately. His brother noticed and gave him a big smile, pushing his leg out to kick Cas in the ass. With a short laugh he made his way to the door, practically running towards the "Beast" as they fondly called it.
The '69 Ford Cougar Classic was now the object of envy from every male at their school. He remembered the very first day they had pulled up in that steel blue muscle car, all eyes were on them. It made it even better when all of them crawled out of it…once again the nerd herd showed up the popular kids. It still made Cas laugh until he had tears in his eyes when he thought of the pure look of shock on Adam's face. He even tried to side up to Castiel to talk cars with him. All of them just laughed and walked off…oh it was so sweet.
He heard cheers from inside the car and snickered, pulling open the passenger door. The girls and Balth were in the backseat singing obnoxiously to the song blaring out of the stereo. Lily looked up at him with a huge smile, leaning over to give him a kiss. He grinned and turned in his seat so he could see all of them. Lily reached up to unhook the top and with the help of Balth, they got the convertible top tucked in safely.
"Alright kiddos…where too?" Lily grinned reaching out to take Cas's hand. He scooted closer and wrapped his arm around her shoulders. He yelped when Balth crawled over to sit next to him.
"Hmmm….oh! let's go that clearing up on the hill!" Ruby offered. Lily nodded and turned the car in that direction.
"Glad you joined us bro…it's not the same without ya!" Balth grinned elbowing him in the side. Cas laughed and nudged him back with his shoulder.
It took about 20 minutes but the ride up to the hill was comfortable and Cas felt so relaxed he didn't want to get out of the car once they arrived. The girls and Balth scrambled out and started twirling around in circles.
"One more day Cas…no more studying…no more having to worry about being a distraction," Lily said softly. He looked at her and smiled, leaning down to press their lips together.
"I miss you too…and I can't wait. Especially to go camping!" Cas grinned bouncing in his seat a little. Lily laughed leaning into him.
About two weeks before Lily had come up with the idea of heading out to the cabin her dad left her. He was expecting it to be a ramshackle little house, which she laughed at. She explained that it was rather spacious with 4 rooms and once she talked her grandmother, working electricity and running water.
So they invited everyone, including Michael and his new girlfriend Rachel…who neither of them had met yet. He was even shocked but pleasantly so when Lily invited Skylar, who was slowly becoming part of their group. He was just as crazy as they were but he brought a little more 'sass' to everything much to Balth's chagrin.
Cas didn't know what it was but whenever he was around he'd get a stirring in his chest…a tight fluttering he couldn't quite define. Whenever he would smile at either him or Lily…with those sharp gray/blue eyes he'd feel it but he always just pushed it away to figure out later.
After school they were all to meet up at Cas and Lily's to spend the night so they could head out early the next morning to spend until the day after Christmas up at the cabin. Cas had checked the weather and got even more excited…it was going to snow almost the entire time.
"Cas…your phone," Lily giggled poking him in the ribs. He frowned and realized his phone had fallen next to her leg. He scooped it up just as the vibration ended.
Message from Skylar: Sent at 10:15 pm
Hey Cassio! I don't have Lily's number so I thought I would shoot you a text…they need me to come into work after school tomorrow. I'm still coming with you guys…just I'll be at your house around 9 pm…is that ok?"
Cas felt himself smirk as he read the text. Skylar worked at an Animal Shelter after school and on the weekends. Lily looked over and read the message, she grinned as well.
Message to Skylar: Sent at 10:17 pm
Hey Sky…its no problem…we'll probably be just watching movies.
Message from Skylar: Sent at 10:19 pm
Awesome…I can't wait! Did you see the weather? It's gonna snow…I'm pummeling all of you with snowballs!
Both of them laughed and Cas shoved the phone back in his pocket. Lily stretched out her arms before taking his hand, finally pulling him out of the car.
~December 19th
Lily chewed on her thumb nervously as the demon Crowley slowly graded their midterms…he was doing it on purpose. She was so nervous her stomach was in knots. A few seats over Balthazar was just as bad…his skin was turning a little green. As much as they would love to admit that they had slacked off and not tried…math was just not their strong suit…but thanks to their amazing friends they pulled together to help them study. She was anxious for this day to be over…she barely got to see Cas this entire week and it was annoying her. Call her the clingy girlfriend she wouldn't care…she missed her boyfriend dammit.
She had been so happy when Cas finally got out of his room last night to join them. It was fun and relaxing just lying around on the cold grass with her friends. When they got home around midnight, both of them were ready to pass out. Lily went to her room to change and the next thing she knew, she was waking up to her alarm. Cas was wrapped around her like usual and it made her smile. He had come in to check on her only to find her completely passed out on the bed. After setting the alarm he just crawled in with her. It was rare that they ever slept in her room…her bed was way too small.
"Miss Mosby…come here for a second," Crowley's gruff voice broke her rambling mind and she swallowed hard. Balthazar gave her a small smile as she made her way to the desk. Her teacher gave her a small smirk handing her the test. She flipped it over and tried to not scream.
"A…an A-?" She squeaked staring at him in shock.
"Yes my dear…whatever you did…it worked…congratulations…now get out of my class," He snickered and Lily had to fight every fiber in her being to hug the handsome demon. She grabbed up her purse (the only test she had today was her dance final so no backpack needed) and blew a kiss to Balth before leaving the room. Knowing Cas was in the middle of his English final, she leaned against the wall to wait for Balthazar.
After a few more minutes he finally emerged out of the classroom and he refused to meet her eyes. She held her breath when his face finally broke out in a huge grin.
"I got a B….a fuckin B!" He cried hugging Lily and spinning her around. She laughed and had to cover her mouth quickly.
"Balth…we did it! I can't wait to tell them…ugh! I have to go warm up now…I just wanted to see what you got," her cheeks were starting to hurt from smiling so big.
"I know me neither…I'll meet you after…Cas has English and History…while the girls have Science, Dance and I think Ruby has Spanish today…so I'll just meet you guys at your car," Balth said dancing around a bit. Lily giggled and handed him her car keys.
"Remember the rules…anything happens to 'the beast' and I'll kill you," She grinned. He kissed her forehead and mock saluted. Rolling her eyes she hurried towards the arts building. She barely made it into the changing room when she was attacked by a mass of red hair.
"Well?!" Charlie screeched.
"We passed! I got an A- and Balth got a B!" Lily cried throwing her arms around her best friend. Charlie squealed and hugged her tightly.
"I'm so happy! I passed my Science final! I'm worried about Rubes though…she was petrified to go into her Spanish class," Charlie frowned and Lily couldn't help bite her lip. None of them knew Spanish…so they felt helpless when their friend struggled with her studies. Michael even tried to help but he was so rusty it was doing more damage than good. Lily knew of one person who was fluent….and it pissed her off to no end that she couldn't call him for help…her own brother. Lily shook her head of the sudden flash of rage she felt. Charlie gave her a look but she shrugged it off.
"Just a fleeting thought…if my brother wasn't such…"
"A raging douche nozzle?" Charlie offered.
"Exactly…I could have called him…I'm sorry," Lily sighed and Charlie pulled her in for another hug.
"Shut it…Ruby will be fine…just over thinking it like Castiel does…now come on, we gotta stretch…what song you doing your solo to?" Charlie asked pulling her towards their lockers.
Cas kicked at a stone as he made his way to their locker. He received a text message from both Lily and Balthazar to meet them at her car after he was done. With all the anxiety he had before the test he felt a little deflated now. Just like everyone thought, he received an A on all his mid terms. Roman was even surprised…and Cas knew that dick wanted to give him a lower grade to just fuck with him…but thankfully he didn't. Cas snatched his test from him and hurried out of the classroom. He was hoping he'd find either of his friends in the hall but he knew Lily had to warm up for her final solo.
Before going to the car he stopped by his locker and began to clean out their stuff. Not even really bothering to go through it, just shoved it into his bag.
"Adam just stop ok?" He heard a familiar voice cry out. Further down the hall he saw Adam and Tessa, his grip on her arm was tight and her face scrunched up in pain. Cas bit down hard on his lip and shut his locker. He didn't like Tessa…but no one deserved to be treated like that. Adam leaned closer to Tessa's ear and he couldn't make out what was being said but Tessa cringed. Without thinking he hurried over, only stopping when Adam glared at him.
"What the hell do you want Nerd?" Adam sneered and Cas caught the slight wince from Tessa.
"You ok?" He asked her, completely ignoring him. She hesitated for a moment but nodded, keeping her eyes locked on Adam. He watched her for a moment and then sighed…there wasn't anything he could really do… he moved past them and out of the school. Half way to 'The Beast' he could see Balthazar lying on the hood of the car, music blaring from inside.
"Hey man! Guess what?" Balth asked jumping down. Cas threw his bag in the passenger side and waited.
"I got a B!" Cas grinned wide and hugged his friend.
"I knew you could do it!" Cas laughed when Balth spun him around.
"Thanks to you and the girls…I won't have to take summer school!"
"Do you know what Lily got?" Cas asked biting his lip. Balth opened his mouth to answer but promptly shut it.
"Oh…no….she'd kill me…" Balth snickered before crawling back up on the hood. Cas shook his head and joined him.
"Hey bitches! Scoot over!" Ruby called out. Cas opened his eyes and watched a very flushed and grinning Ruby throw her bag in the car. She crawled up next to him and laid her head on his shoulder.
"Well?" He prompted.
"I got an A…." She said quietly and both laughed when Balth let out a loud woot.
Lily watched in awe as Charlie flowed around the dance room dancing to a very hauntingly beautiful instrumental version of "Lost in Paradise" by Evanescence. She glanced over at Jo who was smiling fondly at the their guest. The butterflies exploded in her stomach again and she tried to swallow the panic down. Char finished her piece and took a little bow before moving to sit next to her.
"You'll do fine…just think of us while you dance…especially Cas," Charlie grinned and Lily could have kissed her. She always knew just what to say to set her muses back in order. She took an extra second to stretch before moving in place.
"Lily Mosby, Junior…" She said softly looking straight into the camera. Jo always recorded the test solos, that way she could grade them equally and not by just what she remembered with each dancer. She gave a subtle nod to Jo and she hit play, the sounds of "Never Close Our Eyes" by Adam Lambert filled the room.
When she was finished she glanced over at Jo and bit her lip at how big her smile was. Their guest gave her a nod with a smile of his own, writing something down on his notepad. She gave a little bow and hurried to join Charlie.
"Alright everyone, I will grade these tonight and email your critiques to you within the next week. Please give a warm thank you to our guest…and he'll be in touch with us as well…have a good Christmas everyone!" Jo said before turning off her camera and packing up. Lily grabbed up her bag and turned to leave when a warm hand touched her shoulder. She looked up into chocolate brown eyes and an easy smile.
"Lily right?" he asked. Lily was utterly tongue-tied…all she could do was manage a small nod.
"I just wanted to tell you that you did a really good job out there…you have amazing talent. Your teacher speaks very highly of you and I can't wait to see the footage of your performance from your recital," he said and Lily felt her body go numb. Getting any kind of praise from this man…please don't let this be a dream.
"Seeing it live would be better though….don't you think Lily?" Jo said suddenly appearing behind him.
"If you can arrange that…I would definitely fly back up here to see it…hers and Miss Bradbury's…" he grinned at Jo who flashed him a wicked smile back.
"Oh I think we could…right Lily?" Lily stared at them and felt herself nod.
"Y-yes…we can do that for you," Lily finally managed to choke out. He bit his lip rubbing his hands together.
"Awesome…it was really great to meet you Lily…hopefully we'll see each other soon," He grinned and linked arms with Jo, pulling her into the office. Lily couldn't move…it was too surreal.
"Lil! Come on everyone is waiting for us!" she heard Charlie call out and she snapped out of her haze. Taking off in a run she jumped on her best friend, wrapping her legs around the girl's waist.
"Whoa! What the hell?" Charlie giggled.
"He wants to see our solos from the recital…performed live! Char…he's gonna choose us!" Lily practically screamed cupping Charlie's face and giving her a kiss right on the lips.
"Uh…should I be worried?" Ruby asked. Lily looked up and laughed, her face turning red. Ruby leaned against the wall with an amused look on her face. She dropped down and tackled Ruby as well.
"I take it went well?" Ruby giggled. She turned to look at her friend who was covering her mouth to keep from letting out her own scream.
"You have…no idea….oh my god we have to go tell the boys," Charlie said rubbing her face as if to wake up from this very real shared dream they were having. Lily couldn't wait…she snatched up her stuff and took off running. The girls were right on her heels as they crashed down the path to where her car was sitting, the boys lounging up on the hood. Cas jumped off when he saw them, a confused expression on his face turned into worry.
"Cas!" She cried out dropping her bag on the ground before jumping into his arms like she had with Charlie. Before he could even ask she kissed him hard, wrapping her arms tightly around his neck.
"What the hell is going on?" she heard Balth ask but the girls were too busy trying to catch their breath to answer. Lily pulled away and grinned down at her very confused boyfriend.
"Is everything ok?" he asked a little breathless. She giggled and nodded.
"Oh my god yes….you remember how I told you we were having a guest come critique as well as Jo for our final?" Lily asked sliding down to her feet. She moved closer so that there was hardly any space between the friends. Balth leaned against the car with his arm draped over Ruby's shoulders and nodded his head. Ruby bit her lip and looked between the boys…she had been the only one that actually knew who it was…she was a very persuasive person…and Charlie couldn't keep it from her long.
"Yeah…." Cas asked giving Balth a nervous glance.
"It was fucking Travis Wall!" Charlie exclaimed and the boy's eyes widened. Balth and Cas got roped into watching So You Think You Can Dance and knew who Travis Wall was…and just how good the man was. Getting 2nd place in season 2 only to become an amazing choreographer on the show and receiving several Emmy's for his dances. The guy was a big deal.
When he had stepped into the room Lily thought she was going to hyperventilate…it was a dream of hers to meet and hopefully perform for him. And when he got excited to see her and Charlie perform their routines live….she could have died happy.
"Wait….THE Travis Wall? The dancer you three shriek over? How the hell?" Balth asked with his mouth hanging open. She glanced up at Cas who had the same shocked expression.
"He's friends with Jo, they grew up together and she called in a favor. He's running a workshop this summer and needs two principle dancers….not only was it our final but an audition for him…and he singled me and Char out…he wants to see our routines live instead of a recording…" Lily explained barley able to hold in her excitement anymore.
"So pretty much…he already picked you two…oh my god Lil!" Cas cried out wrapping his arms around her. She let out an embarrassing squeal and clung on to him. She heard the same come out of Charlie and she laughed.
After several moments of congratulations of passing their midterms, the overwhelming success of the dancers' audition, the group finally piled into 'the beast' and stopped one by one to each of their houses to pick up their bags.
It was about 3 in the afternoon when the managed to get back to Cas's house, scaring the hell out of Michael with all the noise they brought through the door. Michael stood in the Kitchen with his arms crossed staring at all of them. He tried to look upset but when he got bombarded with all the good news he couldn't help the big smile on his face. To celebrate he ordered pizza for them all and announced that they were going to finally meet Rachel that night.
When she walked into the house Cas and Lily were both surprised with how quiet the girl was. After a couple of hours being around the rowdy group she finally opened up and Lily was relieved with just how much sass came out of her. Michael needed a woman to keep him on his toes but loved him unconditionally…and she could read it all over the woman's face…they may be still dating but it wouldn't take long.
It was around 9pm when the doorbell rang again and Skylar joined them. Lily couldn't help the heat creeping in her face when he threw that little devious smirk of his at her…or even Cas. It made her giggle when Cas's face would get just as red.
"Alright…alright…cheers to the very first semester I actually enjoyed! You guys are the best friends anyone could ever have…and to welcome the noobes to our crazy antics!" Balthazar called out holding up his soda can. Lily laughed and raised hers as well, Cas clinked theirs together and they all cried out cheers.
"I love you," Cas whispered against her ear and she smiled, turning her head to kiss at his jaw.
Cas woke up with a groan as Lily rolled over to throw his alarm clock into the wall. He let out a hoarse laugh when it broke. It was the first day of break…and they were waking up at 5 am…Cas rubbed at his face and sighed. He felt the bed move and opened his eyes just as Lily was straddling his stomach. He grinned up at her his hands resting on her legs. He loved waking up like this…most of the time they wouldn't even do anything, just snuggle with each other until the absolute latest they could. But it had been nearly a week and half since they even woke up next to each other. Using any moment they could to study. He had missed it like mad and from the look she was giving him, so had she.
"How much time you think we have?" Lily whispered grazing her nails down the front of his shirt. Cas bit his lip and listened for a moment…from what he could tell, they were the only ones awake for now.
"Not long…oh god," Cas's eyes rolled up and he sucked in a breath when she moved her body so their groins were pressed against each other. He got hard almost immediately and he couldn't help the low moan. He opened his eyes to see her grinning down at him, her long hair draped over one shoulder.
"Lil…god I missed this," He moaned reaching up to pull her face down. She kissed him softly, her hips beginning to move against him in the same slow rythym as her lips. One of his hands found its way into her thick hair, pulling just a bit as his tongue licked at her mouth. Over the past couple months he had been getting more and more confident with showing her what he wanted. He never knew how much it would turn her on when he took control. She shivered above him and moaned into his mouth, letting his tongue slide against her own.
With a sly grin she sat up, pulling her shirt off and throwing it to the side. Cas grinned and moved his hands up her sides to cup her breasts, her entire body shuddering when his fingers rolled her nipples.
"Shit Cas…" She moaned bending down to kiss him hard, her hips picking up speed. Cas wrapped his arms around her, rolling them over so that he was on top. Her giggle turned into a loud moan as his hips surged against hers. The coil in the pit of his stomach gave a sharp twist when she raised her body to meet his thrusts, making the friction even more. They were both so very close but Cas wanted to try something new…even if they didn't have much time. He gave her a hard kiss before moving his lips down her neck, to her chest, grinning at the loud whine when he ignored her breasts.
"Cas…what…what are you doing?" She gasped when he started to pull down her shorts. He'd only seen her once before and that had been at night…giving her a mischievous smirk, he continued to pull them down her legs. She blushed and tried to pull the covers over herself but he pushed them away. He was nervous…god he was nervous but he couldn't let it show…or the whole thing would turn insanely awkward.
He remembered the embarrassing conversation he had with Ruby a week ago about what he wanted to do…it was after Lily had given him a blowjob one night and he felt bad not being able to return the favor. Yeah they rutted and touched each other but he wanted to give her something more. He had tried to ask Charlie first but she just looked at him, her face going pale and stormed out of the room.
"Cas…what did you do to Charlie?" Ruby asked with a laugh. Cas turned red and tried to walk out of the kitchen but she stopped him.
"I…well Lily…she um…" Cas stammered running his fingers through his hair.
"She gives you head?" Cas choked on the sharp intake of breath and coughed. Ruby laughed and smacked his back.
"I'll take that as a yes…and you what? Want advice on how to go down on a girl?"
"Jesus Ruby!" Cas winced and rubbed his face but when he caught her eye, he nodded shyly. She giggled and cupped his face.
"You…are too cute…the only advice I can give you is to pay attention to what makes her breathe harder and moan…do you…touch her down there?" Ruby grinned when he nodded, "Well where she likes you to touch her, just replace it with your tongue…but if you're really desperate….watch lesbian porn," Ruby shrugged and Cas thought he was going to die from embarrassment. But…he was desperate.
Thank god for free porn.
Cas pushed her legs a little farther, moving to lie between them, "Cas….oh fuck," She whimpered staring down at him with wide eyes, her pupils completely blown out. His fingers brushed along the inside of her thighs, making her quiver. He took in a calming breath before tentavily flicking out his tongue at her lips. Her body jerked and she pulled a pillow over her face to muffle the noises escaping her mouth.
He smoothed his hand up her stomach trying to calm her and it worked a little until he licked up her slit, moaning at her taste. One of her hands grabbed at the one on her stomach clinging onto his fingers. He grinned and moved his free hand to spread her open and he moaned loudly at how wet she was. Moving his face closer, he lapped up at the sweet essence, noticing at how hard she jerked when his tongue grazed that nub he loved to torture with his fingers. Rolling his eyes up to watch her, he rolled it around with his tongue and gave himself an inner high five when she cried out his name.
"You ok baby girl?" He grinned and she moaned, her body starting to tremble beneath him.
"Fuck…don't stop," her voice was muffled but he heard her clearly. He pressed his lips against her clit, sucking at it. His fingers moved and she let out a loud moan when they brushed against her entrance. Moaning around her clit, her back arched off the bed and the hand that clutched at his moved into his hair, pulling at it just a bit as her knees bent up then fell apart. It opened her up a bit more and Cas found himself licking and sucking at her furiously, his fingers teasing against her hole.
"Oh my god Cas…oh god I'm…fuck!" she cried out as her hips canted up and Cas sucked a little harder on her clit, his middle finger just barely dipping into her. Cas nearly came himself when she let out the dirtiest sound he ever heard. It was a mixture of a growl and whimper. His fingers were coated as she rode out her orgasm, his tongue licking it up as she rode it out. Once her body stopped twitching he crawled up to her, moving the pillow away from her flushed face.
"….wow…" She giggled pulling him down to kiss her. He moaned into her mouth as his dick pressed up against her, he could feel her through his pants and it was almost too much. He couldn't help the sudden thrust against her and she cried out, her body starting to move against him roughly.
"Mmm Cas…shit…if we didn't have to leave soon," She whimpered, her hand moving between them and into his pants. He was still pressed tightly against her so the added pressure of her fingers wrapping around his very hard dick made him shudder.
"What…what would you do?" He asked between moans, he kissed up her neck and bit down on the spot behind her ear. She keened out a moan and her hand moved faster against his thrusts.
"I'd let you have me Cas…completely," She moaned into his ear and Cas was gone. He came with a shout of her name, his body going very still as he shot his load into her hand.
"Cas…" She moaned into his ear and he felt her tongue trace up his neck. He knew he was lying fully on her but he couldn't move. She felt too good against him and he wanted to stay there. They heard a loud knock on the door and he thanked god he remembered to lock the door last night.
"Um…if you guys are done…we have breakfast ready," they heard Ruby call through the door.
"We'll be out in a minute," Lily called back, covering her face with her clean hand. They heard Ruby's laugh and then it was quiet.
"So…how was that?" Cas asked nervously. Lily rolled her eyes and pulled him down for a deep kiss, sucking his bottom lip between hers.
"Baby…that was fucking amazing…now lets go shower," She said and pushed him off of her. He landed on his side with a grunt and watched her pull on one of his longer shirts with a grin on his face.
It took five hours when they finally pulled up to the cabin. Everyone let out appreciative noises when they saw the size of the place. Lily grinned and got out of the car. Because of the snow they had to take Skylar's ford escape and Rachel's Jeep. Each grabbed their bags and scurried into the cabin to claim their rooms. Lily pulled Cas through the house and into the master bedroom.
"But I'm the oldest!" Michael pouted.
"It's my house Mikey!" She laughed throwing her bag on the king size bed. Cas shrugged at his brother and Mike threw a playful hissy fit as he found another room for him and Rachel. Lily shook her head and looked around the room…it had been years since she'd been here but nothing had changed. Thank god for her grandmother and her thoughtfulness. The place was cleaned and stocked up to the hilt with food and drinks. There was even a note from her on the fridge telling them to enjoy and be safe.
Lily moved over to the window and gasped…the lake. She completely forgot about it.
"What's wrong?" Cas asked stepping up behind her. She looked up at him to see the grin on his face.
"I wonder if it'd be safe to go skating?" He asked.
"I'm not sure but I hope so…we're gonna have so much fun!" Lily giggled and gave him a quick kiss. She hurried out of the room to find her friends all in the family room looking around. Skylar was looking at a picture and Lily felt her chest squeeze.
"Is this your dad?" He asked softly when she stepped up next to him. She was 8 in the picture, sitting on her dad's knee holding up a rather large fish they caught.
"Yeah…that's him. So uh…did you find a room?" She swallowed hard pulling the picture from his hands. He bit his lip and nodded as she put the picture back on the shelf.
"Yeah…though I wanted to room with the girls…I have to settle with Balthazar," He teased and Lily gave him a small smile. She tried very hard to push the sadness away but it was hard…she missed her dad so much and she should have known how hard it would be surrounded by everything that used to be his. She felt a hand on her shoulder and gazed up into Skylar's ice blue eyes.
"I know how hard it is Lily…I lost my sister a few years back…" He swallowed thickly and Lily nodded, reaching up to squeeze his fingers. He gave her a comforting smile and moved to join the others chatting loudly about what they should do their first night.
"Everything ok?" Cas asked from behind her. She spun around and nodded, wrapping her arms around his middle.
"I just miss my dad is all…I'll be ok…you have a promise to keep mister," She grinned pulling away. She gripped his hand and pulled him out of the house. The crisp air stung at her lungs a bit but she loved it…everything was so clean and pure up here. She closed her eyes and took in a deep breath, nearly getting lost in it when a snowball smacked into the side of her face.
"Hey! No fair!" Cas cried out with a laugh. She glanced over to see everyone making snowballs and starting a war. She cried out when another one caught her in the shoulder. She dove behind a tree to make her own. She launched it at the first person she saw who happened to be Skylar, getting him right in the face. He fell on his ass and scrambled to his feet as the girls attacked him, shoving snow in his hair. Lily snickered and let out a scream when she was tackled as well. Cas hovered over her grinning. She smiled up at him and bit her lip.
"I did promise to kiss you in the snow," he whispered before pressing their lips together. She sighed wrapping her arms around his shoulders, pulling him closer. The cold from the snow was seeping through her clothes but she couldn't find it in herself to even care.
She didn't know how long they stayed that way but the next thing she knew was a snowball hitting the back of Cas's head. He shook out his hair and looked behind him. She saw his face blush and grinned when she saw it was Skylar, he looked at both of them with a smirk before running off. She bit her lip shaking her head.
After the snowball fight had finally broke up everyone hurried back into the house for warmth. Michael had a fire going and Rachel was making hot chocolate. Lily sat back for a moment taking in everything around her.
Charlie and Ruby were snuggled in one of the more cushioned couches near the fire. Both girls where whispering to each other and sharing very small kisses. Lily's heart squeezed watching them…they were so damn cute. Skylar sat at the fireplace with her father's guitar in his hands. Seeing it being played again made her warm all over. especially when he started to strum at the strings. Balthazar sat next to him and began to sing a song she never heard before. Cas sat on the other couch with a mug in his hands watching everyone like she was.
There were not enough words to even begin to describe how much she loved that boy…she didn't know what got into him that morning but she was glad for it. She wasn't lying either…if they had the time…she smirked and bit her lip…they had time tonight.
She moved from her spot against the wall and joined Cas on the couch, snuggling up close to him.
Cas swallowed hard and held his breath as he walked outside to join his older brother. Michael was sitting on the bench outside with Rachel gazing up at the incredibly clear night sky.
"Hey guys…um…can I talk to you for a sec Mike?" Cas stammered and Michael nodded. He kissed Rachel's forehead before pulling Cas to the other side of the porch. He jumped up and sat on the railing while Mike leaned his hip against it.
"What's up little brother?" Michael asked. Cas looked at him and blew out the breath he'd been holding.
"I…ugh…Michael…" Cas let out a groan running his fingers through his hair. Michael stood there patiently not wanting to push him.
"I think…Lily and I are ready…" He finally pushed out. Michael's eyes widened and his mouth dropped open.
"Oh…um…" Michael's face turned a little pale and it comforted Cas to know he wasn't the only nervous one.
"W-what do you need?" Michael cleared his throat and stood a little taller, trying to be the supportive older brother. Cas laughed a little and wrung his hands together.
"I really don't know what I'm doing…and I swear to god if you tell me to watch porn," Cas groaned and Michael barked out a laugh.
"Who the hell have you been talking to? Jesus," Michael wiped at his mouth trying to stifle the chuckling. Cas shrugged and couldn't help but snicker.
"Castiel…the first time is going to be bad…I'm telling you that right now. No matter how much you try to prep and get them…ready….it will hurt like a bitch for her," Michael said softly and Cas flinched. He knew that from his talks with the girls.
"You just have to try your hardest to not freak out…if you stay strong she can cling to that and use it to ground herself…"
"I'll try…Mike…do you have…um…" Cas blushed scarlet and thankfully his brother knew what he was trying to ask. He reached into his wallet and pulled out a condom, handing it to Cas.
"Even though I think you're way to young and moving…really fast…I'm glad you came to talk to me…and being careful. Good luck buddy," Michael said with a small smile. Cas mumbled thanks before slipping the condom into his pocket. He hopped off the railing and headed back inside. Everyone was still in their same spots, Skylar and Balthazar were still doing their duet performance. He smiled over at them before moving over to where Lily was sitting. He took her hand and silently pulled her down the hall and into their room.
"Cas…you ok?" She asked softly. He gave her a smile and moved in to kiss her, his hands cupping the sides of her face. She let out a soft sigh, her arms snaking around his middle, pulling him closer to her. Slowly he walked them over to the bed, gently pushing Lily down to lie on it. Biting her lip, she crawled back, pulling on his shirt for him to follow her.
His anxiety was trying its hardest to shove through but every touch of her hands or sigh that escaped her lips seemed to push it down. He wanted this so badly but he was scared…he didn't want to hurt her. It was normal yes but that didn't mean he had to be ok with it. He traced his fingers along the side of her face, begging for entrance to her mouth with his tongue. She ran her tongue teasingly slow along his before allowing him to lick inside her mouth. Their tongues rolled and teased the other as their breathing turned into ragged panting.
Soon the need for skin was to great and all the gentle touches were thrown out the window. Lily sat up and pulled on his shirt, throwing it away from them as he peeled off her flannel letting it join his on the floor. He sucked on her shoulder loving the breathless moan she gave him as his fingers unhooked her bra.
"You're so beautiful Lil," He whispered pressing their lips together, kissing her hard and full of passion. She whimpered and her fingers pulled on his hair a bit. He moved between her legs, grinding their groins together as they kissed.
"Cas….I want you…please baby," the begging whine in her voice sent a shudder though his spine and he couldn't help biting her shoulder.
"Are you sure?" He asked looking into her face.
"Yes…I love you so much Cas…please," She whimpered and her hips canted up against his.
"I love you too Lily….god I love you so fucking much," Cas groaned kissing his way down her neck and chest. Stopping to pay attention to her hard nipples, taking time to suck each into his mouth until she was a quivering mess. He slowed his ragged breathing and his hands trembled a bit as he unbuttoned her jeans, pulling them down her long legs. When her eyes closed again, he reached into his pocket to pull the condom out, placing it on the nightstand next to them.
His fingers hooked into the band of her panties and he held his breath, letting them join the rest of their scattered clothes. Her body shuddered and she bit her lip hard. He sent her a grin before leaning down to lick up her slit, his middle finger teasing against her hole.
"Fuck…oh god Cas!" She whined and suddenly he was being pushed down into the bed, Lily straddling his waist. Her mouth moved quickly down his chest and stomach, stopping only to flick along his hipbone. He groaned out and raised his hips up when her fingers pulled on his jeans. His heart was thudding in his chest watching her undress him with such heat in her eyes. It found him once again praying to god that this wasn't just a dream…that he wouldn't wake up to find himself back to where he was in the beginning of the year…before he met her.
Her eyes found his and they shared a knowing look…and he knew she was scared that this was all a dream as well…he yanked on her hand, pulling her flush against him. He rolled and kissed her hard, pressing his hands into hers above her head. She moaned into his mouth and her hips began to move against him. There was only one piece of clothing between them and he swallowed hard. This was it…he sat up on his haunches and he nervously pushed his briefs down, jumping a little when her hands joined his, helping guide them down his legs.
"Oh god Cas…" She shuddered, fingers wrapping around his shaft pumping a few times before Cas pulled away, not wanting to be too close to the edge.
"Lily…" it was getting harder to draw in an actual breath, he closed his eyes and tried to calm himself. Her fingers tangled in his hair and he felt her lips on his forehead.
"I'm ready baby…please…I want you so much," she moaned and Cas opened his eyes. She looked nervous but she wasn't scared anymore and it calmed him greatly. He pressed their lips together as his hand reached out to grab the condom but Lily held onto his wrist. He saw her swallow hard as she ripped it open with her teeth. Her hands shook a little and he couldn't help the moan when her fingers pushed the condom onto his throbbing cock.
She pulled him down against her and kissed him eagerly, her tongue pushing into his mouth. Cas concentrated on sucking on her tongue, trying to get her mind off of it when he guided himself into her tight wet heat. He moaned into her mouth as the head of his dick pushed in. She moaned into his mouth and her kissing became hungrier. He went slow and kept pushing in until he met a resistance and knew that this was it. Pressing his hands into hers again above her head, he kissed with everything he had, sucking hard on her tongue as he made the final push. She cried out in pain and he struggled against pulling away to make sure she was ok. He kept kissing her, one of his hands cupping the side of her face, his body stilling when he felt a tear. She pressed her face into his neck and tried to catch her breath.
"I'm so sorry Lily," He felt his throat tighten with guilt. He knew she was in pain but he couldn't deny how good it felt finally being inside of her. She was so tight and hot…it was overwhelming his brain and he had to fight every urge to start pounding into that wet heat. His hands gripped hers as he fought himself, but she shook her head and surprised him with kissing along his neck and shoulder.
"I'm ok Cas…I promise," She whispered and kissed him on the mouth which he greedily returned. When her hips started to move against his and a moan escaped her throat, he bit down on his lip as he pulled out just a bit, then thrusted back inside of her. She threw her head back and whimpered loudly, her legs wrapping around his waist tightly.
"Oh my god that feels good," she grunted when he pushed into her a bit harder. He looked down at her and felt his entire being shudder when she grinned up at him, her hands pulling out of his to tangle into his hair.
"Move Cas…please," She begged and he couldn't hold back any more. He started to move his hips faster and a little harder and soon Lily was moaning and crying out his name, turning his mind to utter goo.
"Fuck Cas…harder!" She cried out and he rose up on his arms to get some leverage as he complied, slamming their hips together. He was so close and he didn't know how much longer he could hold off…it felt too fucking good. Especially when she started to clench around him.
"Lily…fuck…baby girl I'm so close!" His gasp turned into a shout when her nails dragged down his back.
"Me too baby," Cas moved his angle a bit and Lily's back arched off the bed, "Right there…oh fuck! Right there Castiel!" She was on the verge of screaming and Cas was right there with her, crying out her name over and over again as they both hit their climax, coming completely undone in each other's arms. Cas collapsed on top of her trying to catch his breath. His entire body was shaking and he didn't want to move…even when he tried she wouldn't let him.
"I don't want to crush you," He panted against her sweat-slicked skin.
"You're not…I don't want you to move…it feels too good," she mewled, her lips brushing along his shoulder.
After several minutes Cas finally rolled off of her, lying on his back with his eyes closed. His mind was still reeling and lost in the lust haze surrounding his brain. He glanced over at Lily and grinned at the smug grin on her face.
"You ok?" He asked moving to lie on his side, propping his head up on his hand. She nodded but winced when she moved her legs a little. He swallowed hard and glanced down, feeling the color drain from his face. She cupped his cheek making him look at her instead.
"Hey…don't…that's normal…I'm fine just really sore," She said kissing him gently on the lips.
"But…there's so much…" She cut him off with another kiss and he sighed against her.
"I love you Castiel," She whispered and Cas felt his throat tighten.
"I love you too Lily," He sighed heavily and pressed their foreheads together, "Wanna take a bath?" She nodded and he helped her pull on a shirt while he pulled on some pj pants. He picked her up and carried her towards the master bathroom that was thankfully attached to the bedroom. Making sure the doors were all locked he started the bath. Crawling in behind her when it was all ready.
Lily woke slowly, her eyes fluttering open against the bright light streaming through their windows. She bit her lip as she stretched out her sore limbs…but it was a pleasant soreness. Memories of last night crashed into her brain and she tried to suppress the giggle. After the initial pain…it had felt so good, making everything else they had done pale in comparison. Finally feeling all that hardness deep inside of her…it made her body shudder and though she was still tender, she was getting wet just thinking about having him again.
She looked over her shoulder at him, he was sprawled out on his back snoring softy. She grinned and rolled over to face him, her hand tracing little spirals on his bare stomach. He had been so good to her…taking care of her when they had finished. She will never regret loosing her virginity to him…not matter what happens in the future…this will never be something she'd ever take back.
A moan came out of his mouth and she grinned, looking down to see how hard he was. She wanted him again so bad…it was almost annoying…licking her dry lips she pulled the blanket off of them and shivered at his slowly growing cock. She moved down and kept her eyes on his face when she traced the vein up to his head, dipping her tongue into his slit. He let out a sleepy moan, her name being muttered out. Her heart swelled and she slid his member into her mouth fully, sucking on it slowly. She couldn't help but get a little addicted to the way he tasted. The rumors always told her that it would taste nasty, she was thankful that she actually liked it. It was dirty but she loved kissing him after sucking him dry…especially if he had her taste on his tongue as well. She moaned around his throbbing shaft and he cried out above her. She rolled her eyes up too look at him, pulling off slowly as his eyes opened lazily.
"Shit…I thought that was a dream…" He groaned out rubbing his face.
"It started off as a dream…but I got too eager with this mere inches away from me," She grinned and sucked her way down until she could swallow his head down into her throat. Cas let out a loud cry as he exploded into her mouth and she swallowed eagerly, moaning lewdly around him.
"Jesus Lily…" He panted with a little laugh. She crawled back up to him and pecked his lips.
"Morning baby…let's get some breakfast," She went to get up but he pulled her back down against him.
"What about you?" He asked biting his lip, his hand trailing up her leg. She grinned and kissed him.
"Later…I'm still a little sore. Now come on…I'm hungry," She grabbed his hand and pulled him roughly off the bed.
Over the next few days they found ways to occupy their time between snow ball fights, walks, and the lake had froze over enough to allow them to go ice skating. Most of the time all of them found themselves sitting around the fire watching old movies.
Even though it was no secret what Lily and Cas had done…they were genuinely surprised that no one teased them…not even Balthazar. They got plenty of knowing looks from Skylar but everyone else just seemed to play oblivious to it. Lily didn't mind though…she was sure once they got back into the city they would start in on them.
Once they were in their own rooms for the night, Lily and Cas explored each other completely now that there were no barriers between them. Cas was finding himself getting more and more obsessed with how sensitive Lily got after her first orgasm and how much sweeter she tasted. He loved getting her to cum first with his fingers then licking her clean, only to get her randy all over again. She was just as bad with him, it wasn't enough that she got him off with her mouth…but would get him hard all over again to ride him relentlessly…something else he was really loving.
But even though it was amazing between them and he was constantly in a haze from it…something else as nagging at him. And it only seemed to grow when Skylar was near them. Something curled into his stomach when he saw him around Lily…but he realized it wasn't entirely a bad feeling…just extremely confusing.
It was Christmas Eve and they only had a couple more days here…and Cas didn't want to leave.
Everyone was outside having their daily snowball fight and Cas found himself chasing Skylar into the woods. He lost him for a moment but grunted when he got tackled down into the snow. Skylar hovered over him laughing, his hand reaching out to brush some snow off his face.
"Sorry buddy…got a little carried away," He snickered.
"It's alright," Cas laughed and felt his face flush as those gray blue eyes settled on him…glancing down to his lips. Cas licked his lips and watched as those eyes tracked his movements carefully. Skylar let out a groan and gasped when he pushed their lips together, the kiss heated and eager. Cas lost his mind for a split second and even started to return the kiss when he shot up, shoving Skylar away from him.
His friend covered his mouth and stared at him with fear-riddled eyes. Cas's chest was heaving, struggling to fight against the crushing anxiety. What the hell was wrong with him? This couldn't be happening!
"Cas…fuck…I am so sorry! I…god…I don't know what the hell came over me…please I am so sorry!" Skylar begged and Cas spared a glance at him. He wanted to scream and yell at his friend…why would he kiss him? He wasn't gay…but…fuck that kiss and he couldn't deny that he had always found Skylar gorgeous…but Lily! How could he fucking do this to her? Cas covered his face with his hands and let out a cry of frustration.
"Cas…I never meant for that to happen…I love Lily to death…I would never try to come in between you…"
"Shut up Skylar…please…" Cas groaned still hiding behind his hands. This was a fucking mess…how selfish could he be? They were at her cabin, she had given him herself completely…it was Christmas Eve and here he was…kissing their friend in the snow. He felt like a total jackass.
He lowered his hands and looked at the guilt stricken Skylar. Cas tried to hate him…but he just couldn't deny it anymore…it was suddenly very clear to him. All those feelings, the tightness in his chest whenever he was around…he just didn't know how he could even tell her. She would hate him…throw him away and never speak to him. But he couldn't keep this from her…He pulled himself out of the snow and when Skylar made to help him Cas flinched away from him.
"Castiel…I am so sorry…" He whispered and Cas nodded, holding his hand out to keep his distance. Without a word, Cas left the cover of the trees and he wanted to burst out crying. Lily was standing by the house laughing freely with Balthazar and Ruby while Charlie and Michael were making snow angels. He knew he should wait to tell her but there was no way he'd be able to hide it…she read him like an open book. He trudged over to them and with one glance her face fell from that happy smile to complete worry.
"Cas….what's wrong?" She asked and he couldn't handle it. He pulled away from her and ran into the house, throwing himself into a corner of their room. He heard the worried voices of his friends but he couldn't face them. He sank down and hugged his knees close to his chest.
"Let me talk to him," he heard Lily through the door and he panicked…he wasn't ready to loose all of this…to loose her. He tried to scramble up to his feet when she entered the room. She locked the door and hurried over to him, kneeling down.
"Baby what the hell happened?"
"Don't…don't call me that please," he whimpered as the tears began to fall. She jerked away as if she was burned.
"Did…did I do something wrong?" She asked and he shook his head vehemently. She tried to take his hand but he jerked away from her.
"Cas…you're really starting to scare me….talk to me please," She begged and he met her gaze. Her eyes were filling with tears but she held them back, his heart was going to explode.
"I'm so sorry Lily…" He gasped out and shuddered when a tear slipped down her cheek.
"Tell me what's wrong so I can help you…"
"I'm scared…"
"Cas…it's me…you have nothing to be scared of," She sniffled and tentatively put her hand on his, this time he let her. He didn't deserve her comforting him…it was killing him but he wanted to wrap himself in her arms and have her keep telling him it was all going to be ok.
"Yes I do…Lil…something happened…between me and Skylar," Cas whispered and watched her face. She just stared at him and blinked a few times. When she didn't say anything he swallowed hard , "He…kissed me and…I for a split second kissed him back," He said quickly. She blinked a few more times and fell back on her butt, her eyes staring at the floor.
"Lily…I am so sorry…"
"Are…are you gay?" She asked so suddenly Cas was taken aback.
"Cause…Cas….if you are…we're best friends….that will never change…I'll…I'll support you," She stammered out as the tears flowed freely down her face. He stared at her and couldn't even find the words. She didn't hate him…she wasn't throwing him away….before he could even think he launched himself at her, kissing her with so much eagerness, Lily could do nothing but kiss him back.
After a few moments of very heated kissing Lily finally pushed him away enough to look into his face, "Cas…you're confusing the fuck out of me!" She cried out and it was the closest he had ever seen her angry. He laughed shaking his head, kissing her forehead.
"Lily…I'm…I'm not gay…but…I think I am attracted to guys," he confessed and she just stared at him. He grunted when she pushed him off of her roughly.
"Cas! You scared the holy shit out of me! You…you can't fucking do that me!" She yelled her face going red. He stared up at her and couldn't help but grin.
"So…wait…you're ok with me being bi?" he asked and she glared at him.
"Cas…really? Of course I'm fine with you being bi…it's better than you being full on gay…cause then I would loose you," She whispered rubbing her forehead. Cas got up to his knees crawling over to her. He took her hands and kissed her forehead again.
"I'm sorry…I honestly thought you would hate me…especially since I kissed Skylar," He blushed and she gave him a devious smirk.
"Baby…what I'm about to tell you is going to make your little confession pale in comparison…I've known for a while that you were into Skylar," She laughed and Cas felt his face pale.
"Wait…what?! How could have known? I didn't know until just now!"
"Because I know you…and you weren't exactly subtle. And to tell you the truth…I found it…well…hot," She bit her lip and Cas stared at her with his mouth hanging open.
"So…is that why you blushed every time?" he narrowed his eyes at her and she laughed.
"Part of the reason anyway…what? The boy is crazy gorgeous and thinking of him with you…yeah it got me a little worked up," She snickered and Cas felt like he was going to pass out.
"So…you would be ok with me being with him? I'm so confused," Castiel groaned leaning back against the bed. Lily sat next to him and took his hand.
"I honestly don't know…this is all so new to me as well Cas…I mean we'll figure it out as we go along…but for right now…I really don't think I'd mind seeing you with Skylar," She said with conviction.
"Lily…as much as I think it would be fun to explore this whole thing…I really don't want an open relationship…. I'd feel like I was cheating on you," he said tracing his fingers along the inside of her palm.
"I don't think I want that either…I think for now, we should just see where it goes," She said and he nodded, leaning over to give her a small kiss. They stayed sitting together for a while before getting up to join the others. Cas looked around for Skylar and found him sulking over by the trees outside. He bit his lip and felt a little nudge on his back. He knew it was Lily and nodded, walking over to him.
"Hey…can we talk?" Cas asked softly. Skylar met his eyes and nodded, he got up and followed him into the trees.
"Cas…I feel horrible…." He started but Cas held out his hand to silence him.
"Don't…it made me realize something about myself and I got scared…especially when I thought Lily would break up with me…but we talked about it," Cas said leaning up against a tree. Skylar nodded crossing his arms over his chest.
"And?"
"Well…she's…actually ok with it, even the part where you kissed me…" he laughed and Skylar let out a long breath of relief.
"Oh thank god…I was freaking out…I really didn't want to come between you two and I honestly…didn't know where that came from," Skylar smiled and Cas bit his lip. He felt the overwhelming need to kiss him…he grabbed the back of Sky's neck and pulled him down, pressing their lips together. Skylar kissed him back for a moment before pulling away.
"Whoa…wait," Skylar laughed and Cas frowned up at him, "I really like you Cas…I do…but I can't do this…I'm 100% gay," Skylar said and Cas felt his face settle deeper into a frown.
"Look…I have a feeling I know where this going to end up…and as much as I can appreciate how beautiful Lily is…I'm not the guy for you two," Skylar smiled and realization sunk into his brain. He laughed and nodded.
"Yeah…ok…sorry," Cas bit his lip and Skylar reached out to give him a hug.
"No hard feelings….still friends right?" He asked.
"Of course…thanks for understanding," Cas replied and rubbed the back of his neck.
They made their way out of the woods and Cas's eyes searched for Lily, she glanced over at him and smiled. Cas walked over and took her hand, leaning down to kiss her.
"Everything ok?" she asked touching the side of his face.
"Mmhmm…Skylar said something interesting though…I'll tell you about it later," Cas said and wrapped his arms around her.
The next few hours they spent playing in the snow and hanging out in the family room. Soon it was night and everyone climbed into their beds.
Lily snuggled into Cas and he smiled, pulling her even closer.
"So…you gonna tell me?" she asked and he laughed.
"Well…we were talking and I kissed him….but he stopped me…saying that he wasn't the guy for us…and it made me think…" he said and she raised her head to look at him.
"Huh…wow…really?" She asked and he snickered.
"It makes a lot of sense…you got turned on thinking about him with me…and I never admitted it…but when I saw you two together earlier, the thought crossed my mind and it didn't piss me off like the thought of you and Balth did…" Cas said his fingers running up and down her back. Lily grinned and rested her chin on his chest.
"Well…that is different. Now that that's all figured out…we don't have to go psycho analyzing it…if we meet someone, we meet someone," Cas felt himself nod and settle deeper into the bed, Lily snuggling closer.
The next morning Cas woke up to the wonderful smell of pancakes and sausage. He grinned and opened his eyes, Lily was already sitting up stretching out her body. Biting his lip he yanked her back on the bed and she yelped.
"Merry Christmas baby," he said and kissed her, pressing their bodies together. She giggled dragging her hands through his hair, sucking his bottom lip between hers.
"Come on, lets go get some food and open presents," Cas grinned getting up but Lily pulled him back, pecking his lips.
"I want you to open yours now…" Lily got up and made her way to her bag, pulling out a wrapped box, placing it on his lap. Cas eyed her and bit his lip, slowly ripping the paper off.
"Lily…is…this what I think it is?" he stared at her with wide eyes. He lifted the lid and held his breath, inside was an old 35mm camera.
"It used to belong to my dad…he loved photography and he would have loved to meet you…"Lily said with tears in her eyes.
"I can't…Lily you should keep this…" He said softly but she shook her head.
"No…Cas…I want you to have it. Please?" She asked and he finally nodded, running his fingers over the camera.
"I love you Lily….so much," He said pulling her close and kissing her deeply.