Chapter 10
Just a note for the beginning. I know I have probably disappointed you in the past year with no updates, but I have been through so much. It was my last year in high school and I meant to update, but I was so busy. But it's summer now and I am ready to finish this out (: Please stay with me! I PROMISE I will finish this! Enjoy!
Damon sat next to me in my car as we drove towards the old house. Bryn sat in the back with Collin. It was awkward. Bryn sat close to the door and Damon sat there, his hands folded in his lap, his head down.
I gripped the wheel hard, almost breaking it. Damon seemed the same. Maybe a little more reserved and grumpy. But he seemed like himself. But he was a hybrid. I had to know.
"Is it easy?" I asked him.
Damon looked up at me. "What?"
"Being a hybrid? Is it easy? I always think about what I would have done if I would have drank human blood that day and became a hybrid."
Damon looked out of the window, shrugging. "I'm so used to it now. But in the beginning it was hard. I was honestly not myself. Logan had complete control over me. He sort of… saved me in a way. I know you probably think I'm stupid for saying that, but he did. Being a hybrid is no different than being a wolf. I can still change on my own. I can still do all of the things that I was born with. But they are only enhanced. I thought I would have to feed on blood. I don't absolutely have to. Every now and then you have to, but it doesn't have to come from a living person. I actually hate attacking people to get blood. I just attack animals. It's pretty much the same thing. A little bitter, but it works. At least for me it does. Everyone is different. I found that out from Logan and others."
"Others?" I asked him. He turned around to look at Bryn. I looked at Bryn in my rearview mirror. She bit her lip and looked down at her hands.
"Logan has turned a handful of others. He wanted a pack of hybrids. He said he was preparing for something big. Something that we all had to be ready for," Damon looked at me.
I stared straight ahead, trying to take in what Damon was telling me.
"Alex. If you don't want to get caught, you might want to pull over here and walk the rest of the way," Damon told me.
I shook my head and slowly pulled over, coming to a complete stop.
Damon got out of the car, along with Bryn.
"Do you really believe him Alex? I don't trust him," Collin told me as they shut their doors.
"He is all we have to get that book so I can get my wolf back. Collin… I need my wolf back. You have no clue what it is like without your wolf. It is a life of misery. I feel like I have lost myself. I am not myself without it."
Collin just nodded and got out of the car. I followed, shutting the door behind me and taking in a deep breath. This was the woods I remembered. At least this part of town wasn't torn down.
"We were lucky that they didn't tear this part of town down," Damon said as if reading my mind. "They wanted to keep something of the woods and they kept this. Funny… like they must have known about us or something." Damon shrugged and all of a sudden shifted, walking ahead, making sure the way was clear.
Collin shifted as well, staying close to my side. Bryn walked next to me, her head down, kicking stones.
"Bryn, what is bothering you?" I asked her. She just shrugged and walked ahead of me. I looked down at Collin who was quickly watching back and forth for anything that might attack me.
As we walked, I thought about if I really wanted this. If I really wanted my wolf. Maybe I should just let Nigel kill me and have this all be over with. When he killed me before, I should have went with my family. But instead I am too stupid and stayed, only to cause myself more trouble.
A crack of thunder clapped above our heads. I looked up and noticed clouds covering the sky. I smelled the air. It was definitely going to rain. Damon shifted back to him human form.
"Okay. I have an idea to get you inside. I'll bring in Collin and to them you are just a human. So pretend you are lost. I'll let you in, you can spend the night and while they sleep you can search for this book. You really are just a human to them. Nobody in there will know you. Everyone from the original pack as either stayed a wolf for good or has chosen to stay human. So you are safe," Damon stopped and turned towards me.
The rain started to fall and I stood there shivering. Damon chuckled and the looked at Collin. "Follow me."
Collin whined a little bit. I looked down at him and smiled. "Collin. Go with him. I'll be fine."
He showed me his teeth and then padded after Damon and Bryn. I stood there in the rain, watching them go. I sighed. What if I ran away now? Did I really need to go through all this trouble to get a damn book to get my wolf back?
A strike of lighting lite up the sky. The sound of the thunder made me jump a little bit. I started walking towards the house. I haven't been here in forever. I never really wanted to come back. Once I get that book I am leaving.
I see the house in my view and I sort of smile. It still looks the same. Even through the rain, I could see where I would sit on the roof on full moon nights and stare at the sky and think. I could see the porch swing where I would sit and wait for Scott.
Scott. I shook my head. I couldn't think about him right now. I just couldn't. No matter how much I still loved him, he's gone.
I walked up the stairs, onto the porch and knocked on the door.
"Hello?" I called. "Is anyone home?"
A few seconds later, a girl answered the door. "What?" She asked not very nicely. But I smiled.
"My car broke down during the storm and my phone is dead. Could I come in and use your phone?" I asked her.
I noticed her flash he wolf eyes at me. Something a human would not notice but she kept doing it. I narrowed my eyes at her. If only she knew who I was.
"Marissa. What is going on?" Damon came up behind the girl and looked at me.
"She said her car broke down and her phone died. She wants to use our phone to call someone," Marissa said to Damon.
Damon looked from Marissa to me. "It's alright Marissa," He frowned, trying to come up with something to say. "The phone is not working though. A power line must have gone down in the storm. But you can spend the night if you want to. The woods aren't really safe at night, especially in a storm."
"Thanks," I replied.
Marissa sort of growled. "Damon. He won't like that."
Damon shot her a look. He walked closer to her and whispered something in her ear that I didn't catch. She gave me a look and then walked away.
"What was that?" I whispered at him.
He just shrugged it off and I followed him upstairs.
He led me to my old room. Damon opened the door. "Nobody had been in here since you left. They respected the great Alex too much to mess with it. Wait until about 2 in the morning and then go look for you book and get out of here."
I watched Damon close the door behind me. I turned to face my room. It was exactly the same as when I left it. I looked out the window to see strikes of lightning overhead. I was here because of a book. That's all. As soon as I get my hands on that book, I am leaving. I am leaving Damon, I am leaving this pack and I am leaving Collin. Collin didn't need to be dragged into my shit. Though, he might be already if Nigel finds out he is my brother.
The door opened and Collin walked in. I sat down on my bed, my back to him.
"You alright?" He asked me, sitting next to me, looking out the window.
I nodded slightly. "Yeah. Just busy thinking, that's all."
Collin nodded and looked at the ground. "Pretty interesting pack. They are like nothing I've seen before."
I gritted my teeth. "I know. That's because they are all half vampire and half werewolf."
"What?" Collin asked, standing up quickly.
"Logan figured out how to make half vampires and half werewolves out of my pack. Though, I think he made them choose. Most of my original pack has moved on. These are all new people who don't know me. But they are all monsters. Something I should be," I muttered.
"Alex. You are not one of them." Collin told me, kneeling down in front of me, rubbing my knee.
"Collin, you realize if I would have drunk human blood, I would be what they are? If I drank human blood now, I would become a vampire. After all these years, that could still happen to me! I hate what they all are! I hate it. If I ever became what they are, I would not be myself. I know that for a fact. I see it in Damon so fucking much! I want my wolf back. I want my old life back. I want my parents back. I want Scott back," I blurted out.
Tears were now rolling down my face. This wasn't me. But I have held it in for long. It just all came out at once and I couldn't stop it.
Collin pulled me up off of the bed and pulled me into a hug. "Alex. I have only known you for so long and I can tell you that you are amazing. Anybody can see that you are meant for great things. And as your brother, I am here to help you find those things. We are going to do this together. No matter what."
That made me cry more. I couldn't drag Collin into this. He has too much of a good life to be dragged into mine.
I pushed him away. "Collin," I sniffed. "When this is over and I get that book, I am leaving. You need to go back home and leave me. Forget about me. You can't find me, you can know where I am. I can't risk having Nigel knowing who you are and end up killing you. If he is out there, he probably already knows everything about you. It has turned into the worst situation and you can't be dragged in more."
"But I don't want to go home. Alex, you are my home now. Anywhere my sister goes, I go. I don't care about this Nigel guy. I don't care what he can do. Alex, no matter what, I am sticking with you till the end." Collin stood his ground.
I bit my lip and just took a deep breath. Collin walked across the room and sat on a chair. He ran his fingers through is hair.
"I'm beat," he said. He leaned back in the chair and closed his eyes.
"Collin. Get out of that chair and sleep in the bed. I'm not tired," I told him, walking over, pulling him out of the chair.
"You sure? You should really get some sleep," Collin said.
"I'll be fine. I know I won't be able to sleep. I'll wake you up when I need to look for the book," I told him.
Collin nodded and flopped himself onto my bed. He dug his face into the pillows and was out cold in a matter of minutes.
I sat down in the chair, watching the lightning light up the room.
I closed my eyes and out of my surprise, fell asleep.
Run. I had to run. I had to get away. That's what I was doing.
My legs felt weak and my body was cut up from running through woods. I didn't know why I was running, but I was running from something.
Something black out of the corner of my eye came at me and made me trip and fall to the ground.
I covered my head, fearing for my life. I couldn't do anything.
Someone grabbed me and pulled me to my feet, pinning me by my neck to a nearby tree.
"You are dead. Don't even try to fight," Nigel hissed at me. I struggled in his grip. Behind him stood Logan, Scott and Damon. All the men in my life that have made it the best and hell at the same time.
I felt tears rolling down my face. "Why do you want to kill me so badly?" I asked Nigel.
Nigel laughed. "Did you hear that guys? She asked why I want to kill her so bad." He stopped laughing and got in my face. "You know exactly why I want to kill you so badly."
"Is this all because I killed your son all those years ago? Get over it old man. It was one son. You brainwashed another. You are good to go. Why do you want me? There has to be more than that," I spit at him.
Nigel let go of me. I fell to the ground, rubbing my neck. I didn't even try to run. I sat there on my knees.
"Your wolf is gone. You can't do anything without it. You are useless. I could kill you any time I wanted. But, I've been thinking. Maybe, just maybe, I turn you. If I put human blood in your system, you would turn. I know you would not be the same person. I could use you as a weapon. My own weapon of destruction. You would be better than Scott ever will be, just because of who you are," Nigel smiled and looked down at me.
I sat there, taking all this in. He wanted to use me as a weapon. But for what?
"Why a weapon? Why would you need me? And how do you know I wouldn't turn against you like Scott did once?" I asked him.
Nigel frowned at this. "Why I need you as a weapon is for me to know, and you to find out when you are needed. And to make sure you don't turn against me, I have my ways. Logan is still on my side and he is the one responsible for biting you and turning your half way. He will have control of you and I have control of him. Every vampire made is tied to their maker. So, either way, you are mine."
I lunged at Nigel, grabbing for his throat. Scott made the first move and he pulled me away from Nigel.
"I will kill you before you have a chance! I will rip your head off and make sure you never come back! Even if that's mean killing them in the process!" I screamed at all of them.
Scott grip tighten on me. Nigel got up and growled at me. "You just wait Alexandra Mercer. I have a lot in store for you."
Nigel walked off with Damon and Logan at his side.
Scott still held onto me. I tried to get out of his grip but he wouldn't let me go.
I felt his lips touched my ear and then I heard him whisper something in my ear.
"Help me."
"ALEX! WAKE UP!" I heard someone yelled. I opened my eyes quickly and lunged at whoever woke me up.
I was on top of Damon, my hand on his throat, my face in his.
I back up off of him and got against a wall. "Sorry," I breathed.
Damon looked at me startled. He got up quickly and motioned towards the hall way. "Come on. Let's find this damn book and get you out of here."
I followed Damon and Collin out of the room, but all I could hear in my head and Scott's voice. Scott's voice saying Help me. Scott was still there. I knew he was. Even if that was a dream, it felt real and Scott needed me more than ever. Once I find this book, I am getting my wolf back and I am killing Nigel again and I am making sure he says dead this time.