*CAUTION: TRIGGERING THOUGHTS OF SUICIDE. PLEASE READ AT YOUR OWN RISK*

Ch. 9

Stop! He doesn't deserve tears! He doesn't……..doesn't feel the same. Alec's head screamed as he walked along the streets of New York.

He ran down the streets of New York. Alec didn't know where he was going. Frankly, he didn't care either. He just needed to run, to get away. All noises faded away and all Alec could hear was the thumping of his heart in his ears. His vision blurred as exhaustion swept over him. When was the last time he had slept? Two-three nights ago. His footsteps stumbling over one another, until….finally his legs gave out from underneath him.

Alec fell onto the concrete, his hands stopping his face hitting first. He was too tired to get up. His arms shaking and his head pounding.

"Oh my god, let me call and ambulance, sir!" A voice yelled.

Alec lifted his head. His hearing returning to normal. The cars and pedestrian coming back into his vision.

Slowly and shaking, he tore himself off the ground and stood up. The stranger pleaded him to stay, Alec just shook his head. And forced himself to take one step after another ignoring the pain as he continued into New York.

Night fell. The sky had turned black. No stars could be seen. Even the moon couldn't be seen from behind massive dark clouds. It was raining — great timing Mother Nature — and Alec was completely soaked. At this rate he could get hypothermia, but he didn't care.

So what if I die? No one will miss me anyways? I'm already a disappointment to them, right?

Alec passed a bridge and like a magnet he stepped onto the railing. Someone screamed in the distance.

Alec's head exploded into pain. A voice screaming at him, no not screaming……. laughing. Alec screamed, his feet slipping, and his body shaking so bad.

"ALEC! Don't do it!"

Alec turned around. That voice didn't sound familiar.

It was another shadowhunter. A tall, pale man, with dirty blonde hair, and green eyes. The runes on his arms gave him away, but nobody else noticed him in the crowd of people.

Alec's foot was on the edge of the railing, "Who are you? And how do you know my name?"

The shadowhunter jumped easily up onto the railing, "My name is Sebastion and I know who you are Alec because I've heard a lot about you from your sister at the New York Institute.

A sudden protectiveness surged through him, "How do you know my sister?!"

Alec suddenly felt someone pull on his pants. A little girl was looking at him though worried eyes, "Who are you talking to, sir?"

Alec chuckled. Right, Sebastian had the invisibility rune on. They probably thought that he was crazy. "No one child."

Alec quickly activated his invisibility rune, being careful that nobody saw the stele and his rune glow. The crowd gasped and screamed, "Did he jump?", "Where did he go?" Of course mundanes, so blind.

He turned back to the shadowhunter, his fists clenching, "Why do you care what I do?"

Sebastian stepped closer, "Because Magnus needs you right now."

Alec's heart skipped a beat at the mention of Magnus, "No he doesn't! He can take care of himself like he claims!"

Sebastian frowned, "Alec, Magnus just killed the Inquisitor."

Alec froze, his heart pounding even louder than ever, "What?!"