Run. Run harder. Run faster. Just run. The thoughts came at me as if they were an attack. Don't stop. No matter what. The car sped forward as I turned onto the bridge. Keep going, don't stop for anything. Suddenly I couldn't get through the traffic; there were too many cars and not enough time, the water. I jerked the wheel quickly turning toward the edge of the bridge. They'll never find me here. I thought a silent prayer to whatever kind of God was up there. There wasn't much time, in my cup holder sat a wand, so saying a silent incantation I sent message to my only friend left in this world and then floored it. As the car went airborne there was only one thought in my mind, one thing I left unsaid, one thing that I knew would have killed me eventually. I love you Gwen.
"NOO!" I jerked awake suddenly. There was sweat all over my pillow and tears were streaming down my cheeks. My breath came in short gasps and suddenly those gasps turned to overwhelming sobs that had me shaking in fear. There was one thought in my head as I relived the memory my brother had left me with that night, I love you too Arthur.
"Gwendolyn?" A voice whispered next to me, "Doll? Are you okay? Gwen?" Arms wrapped around me hoping to stop the shaking but nothing changed I couldn't even look over at the boy next to me. "Can you hear me? DOLL!" he shouted, "SAY SOMETHING?" I only sobbed louder in response causing the shaking to increase and more cold chills to cover my arms. "Brian? Nick? Jenner? SOMEONE!" He shouted louder letting me go for just a moment to open the curtains around us.
"What?" An angry voice across the room shouted.
"Something's wrong." The boy next to me replied.
"Shit." Another voice said.
"What do we do?" a third voice added.
"Severus. Take her to Severus." A familiar voice concluded. "He helped her with this last summer. Take her to Severus."
Suddenly the same arms that first held me were wrapped around my body again and this time he lifted upward to carry me out the door. "Brian, come with us." My carrier shouted. Another boy followed as he raced down the steps.
I could not see through the tears that overwhelmed me. All I could see was the water coming closer and closer through the windshield. All I could hear were the screams of my pursuers as they chased me down and the shouts of pedestrians as they watched me plummet to my death. All I could taste was the blood in my mouth from a bitten tongue. All I could feel was the seat belt digging into my chest and fear, pure unadulterated fear.
"SEVERUS!" The boy carrying me shouted as he burst through a door. "HELP! SEVERUS!"
"What the hell is going- oh my god." A man exclaimed. "Put her on the table."
The boy carrying me laid me down on a hard wood surface and my shivers got even more violent. My tears got heavier and suddenly I wasn't breathing. For a moment I was light headed and dizzy, but then a great pain grew in my chest forcing me to take in a sudden breath which hurt more than the pain I was already in.
"GWENDOLYN, I need you to hear my voice." I shivered even more nearly falling off the table. "Look at me, Gwendolyn." I couldn't open my eyes without seeing the water, without seeing my inevitable death, so they stayed shut "Gwendolyn feel my hand." All I could feel was the seat belt, it was sure to leave mark red and angry, "I need you to breathe." But I could not breathe.
I could not breathe.
I was falling asleep, without breath.
I was falling through space, a space which seemed never ending. Its vast distance was unfathomable.
I was falling through the dark, pitch black surrounded me, but up ahead there was a light.
I was walking toward that light, and it beckoned me forward with its beauty and perfection.
Suddenly the light disappeared and I was no longer walking but falling once more. I was falling through the space. I was falling asleep. I was falling but this time with breath.
What's happening to me?
GHDM
"Mr. Malfoy I will only ask you to leave once more, and then I will throw you out myself. If Ms. Hasting's health makes any kind of turn I will let you know. Now, please go outside and get some fresh air, or go to the library, or maybe go eat something, but whatever you do it will not be here." Madame Pomfrey seethed as she grabbed me by the arm and all but forced me out of the hospital wing.
"But Madame-"I protested
"OUT!" She shouted before slamming the door right behind me, leaving me alone in the mid morning light. My eye lids were heavy, but there was no way I could sleep after the night I'd just had. My stomach grumbled, but there was no way I could keep food down after what I'd just seen. I was in desperate need of a shower, but I feared I would turn into the sobbing girl I'd held last night. I did the only thing that would keep me sane.
Breaking into the broom storage was not exactly the hardest thing to do in the world. It took a simple charm that each of the prefects and quidditch captains knew by heart, the only problem was I had no wand. I resorted to kicking the door in, which worked until I realized that the shed had been left open by some careless authority figure. I grabbed the first broom in sight and ran.
I ran out onto the quidditch pitch with a broom in my hand only to find that it had already been claimed by the Gryffindor quidditch team. I swore under my breath and almost turned away when I realized that I truly didn't care. Ignoring the scene before me I mounted my broom any way and kicked off into the sky. I shot forward like a bolt of lightning and began to circle the outside of the pitch, which seemed like fair game to me, but apparently not to the Gryffindor captain.
"Oy! Malfoy!" Scar head shouted "This is a private tryout." He mounted his broom and flew straight in front of me, blocking my path. "Get out. I don't want you spying on our new team."
"Trust me potter if I were spying you'd have no idea." I grumbled as I attempted to fly around him again only to have him stop me once more. "God Damnit Potter! Let me pass." I exploded.
"What's wrong with you Malfoy? No witty come back?" The Gryffindor asked in genuine confusion, I was not in the mood for our usual battle of wits.
"No. Not today Potter." I seethed.
"I want you off this pitch."
"Make me." I dared him. That's when he must have seen it. My almost desperate need for some type of feeling be it the wind in my hair or a punch in the face, anything other than the numbness that was starting to consume me.
"Did something happen to Gwen?" He asked with real concern, the unbiased concern of a friend who just wanted to help.
"yes." I whispered.
"Is she okay?" He prompted me.
"I wish I knew." My voice cracked on the last word.
"Where is she?"
"She's in the hospital wing, but Pomfrey isn't allowing guests. I just needed to think, I needed to just breathe for a minute…or two." I sighed, gripping my broom with one hand and wiping my face with the other.
"I know what you mean, mate." The boy sighed, looking over his shoulder he added, "You can have the pitch. I already know who I want on the team.
"Not Beardsley I hope. He looks as if he's falling off his broom." I attempted to joke with him halfheartedly.
He turned to regard the third year in question. "He's a nice kid but I think if he tried to catch a quaffle he'd fall off his broom." We both laughed halfheartedly.
"Why are you being nice to me Potter?" I asked as he turned to fly away.
"Because sometimes we need to talk, and sometimes we need to think, but at a time like this, when the girl you love is in danger, it's sometimes better not to think at all." He shrugged and turned away, but not before I said one more thing.
"I'm not in love with her." I refuted.
"Could've fooled me," With that he flew off and called his new members to the ground.
My mind was at a complete stand still, I'd just had a completely civil conversation with the person I hated most in this world. There were no insults spat, no spells were shouted, no punches thrown, and worst of all he'd assumed that I loved Gwendolyn Hasting. That was impossible no pureblood marriage ended in love. Even my parents had their relations on the side of their marriage, so there was no way in hell that I loved Gwendolyn Hasting, right?
What the hell is happening to me?
GHDM
"Gwen?" He called, "Can you hear me?" I nodded slowly opening my eyes as I did, "Don't sit up yet, you'll get dizzy."
"What happened?" I asked.
"You had some kind of dream ad it set you off again." He answered.
"No, no those stopped. Severus told me they would stop." I cried.
"And they did." He nodded.
"So why are they back, what in the world could bring them back?"
"Draco Malfoy." He answered honestly.
"You think that Draco Malfoy is bringing back my nightmares about that night?"
"I know he is." The boy nodded. "Severus just gave you time to heal, time to breathe. Draco is meant to help you move on, he'll help you forget."
"But I don't want to forget. I don't want to be all alone again." I protested.
"With Draco you won't be alone, you'll be with him. He's meant to be with you for your whole life."
"What are you talking about?" I cried.
"He is the one who will make your nightmares disappear and your dreams come alive."
"How?"
"I can't give away all my secrets now can I?" He smirked the always familiar smirk that made me smile.
"Not even for me?" I batted my eyelashes.
"Not even for you." He gave me a look of utter longing and love, "I approve you know, of you and him. Even though he's a git, I approve."
"I wish you could meet him." I sighed.
"I do too, babe, I do too." He sighed back.
"Can I stay here?" I asked, "With you?"
"No, this place isn't much of a place." He smiled.
"We could make it a place, like we used to."
"It's best not to live in the past babe."
"Not even for a moment?" I asked, I pleaded. My eyes begged for him to let me stay to let me remember this last moment forever.
"Not even for a moment, Gwendolyn." He pulled me close and placed a kiss on my forehead. I grew warm where he touched me and suddenly I could no longer touch him. "I love you, Gwen."
I sat up as if someone had shocked me with a wire everything was breathtakingly clear and I could finally see what was in front of me again. Beside me sat a sleeping Draco, whose hand sat next to mine as if he'd been holding it when he'd fallen asleep. I lightly brushed the un gelled hair on his forehead to the side and smiled at the boy next to me. Lying back, I continued to softly comb his hair away from his face, and as I fell back asleep only one thought entered my mind.
I love you too, Arthur.
GHDM
BAM! I'M BACK!So hate me all you want but this thing has had me stuck for ages and then on my way home from the beach I was hit. I'd almost decided to abandon this thing. So I know it's short and it's kind of weird-ish but I PROMISE it will make sense in a bit. So tell me if you enjoyed, tell me if you hated, tell me if you're mad, and just tell me (but I'd always like it to be positive…..) I hope everyone's summer has been beautiful. Now that I've been bitten I think I'll be updating A LOT more often. HUGS AND KISSES.