Chapter 27
Well, today was very interesting for me. I have new clothes and I can take a bath whenever I please. Being a lady has it perks; food, clothes, bed, and Shippo is safe. I don't particularly care for the rules and restricted freedom but it worth it. I haven't seen Lord Sesshoumaru in a while and that gives me comfort since I don't believe that I will be able to control what I say about him.
I did see him early today through after Sango said that I was allowed from liberty in the gardens. The gardens are really immaculate and vast. I could swim in the sunlight until the moon rises and I could drown its moonlight. All the flowers could open a trade and be successful forever and a day. They are really lucky to reside here.
I then saw a shadow blocking my sun when I lay down for a while. I opened my eyes, unfortunately, revealed white hair. My hair stood on ends and I leapt to my feet and bowed down before Lord Sesshoumaru. To my dismay, I heard laughter. It was ugly or hoarse but a wondrous sound to hear.
"Jumpy are we, Lady Kagome."
"Forgive me, Lord Sesshoumaru, I did not hear your presence," I remembered Sango's lessons about etiquette and I didn't raise my head. The grass was very interesting to study; it was so green and healthy. Just like everything else in the palace.
"Look at me, Lady Kagome," he commands.
I raised my head slowly, taking in his tall form. Finally I reached his eyes and they weren't gold but silver. Relief flooded my body at that moment.
"Hello, Reason."
"Reason?"
"Well, you are Lord Sesshoumaru's reasonable side, so it is a fitting name."
"I suppose but you should get to know both sides of me not just this one," he sits down on the grass with one arm on his propped up knee, "join me."
I also sit down on the grass but ready to leave as soon as the eyes turn back gold.
"Aware are we?"
"Yes, you are unpredictable."
"True, but I suppose that you have questions for this Sesshoumaru."
"Why can I see your changes but others cannot like Sango?"
"Well, that answer is for another time. Another question if you please."
"Why are your eyes the only thing that changed?"
"We agreed on something."
"Something that concerned me?"
"Yes."
"What was…"
"That is for another time," Sesshoumaru interrupted me before I even finished the question.
I was quiet for a while, directing my attention to the flight of a bluebird. It was flying gracefully across the skies without limits or anything.
"I wish I could fly," I mused aloud. I didn't mean to say anything to him but it slipped.
"It is against your nature."
I looked at his silver eyes and wondered why he bothered to say anything at all. However, it's true.
"You mean it is forbidden." I corrected.
"Yes."
I sighed softly and I looked again to the sky but the bluebird is gone.
"I must leave you now, Lady Kagome," and he rose to his feet.
"Yes, Lord Sesshoumaru," I began to stand with my arms on the ground to push me up, but he had a hand stretched out towards me. I stared in shock with this gesture but don't question it since he must be leaving because his other side is returning.
I am on my feet with my hand still within his. His larger hands are comforting but scary at the same time; he could crush my bones with one squeeze. All too soon though, his hand left mine and he returned to the palace and to his duties.
White hair reflecting the warm sun; sways in the gentle breeze. The tall, regal demon walks with his mind on the top of the world. Nothing could probably defeat him; except a battle of wits with me.
I returned to my room not to long after Lord Sesshoumaru had disappeared. I found some parchment and a quill on a desk in my room. I decided to keep a small journal of m writing so should anything happen to me there will be recollections of my time spent here. Perhaps these writings will one day pass to my children, if I have any, and how I went from rags to riches or back to rags again. No, I will not let my children be born to a world where they will suffer; either they will be provided for or not born at all.
As I write, I notice that my physical wounds have completely healed but mentally there are other problems. I took a quick sleep earlier today and my dream was filled with horror. Hands surrounded my entire body; touching, feeling, hurting. I couldn't move my arms or mouth. I couldn't cry or tear my eyes from the direction that the hands are coming from. There is an endless amount of hands and fingers that swarm towards me; stretching to touch my swollen flesh.
The torment seemed to last for hours which in reality it is only a few minutes but in that dream everything was dragged out and made ten times worst. Then in the darkness I heard a voice:
"Submit to me."
The voice made me what to bury myself in a dark hole; isolated from the world and the hurt. Everything would disappear in this hole and I would be alright. It reminded me of the time that I spent with in the dungeon. Lord Sesshoumaru didn't seem to say anything about that, his reasonable side that is. Maybe it isn't even sorry that he commanded my pain.