Me again. I know, you're probably getting sick of me, but here i am again. A few of you reminded me that the letter in the beginning was different from the letter in the story, and I apologise for that. The cliff diving is not coming next. I know you're by anxious for this story to end, but you're not getting rid of me yet. And now, please enjoy chapter 10.

Alice,

I thought Jake was plugging the hole, but I was wrong. He was just carving his own hole, not as bad as... Edwards, but bad enough. There's only so much of me people can take! And they've taken everything, both of them. It hurts so bad Alice. Please, please, you're my only friend. I need you.

I love you, I miss you so, so much,

Bella

A plan was settled, they all needed a holiday. Carlisle had applied for some holiday leave at the hospital, and it was spring break at the college. Carlisle, Esme, Jasper and Alice were to stay 6 weeks in Alaska with Tanya and her family. Emmett and Rosalie would only stay two, then they were off to Romania. They thought it was fun to scare the locals.

Bella sent another letter, the day before they were set to leave. Alice read through it and her face fell. She looked as close to tears as a vampire could. Jasper came to comfort her, while Emmett took the letter.

Alice, he read.

I thought Jake was plugging the hole, but I was wrong. He was just carving his own hole, not as bad as... Edwards, but bad enough.

"That poor girl!" Esme exclaimed. "Everything hurtful seems to head straight for her."

There's only so much of me people can take! And they've taken everything, both of them. It hurts so bad Alice. Please, please, you're my only friend. I need you.

I love you, I miss you so, so much,

Bella

"There isn't anything we can do, is there?" asked Alice quietly.

"Well," Jasper said, taking the letter from Emmett. "From the way she's written this, I'd say she'll send another letter soon, explaining what happened further. Maybe then we'll understand more."

Esme sighed as she walked up the stairs to pack. "And so we wait."

***

They didn't wait long.

The next day, only 23 minutes after greeting the Denali clan, Bella's second letter came. "I guess you were right Jasper," said Alice, walking in from the other room holding a piece of paper. Rosalie left the room.

"Right about what?" asked Kate.

Carlisle cleared his throat. "Well, before Alice came in you asked why Edward was not with us. The truth is we haven't seen him in a long time. He has been living by himself."

Tanya was shocked. "But why? He loves you."

Jasper looked pained. "There was an incident."

"Edward was in love with a human girl, Bella," Alice continued. "She knew about vampires of course. And we held her an 18th birthday party, where she accidentally got a paper cut." The room winced in unison.

"And Edward over reacted," said Esme sadly. "Jasper went for Bella, and Edward had knocked her out of the way onto a glass table. He came back after driving her home saying we were to leave immediately."

Jasper spoke up. "I volunteered to leave, just me. But he said it was too dangerous for Bella to be in our world altogether. So we left. And neither has been the same since. Edward actually looks like a vampire now, and Bella..."

"Writes us these," finished Alice, holding up the letter.

"How is she Alice?" Esme asked.

Alice,

Things are...things are bad again. Jake's gone. He's ignoring me.

"I don't get it," said Emmett, his eyebrows furrowed in confusion. "Why would he just randomly start ignoring her?"

"No idea," Jasper replied. "Maybe we'll find out later."

I must have done something else wrong. Why do I do this?! Every time I get close to happiness, I ruin it.

"Oh, Bella," Esme tutted. "Always blaming herself."

"So she is much like Edward then," Tanya said. She realised that a year ago when he stayed for the week that Bella must have been who he was so caught up in.

Without Jake, I can't stand it. I don't see him anymore...will it really feel like he never existed?

"It doesn't sound like it," Kate noted. "If Edward was as in love with her as she him, then he is insane in leaving her."

Alice nodded. "We think so too."

No, I don't believe that. He might not be here, he might take his things and move family, but his mark on me is irreversible.

Does love have to be so irrational?

"Yes," agreed everyone in the room with a partner.

Esme looked at her husband lovingly. "The more you love someone, the less sense it makes."

The more you love someone, the less sense it makes.

"See."

And my case is worse. I'm forbidden to remember, yet I'm terrified to forget. But I'll never forget. He can't make me.

I love you, I miss you,

Bella.

"What I don't understand is if he loved her so much, why not make her a vampire?" stated Irina obviously. "Did she not want it?"

"No, she wanted it alright," said Emmett. "Edward's just a douche bag."

Carlisle smirked in spite of himself. "Edward is not a bag of douche, he just believed that in becoming a vampire you loose your soul."

Kate frowned. "That sounds stupid. We're not... emo enough to think that," she said looking at her family.

Jasper smiled. "When it comes to Bella, emo is Edwards middle name."