Chapter 10

Your shaky hands grasped mine tightly; all the while your eyes never left my face. I knew this was just as hard on you as it was on me, but I still felt cheated.

All the choices I have made over the last year have been with you in mind.

Where I lived.

What school I attended.

Even the course of studies I had chosen…everything to make it easier on us when you came back.

But now I felt cheated and cast aside by how little you thought of us.

"Bella," your deep sensual timbre nothing more than a broken whisper, "I'm so sorry baby…you're right in feeling pushed aside and cheated out of starting our lives together now, but I had to baby. When I first enlisted I was single and willing to make a career out of my military days. I had no one but myself to account for and I lost sight of that while making this decision."

"I'm not mad Edward…just disappointed in having to lose you again, to them, but I understand. Our relationship was something you never planned on and you lost sight of that…I forgive you…just please don't do this to me again."

"I promise baby…I love you."

"I love you too," how many days would I have to rely on those three little words to get me by…