Chapter IX
„B.O.Y.F.R.I.E.N.D"
Although Saturday night's date was two days ago, Alec Lightwood still occupied my thoughts. I replayed every second of the magical evening in my mind. From the sweet smiles we exchanged in his house, in front of his father, through the hand holding. It was amazing. When our hands intertwined for the first time, I felt an electrifying shock ran through my body. I've never felt like this before. Then came the most wonderful moment of our date. Our first kiss. It was incredible. Soft, sweet, extraordinary. The kiss made my heart fill with warmth, it had been beating like crazy as well.
Alec had awakened some strange feelings in me, something that I had never felt before. Whenever our eyes met, I couldn't help but smile widely at him. When the boy blushed in such a lovely way, my heart skipped a bit again. The realization that hit me this morning scared me. I think, I might be falling in love with Alexander Lightwood.
"Magnus? Wake up, honey." Mom said lightly, as she walked inside my bedroom. When she laid her eyes on me, she was surprised. I couldn't blame her. It was barely seven a.m., and here I was, dressed up, with make-up on and ready to go. "You're ready?"
"Yes." I said smoothly, or at least I tried to. Yet, my mom knows me better than I know myself.
"Is this about Alec? Are you meeting with him before school?" I shook my head, feeling my cheeks slightly burn at the mention of the boy. I didn't understand what was happening to me then. "I think it's about Alec Lightwood. I saw you last night, just when you came back home. You were smiling so broadly, darling." She sat down next to me on the bed and grabbed my hand into hers. "You like him, am I wrong?"
"I do. Very much, mom." She smiled widely at me, urging me to tell more. "I've never felt like this before. Do you think I could be in love with him already? He's just so cute and smart and beautiful. Is this love? I've never fallen so fast for anyone."
"Sweetheart," Mom stroked my hair lovingly, as she used to when I was a little boy. "Love is different, for everyone. Sometimes, you fall in love at first sight, sometimes it takes years to feel love for someone close to you."
"Did this happen to you and Roger?" She nodded sully. "Did you ever love him?"
"I did. I grew to love him. But when I married Roger, it was just an arranged marriage, my boy. But I loved…" she cut herself off, and shrugged her slim arms. "But the real question is, whether Alec feels the same about you?"
"I hope so. I hope that he likes me at least." She patted my knee and got up from my bed. "Mom…do you miss him?"
"Who, sweetie?"
"Dad" We crossed our eyes, and I expected to see sadness in them or pain. But there wasn't any.
"Not anymore, my love. Not anymore." This sounded strange in my opinion, since I could recall that not so long ago mom cried because of father. And now, she smiled while saying she's not missing him? It was at least odd.
Yet, I couldn't ask her more, because we heard the doorbell ring. Ragnor had to be here. I offered to drive him to school today, since his father had taken his car for three days.
We were driving in silence, only the sound of my engine running was breaking it. I was driving too fast for Ragnor's liking, yet, I couldn't wait to get to the school. I needed to see Alec. I couldn't comprehend the effect this boy had on me. Whenever I thought about him, my heart beat faster, my stomach filled with the strange warmth, my lips formed a wide, honest smile.
"I've never gotten to the school a half hour earlier than classes." Ragnor's comment got me out of thinking and I spotted that we're only a meter away from the school's parking lot. "Why so eager to come here?" I parked the car but didn't answer him. "Oh! I'm so stupid. The reason is Alec! So, spill the beans, my friend. What happened after you left Atelier?"
"None of your business, Ragnor." We got out of the car and moved towards Tessa. The girl was sitting on the bench, chatting with Catarina. Apparently I wasn't the only one that got so fast to the school.
"Oh, come on! I don't need the juicy stuff, just the basics." Ragnor whined, grabbing my upper arm, as he led me to the girls. "Hey."
"Hi." They said in unison smiling at us, before Catarina spoke to me. "How was it on Saturday? You haven't called me back, Magnus. And what were you doing yesterday? I texted, called, emailed you."
"I was talking to Alexander."
"So, how was it?" she repeated herself, looking eagerly at me.
"Perfect. Purely perfect." I couldn't help but sigh pleasantly at the memory of our Saturday date.
"You had sex with him? On the first date?" Ragnor concluded, looking partly shocked. "I didn't expect Alec to be so…"
"Say one more word about him, Ragnor, and you'll meet my fist very closely." He rose his hands up in the air in the gesture of surrender. "I haven't had sex with him. I can enjoy time with a boy without jumping his bones. I'm not a whore."
"So, what really happened?" This time it was Tessa who asked the question.
"We just kissed. And it was incredibly amazing." I bit down my lip and looked at them from under my lashes.
"Oh dear," Ragnor exclaimed, with fake concern. "Girls. Alert everyone! Magnus Bane is in love and he will be utterly sweet to everyone! God help us all!"
"Shut up, Ragnor." The three of us said at the same time, while Catarina smacked him on the back of his head.
"Ouch, woman!" Fell turned to her, sticking his tongue out. "This is domestic violence!"
"I'll show you domestic violence, when I kick your ass." They bickered a bit more, before Catarina slightly tilted her head to the right, while looking at me meaningfully. "We should go inside."
I followed her gaze and spotted Alec walking towards the school's entrance. His siblings trailed behind him, chatting loudly. When Alec's eyes met with mine, the boy did as I expected. He blushed in a cute way, making my heart warm again. I waved at him, he waved at me shyly as well, before he took out a phone from his jacket. He pressed some keys and then looked at me again, as if he indicated that he had sent something to me. Which was correct, as a second later I felt vibrations in my pants.
'We need to talk. Lunch break. My car.'
This didn't sound good. In fact, it sounded really, really bad. From everything I have read before, I knew that the phrase 'we need to talk' usually meant breaking up. But, could we break up before we started to be together?
Through all classes, I tried to not think negatively. There was no way that Alec could break up with me. He appeared to have enjoyed the date as much as I did. So that couldn't be an issue. But then, what was it that he just wanted to talk about?
And if he wished to break up? Or if he wanted to remain just friends? I hoped for this to not be true. I wouldn't be capable of being just his friend now. Not after that marvelous kiss. It would be too hard for me to have him close, yet not as close as I'd like to.
Finally, the bell announced the lunch break. I made my way towards his car with a heavy heart. Alec was already sitting inside. Before I got inside, I took three deep breaths to ease myself down.
For a long moment, we sat in awkward silence. None of us knew how to start the conversation.
Eventually, I got some courage and began talking.
"So? What did you want to talk about, Alexander? " He didn't even look at me, instead, he glared hardly at his interlocked hands. "Alec?"
"I don't know what to think." This made me slightly confused, so I waited for the explanation. "About Saturday. And the kiss. I don't know anything now."
"Darling…"
"What does it mean, Magnus?" he didn't let me finish, turning his glassy blue eyes on me. "I've never been on a real date before. I haven't been kissed before. I just don't know what to think about all of it."
"Sweetheart, but I know. Let me talk, okay? " He nodded shortly, licking his lips. "Did you like our date?" He nodded again. "And the kiss?" He agreed with it as well. "I loved it too, every single minute of it."
"But I don't know, what to say. What do you expect of me now?"
"I don't expect anything from you, Alexander." He was confused by this. I grabbed his hand and intertwined our fingers. There was fear in Alec's blue eyes, mixed with confusion and something else that I couldn't pinpoint. "I won't judge you, just because you don't know how to act. God knows, I don't know how to act around you either. I've never felt something like this before. I like you, Alexander. Very much."
"I like you too." He answered shyly, offering me a small smile.
"And that's what matters to me." I rose my hand to his cheek and stroked it gently, causing a small blush on Alec's pale cheeks. When our eyes crossed, I leaned slowly towards him, giving him a chance to decide whether he wanted it. Alec leaned in as well, and our lips met a halfway in a sweet, soft kiss. It was obvious that Lightwood was still new to this, as his lips were moving cautiously against mine. Yet, when he let himself be consumed by the kiss, it got better. He moved his hand over the back of my head and drew me closer to himself. Eventually we pulled away, both equally flushed. "You are an amazing kisser, Alexander."
"No, I'm not."
"Oh, yes you are," I kissed the top of his nose, making him cringe cutely.
"So what now, Magnus? What are we doing here?"
"I'm not going to lie, Alec. I like you, and obviously you like me as well." He agreed with this by a simple nod. "I don't expect you to be perfect in whatever we will have. I'm not going to be perfect either. I know you're not out in public yet and that you're not comfortable with public display of affection at school, and I respect that. Look, it scares me as much as you. I've never fell for anyone so fast. But I want to try to be with you. You make me feel all those strange, but good feelings. And I just hope you don't want to be just friends with me, that you'd like to be something more."
"I don't want to be just friends with you. I want more." He admitted, looking deeply in my eyes, even though I knew talking about his feelings must be hard for him. "I want to try, but…I can't promise you I will be okay with coming out at school. It will be…"
"You don't have to be afraid." Alec took his eyes off of me and looked at our clasped hands. "I will wait for you. I'm not going to force you to do something you're not ready to. I wouldn't hurt you like that. All I want is to try and build a relationship with you. I just want to be with you. Don't you?"
"I want that too." He breathed out, caressing my hand with his thumb. The small gesture filled my heart with warmth. "I want to be with you, Magnus."
His answer made me happy, so I couldn't stop myself from leaning forward again and kissing him. This time, Alec reacted faster and in seconds, he kissed me back, almost taking the initiative of the kiss. When we pulled away, I bit down my lip and asked him the most important question.
"Will you become my boyfriend, Alexander?"
"Yes." The simple three letters made my heart hammer with joy. I grinned at him when we were walking back to school, even though we weren't holding hands.
At that moment, nothing mattered anymore to me, but the fact that Alexander Lightwood became my boyfriend.
B - boy
O - of
Y - your
F - fantastic
R - ridiculous
I - incredibly
E - epic
N - never ending
D- dreams
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I decided to post today, since I'm very emotional after the latest episode of SH.
Anyway. Now they're official together, though not out in public yet. But fear not, they will get to that point too.
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Intoxic
PS. This story will have an additional chapter that I haven't done in the original. I hope you will like it.