so...I had a little extra time before I had to meet up with a friend, but not enough time to update a story, so I thought I'd do a random song fic. I honestly did whatever came out of my ipod first. sorry if there are any mistakes, I mean major mistakes, I have to use notepad because my computer's janky :/

this is definitely an AU story. Elliot is working in SVU, and Olivia is his partner, but he and Kathy aren't married yet. Not necessarily an E/O one, more like an anti E/K one.

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN LAW AND ORDER:SVU, DICK WOLF DOES!

The day is bright, the sun is visible, and although the heat seems to becoming in too heavily, the day is perfect. It's the day I finally get married. Kathy and I have always had our ups and downs, but she's the mother of my child, which means I have to suck up everything and take responsibilities.

Well imagine, as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words. I walk closer to the voices, a smile grazing my face when I hear what is being said. "What a beautiful wedding!"

The smile on my face grows wider when I see everyone nod their head in agreement. "What a beautiful wedding," says a bridesmaid to a waiter.

Phillip, one of my groomsmen shakes his head, as if in disapprove. "And, yes, but what a shame, what a shame the poor groomsbride is a whore!"

The smile on my face quickly disappears. These are supposed to be Kathy and my friends, they were in our wedding for Christ's sake, a wedding that I had to work my ass off to pay for. If they were going to talk about us behind our backs, at least have the decency to do it someplace other than where we are to tie the knot.

I turn to the door, making sure I can make my presence known. It hurts to know that people you have trusted, can be so cruel. I chime in with a, "Haven't you people heard of closing the God damn door?" No, I think, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

I look at the crowd of people, who appear stunned, surprised I have overheard their conversation. Phillip, the same groomsman as before, walks up to me. He is ashamed, it's written all over his face, but there is another thing written on his face that I can't seem to place. Grief? Hopelessness? Relief.

"Elliot," he says, as he places his hand on my shoulder, hoping to calm me down. "Sorry you had to hear it like this, especially today, but-"

I interrupt him. I chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the God damn door," hoping if I repeat it, it'll all be as if I hadn't heard this accusation to begin with.

Phillip looks at me, fear in his eyes. He knows what I'll do if someone were to speak ill of Kathy, or the baby, and he knows that if what he is saying is true, Kathy isn't the only person I'm going to be angry with. He lets out a small sigh, his thoughts run along the same words I am thinking. No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of-

I turn to the room, who has remained quiet. "Where's Kathy?" I ask Phillip. He stays quiet, and I can tell, from the small twitch of his eye, he knows where she is, but he feels he has caused enough damaged. When I'm sure I'm not going to receive an answer from him, I turn to the rest of the room. A few of Kathy's bridesmaids stand near the door, while some of the catorers stand behind them, obviously finding this gossip much more interesting than their own work. I spot who I have been looking for, Gina, Kathy's maid of honor, standing by the refridgerator. The look in her eyes is similar to Phillips, she knows where Kathy is. "Where is she?" I ask, my hands clenching into fists.

Gina knows of my temper problems. She's witnessed an argument between me and Kathy once. The look in her eyes says she's scared, but not of me. She's scared of what's going to happen to Kathy when I find out. Gina lets out a large sigh, obviously conflicted. "She's in the back room," she squeaks, looking into my eyes, hoping I'm not too harsh on my fiance.

I give her a small nod of appreciation, before turning on my heel and walking out of the room. I break into a run, knowing I need to clear up everything with Kathy quickly, before guests start arriving. Running down the hall seemed to take forever, each door I pass only makes me think of what could be hiding behind it. I imagine a large office behind one, with a large wooden desk and matching desk chair. When I pass another door, the smell of sweet smoke fills my lungs, and I conclude that behind this door is a shrine of someone important. Perhaps its one of the priests secrets.

I shake my head clear of these thoughts, as I arrive in front of the last door in the hallway. Without another thought, I grab the handle and turn, pushing my way into the room. I have seen high school catfights, drunks brawling at bars, hell I was in the Marines and am now part of New York's finest, but it never prepared me for what I was witnessing in front of me now.

Kathy, in her mother's wedding dress, was up against the wall, her arms wrapped around the neck of my best man, while their lips were locked in a kiss more passionate than one she had ever given me. My heart broke at the sight of this. How could the woman I love, the mother of my child, be kissing another man. And not just any man, but my best man, one of my best friend, the guy I have grown up with.

I wipe the few tears that have fallen off my cheek before clearing my throat, making sure the two can hear me. Kathy's eyes widen when she sees me. She knows things will never be the same. "How could you?" I whisper, my voice cracking.

Kathy suddenly finds her shoes more interesting, as she begins to stare at them intently. "I'm sorry," she says. "Things just kind of happened. Elliot, you were always at work, you were never there for me, I-"

I scoff. "I was at work, to make a living for you and Maureen."

"Elliot, we never ment to hurt you," Nate says, his hand never leaving Kathy's.

"Bullshit! You knew what this would do to me!" I stare at the two, before taking a deep breath. "Nate, leave." He hesitates. I'm in no mood for his shit. "Now!"

He nods once, before quickly walking out of the room, leaving me with Kathy. "Please, tell me you needed to get that out of your system before we got married."

Kathy looks at me, confused. To be honest, I've just confused myself, but love will do that to you. "Elliot, you're the man I want, and I was confused. I'm not anymore." She wraps her arms around me, and for a split second, I think about leaving. I think about walking out of the church, and out of Kathy's pathetic life, but then my thoughts are brought back to Maureen. That beautiful baby needs her father, and she's going to have me in her life.

I give Kathy a small hug, before turning away from her. "The wedding's going to start," I say in a rush, before walking out of the room and down the hall.

I'm so content on getting away from Kathy at the moment, I don't notice anyone else in the hallway, until I smack into them, the collision causing our bodies to fall on the floor together. "Ow, what the hell-"

"Nice to see you too."

I look up and notice my partner, and the only stable person in my life, Olivia Benson, standing near me. She offers me her hand and when I take it, she pulls me to my feet. "I'm so glad to see you," I whisper, before pulling her into a hug.

I can tell she's confused, but at the moment she knows I need the comfort, so she wraps her arms around me. I pull away from the hug, and finally notice what she's wearing. A small blue dress that comes to her knees. It showcases her curves perfectly, and hugs her body tightly. It's classy, but also sexy, and I can't help but smile. Then I wonder, why she wasn't asked to be in the wedding. I've known Olivia for years, and yet Kathy never wanted her to be apart of this day. The thought alone makes me mad once again. "Hey, what happened?" she whispers, placing her hand on my arm.

I look at her again and smile. "Nothing. Everything's going to be alright," I say, and looking into her eyes I can believe it. She gives me a smile, and I forget about my cheating fiance, and my backstabbing best friend. At the moment it's me and my partner, and I wouldn't have it any other way. Maybe this was the reason Kathy didn't want Liv in the wedding, because she knew I was already in love with her. "You look beautiful by the way," I say, causing a small blush to appear on her cheeks.

She nods, before looking at me. "And you don't look to bad yourself Stabler."

I smile at her, knowing that as long as she's with me, things are going to be alright. But she's not going to be with me for long. "Elliot, wedding's about to start."

I look up and notice Nate walking up to us. He stops when he sees Olivia, and smirks. I know that look. It's the one he gets when he sees a woman he has to make his. He's done it many times during high school. It was one of the things I hated about him, how he would always refer to women as pieces of meat. He walks up to Olivia, grabs her hand and kisses it, causing her to giggle. "Nate Brocher, and you are?"

Olivia looks at him, but I can tell she's not interested, which makes me smile. "Leaving," she answers, before turning to face me once more. She fixes my tie, before punching me in the shoulder. "Go get 'em," she says with a smile. before walking out of the hallway and into the santuary.

Nate's eyes follow her, and I can tell what he's thinking. "Who was that?" he asks, his face contorting into a stupid grin.

"She's my partner," I answer plainly.

His grin grows at my answer. "Oh, detective huh? I'll make sure she puts those handcuffs to great use."

I glare at Nate, causing him to shut up, before walking away, ready to make the biggest mistake of my life.

The ceremony was short, sweet and to the point, but to be honest I can't remember half the things that were said. Why? Because I was looking at my partner the whole time. During the vows, when Kathy promised to be faithful, and love me, I admit I winced and looked at Liv. I promised myself after the wedding I would tell her what had happened.

I sat at our table at the reception, watching Kathy and her friends dance. There was still a feeling of insecurity, and I can tell that I'm not the only one feeling it.

A few tables away is where Olivia sits, along with Cragen, Munch, and Fin. They've come to offer support, and to see me finally settled down. I watch as Nate goes over to Olivia and asks her to dance. Of course she refuses him and I can't help but smile.

Kathy keeps stealing glances at me, and I smile, pretending everything is alright. Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way I mean technically our marriage is saved. Kathy got what she needed to get out of her system, which means we can try to live like a family should. Nate sits at his seat next to me and sighs. "Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne!"

Pour the champagne? He honestly thinks he's going to give a great toast, after everything he has done. I get out of my seat and head to where Kathy is, but is stopped by a small tap on my shoulder.

I turn around, but am caught off guard when Olivia places one of her hands in mine, the other on my shoulder, and begins to dance. I follow her lead, placing my hand on her waist, before letting out a small sigh.

"Okay, tell me, what's wrong?"

I look down at her. How she is able to know that something is wrong, I don't know, but it astounds me, and makes a small smile creep onto my face. "You don't wanna know," I whisper, pulling her close, enjoying the last time I'll be able to hold her this close.

She smiles up at me, and I practically melt. "El, come on. I'm your best friend, tell me what's wrong."

Before I can answer, I glace up at Kathy, and notice how closely she is dancing with Nate. His hands are on her ass, as she slowly grinds into him, something completely inappropriate for a wedding, especially your own.

I look down at Liv, and know I have to do something about this. I quickly grab a glass of champagne, and tell the DJ to stop the music, gaining everyone's attention. "Attention everyone, I have something to say." I quickly hand Olivia a glass as well, as she stands there, confused and a little scared. I look at Kathy, who's a little skeptical. "Today I thought I was marrying the love of my life, and the mother of my child." I look over to where Kathy's mother is seated with little Maureen on her lap. "Well, turns out I've married a whore!" There are a few loud gasps from the crowd, as people begin to gossip amongst themselves.

Olivia rushes up to me, and pulls my arm. "What the hell are you doing? I know you're not drunk already," she whispers.

I look up at Kathy, who looks just as angry as I feel. "Not yet," I whisper back, before standing up straight and continuing my speech. "Today I caught my wife, cheating on me, with my best man Nate Brocher. Nate, buddy stand up will ya." Elliot looked at his best man, who stood, afraid of what Elliot would do. "You think this is bad, oh, well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved. I don't have to wait a few years, when I have been stuck in this marriage for God knows how long, before she finally cheated again. She got it over with in the very beginning. Bravo!"

"Elliot, what are you doing!" Kathy pleads, trying to make her away to her husband, all the while trying to hide from everyone's gaze.

"Well, this calls for a toast so pour the champagne." When the waiters don't do what I've asked, I repeat, "Pour the champagne," to which they nod and fill glasses and begin to hand them out. "To finding happiness, no matter how much it hurts the other person," I say, before downing the glass in my hands.

Olivia, shocked and slightly embarrassed that she was near me when this all went down, drags me away from the DJ table, after muttering, "Play something," to the man. Once the music starts, she slaps me across the face, hoping to knock some sense into me. "What the hell was that about?" she asks, her hands clenched into fists.

However, before I can answer, Kathy makes her way over to me and slaps me across the face. "Elliot, what the fuck is wrong with you?"

I rub my face, watching as Nate comes up behind Kathy, trying to comfort her, and finally decide that this is not worth it. I chime in with a, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the God damn door, no it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality."

All three of them look at me, shocked. I chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the God damn door, no it's better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality."

Kathy slaps me across the face again, but before I can counter act, Liv steps infront of me, risking her own safety to put this debacle to an end. Nate drags Kathy out of the room, kicking and screaming. "I hate you, you son of a bitch, I hate you!"

I look at Liv, who's not only confused but hurt. "I should've told you what had happened but-" Before I can finish speaking Olivia slaps me across the face. She quickly turns on her heel and begins to walk out, but being the man I am, I follow her. "Liv, please, just listen to me." She stops, turns around and delivers a punch to my face that catches me slightly offguard.

I awake with a jump. Something about that dream seems all too real, and I can't help but to be suspicious, seeing as to how I'm supposed to be marrying Kathy in a few days. I look at the clock beaming from the kitchen stove in my apartment. 9:15. I look around and notice I'm on the couch where I had fallen alseep, after Liv had forced me to go home and take a nap.

Getting off the couch, I grab my keys and rush out of the door. I need to see Kathy, and set things straight. Make sure this was all just a dream. If she kicks me out, I can always just say I'm there to see my daughter.

I reach Kathy's apartment, but when she doesn't answer my knocking at the door, I get a little scared. Kathy is always home, and if she were out, she would've told me, knowing how I get worried about Maureen being out too late. I quickly reach into my pocket and pull out the key Kathy had given me in case of an emergency. I think about going in. Technically, needing to talk to your fiance and wanting to see your two month old daughter counts as an emergency right?

I shake the negative thoughts out of my head, before I stick the key into the door and unlock it. Pushing it open, I am welcomed with the sounds I have only heard a few times myself. Grabbing my gun, I walk over to the baby's room, making sure she is alright. When I see Maureen in her crib, alseep, I smile to myself.

I could stare at her all day, but when I hear another noise come from the room down the hall, I know I need to check it out, just in case. I quickly make my way to the room, only to be shocked once again with what is going on. The two don't even know I'm there until I speak up. I chime in, "Haven't you people heard of closing the God damn door."

Nate quickly stops his movements and covers up his and Kathy's naked bodies. "Elliot?" Kathy asks, as if she's unsure if it's really me.

I ignore her, and continue to talk. "No, it's better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality." I chime in, once again, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the God damnn door. No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality."

Again, I look at Kathy, and shake my head. We both hear Marueen begin to cry, but she doesn't bother to get out of the bed. "I'll get her, and I'm taking her with me," I say, as I walk into the nursery. I grab her diaper bag and stuff a few clothes, a blanket, and the other necessities she'll need for the night, before walking up to the crib and lifting Maureen out of it, trying to be as gentle as I can now that I am angry. I place her on my shoulder, and place a blanket over her small body, knowing it's a little cold out for her. Grabbing her carseat in the other hand, I walk out of the room, stopping at Kathy's door.

"Go," she tells me, too ashamed to stop me.

I look at the two of them once more, before walking out of the apartment. When I close the door, I put Maureen into her carseat, before lifting it up and making my way down to my car. I get her settled in the back, before getting into the driver's seat. I know I can't go to my apartment. Truth is, it's just me there, and I don't know how to take care of a baby all by myself. I turn on the car and head to the apartment of the only person I know that will help me.

I knock on the door once more, hoping she'll open it, hoping that for once she is stuck at home, alone. I know I sound selfish, but I really need her help, and I don't trust Kathy's family, and my own will only reward me with 'I told you so's. I knock once more, this time lighter, realizing it's past ten at night, and I'm probably bothering her neighbors with my obnoxious pounding. When she doesn't answer, I let out a disappointed sigh. I look at Maureen, who is smiling at me, he blue eyes looking around everywhere. "Looks like its just you and me," I say, grabbing her carseat from the floor.

The door quickly opens, and her voice is what forces me to look up. "Elliot?"

I look at her and let out a small smile. She's dressed in a pair of grey sweats and an NYPD t-shirt. Her hair is down and messy, and her make-up is slightly smeared, but I can't help and think how beautiful she looks. "Oh thank God you're here. I need a little help," I say, motioning down to Maureen and the baby stuff in my hands.

She nods with a small smile and moves aside, allowing me entry into her apartment. I place Maureen and her carseat down on Liv's coffee table, before turning to her. "I need a place to stay for tonight. I need help with her."

Olivia looks down at the baby and smiles. Truth is, I know she loves Maureen as if she were her own daughter, and that makes me smile even more. "No problem El, I'm here to help. Now, why don't you go and get changed into something more comfortable."

I look down at my clothes and notice I'm still in my suit from earlier today. I nod, before heading into the Olivia's room, knowing I have a few extra clothes in there. I quickly change into a pair of sweats, but before I can put on my shirt, I hear Maureen begin to cry. I rush out of the room, only to be surprised with what I see in front of me.

Olivia has Maureen in her arms, who has stopped crying, softly rocking her, singing to my daughter. I lean against the doorframe and smile. Somehow I can't help but wish it were Olivia I was starting a family with. She's great with kids, and the way she handles Maureen is brilliant.

She catches me staring from the corner of her eye. I watch as her eyes close, before she turns away from me, her cheeks turning a slight shade of pink. I quickly put on my t-shirt, before grabbing my phone off the nightstand where I have left my gun and badge as well. Dialing the number of the person I despise the most, I wait for her to answer. "We're done," is the only thing I say, and when she agrees and begins to yell her own obseinities, I hang up.

I walk over to the couch, and wait for Liv to join me with Maureen, before placing an arm around her waist. At first she's uncomfortable, but when she realizes I didn't mean it as anything more than a friendly gesture, she relaxes. "What happened?" she asks, her eyes never leaving Maureen's, the smile never falling from her face as she watches her begin to drift to sleep.

"Kathy and I are done," I say, placing my head on edge of the sofa. "She cheated on me," I say, answering her unasked question.

Olivia looks at me, her eyes soft. "I'm sorry El."

I shrug. "It's fine. Besides, she's not the one I'm in love with." Olivia looks at me, confused, before looking back at the sleeping baby in her arms. "Come on, let's watch a movie."

I wake up to the sound of the movie credits playing. I try to get up, but stop, when I realize what has happened. I fell asleep, but I'm not alone. Olivia has fallen asleep on top of my chest, with the baby safely nuzzled onto hers. It's such a perfect picture it hardly seems right to ruin it, so I quickly fall back to sleep with a smile on my face.

I wake up a few hours later to Maureen's cries. I quickly get up, realizing that if I don't get her to stop, she's going to wake Olivia up, but before I can even get off the couch, it becomes silent again. I get off the couch, curious, when I spot Olivia in the kitchen, the baby comfortable in one arm, while the other assembles a bottle of formula.

"Hey little one," she says quietly, keeping eye contact with the baby. "Your daddy has a lot on his plate right now, and I know that he loves you so much. Let's keep it down so he can get some sleep, yes?" She speaks softly, as if she's been doing it for years. "I know how old folk love to get their sleep." She laughs at what she has said, and I hear a small laugh come from the baby. Olivia's smile grows wider. She makes sure the bottle is the perfect temperature, before feeding the baby. "You know, your daddy is the most amazing man I've ever met. You are definitely one lucky little girl Mo."

I smile at Olivia's words. She obviously doesn't know I'm listening. I wait until she continues, before I walk up to her. "I wish I had someone as good as your father to take care of me, and love me."

"Consider your wish granted," I say, as I place my hands on her hips, and a kiss on her neck.

Olivia jumps, scared that I have walked up behind her. "Elliot? How long have you been listening?"

"Long enough" I say, looking over her shoulder at Maureen, whos eyes are wide with wonder. I turn Liv around, so that I can look into her eyes, as I speak. "Liv, ever since you became my partner, I knew something was going to happen, but I was too stupid, and too afraid. I'm not in love with Kathy anymore, because I'm in love with you." I make the move, kissing her lips softly, leaving enough room for her to backaway if she feels the need to. When she doesn't, I smile, and pull her in closer.

"Elliot, what about work? What about your family?"

I look down at both the girls I love and smile. "Baby, that doesn't matter. You and Maureen, that's all that matters. I just need the two of you, and I know I can get through anything." With that I kiss her once more. I get happy when she's the one to deepen the kiss, knowing that she wants this just as much as I do.

"I just need you," she whispers.

I nod my head in agreement. "You and Maureen, that's all I ever needed," I say, kissing the crown of my daughter's head, before leading the two of them into Olivia's bedroom. She quickly burps the baby, before settling her in the bed inbetween us. "I love you," I whisper, before pecking her on the lips once more, knowing there was nothing else in the world I would rather have, than what was in my arms at the moment.

oooooookay,

so no smut here :) just something different...I realize in like 1/2 of the story, the song isn't even used. Oh well :)

haha, just something I wrote, I know it's way longer than any of my other updates have been, but once I got started, I couldn't stop. I'm trying to update when I can, but everything has just been so hectic. Sorry everyone.

Please R&R, I want to know what you guys think of this one.