Chapter 10

Forced Thoughts on a Dire Situation

Kagome groaned as something poked into her side. She tried to ignore it, hoping to get a little more sleep. The night before was spent mostly crying. Her entire body ached, especially her ankle. It almost felt as if she had just fallen asleep a few minutes ago, and she very well may have.

The poking at her side interrupted her thoughts again and she growled. Whatever it was, she was going to hurt it. All she was asking for was a little bit of sleep, and she didn't think that was asking for too much. After all, sleep was the only time she didn't think.

Thinking was the last thing she wanted to do right now.

Another groan escaped her then, this time in slight horror. It had just occurred to her that Miroku had carried her to his home, meaning Sango was here. She loved her friend, and always would, but she could be nosy and pushy.

Kagome really didn't want to deal with Sango bashing her husband. Yes, Sesshomaru cheated and it made her broken heart throb every time she thought of it, but she still loved him. She was sure she would always love him.

Which was why she was at least going to think about her situation before she went running to the courthouse. However, right now, she didn't want to think of anything. She wanted to come to terms with what happened, then go from there.

The problem was, Sango and InuYasha knew of Kagome's past. The past that she hadn't even told Sesshomaru. It was just too painful to talk about…for her, and her mother. Because of this, Kagome already knew what Sango would say.

Sango was going to push that Kagome leave Sesshomaru. While their relationship was in the air, Kagome wasn't going to jump the gun and risk making a mistake. This entire situation was too delicate, and worth the thought.

The true problem was: could Kagome get past what Sesshomaru did?

Could she look at her husband, and not see Kagura, or their son, all the time?

Their son brought up other questions that had tears threatening to fall from her eyes. Would Sesshomaru still be interested in having their child if he already had another? Or was she just being silly and letting her emotions get the best of her?

Another poke caught her attention and she sighed before finally opening her eyes. Two sets of eyes met hers and she couldn't help but smile before patting the twins' heads. They smiled greatly at her before giggling and running off, announcing that she was awake.

Kagome could faintly hear Sango scolding her children for waking her, and Kagome stretched on the couch and yawned. She really was still tired. Her ears listened to all of the commotion going on in the kitchen.

It was clear that Miroku and Sango really didn't have the room for Kagome. Add that to the fact that Kagome needed someone who could remain unbiased in this situation, and she knew she would have to find another place to stay.

Where could she go?

InuYasha had too many people coming and going, and she knew that her crying episodes weren't over. She really didn't want any random person to see that. Touga was out of the question. She would go home before she dealt with him.

Her mother lived hours away, and they didn't have the money to drive all the way out here to pick her up. Nor would she ask anyone to drive her out there. Now that she was away from Sesshomaru, she didn't have much money either. She couldn't rely on her art since she couldn't paint.

There was only one person left, and honestly, she was perfect. She would know what Kagome needed, giving her space of comfort, and even be able to keep herself unbiased. Kagome didn't waste another second in calling this person, and as soon as she answered, Kagome broke down, explaining what happened.

Satori only shushed her, telling her not to speak any more of it right now and that she would be there in about an hour. Hanging up the phone, Kagome made her way to the bathroom, glaring at the couch that now had her back hurting, and splashed water on her face to hide her tears. It took a while.

When she was sure no one would notice, she made her way to the kitchen where she could smell food. She wasn't very hungry, but she wasn't naive enough to think that her friends wouldn't make her eat. Especially since she was pregnant.

So, hiding her limp, she made her way into the wolve's den, surprised to see InuYasha present. He took one glance at her and nodded, letting her know that he would give her space. She was grateful for it. Now, if only Sango would do the same.

"What are you planning on doing, Kagome?" Sango asked, placing a full plate in front of three kids while the forth was in a sling on her back.

"I plan on eating." Kagome answered, glancing at InuYasha who was glaring at Miroku.

"Yes, breakfast does look lovely, my dear Sango. Perhaps we should join Kagome then." Miroku started, attempting to get his wife to back down. He failed. The moment he received a return glare from Sango, he backed down. He would rather deal with the wrath from InuYasha than his wife.

"He cheated on you! You can't be thinking about going back to that bastard!"

"Hey!" Kagome and InuYasha said at the same time, defending the male that wasn't here to defend himself.

"What? It's the truth. I can't believe you would both defend him when he didn't even have the curtesy to keep it in his pants." Sango snapped, making a plate for Miroku who was sitting in his chair with his head in his hands.

"I'm not going to make any decisions until I have the full story. None of us know exactly what happened." Kagome argued, her eyes narrowing at Sango's scoff.

"We all know what happened. He fucked someone else. But, if you have to have details, then march on over there and demand them." Sango replied, rolling her eyes.

"I really don't want to talk about this right now." Kagome groaned, turning and beginning to leave. It was the next words that dug into her back.

"Your mother didn't want to deal with it either, and look what happened." Sango stated, plain as day.

"That's enough." InuYasha snapped, grabbing Kagome's shoulders and pulling her close to him. "Yes, the asshole fucked up, but there is a lot more to this story than you know. You are my friend, Sango, but so is Kagome, and that asshole is my brother. This is their business, and we are going to give them space. They know, if they need us, they can come to us but, for now, we will leave it alone."

Sango didn't say anything as she glared at InuYasha. She knew he was right, but none of them realized that she was trying to help. Yes, she was making herself look like a bitch, but she was trying to get Kagome to face Sesshomaru. She would be okay with any outcome as long as her friend had whatever closure she needed.

She didn't want to see Kagome end up like her mother. Broken.

"Kagome." A new voice called out and, immediately, Kagome pulled away from everyone and just about ran to the woman who was welcoming herself into the house. Satori wrapped her arms around Kagome and shushed her crying, knowing exactly what the sad woman needed. After all, she had been through it before.

Sesshomaru kicked the blankets off of him as he finally stood from the too large bed. He hardly slept at all and fought himself the entire night. All he wanted to do was go over to Miroku's, grab his wife, and do whatever it took to get her to take him back. Instead, he stayed in his bed, his only company the bottle of whisky that hardly lasted an hour.

Now, he was exhausted, and had a pounding headache.

The knocking that he had been trying to ignore these last few minutes continued on, and he pulled on a pair of sleeping trunks from the floor before making his way downstairs. He made sure not to look in any mirrors on the way. He was sure he looked horrible.

He didn't pause as he confronted the door and slammed it open. His eyes went wide at who he saw, and it took a moment for the surprise to wear off so he could even speak, although he didn't want to speak at all.

"Kagura."

The dark haired woman looked over Sesshomaru and guilt flooded through her, but she pushed it away. This was something that needed to be done and she wouldn't stop now. She held out her hand as a greeting but pulled it back when a glaring Sesshomaru refused to take it.

"Look, I didn't mean to start any problems. I just felt you should get to know your son. He has a right to know his father." Kagura explained, not backing down.

"This is not a good time." Sesshomaru countered and began to shut the door. Kagura stopped it with her hand, her eyes almost looking desperate.

"How can meeting your son not be a good time?" Kagura asked, then ushered someone to her side. Sesshomaru's eyes narrowed as a young boy was suddenly standing before him, looking nothing like him, and everything like Kagura. "I know Kagome gave you the papers. You can't argue with the test. This is your son, Malik."

"Are you my daddy?" The boy asked, looking up at Sesshomaru with awe in his eyes.

Sesshomaru couldn't say anything so he just nodded, regretting it immediately. The boy suddenly tackled him, hugging his waist, and it took everything Sesshomaru had not to push away the child. He wasn't sure he could ever think of the child as his, especially if Kagome left him.

He knew it wasn't right to blame a ten-year-old, but he couldn't help it. Something inside of him was screaming not to let this child in. It was something he couldn't fight. Honestly, he didn't even want to.

"Well, I'm going to leave you two to bond. I will be back later this afternoon." Kagura announced, catching Sesshomaru off guard. He attempted to catch her but the child wrapped around his waist wouldn't let him, and before he could say anything, Kagura was back in her car and leaving.

Sighing in defeat, Sesshomaru pulled Malik into his home and pointed at the couch. "Sit there. I must change. Then we will…figure out something to do."

"Okay, Daddy." The boy said, making Sesshomaru cringe.

He made his way upstairs, walked into his bedroom, closed the door, and leaned against it. His…son showing up ruined all of his plans for today. He had wanted to woo Kagome, show her how sorry he really was. It was why he didn't have work today.

He had called in sick with the intentions of going to the flower store and buying them out. He wanted to buy chocolates, and ice-cream, and anything that could get Kagome back. Hell, he had even been looking up jewelry.

Now, he couldn't because he had to babysit a child that he wanted nothing to do with.

For a brief moment, he thought of his true baby, the one still under Kagome's heart. God, he hoped Kagome would let him still be a part of the baby's growth. He still wanted to go to appointments and watch as the child developed. He hoped by the time the baby was born, he would have Kagome home again.

Pushing away all thoughts, he went straight to his closet and dressed.

He needed this day to be over already.

Looking himself over in the mirror, he deemed himself appropriate and made his way out of his room. He noticed the door to Kagome's art room open and his eyes narrowed. Slowly, he made his way into the now-spotless room and glared at the boy sitting on Kagome's chair, painting on a canvas.

Sesshomaru had spent hours cleaning up the mess that Kagome's wrath had made. He even had someone come out and replace the window in the middle of the night. He had made sure that her favorite room would be ready for her when she returned. Seeing this child in her spot rubbed him the wrong way.

"Did I not tell you to stay on the couch?" Sesshomaru commanded, making the boy jump.

"I'm sorry. I was just really curious. This art room is really cool." The boy stated excitedly. Sesshomaru narrowed his eyes before pointing down the stairs.

Malik set down the paintbrush and obediently followed his father's orders, skipping most of the way. When he was gone, Sesshomaru removed the ruined canvas and set it aside to throw away. He set up a new one and placed a new brush out for Kagome.

When he was sure everything was the way she liked it, he finally left, locking the door behind him. He would have to make sure the boy understood that room, and his own room, were off limits.

He had just made it down the stairs when there was a knock on the door again. Cursing his luck, he hoped it was Kagura coming to take back her son. Imagine his surprise, yet again, when he was standing before his mother and the woman he loved with everything he had.

He immediately opened the door for them, never taking his eyes off of Kagome. Her own orbs were surrounded by puffy and dark skin, showing that she had been crying and didn't get much sleep either.

"Sesshomaru, we came so Kagome could get a few of her things. She will be staying at my house for a while." Satori stated, ushering Kagome to grab her things. Sesshomaru watched as Kagome silently nodded and just about ran up the stairs.

Kagome suddenly stopped, stunned for a moment at the sight of Malik on the couch, before she continued on to her destination. Swallowing the overly large lump in his throat, Sesshomaru turned to his mother.

"This is for the best. Give her time, my boy. She needs to rest for a few days, then she can think. Give her what she needs. Let her see you are willing to do whatever it takes." Satori whispered, placing a small hand on her son's face.

Sesshomaru truly looked lost and she hated seeing him like that.

"I've gotten what I need." Kagome said softly as she came back to stand beside Satori.

Sesshomaru quickly pulled out his wallet and grabbed a wad of cash. He didn't even take the time to count it as he held it out to Kagome. It didn't matter how much it was, she needed something to survive off of.

""No. Keep it." Kagome declined, and Sesshomaru sighed. He should have known better. So, instead, he held it out to his mother who took it from him. He knew she could convince Kagome to use the money as she needed it.

Taking a chance, Sesshomaru did one last thing before he let his wife go. He wrapped one arm around her waist and placed the other on her stomach, a thumb running over her abdomen, before he pulled her in close. His lips found her forehead, and he let his kiss linger.

"I love you, Kagome. Both of you." He whispered, his lips never leaving her skin.

Forcing himself, he pulled away, letting his hands fall away from her and letting her go for possibly the last time. For all he knew, that could be the last time he touched his wife, and that knowledge was tearing him up inside.

"You will let me know if you, or our child, need anything. Just name it, and you will have it." Sesshomaru ordered.

Kagome just nodded, fighting the tears that were filling her eyes. Satori placed a hand on her back and, giving a sorrow-filled glance towards her son, guided the young woman out the door, bags in hand.

Sesshomaru watched as his very existence walked away, got into a car, and left, never once looking back at him. He felt as if he wanted to cry, but he pushed all feelings and emotion away. At least, for now.

Later, he may break down.

But, for now, he had an unwanted son to deal with.

-sSs-

Yes, Sesshomaru may seem heartless right now when it comes to his son, but he is also going through a lot. Eventually, all of this will begin to change. While Satori is Sesshomaru's mother, the way I have written her character, she will be able to remain unbiased. In truth, she just wants what's best for her unborn grandchild. She will eventually elaborate on that. The foreshadowing to Kagome's past will be divulged eventually. Right now, it is too painful for Kagome to speak of, and those that know of what occurred also know that it is an unspoken rule not to speak of the past. That was why InuYasha got so mad at Sango. I hope you all enjoyed.

Shout outs:

Sesskag493: nope, Kagome wasn't hurt too badly, at least not physically. Sesshomaru knows the repercussions of what he did, he is just hoping that he can gain her forgiveness. He really does love her after all. There will be lot of what you stated. I can promise that.

Redrake323: I'm going to try and put a bit of angst in this story, so the next few chapters won't be very fun.

Wolfgirl09: With it being ten years ago, it is likely that she will forgive him, but certain things in her life need to happen first, and we will see it as it all unfolds.

Wren210: Kagome's character could never go through with something like that, which is why I added it the way I did. Yes, it crossed her mind for a second, but she quickly pushed it away. Everyone loved the fight, and even I thought it would be good… that's why I added it. lol. Kagura will get what's coming to her. I already have it all planned out. I do have to ask, why would you be angry id Kagome has a girl? Not saying that is what she will have, I'm just curious.

I do not own InuYasha.