Whoo Hoo! Chapter 10 do be here! Sorry it's short. Hop you like.
I found myself on Emily's doorstep I had cried a bit on the way over and felt a bit foolish but she had to know how I felt. I wasn't going to let the only person I'd really let in go because I was too stupid to tell them.
I waited a little while before I heard her say "I'm not opening the door, my face is all puffy and I've been crying a bit." I had to get this out.
"I don't care." I just wanted to talk. I sat down outside her door since she clearly was being serious about not opening the door. It was now or never.
"I do want someone, need someone, your it." My voice broke a I said it.
"And…" And?! Shit and what? I'm so not good at this opening up thing but I could her the desperation in her voice.
"And when I'm with you I feel like I'm a better person, I feel happier, less alone, less lonely" I saw her hand come through the cat flap in the door and smiled grabbing it with mine.
One squeeze from her hand and I got the confidence to say everything "It's not as simple as that is it? Being with someone?" I wanted her to tell me that it was, that everything would be fine but she didn't"
"isn't it?" I think she figured I needed to get this all out and needed to do on my own. She was right.
"No, I mean, I don't know, I mean I don't think so. I mean…." I broke off I was in tears now, I'd finally told her. I just wanted things to stay like this I didn't want to deal with any of the other stuff right now or we'd be over before we had even begun.
"Can't we just sit like this for a bit?" I held her hand in both of mine feeling the warmth of them, sending tingles through my own.
"Yeah, we can, for a bit."
The door opened and I fell sideways I looked up to see Emily giggling, I laughed.
"Get inside." Emily said pulling me to her, kissing me deeply, I returned the kissing moving her backwards to the hall wall. Feeling nothing but love in the kiss as her smooth tongue entered my mouth, I put everything I felt into it until we broke for air looking at each other.
She was smiling I was so glad that I was the one that could do it. I yawned.
"Come on you, let's get some sleep"
We headed upstairs I was so happy my heart was pounding out of my chest and it made it swell even more at the thought that I knew hers was too. We never did get that much sleep that night we stayed awake talking, deciding not to go public just yet, not to put a label on anything either.
Just see where it takes us. I wrapped her in my arms once more and fell asleep contently with Emily's steady breathing beside me.
I was exactly where I was meant to be.