Holiday

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Chapter 10:

"Promise me If I cave in and break,

and leave myself open,

that I won't be makin' a mistake."

Nobody's POV:

"Hey, Clare, how are you feeling?" Fiona and Alli cautiously walked into Clare's room, and handed her some hot chocolate, as they sipped on their own. They were worried about their bestfriend, it's been a few days since she found out about the marriage, and Clare didn't even want to get out of bed, only for work and food.

Earlier that day, Helen came by to drop off the invitations, for the three girls. In Clare's invitation, there was a letter, saying that her mom was sorry about her and Jake, but hoped that Clare could leave the passed behind, and do what makes her mom happy.

"She's selfish." Clare muttered, tossing the letter on the ground, and taking a sip out of her mug. Though her anger had cooled down, she still was unsure if she wanted to attend the wedding. "Clare," Alli sat down at the foot of her bed. "You're her bridesmaid, you have to go." Clare agreed with Alli's words, but still thought less of her mother.

"Alli's right, Clarebear." Fiona was still standing against the door frame. "Maybe it's best to just start over, maybe talk to Jake, and work things out. We all know how hard it is, but you'll never be fully happy, if you don't work on the things that make you sad." If anyone, Fiona knew this was the truth. High school wasn't her best years, but in a way, it made her stronger. She took a lot of therapy, to help her drinking problems, trust issues, and having an abusive boyfriend, but after working on things, she managed to help herself.

"Fine, fine, I'll go. And, maybe have a chat with Jake. But it's late, and Im exausted, I'll see you guys in the morning." She yawned, and her friends left her room. She tucked herself in, but before she could close her eyes, her phone started ringing. She hesitated, when she saw the caller I.D. It was Eli. She was ignoring his texts and phone calls all week. Thinking he'd suffured enough, she pressed the "answer" button.

Eli- Hey, Clare

Clare- Hi, Eli

Eli- Are you doing anything tomorrow night? Maybe we should talk. How about dinner at Apple Bees?

Clare thought for a moment. Tomorrow was Thursday, and she didn't have anything planned. She and Eli did have to talk, but she wasn't sure why she'd been ignoring him.

Clare- Um, yeah. sounds great, but your paying!

Eli- haha, what kind of friend would I be if I didn't pay?

Clare- A bad one. haha, anyways, Im tired, and I have work early tomorrow, I'll see you later!

She said goodbye, and hung up the phone, yawning.

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"So, you havn't talked to Jake since the break up?" Eli asked, shoving his hands in his pockets. Him and Clare were walking in the park, on Thursday night. They decided to take a night walk after dinner. Clare had told Eli about her purity ring, and how she trusted Jake, and Eli chuckled a little at her innocence.

"Nope. It was a very fustrating time, my parents got a divorce not too long after. Look, all of this is making my head hurt." Clare thought for a moment. "What about you? You never talk about your exes.." Clare noticed how Eli tensed up when she said this. She wondered if he had anything to hide, but maybe she should just drop the subject. "Nevermind, It doesn't seem like you want to talk about it, I understand."

Eli smirked at her nervousness, and thought he should just tell her. "Well, since you opened up to me about Jake, I guess I should tell you more about me." Eli wasn't the type to open up to people, but for some reason he trusted Clare. He wanted to tell her about Imogen, even about Julia.

"It started when I was 14," He kept his eyes on the ground. "I met this girl, Julia." He smiled at the memory of how him and Julia had first met, in the hallway of Lakehurst. "She, she was something else. My parents loved her, and she'd even stay over when she didn't get along with her stepmom." The thought of Julia's stepmom made Eli angry. She never loved Julia, she thought that the girl was a waist of space. "She was perfect. The only thing, she was stubburn. and we'd fight a lot. But one day, we were arguing, over a stupid thing, and she ran out of my house."

Tears were stinging the sides of Eli's eyes now. Clare wanted to wipe them away, but she didn't want to ruin the moment. "She got hit by a car. She died because of me!" Clare wanted to scream at Eli, tell him it wasn't his fault, but something in her kept her silent. "And," Eli continued, after taking a second to calm down. "I decided to never love again. I didn't deserve to love, I hurt everyone who loved me. I didn't have much friends, just mainly Adam, Drew, and Dave. But in college, I met Imogen Moreno." He chuckled a little, remeniscing the good times with Imo. "She was a model, but she also had brains. I thought I loved her.." His smile disappeared, and Clare could see the disapointment in his eyes.

She was shocked, learning all of this about Eli. Hearing his story, she wanted to cry, it was like a tragic Love Story gone wrong. "Little did I know, she was also smart enough to fool me. She was cheating." Eli shrugged. "I was going to propose to her one night, and I surprised her at her house. Thats when I found out." He smiled at Clare, to show that he was ok. She didn't know what to say, she thought her life was bad, but to Eli, she was living a fairytale.

"So, you lost all hope," Clare's words came out as more of a question, and Eli just nodded. "Im so sorry," Clare lightly touched Eli's arm, but he just shrugged. "It's nothing really. But now you know my story, why I have trust issues." He chuckled lightly. "And if anyone is to find out, I'll hunt you down and kill you!" He joked, earning a shove from Clare.

They walked side-by-side for a while in silence, a good silence. A comfortable, friendly silence. "Clare.." Eli glanced at her, and her blue orbs met his emerald eyes, there faces so close, too close. He held his breath, and placed his lips on hers.

The kiss was short, and when Clare pulled away, she wasn't sure how she felt. Eli had just kissed her.. Out of nervousness, maybe? Trust? Lust? Or, something else? No, Eli doesn't love me, and I do not love him. They akwardly turned back to walking side-by-side along the grass. The air around them was tense, and Eli kept his head down, wondering what he'd just done.

The sun had set, and it started to get little more chilly. "Well, the nights coming to an end, should we get going?" Clare nodded, and they walked over to Eli's car. When they were on the road, Eli looked over at Clare. "Your not gunna believe this, but in High school, I drove a hearse."

Clare giggled at this, and looked wide-eyed at Eli. "Seriously? Wow, I guess that's not really a shocker." Eli rolled his eyes, and turned back to the road. He realized now that he loved Clare's laugh, it was light and innocent. "You have a cute laugh," He looked into her blue eyes, mesmerized. She blushed a little, but at the corner of her eye, she saw a car coming directly towards them from the left. "Eli!" She shouted, but it was too late. The car was spinning, and she kept her eyes shut.

Eli tried swerving to the right, but the car managed to hit them. He felt force on his left side, and he let out an ear-splitting scream.

Hmm.. Like this chapter? Review! c: Idk how to really describe the car accident, lets just say, a car ran into Eli's side of his car. And yeah. xoxo, Jadasophea !