Disclaimer: I own none of the Harry Potter characters or settings or any of the music I intend on using in this story later on. I do own all other characters in which you do no reconize. I don't own Hilary Duff's song, "Someone's watching over me".
A/N: Wow! I can't believe how much I'm getting back into this story! I'm loving it! I also can't wait to finish writing up the sequel for this story(To all of you who love this story just as much as I do!). Onwards to Chapter TEN!
Chapter Ten- Someone's watching over me
'I can't believe I did this. I could have killed her. If she dies or contracts Lycanthropy I'll kill myself.'
Julianna's head was pounding and was too weak to move or open her eyes so all she could do was listen to the little mini conversations going on around her.
'It's not your fault Moony. You don't have alot of control of yourself like that. None of us blame you, and I bet she won't either.'
Moony? That name...that was the werewolve's name. I remember hearing it from that stag.
'See, this is what you get for being reckless Sirius! Look what happened to her!'
'Hey! Don't you bloddy fucking hell blame me for this. We didn't know she was a Vixen. Oh but that doesn't matter to you, does it Tam, you just go all weird on me, "How do you feel about what happened Sirius." Save it Tam.'
'I know how you feel! You don't give a shit! You could really care less. All your hoping for is that she is better in a week so that you can still take her to that stupid ball!'
'Would you two stop fighting and keep your voices down. Give the girl some rest.' Lily snapped.
Thank you Whoever said that!
'Julianna, can you hear us?'
She mummbled.
'Are you okay hunny?'
Julianna slowly opened her eyes to find herself surrounded by James, Sirius, Remus, Lily, Tammy and Mary-Elle.
'You gave us a right good scare there.' Lily said, feeling her forehead.
'Where am I?' Julianna whispered.
'The Hospital Wing. You almost died on us for a minute, but Madame Pomfrey was able to bring you back and keep you stable.' Sirius replied.
'How long have I been out for?'
'About two days or so, give or take.' Mary-Elle said.
'Uh. God, my neck hurts.' Then Julianna remember exactly why it did, 'Am I? Do I...'
'Naw. You're going to be absolutly fine. Nothing's wrong with you. You should have a nasty scar on your neck though for a couple days. It's a good thing you were in an animal form.' James said, smirking.
'Uh, yeah about that. I didn't think of telling you guys because..well, I don't know. I don't know why I didn't tell you guys. I just thought it would be a good mystique for me I guess. Guess I was wrong.'
'It's doesn't matter right now. Your safe and that's good.' Tammy said smiling.
'And even though you've just been through major karma, you still look hot.' Sirius said smirking.
Tammy elbowed him hard in the ribs.
'Ow, fuck off Tam or I swear...'
'Please, stop.' Julianna said, trying to raise her voice as much as possible. She rubbed her temples where a wicked headache had started.
'Sorry.' Sirius said.
'Oh god, I feel so sick.' Julianna mummbled, closing her eyes again.
'Well, we just dropped in to see how you are. We'll come back after dinner. How's that sound?' Lily asked.
'Alright.' Julianna replied, weakly.
'Take care.' Sirius said, kissing her forehead.
'Julianna? Do you mind if I stay for a bit?' Remus asked, as the others left.
'Sure, as long as you promise not to make a big deal out of all this. I'll be fine.' Julianna said, smiling lightly.
'Well, uh, the good news is, you didn't get lycanthropy...'
'Thank god. Whenever I meet that werewolf again I swear, he was so god damn rude, I never met a rude werewolf before in my life.'
'Well..wait...you know other werewolves?'
'Yeah, two of my friends back at my old school were werewolves. It's pretty sad really, but they were never that rude in their werewolf form. That's why I became an animagus, for them.' Julianna sighed.
'Oh, well, um. There's some bad news I have to tell you.'
'What is it?'
'Well uh, Professor Dumbledore thought I should tell you. This is my punishment really, thank god I'm not being expelled...'
'Punishment for what...oh my god! You!' Julianna whispered the last part.
'I'm...the werewolf...who attacked you.' Remus stuttered.
Julianna stared at him blankly for a minute until she started to laugh.
'What's so funny?' Remus asked, confuessed.
'You? Were the werewolf who attacked me? No, you couldn't be.'
Remus stayed quiet.
Julianna crossed her arms and smirked, 'I never thought I would see the day when you would be rude to someone. So you're the reason why I'm here?'
'Julianna I swear, I never meant to hurt you! The wolf is a very powerful thing to overcome. He takes over my mind alot, he gets total and complete control when I'm a werewolf. I really didn't know it was you, not that I could help it if I did, but ever since James and Sirius told me what I did, I was so scared that I had killed you. I would never try to hurt you. And I am so sorry about how I acted a couple days ago. I was out of line, it's not my choice who you go out with, it's really none of my business to say the least...'
Julianna placed a finger up against his lips to silence him, 'Remus, I understand. I'm sorry too. I know you never meant to hurt me, I know you would never hurt me.' She slowly sat up and Remus helped her.
'Really?'
She nodded her head, 'Really. Could you do me a favour Remus?'
'Anything!'
She chuckled, 'Could you get me some lined paper?'
'Yeah sure.' Remus went searching through the dresser beside her bed and found about four sheets of paper. He handed them to her, 'Here you go.'
'Thank you. Is there a quill in there by any chance?'
'Here, you can use mine.' He replied, taking a quill out of his robe's pocket.'
She quickly began to jot down words on the paper.
'What are you writing?' Remus asked.
'Just a song. About my feelings after this experince.'
Remus gulped.
She smiled, 'Don't worry. It's nothing bad. '
Remus sighed and watched as she wrote a bunch of words down but then stopped, 'What's wrong?' He asked.
'I don't what else I should write.' Julianna said, pushing her hair back from her face.
'Well read me what you have so far.'
Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
Voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
'Hmm.' Remus said thinking.
'Maybe I should just start over.' Julianna said, readying herself to crumple up the paper.
'No wait! How about "All I know is yesterday is gone,And right now I belong,"... "Took this moment to my dreams".
Julianna looked, 'That's perfect. You could be a professional song writer'
Remus blushed.
Julianna quickly wrote that down then finished it up, 'I think I have a tune for this now.'
'Well, let's here it now.'
Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
Voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
Took this moment to my dreams
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me
Someone's watching over me
'So, how do you like it.' She asked, tapping the quill against her chin.
'It's good. I like it.'
'Thank you. I wrote it about what happened and my parents watching over me.'
'It's sweet.'
Julianna blushed. She then wrote at the bottom of the page; Julianna and Remus October 24 1978
There was silence between them.
'I'm really sorry for all this Julia. I wish this was me in the hospital instead of you.' Remus muttered.
'Remus, It's not your fault. I forgive you. Can I ask you something?' She said.
'Yeah sure.'
'I'm not going to pretend I'm an expert at this, but it helped alot with my friends who were werewolves to help keep their mind to themselves.'
Remus was a tad confuessed, 'Mind to themselves?'
'Keep from sharing their mind with their wolf when it isn't a full moon.'
'Oh. You can do that?' Remus asked.
'Well, I'm no expert like I said but I know how to help a bit. If you'll let me.'
'Sure.'
'Alright, close your eyes.' She said.
He cocked an eyebrow at her but she quickly gave him a stern look and he closed his eyes.
'Now, I want you to remember when you were bitten. How old you were, where you were, how you felt.'
Remus shuttered. He was six years old when he reseved his bite, in the forest behind his house. It was frightening. Remus hadn't realised he said that outloud.
'Remus, can you remember when you were younger than that?'
He mummbled something.
'Remus, can you remember when you were younger than that?' She repeated
'Barely.'
'I want you to try. Try hard to remember what your mind was like before you got bitten.'
His mind before he was bitten. Oh, those were the days, his mind was free. Free to think about and wander wherever it wanted. He never had arguements with his mind before his wolf had taken over, never had to follow orders from something else that invaded his mind.
'Remus, can you remember anything?' She asked
'Yes.' He whispered.
'What can you remember?'
'How free my mind was to think about whatever I wanted. I never had to follow orders from something else that lived in my head besides me. I was free.'
'I want you to concentrate on that thought, very hard and nothing else will come into your mind besides that thought. Remember how good it felt to have your own mind!'
As she shut his eyes tighter to concentrate, he could here the wolf in his head, trying to make its voice heard.
"I will not let you let her shut me out. I'm am part of you. I AM you! You are nothing without me."
"I...I..." Remus stuttered
"You are mine to control! Not the other way around!"
"You aren't me! Your not going to control me!" Remus yelled in his mind.
"You can't get rid of me just like that..."
But the wolf's voice was getting farther and father away in sound. After a minute, he could barely hear it's voice. When Remus opened his eyes, Julianna was staring at him.
'Are you okay?' She asked.
'He...It...It stopped. I can't hear it anymore.' Remus said, shocked.
Julianna only smiled.
'You did it!' Remus replied, kissing her softly on the cheek, causing them both to blush.
'It was no problem, you have to keep happy though.'
'Pardon?' Remus asked, coming down from his happiness.
'You're only able to shut it down right now because you believe that you can. You have to keep thinking like that, in order for it to stay like that.'
'But...I don't...I don't think I can...'
Julianna placed her finger against his lips again, 'I know you can. Well, I'm going to get some rest now, but come up and see me later with the others, okay?'
'Yeah. Sleep well.'
She kissed his cheek, 'Have fun at dinner.' She said, and rolled over so that her back was facing him and drifted off to sleep.
Remus left smiling.
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