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AN- Hope you enjoy.
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Time seemed to slow down. His soft lips against mine. He wasn't pulling away. He wasn't standing still. No. Beck Oliver was kissing me back. Maybe it's because he's a mess but I don't care. I want him.
The need for oxygen made us pull away.
"I should go." He said. I didn't reply but I let him go.
I stood in the hallway alone for a while before I began to walk. I had no sense of where I was going, I just needed to get away. I came to the back of the school and exited the school. I ran away before security caught me.
I walked all the way home, my feet ached by the time I got there. Maybe wearing heels wasn't my best choice today. I hadn't give Declan a thought since what happened with me and Beck until I felt my phone vibrate. I took it out and read his message.
From Declan:
Where are you?
I frowned at the text as I walked up to our loft. As soon as I got in I threw the phone on the ground. Pieces of the phone scattered on the floor. I let out a frustrated scream and began tearing up the place, grabbing everything in my way and smashing it on the ground. I threw my bag across the floor and everything scattered. I don't know why though. Beck kissed me, he's mine and yet all I can think about is Holly fucking J and my brother. Beck is suppose to make me happy but I feel more alone than ever. It's all her fault.
"That whore!" I yelled. Tears poured down my face.
I go to the kitchen and take out our champagne. My mother told us not to have any alcohol in here. Ever. But I sneaked it by when we moved in. Sometimes I just need an escape. Like now.
I grabbed the bottle and opened it. I took a long drink out of it before taking it to my room.
Here's to drinking my problems away.
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I woke up by being violently shaken.
I groaned and the shaking stopped. A distant voice called my name. As I opened my eyes, Declan was sitting right in front of me.
"What?" I moaned. My head throbbing and I burped. My vision was a blur but I could recognize two figures in my room.
"Have you been drinking?" He asked loudly. A sharp pain entered my head. Hangover. Not good.
"Declan. Shush. Head." I said still getting my clear vision back. I looked around and everything came back to me. My room was a mess.
After I came into my room I threw everything around in here. I broke the mirror that Holly J. was now cleaning up. Then a smile came on my face as I remembered that I kissed Beck.
"I kissed Beck!" I told him.
"And so you trash the house?" Declan asked. I frowned.
"I... never mind." I told him as I got up. I almost lost balance but he caught my arm and guided me to the bed, where I should have been in the first place.
"Where did you get the champagne from? Mom and Dad told us we couldn't have any alcohol in the house. You're not even legal!" Declan exclaimed. I groaned at the loud noise.
"Can you please talk softer!" I told him. He sighed.
"What the hell is going on with you?" He asked softly. I glared at him and then at Holly J. who stopped what she was doing and was looking at me. Oh so now he cares? I have to trash the damn house to get him to care?
"Get out of my room. Both of you." I told them.
"Not until you tell me what's wrong with you!" Declan shouted. Holly J. did as I told her and excused herself, saying something about not wanting to get involved.
"Just forget it. Go make out with her or something. Just leave me alone." I argued. He shook his head.
"What the hell do you want from me, Fiona? I do everything I can to make you happy. Is this still because I didn't help you break Jade and Beck up?" Declan asked. I rolled my eyes.
"Turns out I didn't need your help. I did it on my own."
"Then I'll ask you again, what the do you want from me?" It sounded more like an order than a question.
"Right now I want you to get the hell out of my room." I told him quietly avoiding eye contact. He knows what I want. Its just he will never do it. I glanced at him. He looked at me with anger in his eyes.
"Fine." He mumbled. And suddenly I knew that it wasn't going to be the same. He never held anger towards me. He never talked to me like that. It sounded like he just didn't care. Have I lost my brother? The door made an echoing sound as it slammed shut. I fell back on the bed and stared at the ceiling. My energy is drained. Then I heard a "ding" noise coming from my laptop. I turned my head to look at the scream.
One new message from Beck. I got up with no hesitation and opened the mail.
"We gotta talk."
I grinned and typed in. "Sure." Just then I got another reply from him but accidentally closed out before I could see it. Oh well, I'm sure it said something like "I'll be waiting for you." Though I did see the word "Don't." Hm... I can worry about it later. Now I have to get there.
I got onto his profile to get his address and wrote it down. I fixed myself before heading out the door. Declan and Holly J were no where in sight. I ignored it and headed to his house.
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. Jade's POV
I walked through the halls of this stupid school. I was alone and no one seemed to care. I wondered into the black box theater to find it surprisingly empty. The thought of how me and Beck use to sit here after school and just stay quiet came back to me. The last time we came here we were on the cat walk. I carved in a heart with our initials on it. I wonder if it's still there.
The curiosity got the best of me and I climbed up there. I looked for it and there it was. It's a crappy heart and a weird shaped B. I smiled at the thought of us laughing and smiling. I sat down for a while recommencing on the good old days. Oh god I sound old.
I let out a small laugh when I remembered indirectly threatening Cat to push her off. I would never do it...to her at least. Just then the doors opened. I peeked down trying to be unseen. It might have been security, they usually don't allow anyone in here until after school.
I saw the familiar brown fluffy hair. Beck. He stood in the door way for seconds, just looking around. What is he doing? I wanted to speak, to scare the crap out of him but my throat closed up.
"Hey." I said in a very soft voice and as soon as he walked out. Tears welled up again. I want him back. I climbed down to chase after him. I ran through the doors and began searching but instead ran into Cat, who was coming out of the bathroom.
She looked at me and smiled.
"Jade!" She greeted skipping towards me.
"Not now, Cat." I said. She frowned and held my hand.
"I know I've been avoiding you but... I'm sorry." She apologized. I nodded.
"Doesn't matter to me." I told her. She looked hurt but I didn't apologize.
"So did Beck talk to you?" She asked.
"Why would he do that? We're over. Done." I sneered. When I say it it's like it isn't real.
"He went looking for you to get back together with you. The new girl Holly J. convinced him to. He left off only minutes ago." She explained. I tried not to smile but it was getting hard. Before she could speak I walked away in a more determined pace to find him.
I turned and searched the halls but still could not find him. I was becoming hopeless. Maybe I could text him and ask him where he is. No, that would seem to desperate. Beck, where the hell are you?
Just as I turn the corner I bump into him. He gasped silently. For moments we just looked at each other.
"H-hi." I gave him a small smile. He still stayed silent.
Maybe he chickened out.
"Hey." He finally said. He looked sad? I don't even know what he looked like. I've never seen that look on his face.
"So um, I-" I was cut off by him.
"Can we talk later? I'm in a hurry." He said. He steps aside and begins to walk.
"I'm sorry." He said as he walked away.
I felt like such a fool. How could I be so stupid and actually fall for it? He probably told them all that lie so they could leave him alone. I guess Holly J pressured him. I guess her intentions were good but backfired. I didn't care anymore and let my self cry. I was so so so stupid.
I walked out of school, ignoring the security to get back in the building. He was too far away to do anything, especially since he was on the other side of the fence. I kept my head low and continued walking to the parking lot. I got in my care and drove off.
I just...ugh! Why did Cat have to tell me? Can't she keep her mouth shut? It's all her fault!
I know, I know its not her fault but blaming her is so much more easier.
I come home and my mother is on her computer. I quickly wiped away my tears.
"Jade? What on earth are you doing here?" She asked as she closed her laptop.
"I wasn't feeling good. What are you doing here?" I asked her. She is usually not home until six.
"Ugh, not you too. You're brother has the stomach flu. Let's just hope you don't have it either." She explained. She got up and went to the kitchen cabinet and took out some pills.
"Take these and go rest. I'll be down here if you need anything." She told me. I took the pills and walked away, throwing them on the ground as I walked up the stairs.
I went to my room and locked the door. I let out small tears as I laid down in my bed. I felt so useless and worthless.
I didn't care anymore. I made myself promise I wouldn't care.
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My phone vibrated loudly. Even when I threw it on the floor it didn't stop. I groaned and decided to let it keep vibrating. I don't want to talk to anyone.
Five minutes had passed and still the phone vibrated. I screamed and got up. I grabbed the phone and checked it.
15 missed calls. 5 voice messages and 20 new texts from Beck Oliver.
I looked at the phone without thinking anything. Literally. I just starred at it blankly. I began listening to the voice mails, they all said the same thing. "Jade, we gotta talk." or "Jade, pick up." The texts were all the same. "PICK UP, PLEASE." I tried talking to him. I gave him the chance to get back together with me. Cat said he wanted to and there I was. Standing right in front of him. I even spoke first. Yet all he did was walk away.
The phone began to vibrate again. I hit the ignore button. Then called back to leave a voice mail.
"Beck. Stop calling me. Leave me alone. I don't care what you have to say. I tried talking to you today but it was obviously a waste of my time. You clearly didn't want to talk to me. So you know what? Fine. I've had enough." I said, my voice shaking and I tried so hard not to cry. I began sobbing after I hung up.
If he wanted me, he would have said so. But he stayed quiet. He choose to walk away.
I let the phone fall and sat on the floor. I stopped crying eventually and as if in cue, the phone began to vibrate. But it only vibrated once. It was yet another voice mail from him. It took all my will power to put a pillow over it. I crawled back into bed but the curiosity was killing me. Was he calling to say he would leave me alone or to say he wanted me back? Jade! Listen to yourself! He probably hasn't even thought about getting back together.
I couldn't take it anymore. I got up and walked up to the phone. I listened carefully to the voice mail.
"Jade. I know you don't want to listen to me. But I'm saying this anyways, hoping you haven't already erased it. Jade I love you and I would never cheat on you. I wanted to get back together with you but I couldn't. Jade... I'm sorry but I can't say it over the phone. Please. Come over and lets talk."
The line goes silent.
He wanted to get back together. Key word, wanted. What made him change his mind?
I guess I have to find out. I walked downstairs quietly and grabbed my car keys.
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AN- And it is over... for now at least. So now Fiona is on her way to his place, Jade's on her way to his place. What shall happen next? Stay tuned! Please, with cherries on top, hit that review button?