Do I really need a disclaimer line across every chapter? I do? Seriously? Fine, fine...I don't own Ookiku Furikabutte! Happy? *sulks*
Title basically means "national conquest". I'm not sure of the last word, since I'm not that great with auditory information and couldn't find "seihan" in my dictionary. When Tajima said it, it sounded like he said "seiha", then when Mihashi said it, I thought I heard an "n" at the end. Ungh.
Prompt: Writing
Rating: G
Genre: General (with maybe a smidgen of angst, though it's more of just confusion)
Summary: Mihashi talks about his feelings towards Abe in an essay for class.
Notes: Refers to an incident in the last "chapter" (they started to become interconnected all on their own; my original plan for this were non-related one-shots, to tell the truth), but you don't have to have read the last chapter to understand this one.
Zenkoku Seiha
I don't know why I'm writing this. I usually don't keep a journal or anything, and I don't particularly like to write. Oh, now I remember; it's for an assignment for class, and Abe-kun said that I had to hand it in to keep my grades up because I can't play if I get bad grades.
I'm the pitcher for the Nishiura baseball team, and I can say that with confidence, now. I owe that to the others on the team, like Sakaeguchi-kun for being friendly and Tajima-kun for being like a brother. Mostly, though, I owe it to Abe-kun.
Sure, we got off on a slightly rough start. I knew that he didn't like my personality, and he got angry over every little thing. He still does that, like if I forget to wear the elbow protector when I bat, or use the net when I do pitching practice. But it's not nearly as bad as before, and I know he only does it because he's worried for me.
That always made me feel good, to know that he cares about me. Lately, it's been even more so than usual. The yelling has cut back greatly, or maybe that's because I remember what he tells me these days and don't keep on taking risks. He went off the wall when Tajima-kun coaxed me into skateboarding. Granted, he didn't actually get angry until I went down that hill, and he had to save me.
We both got scolded for that, and Tajima-kun was made to run extra laps. Izumi-kun said that Tajima-kun was just acting like a brother, but it was the only defense Tajima-kun got. Abe-kun and I got off with a nice lecture from Momokan on how dangerous of a stunt that was.
But Abe-kun didn't yell at me afterwards. He yelled when he saved me from what would have been a crash into a telephone pole, but it was different from his usual yelling; he was really scared, I think.
I don't want to see Abe-kun like that again. He can be scary, and really imposing, but scared doesn't quite fit him. If anything, he's always the one that stays like a rock in situations that shake me up.
I'm grateful for Abe-kun, more so now than ever before. We were barely a battery back then, and pretty much just going through the motions of being one. I left all the decision making up to him, and it wasn't until he got hurt during the game against Bijou that we both realized where the problem was.
We fixed it, though. It took a little while to get used to, and I was so used to Abe-kun's game calling that it was a little while before I realized that I needed to contribute more than having a windup.
Sure, we're not the best in the world, and we're still working on it, but what first-year battery hits it off right away? Especially one like ours, on a team as wacky as ours.
Even now, there's something more between us than just a battery. We're finally actually friends, and I'm not afraid to respond to his text messages, and I'm fine with sending them, too.
Tajima-kun keeps teasing us that there might be something else there (well, he teases me, because when he teases Abe-kun about it, Tajima-kun usually gets a lump on the head), but I don't really know what to make about that.
We're both fine with two guys falling in love, but when I say it aloud, or even write it, it sounds really strange. Not the two guys part, but that we would think that of each other. It hasn't even been a year…can people really fall in love on such a short time? Especially ones that "hit it off" like we did.
Abe-kun and I think it's just friendship, maybe best friends sort of thing. Though, I must admit that there's something slightly stronger than friendship in our relationship. We don't 'touch' much, besides holding hands during practice like everyone else on our team does (to test relaxation and all…I don't really understand the deeper concept of it).
Maybe it is something 'more than friends' with us. I feel really strongly about Abe-kun. If someone says something bad about him, I feel like I need to defend him. At first, I had been afraid of him, and just respectful, but now, it feels like…well, I can't really describe it, but that doesn't fit my feelings, now.
I pray Tajima-kun doesn't get ahold of this so he can't show it to Abe-kun. Sometimes, I feel like Abe-kun is just as confused about his feelings towards me as I am of my feelings towards him. I think saying something about it now, though, would be a disaster.
I'm confused as to how deeply, but I like Abe-kun. About as much as I like baseball and pitching. If I'd never met Abe-kun…I don't know where I'd be. He put up with me even when I cowered at the slightest thing, and back when we first met, I was really bad about that. Now, it's more than just 'putting up with me', and I can tell by his actions.
Maybe one day, we can talk about it…when things aren't just developing. When it all settles a bit, we can talk about it. But right now, I'm fine with how things are. We're going slowly but surely, and we're going forward. I think that's the most important part.
In conclusion…I'm glad that I chose Nishiura, and I'm glad that I stayed with them. I'm grateful to my teammates, who accepted me, and most of all to Abe-kun, who I feel something strong for. I hope we get even better, and I want to stick with this team and go all the way with them. And with everybody, together, we'll to go Koshien…no…we'll conquer the nation!
END