I lay on my bed staring off in a daze tracing my lips over in over while this afternoon rolled through my head on repeat. It was the touch of his lips and skin and the smell of wet grass and the feeling that my heart will jump out of my chest that I remembered most.

The best part aside from the kiss was when he said he had feelings too, not in those exact words but the context wasn't missed. I wanted to rush home and gush to my best friend about it but sadly I didn't have one still this was enough.

I was interrupted by my mother coming in and ruining my mood.

"Don't you ever knock?" I asked.

She ignored me "where were you afterschool?"

"Out"

"Out with Edward?" she was curious.

I shrugged

"Bella let's not make this harder than it needs to be"

I rolled my eyes "since when do you care?"

She looked offended "I always care, it may not seem that way but it's true"

"Bella we're trying, me and your father it's just a hard habit to quit. We've always argued it was our way of communicating but it doesn't mean we don't love each other or you"

"That's not the way you show someone love"

"For us yes I'm sorry it has affected you and whenever you feel that way please don't hesitate to speak up"

I sighed "fine"

She stared at me intently

"What?"

"I don't want to be that type of parent but I hope you're being careful with him"

I was shocked I almost fell off the bed "we're not…."

"You look like you did, your skin is flushed"

I blushed embarrassed

"You know I was a young girl once, you can talk to me"

I wanted to, I wanted this experience.

"He kissed me for the first time today and admitted his feelings"

Her smile was wide "if it gets this kind of reaction out of you tell him to do it more often" she teased.

I stared in disbelief

"Don't tell your father I said that"

"Um anyone sitting here?" a soft voice spoke.

I turned to see the new kid standing next to the bench; she was tall and statuesque with pink and black hair. Normally I like to sit alone but she seemed cool and her outfit was just like mine.

"Sure" I replied.

She smiled and sat down "thanks"

"No problem, I'm Bella"

"Irina, I just moved here to live with my dad"

"Willingly or were you forced?"

She laughed "I've always loved small towns"

"If you say so"

"Why are they staring so much?"

I laughed "this is not normal but I'm typically a loner and basically unnoticeable but now I'm in the spotlight"

"What did you get a role in a movie or win the lotto?"

I laughed again "no became friends with the hottest guy in school"

She looked around "I'm not sure I see what you're seeing"

This girl had a sense of humor, I liked that a lot.

"He should be here any minute….."

No sooner than I finished speaking, Edward came striding in holding a paper bag. I couldn't stop staring at his lips, ever since we kissed it's all I think about and we do kiss a lot now.

"Who is he?" Irina asked in awe.

I chuckled and answered "the hottest guy in school"

She nodded "oh I concur"

I smiled happy inside, the hottest guy in school preferred to hang out with me and that made girls jealous. I reveled in it, I loved that I was the source of envy.

He sat down beside me bringing with him the smell of freshly mowed grass and Irish spring. I inhaled deeply feelingly tingly all over.

"Hi beautiful" he said.

I blushed "Hi"

He then surprised me by leaning over and kissing me sweetly for the longest minute ever. I could hear shocked gasps from all over the lunchroom and after I got over my shock I tuned into the kiss. It was addicting, kissing him was like eating snickers but kissing him in front of everyone was like having my cake and eating it too. He pulled back after a minute and smiled at me.

"I've wanted to do that all morning" he said.

Someone cleared their throat and I turned to see Irina wide eyed and smiling "what an introduction" she breathed.

I blushed again embarrassed, I almost forgot that she was sitting here "Edward this is Irina"

"Welcome to forks, we won't mind if you leave suddenly" he said jokingly.

Irina laughed loudly "thanks but I actually like it here"

He looked surprised "we'll we will see if that lasts"

"So what's in the bag" I asked.

"Our lunch" he replied opening the bag and pulling out a container of fries and a small box of pizza. The smell wafted towards me and my mouth watered, I haven't seen pizza in months.

"Oh I love you" I said when I took a bite of the pizza. It was better than ever.

"Me or the pizza?" he asked. Edward asked.

I rolled my eyes "the pizza of course" all the while in my mind I replied "you of course" but I couldn't tell him that.

When lunch was over Edward kissed me on the cheek and went to class, I followed Irina still in my happy mood. She was in my last class with me and we sat together in the very back. I tried to pay attention but all I could think about was Edward and his kisses. If he keeps this up I may fall more in love with him and end up confessing my real feelings.

"So that was your friend" Irina said.

I nodded

"Well I don't kiss my friend that way" she said simply.

I sighed "I know we just became friend but I've always had a crush on him and I've kept it under wraps until he asked for the truth"

"So he likes you"

"Yes but not as much as I do"

"Okay I'm just confused, you call him friend but what I saw in the lunchroom was not friendship"

I knew that but I didn't want to put a label on what we had, actually I wasn't so sure since this was new to him. I knew he had trust issues and his mother leaving scarred him so he definitely wasn't ready for the next step.

"It's complicated"

"I don't see how"

"He has trust issues and he's not ready for the next step, what we have is fine with me until he's ready"

She looked at me sadly "yes but when will he be?"

Her question resonated in my mind all day until the end of school, I was a patient person and I know what he went through so I would wait but for how long was the question.

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