"I used to fantasize what my life would be like if I'd never met Ali. My biggest concern right now would be where I wanted to go to college. Then I have to remind myself that if I hadn't met her, then I wouldn't be friends with you."

The words echoed in Spencer's head as she rolled over in bed and reached for her phone. She blinked as she looked at the time and let out a sigh when she realized it was another sleepless night. "3:07" She mumbled softly and rolled onto her back. She stared at the ceiling and wondered how many more nights she would toss and turn instead of sleeping.

It had been weeks since Emily had kicked Spencer out of her dorm room. Every time she called, Emily wouldn't answer. She wouldn't return her texts or emails. Hanna and Aria didn't mention Emily saying anything to them about what had happened. Spencer was completely in the dark and that was the one place she hated being the most.

"Still can't sleep?" Toby asked that morning as he handed a cup of coffee to Spencer when she came out of the bedroom looking like a walking zombie.

Spencer shook her head and plopped onto one of the kitchen stools and took a sip of the coffee.

"Anything I can help with?" He gave a soft smile and sat next to her, putting his hand on her wrist and giving it a squeeze.

Spencer shrugged and took another gulp of the piping hot liquid. It used to soothe her and now she couldn't really enjoy it because her mind was swirling with too many thoughts for her to pin down.

Toby frowned a little bit as he watched Spencer sit there half asleep working over whatever was going on in her mind. He slowly stood from the stool and walked around to the fridge. He set down his coffee then turned around to look at Spencer "What happened? One minute you were all happy-go-lucky about starting college and getting out of Rosewood and the next you're somewhere else. It's like your brain went on vacation right before school started and it hasn't been back since. I saw your last paper, Spence, you got a C on it. What's going on?"

"It's nothing" Spencer said quickly, glancing up at Toby and shaking her head. It felt wrong to say that because it wasn't nothing. It was Emily. It was one of her best friends and she wasn't even sure if they were friend anymore. She let out a sigh and shook her head, looking into her coffee "It's complicated."

"It's always complicated with you" Toby said with a shrug of his shoulders "I've made it through many complicated times with you, Spencer, and I'm still here. All the things you've kept from me and you still haven't learned I'm on your side?"

"I know" Spencer shrugged and slowly looked up from her coffee. She knew that keeping something from Toby was a bad idea. He always figured it out. He always got to the bottom of it and he was always there for her even after the truth came out. After a heavy sigh she just shrugged again "It's Emily."

"Did something happen to her?" Toby felt a little panic rush through him. He and Emily had always been close and if had something had happened with her and he hadn't known he would feel horrible.

"No" Spencer shook her head quickly "She's fine. I mean, I think she's fine. Health wise she's alive, I guess?"

"You guess?" Toby's brow creased in confusion "You're not making sense. What's going on?"

Spencer closed her eyes and ran her fingers over her lids before dropping her hand to her lap and shook her head "We….had a fight, I guess?"

"When?" Toby arched an eyebrow slightly "You two never fight, what happened?"

"I don't know?" Spencer mumbled softly, her eyes full of sadness at the memory of the night. "I went with her to help her move into her dorm, remember? We just…" She gave a defeated shrug and sighed heavily "I crossed a line and it really upset her and she hasn't talked to me since."

"I'm sure she's busy" Toby said with a shrug "Starting College in a new city is tough. She's also practicing with a new swim team and learning how to navigate an entirely new life. Give her some time."

Spencer rested her hand on her chin, her arm propped up on the counter, and her eyes locked on the surface of the shiny marble Toby had installed in their apartment. The events of the night before were running through her mind and she knew Emily wasn't just busy. Emily was mad at her and it was killing her wondering if she would ever speak to her friend again.

"Hey Spence?" Emily looked over to her friend, her eyes squinting in the sunlight. The girls were all laying around the pool the summer between junior and senior year, enjoying what was left of their summer.

"Yeah?" Spencer put her book down and turned her head to look at Emily.

"We're gonna be seniors in a few weeks" Emily said with a soft smile "Did you ever think we would make it?"

Spencer let out a laugh and shook her head "With all that we've been through it's a miracle we made it." She reached out her hand and grabbed a hold of Emily's arm lightly "But I know I couldn't have made it through without you" She gave it a soft squeeze.

Emily's heart leapt in her chest and she fought off a smile. She managed to nod and took in a deep breath as she looked at her friend. "I have no idea how I'm going to survive without you guys."

"You won't be without us" Spencer said with a smile "You'll always have us. It's only miles, right? Not even miles can break up our friendship."

Emily nodded softly "Friends forever, right?"

"Of course" Spencer said with a smile, her hand returning to her book now. "Nothing will ever change that."

"Spence?" Toby walked up behind her and put a hand on her shoulder. "You alright? Where did you go just then?"

"I have to go see her" Spencer stood up quickly, nearly knocking Toby backwards off his feet.

"What? Who?" Toby stumbled back and caught himself on a nearby chair.

"Emily" Spencer tucked some wild hair behind her ear and turned toward the bedroom "I have to go see her. I promised her that no matter what we would be friends forever and she needs me now more than ever."

"Spencer, I'm sure she's fine. You have an exam today" Toby tried to catch her but she was slamming the door in his face before he could reach her.

"I'll do a makeup exam" Spencer called through the door. She was hopping from foot to foot as she changed out of her sweats and pulled on some jeans. She quickly tossed off her baggy sweater and pulled on a clean shirt before searching for her purse and keys. "It can't wait, I have to see her today."

"Spencer, just wait until the weekend. What if you get there and she is busy? What if she has class, or swim practice, or a paper due? You can't just show up, especially if you had a fight and you're not talking" Toby waited outside the room with his arms folded until Spencer pulled the door open to look at him. She opened her mouth to argue but he stopped her "Wait. Call her and even if she doesn't answer, leave her a voicemail to let her know you are coming this weekend. That way you've at least warned her. Trust me, showing up uninvited is a really good way to make sure whatever is broken never gets fixed."

Spencer hated how true Toby's words were. She took in a deep breath and rolled her eyes. She folded her arms and leaned against the doorway with a nod "Fine" She said softly, giving into the logic Toby was spewing. "I'll call her and go see her this weekend." She turned back into the room and went to find her phone, scrolling through to find Emily's number.

"Now are you ever going to tell me what happened and why you have to see her so badly?" Toby asked softly, genuine concern in his tone.

"Maybe after this weekend" Spencer said with a shrug then motioned for him to leave the room so she could make the phonecall. She waited until the door was closed before she turned back to her phone. She took a deep breath and pushed the call button before lifting the phone to her ear. She closed her eyes and silently prayed Emily wouldn't answer because she wasn't sure she could tell her in person that she was planning on coming to see her. She wasn't sure she could handle Emily telling her to stay away again.

When she heard Emily's voicemail, she let out a breath of relief and waited for the tone. She cleared her throat and put on a smile "Hey Em, it's me. Uh, Spencer. Look I know we haven't talked in a while and that totally sucks so.." She swallowed the nervous lump in her throat and pushed forward, her voice getting weaker the more nervous she got. "So I was wondering what you are doing this weekend. I have some free time and would really like to see you. So…let me know" She shrugged and bit her bottom lip lightly "Call me back, I guess. Okay, bye."