You Turn it On, Then You're gone

Lennon sat in the care clinic, telling Finn the last of her story, but leaving out the Lucille part. That seemed too personal, and she thought it wasn't her place to be telling people.

"Wow." Finn said wide eyed. He had his elbow placed on a table and was resting his head on his hand.

"I think he's really into you Lennon. You know, I heard he hasn't slept with any of his wives since you showed up, I mean it's only been a week, but still. That's a pretty big deal for Sir Negan."

Lennon blushed and laughed lightly, "Yeah right."

"You totally like him! Just be careful, please, I don't want you getting hurt." He said, with a lot of concern in his voice.

"I-I do not like him." Lennon said rubbing her neck and looking down.

"It's all over your face." He said smiling.

"Please. Do you see anything serious happening between you and your booty call?"

Finn busted out laughing, "Kat? No way, it's just something to do." He said leaning back in his chair.

"God, you're one of those guys?" She said pretending to gag herself.

"I mean, she's just not someone I can see myself with. She can be a real bitch, but there's moments where she's nice. And there's not much going on upstairs." He said stroking his chin.

"Well I'm sure she doesn't feel the same way about you, girls think so much more differently than guys."

Finn nonchalantly shrugged his shoulders.

All of the sudden a voice came over the radio.

"Lennon? Come up and see me, I think I busted a stitch from today." Negan's voice echoed.

"Roger dodger!" Lennon chimed as she got up and readjusted herself.

Finn smiled and raised his eyebrows up and down.

"Fuck off." She said grabbing a few supplies.

"Use protection, dear."

Lennon shook her head as she left. She quickly made it to Negan's room, being greeted by the guard who immediately let her pass.

"Negan?" She yelled opening his door.

"In my bedroom, darling!"

She entered his room where he was resting on a large, kind sized bed. He was propped up and the only thing that was covering his naked body was a thin, white sheet.

"Shit, thank God darling. Think I'm bleeding out." He said winking at her as she pulled out her supplies.

"Well since you're already butt ass naked, let's take a look." She said making eye contact with him and softly smiling. He smiled back as she got lost in his dusky eyes. He wetted his lips and bit his lower lip as he smirked. Lennon cleared her throat, "O-ok, let's see." She said as she nervously tucked a piece of her loose hair behind her ear.

"Fuck darling, am I making you wet?" He asked in his deep, smooth voice.

Lennon gulped as she squeezed her thighs. She pushed his sheet back, exposing the area. She could see his bare skin, from chest to toes, which like his chest was also toned. Pull it together Lennon. She thought as she began sweating.

"You definitely busted one of your sutures, b-but it's an easy fix." She said as she grabbed the necessary materials. "And like I said, no more runs after this for a week, or I'll be amputating your leg at our next visit."

"You got it doc." He said wincing as she poked his skin with a needle. "You worked with animals before you said, were you a vet?"

"Nope, a technician. I could do everything except diagnosis, prescribe and do surgeries. So your supposed favorite nurse is one who worked with animals." She said as she began to tie off the suture.

"Well shit, like I said before not much of a difference." He said looking at her, smiling.

"That's not what people think!" She said grabbing the rest of her supplies and putting them in her pocket.

"Don't leave yet!" He demanded.

"Can't you get one of your wives?" Yet again, unnecessary Lennon. She thought biting her tongue.

"Fuck! You are one spit fire, you know that darling? If I didn't like you so much your head would already be smashed in." He said venomously.

"Why are you being so nice to me?"

"Why is it any of your fucking business?"

"Whatever." Lennon said as she began to leave.

"Don't you dare walk away from me!" He bellowed.

"You know, I can't read you." Lennon said as she turned around to face him. "You seem like a genuinely nice guy one minute, but the next you're a fucking monster." She spat.

"You are not to leave until I say so, and you are not to question me darling!" He growled almost animal like.

"Now sit the fuck down!"

She sat down in a chair he was pointing at that was near his bed. She knew she had gotten too far ahead of herself.

He ran his hands through his hair, trying to compose himself.

"Why are you like that though?" She nearly whispered.

"It's the way you have to be in order to run such a huge establishment. Let's people know not you fuck with you. If I was nice people would try getting away with a lot of shit. And even though I'm that way I take care of my people, and they know I have their back, so they should be grateful for me."

"I guess that makes sense, but how about taking from other groups? Why is that necessary?"

"Once again to take care of my people, and to let the other groups know who's in charge. With as many people as we have here, there's no fucking way we'd be able to get by on vegetable gardens or some shit like that."

Lennon didn't say anything.

"Still think I'm a fucking monster darling?" He asked, with a tinge of hurt in the tone.

"I don't know what to think of you, honestly. I barely know you, so it was unfair of me to say that." She said looking down at the floor.

"And about that whole wife bullshit, you're someone I can have an actual conversation with and that I really enjoy. I know you think that whole thing is fucking disgusting, but once again it's to assert power. They choose to be my wives as well, I don't force them."

Lennon just shrugged her shoulders', not wanting to get into it again.

"If you found the right woman, would you ever just settle down with her?"

"Abso-fucking-lutley." He said without hesitation

Lennon smiled at the man she wanted to resent. He was human too like everyone else and she was slowly starting to see that.

"You can leave darling." He said closing his eyes and resting his head on his pillow.

"No, I'll keep you company."

"You're call sweetheart."

She looked over at him, smiling. I know it's only been a week, but man it feels like I've known Negan forever. I have to fight any feelings though. I love Daryl, and no one can replace him. Lennon thought biting a nail on her pointer finger.

"Hey! I forgot to thank you for the record player, I love music and haven't listened to it in quite some time. And I must say you have great taste in music." She said slouching in the chair.

"Glad you like it darling." He said as he stretched and let out a big yawn.

"I better let you get some rest. I forgot how early it is."

"Please stay." Negan said softly.

"Well since you asked so nicely…" She said plopping down on the huge bed and kicking back.

"Woah, you do realize I have nothing on underneath these sheets." He said teasingly.

"Shit, totally forgot!" She said springing up from the bed.

"If you don't mind grabbing me some more water, by the time you come back I'll be more to your liking."

Lennon nodded and filled up the glass, when she came back Negan had briefs and a t-shirt on.

"Better?" He asked chuckling.

"Hey, I never said I didn't like the way you were before." She said flashing a smile.

He laughed, "Man darling, you have one hell of a sense of a humor. I love that in a woman. Drives me fucking crazy. You sure you don't want to be my wife?"

"Abso-fuking-lutley!" She said laying on the other side of the bed.

"Damn, you are a hard one to catch, I know I'll get you soon though." He said with his irresistible smile.

Lennon turned her back to him, resting her head of the very soft pillows.

"Shit, don't turn away from me sweetheart." He said gently.

"I don't think I can take looking at you right now, I might do something I will regret." She said pulling her knees up into her stomach.

"You being fucking serious? Cause you sure sound fucking serious." He said, his voice getting closer to Lennon.

"I just…I feel like we must have known each other real well in the past or something….as crazy as that sounds. And how I recently lost someone I loved, it just seems disrespectful…you know?" She said facing him, nearly losing her breath. He was inches away from her.

"Fuck, you're making this extremely hard for me darling." He said putting some space between them. "I know what you mean though, but when you're ready you have to fucking let me know." He said sincerely.

Lennon's heart was basically beating out of her chest. What the fuck is wrong with me? She thought smiling up at him.

"Dude, you know I'll be the first to tell you."

"Damn fucking straight darling, now let's get some sleep!"

Lennon knew she shouldn't have feelings like this so quickly, especially towards someone her people were disgusted by. She knew it wasn't fair to Daryl either, but felt like she couldn't help it. She wasn't going to let anything happen, but what if she was to never see Daryl again?