I wake up to heat. So much heat. My body is pressed against another body. My blurry eyes open. The sun peaks through a gap in the curtains. It's golden glow creating a haze in the room. A dark duvet covers us. Us! I look up. Aidan. He's still asleep. His dark hair sprawled across the pillow. His heartbeat under my fingertips. An arm wrapped around my waist as the other hangs off the bed. I untangle myself from him. The duvet falling down my naked body as his soft skin falls away from me. A smile graces my face as I begin dressing myself. My last day in England today. I've to go home to finish this project for Poldark.
"Where are you going?" His low voice heavy with sleep.
"It's my room. I can go wherever I want.. Aidan." I give him a wink as I strut into the bathroom. Leave him hanging. Tease him so he wants more.
I hear him come up behind me. He twirls me around, pressing me against the sink. Hands grip my waist. His broad smile widening when I giggle. He kisses me. It's gentle, soft. He takes my lips as if they were made to fit his.
He pulls away. An inch if not less. "Maybe I wanted you to stay in bed.. Bella." His voice is smooth, seductive. Oh god this man!
"I wish.. but I've a plane to catch in a few hours. Dylan will kill me if I'm late."
He pulls me back into the bedroom. "Stuff Dylan. Come back to bed." I give in.
12 weeks. 12 weeks gone. This scan better go well because I can't deal with heartbreak right now with these raging hormones. Now for Aidan and Tom to turn up.. preferably not fighting.
It's been a month since me and Aidan got together. I would call it dating but I still think he sees it as getting to know each other. We have been Skyping when we are both free, phone calls, messaging and he has come to Belfast a few times when filming breaks for the weekend. It's been really fun.. he just hasn't asked me to be his actual girlfriend yet.. maybe we don't do that nowadays. I don't know but I think I've made the right choice with him. Hopefully.
I pace the glass corridor. I don't want to go into the pregnancy unit alone. The sun pierces the large windows. It's heating causing me to take off several layers. My dolly shoes tapping the tiled floor and my breathing uneven. I hate trying to calm my nerves.. it ends up making them worse.
"Sorry I'm late. The driver dropped me off at the other entrance." Aidan runs towards me. He looks a bit like a prince saving his princess.. in casual clothes. He kisses my cheek before taking my hands in his. "Are you ok?"
"Yep I'm good. I thought I was going to be doing this alone." I snuggle into his body. He's so warm and comforting. "How are you? Your hairs even longer."
His long hair skims his shoulders. Jeans and a blue hoody cover him. I look down at his black trainers. They look comfortable. "I'm good too. Whatever filming requires.. I'm just the actor." He pulls back slightly. His eyes travelling up and down my body. "You look more pregnant now." Nodding towards my growing bump. A smile appearing on his face. His hand soon leaves one of mine and rests on it. "I can also see they have grown." Licking his lips as his eyes land on my slightly larger boobs. I say slightly larger but they look like footballs. "I can't wait to have you later." He growls in my ear.
I was about to speak when a cough came from behind us. Tom. "Sorry to break up this little moment but I think we have a baby to meet." He strolls towards the white doors. Here we go!
"Ok Bella so you say your around 12 weeks, you think." I nod. Hillary continues writing in a little book. "No problem. Have you got any family history that we need to know of? Dementia. Cancers."
"My granny had breast cancer twice. She got them removed." Pointing towards my boobs. "My granda has dementia but it's pretty early. My other granda had lung cancer which he later died of. I never knew my mum's parents but as far as I know that's it."
"Ok.. and you two. Anything we should know of for when we find out who's the father." She points at the two men at each side of me. They look deep in thought.
Aidan speaks up. "My grandad had alzheimer's but I don't think there is anything else in the family."
"My dad is wheelchair bound but I think that's mostly old age. Other than that nothing.. just you Bella." Tom let's out a chuckle when he finishes which I take pleasure in interrupting.. by hitting him.
"Well thank you for that. I want to show you some pelvic floor exercises and give you some information on what exercise is good during pregnancy." She stands on the mat in the middle of the room, spreading her legs to shoulder width. "As I'm sure you know it is always good to keep up a routine and to exercise regularly." She keeps doing a type of squat. "It makes losing the pregnancy weight easier. Do you exercise now Isabella?"
I nod. "I do running first thing in the morning usually. I've stopped recently, now I just walk or go to the gym."
She moves into a box position before asking. "What do you do in the gym?"
"Mostly muscle exercises. Similar to what your doing sometimes. I do walk on the treadmill too, if I haven't done my morning walk."
"Good good. Well that's the main pregnancy exercises, obviously walking is good too in the early stages but these will help once you get a bit bigger. Have you thought of antenatal classes? Or where you might have the baby?"
The nerves are back. What is all this? "I would like to go to antenatal classes. Being my first kid and all. I also want to go to hospital.. with lots of drugs."
"I would suggest not having a lot of drugs but it is always an option. Breastfeeding? Nutrition and diet? How about all that?"
"I do try to live a healthy lifestyle so I would say my diet is pretty good most of the time as well as nutrition. I have the stuff my doctor give me which has been helping. Breastfeeding.. yep probably."
"Ok well thank you so much. All of you. If you have any questions feel free to ask away, in the meantime here are some information leaflets and I will see you soon." She hands me a bunch of leaflets. Is this all pregnant women have to do now.. read.
We had already been sitting around for ages this morning waiting for the booking appointment. That wasn't fun but now we have to wait another hour for our first ultrasound. I will also have the privilege, not, of having blood tests and a screening scan. At least I'll know if the baby has anything wrong with it early.
I sit reading the leaflets while the two beautiful males sit either side of me like lions guarding their prey. Now I feel like one of those deers that bounce across the Savannah then suddenly get locked jawed in a lion's mouth.
Their irritating nervous habits are annoying me. Tom sits shaking his leg while Aidan picks at his nails. "Can you two just stop!"
"What's wrong?" Aidan asks, innocence plastered all over his gorgeous face.
"Your both doing that.." I point to their habits at either side of me with both hands. "It's annoying us." I put my hand back on my growing belly while the other grabs another one of the midwife leaflets.
"Us?" They both say simultaneously.
"Me and the little one."
"So you know what annoys the baby then too." Tom asks, his voice is really lovely. No! Focus. Be angry.
"Yes it's inside me so it feels what I feel."
This was going to be a long day.