This chapter is about Joshua. You'll find out what he wanted to talk with Jacob and what he thinks about this entire mess. I have already his life story written, but I'll tell little by little, so you will find out when Bella starts to ask him.

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10- You know she will. (Joshua POV)

Crap. Crap. Crap. Why the hell did my mom had to move back here? I wouldn't be this freak and none of this nonsense would have happened. I sat there on the sand, drawing and thinking about the events of my life which brought me here.

I used to be happy living at San Francisco. We lived in traditional yellow house, with a well cared garden in front of it. When I say we, I mean my mom, Caroline, my step-dad, Tom Ashford and my twin sister, Savannah. We were a traditional family, you could say. Tom came into our lives when we were around eight years old and accepting him was easy for both of us. My mom met him at the art gallery where she worked. I've never seen her so happy before. My sister and I grew up without a father until then. Mom never told us who he was, although we insisted on asking. The only thing I knew was that he was from La Push and that he was Native American. However, we didn't have to ask that to guess. My mom was the typical southern woman who likes to take care of herself, shortie, with very light brown large curls, creamy white skin, delicate nose and a pair of big dark grey eyes. The only thing we have from our mother was the nose and the eyes, that's where the similarities end. Savannah and I were complete opposites from her. We're tall, with long limbs, straight black hair, long legs and darker skin. Not exactly the copper we see here in La Push, but dark enough to know where we came from.

I fell into a reverie and Billy's deep voice made me came out of my abstraction state. I still couldn't believe in any of this bullshit. One day, I was a regular guy, who had a bunch of dreams to fulfill, on the other, I was stuck in this ridiculous small town for the rest of my life because I somehow, I turn into a horse sized wolf.

I was so mad at Savannah when I phased for the first time. It was her fault we had to move here. If that prick wasn't so stubborn. I hated everything around here. I hated the cold, humid weather. I hated that I had to drive for one hour to buy a book or catch a movie. I hated how happy everyone looked, although they have so little. Everything in this place just annoyed me immeasurably. Savannah could at least take some time off, but I couldn't. I would feel too wrong if I let my mother alone, since I clearly have the conscious she doesn't have.

My thoughts were exactly that just before a train called Isabella hit me. I felt someone looking at me so intensely that could burn a hole on me. In one instant, all I could think about was on finding an excuse to get away from this place. On the other, her chocolate irresistible eyes bored into mine and she became my world. There was nothing besides her. She became my priority. Time just stopped and I felt the urge to have her in my arms and never let go, to protect her from any harm. I belonged to her and if she asked me to serve my heart to her on a platter, I would.

How could I even have hated her before? On my 'I hate list' above I forgot to mention some of the things that made me want to phase so badly. I was still too volatile. I was even worse than Paul at the beginning, they told me. Having the mental linkage crept me out. Nothing was private any longer. I learned about their stories. Why had I become a werewolf, who was my natural enemy: vampires. Sam explained to me why there were more wolves arising. Apparently a girl called Isabella decided it would be fun to date a vampire. She was being chased now by a whole horde of famished leeches. "Screw her", I thought. I didn't know why we had to fight to protect her if she had chosen this fate upon her. Jacob's memories rushed into my head. She was his girlfriend now. Apparently he loved her very much. I couldn't care less. She was the one to blame for all this mess. If it weren't for her, I would be a normal guy and would be able to go back to my city after I was sure my mom was fine. But she had to be selfish. The bloodsuckers were hanging around because of her. She could just pack her bags and go to whatever rainy town they would choose next. Jacob's wolf let out a growl and I heard Paul agreeing with me. Sam explained to me our jobs were to protect humans, and Bella was family. How could I ever think about her like that? After I met her round eyes, there's nothing I wanted more than protect her, love her…

How could I have noticed her before? Seeing her for the first time had nothing to do with the tainted memories I had seen in the pack collective mind. I realized that everyone's impression on a person changed the way they saw her. Only Jacob had come close to the truth. She was the most beautiful woman I've ever met. Her auburn brown hair was curled at the points and reached the middle of her back. Her perfect lips seemed ask me to take them into mine. She was petite, delicate, curvy, with the most beautiful skin I had ever seen. She smelt like sweet strawberries and vanilla. Everything about her made my heart beats faster. Oh crap. Fuck. Fuck. Realization came through. Is this imprinting? I found strength to remove my eyes from hers, so I could question Sam. Sam's look at me confirmed my hypotheses. Everyone was silent.

Suddenly I saw the russet arms that were surrounding her waist. Shit. I just imprinted on Jacob's Bella. Shit. Shit. I've heard about her all this time. How could I not have noticed how beautiful she was?, I wondered again. I must have been really torn about this werewolf thing. I won't say I'm like Paul, but a pretty girl was never unnoticed to my eyes. And she was gorgeous.

I think I heard Jacob screaming at me or Sam, but I didn't give a shit. He started shaking too close from my Bella. Panic rose inside of me and I stood in front of her. If I needed to fight, I would. His shaking got worse and I pushed her away from him, so her little frame was completely behind me. He was bigger and stronger, but I rather be torn apart them seeing her getting hurt. Seconds later, all I could see was her hand on his. And her sweet lips kissing his mouth. And her voice saying to him that she loves him, that she wouldn't leave him. It was more than I could stand. I think that being bitten by a vampire would hurt less. I felt this unbelievable burning on my chest, like there was void in there sucking everything inside. The air entered in my lungs as sharp pieces of glass, cutting everything in the way. I folded my arms around my stomach. It was cringing hard, threatening to spew its content all over the ground. It was a hurricane of feelings I couldn't fight. She looked into my eyes again and I saw a hint of…worry? Curiosity? She motioned to make a step into my direction, but he stopped her before any of her beautiful legs walked towards me.

I run away before I couldn't handle anymore the pain. When I came back I found out she had left already. I was in track of going to see her when I heard Jacob's shouts at Sam. Sam told him that he wasn't allowed to see Bella for a while and I could see him fighting it. He looked like he was attached on the ground, much like some of us needed to be on the first time we phased. He made an immense effort to move his legs, but they just moved some inches. Suddenly, I felt the change of power, being split into the two Alphas

I wasn't paying attention to them anymore. I focused on my memories of Bella's heart beats. I could distinguish it because its rhythm matched with mine perfectly. At this moment I heard him saying: "At least, he won't have to get any vivid images of ME fucking my sweet Bella." My head snapped into his direction and my body began to tremble when I imagined her fragile frame beneath his. A possessive feeling took all over of me. She's my Bella…he has no right to touch her…I tried to be reasonable, but it was simply impossible. All the imprinting stories came rushing into my mind and she fit into every description of what the imprintee meant to the wolf. I couldn't take it any longer.

I phased and all the guys were there. Sam regretted what he had done. I could listen to it. Quil, Embry and Seth said they would go to Jacob's pack, to help him. Seth was also doing it in loyalty with his sister. Sam actually felt relieved about Leah leaving his pack, though he was ashamed to show those thoughts. He overreacted before, he was aware of that. He loved her, but not on the way she wanted. She kept showing him their images together or how crushed she was after he left her. Sam was kind of understanding after all, while the others were still in shock. Sam kept me asking if was fine but I couldn't have a coherent thought in my head. I bet I just mumbled anything, so he could stop worrying. There was nothing he could do. Everything changed so much in so little time. I just wanted to be near her, to touch her skin… and all those thoughts of leaving this town evaporated from my mind, as long as she was here as well.

I phased back and tried to put my thoughts in order. I didn't know what to do, honestly, because I had this two conflicting wishes penetrating my flesh. Part of me wanted anything but having her in my arms and feeling her delicate lips on mine, protecting herself from every hazard. The other wanted her happiness. And I saw how happy she was with Jacob. I had seen on his mind how broken she was after that stupid leech left her alone in the woods. I felt a terror wave running through my spine when I remembered she had loved that Edward, Edwin…whatever…that bloodsucker. If he had lost his control for less than a second, my sweet beautiful Bella could be dead…or worse…

But Jacob managed to fix her up and I could tell he loved her as much as I did now, which was weird since she was my imprint. And I hated to see how bright her eyes shone when he looked at her and how true the words 'I love you' sounded when they came out of her mouth to him. It surprised me when I heard from him something that fits perfectly on a imprinted wolf's speech: 'I would never hurt her, I'd rather die first.'. This was exactly what we all felt. She really loved him and didn't matter how much I wanted her, I couldn't even think about putting her in a stressful situation like that on purpose.

I heard some soft steps behind me, almost like a cat so light it was, stepping so lightly on the ground that the dry dead leaves almost didn't make a sound.

"Are you going to tell her?" Sam asked me, truly concerned.

"I don't know…I.."

"You know you have my support right? Jacob doesn't understand now, because he hasn't imprinted yet. But if you want to, you should. He'll forgive you someday."

"What stops me from telling her is not him. I know he would want to kill me, but I'm not afraid of him. Sam, would you have told Emily if when you met her she was truly happy with another guy, who was equally good for her?" He lowered his head and nodded at me no. I could see the pain on him just for imagining her with somebody else.

"I don't know Joshua. But imprinting is something that can't be broken. I swear, I've tried so hard. At the end, it doesn't matter if you tell her or not. She already feels it and you'll be pulled to each other. You'll be her best friend if it's what she needs. But someday, it'll turn in something else, Jacob liking it or not."

"Sam, I decided. I won't tell her. But I won't try to stay away from her either. If she accepts me in her life…Jacob will have to deal with it". He nodded agreeing with my decision and stepped back into the shadows. I saw a black giant wolf running back to the small illuminated house. I wish it was that easy for me. Having Bella waiting for me at home.

I followed Jacob's scent and found him in his wolf form with Embry, Quil, Leah and Seth. I needed to talk to him.

"Jacob, may I speak with you?"

He turned his four paws in my direction and phased back, putting back a short he grabbed from Quil's leg, since his clothes were shredded earlier. I saw the gray wolf rolling his eyes, a very unnatural thing for a wolf to do, and with a head movement, Jacob sent them all away. Embry looked back and pushed him gently with his snout, standing up for his friend, I guess. Jacob patted his head and Embry went away with the others.

If someone could get killed just with eye looks, I would be dead by now. We kept a good distance between each other. He had this entire Alpha aura around him, and even if he wasn't my Alpha, I felt compelled to obey him when he said.

"Speak then."

"I just want to say that I'm sorry." His body language softened a little and he loosed his arms to the sides of his body. Before, they're firmly crossed over his chest.

"You don't have a choice. But it doesn't mean I will give her up." He said sincerely. He stood in silence for some minutes. I was picking very carefully the words. If I didn't, I would probably be begging for him to leave her for me. That was what my body asked from me. But I needed to be rational.

"I won't tell her." I said. He looked at me with bugged eyes and showing some mental confusion by the way his mouthed hanged slightly open.

"Why?" he asked me truly intrigued, but never reducing the distance between us.

"I love her enough to let her choose what makes her truly happy. Telling I imprinted on her would just cause stress and I wouldn't like her to feel forced to choose me because of that. I want her happy before anything."

A shy smile appeared on his face, until I decided to ruin it.

"But I won't give her up either. I'll be whatever she wants me to be and if someday she wants me that way, I'll be there."

The smile was rapidly erased from his face. His expression hardened again, his lips were pressed in a thin line and he furrowed his eyebrows, creating a crease on his forehead. A human wouldn't notice, but what they say about dogs smelling your fear is completely true. I could smell it coming in waves from him, but it was mixed with angry and frustration. I could see him trying to control his breathing.

"You mean, if she wants you to be anything for her." he said, trying to break my confidence, not that I had much back then.

"You know she will." I said, bringing back the self-assured Joshua I had always been. I wasn't' going to back down.

He had a disgustful look on his face and I couldn't contain my smirk. He felt threatened because he knew she would.

A/N: Well, it was a shorter chapter. As you can see, Joshua isn't going to give up on her either. But he won't push her limits. That'll be the main difference about Joshua and Jake. Jacob is always impulsive and had always to fight for her really hard. Joshua would do the same, but he knows he'll hurt her if he acts that way. You will see on the next chapters that he's going to be more subtle, to Jake's despair. Maybe, if he was more direct, Bella would turn him down immediately, because she loves Jake so much. Let's see if Bella will fall into his charms and how she's going to find out about the imprinting. I'll warn you… it's going to be soon….

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And again, if anyone is interested, I'd love a native English speaker as my beta! Sometimes I have some doubts, specially with prepositions and phrasal verbs. As I said before, English is my second language, so…. Forgive me if there's anything wrong. I'll try my best to review it.