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Sam and Gabe walked ahead to join their friends while Dean lingered beside me. I stared at the ground and shoved my hand in my pockete while holding the strap of my backpack close.

"So... " he started, mimicking my posture.

"Yes?"

He breathed out, "Uh . . . How are you?" he asked awkwardly, scratching his head.

"You wanna talk about what happened Saturday," I said, skipping to the point.

"Well... Yeah."

"And you're not sure what to do now that we're back in school."

He paused "It's not that I don't like being around you. It's just..." he looked at me, not saying anything, "you're not gonna say what's wrong?" he smiled.

"I think I know but I wanna hear you say it," I said looking up at him.

He let a heavy breath out as I stopped at my locker, "I like being around you. A lot. The only person whose got you beat is Sammy." he stopped and looked at the ground

"But..." I said, crossing my arm over my chest and holding onto my upper arm.

"I don't know how to be with you around other people. Even when your brothers were there, they did most of the talking. When I'm with you I feel like we're off in our own little world because we were always alone."

"And now you don't know how to act now that we're in front of our peers," I finished.

He nodded slowly, "I'm not friends with good people. Jo is the only person I'll willingly hang out with."

"So, you want to keep us on the down low."

"Because I don't want the people I talk to messing with you. I need you to understand that I'm not doing his because I'm ashamed of being around you."

"Dean, I get it."

"You do?" I nodded "And you're not mad?"

"I get where you're coming from."

"I'm friends with Alastair," I cringed at the name, "or at least I was as of today and if he knows what's going on here" he gestured between the two us of us, "I don't want to know what might happen."

"So it'll be a secret," I nodded.

"For now," he added before taking my hand. He looked up and down the hall before kissing me softly, "I'll see you during English," he said, squeezing my hand before going to his own locker.

XXX

"I don't know Ash, I think the beard is working for me," Chuck said rubbing the scruff growing on his chin.

"It makes you look like a hermit," Balthazar scoffed.

"Please, Chuck will be a famous writer. He'll never be a hermit."

"Thank you, Becky," Chuck said, kissing her on the cheek.

"How about you Cassie? No burger?"

I shrugged and slumped lower in my seat, "I'm not hungry."

"Well you wanna tell me what you were doing at that party with Alastair Saturday night?" he pressed.

My stomach sank as I remembered what had happened. I felt a pressure on my chest that wasn't physically there but was still burned into my memory, my lips burning in a way that just felt wrong. I looked away from Balthazar to see Alastair laughing along with one of the girls at his table when he suddenly made eye contact with me. I averted my eyes quickly as I felt my throat constrict on itself, my eyes beginning to water uncontrollably and my breathing becoming shallow.

"Castiel?" Balthazar asked worriedly, placing on arm on my shoulder. I immediately slapped his hand away and fell from seat, staring up at the worried expressions of my friends.

"I-I-I c- I-can't-" I tried between breaths, ultimately shaking my head as tears began to fall. A crowd had gathered around to stare at my breakdown. Jo had come to my side at some point trying to calm me down to no avail.

"C'mon Castiel, just try putting your head between your knees and breathing," she instructed.

"Cas?" a voice said from behind the crowd. Dean emerged from the crowd, pushing his way to get out. He made his way over to me and i felt hin kneel down beside me. "Cas? Cas look at me," he said gently. He brushed his fingers along the back of my hand before gently holding onto it. I slowly looked up at him as I tried but failed to steady my breathing.

Jo looked between us but ignored it for now, "I'm gonna go get the nurse," she said in a clipped tone before running through the crowd.

"Take it easy, Cas. Just breath with me, okay?" he began breathing at the 5-2-5 pace. I had barely managed to breathe 4-2-3 before Jo had come back with the nurse, Michael, Gabriel, and Lucifer in tow.

"Okay everyone, move back," nurse Moseley instructed. She looked at me with a worried expression and said gently, "I'm gonna need you to steady your breathing just a bit more, sweetie. Can you do that for me?"

Without looking away from Dean, I nodded, barely registering the question because i was distracted by the sound of the cafeteria murmuring.

Dean continued to breathe at a steady pace with me until I eventually got the hang of breathing steadily.

"Great, okay, do you think you can stand up and walk to the nurse's office?" she asked.

I finally looked away from Dean to see her giving me a motherly look. I nodded my head slowly.

Dean held onto my waist and I gripped the cloth behind his shoulder as he pulled me up.

She looked between us in understanding, "Mr. Winchester, would you mind taking her to my office with me?"

"Sure, Missouri," he nodded.

She turned to my brothers, "Will you boys be coming along?"

"I will," Lucifer stepped forward. Missouri nodded and led the way to her office. Once there, Dean sat beside me on one of the beds. I rested my head on his shoulder as we sat in silence.

"You're gonna need to go home and rest up," she instructed as she looked at my temperature, "you'll need some recovery time from your panic attack. Is anyone home?" I shook my head, "well you're in no condition to drive yourself home."

"I could take her to my house until her brothers come home," Dean offered.

"You're going to need permission to leave school."

"I can call my mom," he nodded.

"Very well then. Follow me," she instructed.

He squeezed my hand before rising from his spot beside me. Lucifer leaned against the wall with his arms crossed.

"Is it because of what happened on Saturday?" he asked the ground.

"Yeah," I said, not questioning how he found out.

"I doubt you're gonna talk about it with me," I remained silent, "what about him?" he nodded in Dean's direction.

"I don't know," I responded quietly.

We were both silent for a few seconds before he spoke again, "you should. You might as well. I mean, it was him you called, not me, not Balthazar, not Gabe. Plus, judging from the way he handled you in the cafeteria, it looks like he knows what he's doing."

I nodded as Missouri and Dan walked into the room, "okay, Castiel, you just need to sign out and you'll be good to go."

I rose from the bed and walked into the front office. I signed my name on the cboardinghouse in front of the receptionist desk and gave Lucifer a hug goodbye.

"I'll pick you up around 5:45, okay?"

I nodded and turned to walk with Dean. We walked to his car in silence, our arms brushing against each other with each step.

AN:

Whoops I cliffhangered. Leave a review with what you think should happen. Or don't. I probably won't listen but I'd still like to know what you want to happen!