Mkay everyone's going to want to hit me with bricks and grenades so I'm ready. *Gets behind military-style fort and puts metal pasta strainer on head*
Kirra's POV
You wanted to sing so bad, but there were no songs to explain the way you were feeling. You grabbed a pad of paper and began writing. The lyrics seemed to pour out of you as you wanted to be near Zack again. After the page was half-full you took a look at the words. You just wanted him to know everything that he hadn't before he died.
"Time passes by so quickly
But I guess I thought you'd be here forever
I never even had a chance
To say goodbye
There's so many things to tell you
Left unsaid until now
Can you hear me when I talk to you?
Do the words I say ever make it through?
Can you hear me when I talk to you?
'Cause I'd give anything if I knew" It was only a small portion, but you knew you'd write more later. You closed the book and set it down.
I had a dream You texted Cloud.
What was it about
Zack
Do you want me to come over?
Ill be fine, but you can if you want to
Be there soon Kirry
Mkay Cloudy
You smiled at the thought of Cloud coming over. In your dream Rayne had called Zack "Daddy!" You laughed at it and shook it away. Time passed and you sat on the couch as you flipped through the channels. The front door opened and Cloud walked in. Water dotted his jacket in places.
"Hey," He said as he sat beside you.
"Hey," You smiled at him.
"Are you feeling alright?" He asked.
"Yeah. I'm fine. Just a little scared. I hate how this house is so huge and I can't see Rayne all the time," You told him worriedly.
"He's fine. You have a top of the line security system, you know," He smiled down at you. Cloud was so tall, he made you seem like a midget.
"You know, Rayne wants to go to daycare. So he can make friends. I want to get him a dog, he can be like his best friend," You told Cloud.
"Get one that's already been trained," He said and you smirked.
"I'll be sure to," You told him.
"If you want to find a good day care. I know where to go," Cloud said.
"Really?" You asked him.
"I'll pay for it, It's really nice and safe, It's where me and Zack went when we were little," He said and you smiled.
"Yeah, We'll go check it out tomorrow," You smiled at him brightly.
"Yeah. You wouldn't care if I stayed here tonight. Would you?"
"Of course not Cloud. You're always welcome here," You told him. He smiled at you and You leaned your head on his shoulder.
"Thanks Kirra,"
"Your welcome Cloud." There was a pause for a moment before Cloud looked down at you. His eyes showing how much he missed Zack. He blinked and the pain was gone, replaced by something else. His face closed in on yours as he looked into your eyes. His lips caught yours in a sweet kiss. His hand cupped your cheek softly. He pulled away quickly after that.
"Kirra, I- uh.I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that," He rambled as he looked away. His face was turning cherry red and you smiled.
"I didn't know you felt that way," You whispered breathlessly. You took his hand in yours. "Your all I have left, Cloud. I know you won't hurt me," You told him with a smile. You knew you two wouldn't be in a real relationship. He wasn't one for that. You would settle for friends with benefits, if that was all he wanted. You didn't want to bring anyone knew into your life though. You wanted someone you could share old memories with. Cloud was just that. You two had known each other forever. He turned and smiled as his cheeks began to cool. You leaned over to him and kissed him on the cheek. He looked down at you and smiled.
"Zack made me promise to make you happy," He told you.
"Well you have been Cloud," you looked down at the floor and said, "You always have," You didn't want to know what he'd say. If it was something like, well your not the girlfriend type or I don't want to ruin the friendship or anything else of that nature.
"It's good to know I've been keeping my promise then," His fingers brushed some stray locks of hair out of your face. He tucked the hair behind your ear and his finger lingered there on your skin for only a moment before he pulled away. His skin had been warm against you cool face. You closed your eyes and fought the urge to lean into him. You wanted more of that touch. Sure it seemed stupid, but it was the truth. You had never thought of Cloud as anything more than a friend. Sure he was majorly hot, but you had never really cared. Girls would swoon over your best friend, but you never noticed how good looking he actually was. His blond hair was a mess on top of his head, with blond spikes creeping up everywhere. His blue eyes were looking down at you and you blushed slightly as your gaze kept moving. His pale lips went red in places where he had pulled his bottom lip between his teeth. His skin was perfectly flawless. His shoulders were muscular and his arms were defined. His abs were toned to a perfect eight pack. You had to fight back the urge to lick your lips as you finally looked at him. He was beautiful. Cloud noticed your gaze and took your face in between his hands.
"Cloud." You began, but didn't finish as Cloud's lips crashed into yours. There was a fiery passion to the sweet sensation as Cloud licked your lips. YOu opened your mouth and his tongue moved expertly in your mouth. He tasted like cherries and you knew he had ice cream before he came over. He always saves the cherry for last. You smiled into the kiss as you wrapped your arms around his neck. Cloud pulled you into your lap and you were straddling his hips. His arms encircled your waist as you two continued to kiss. When your lungs were screaming for air and your heart was pounding in your chest Cloud pulled away. You hadn't wanted the kiss to stop,but he was breathing hard. You cradled his face to your chest and he lightly kissed the area there.
"I've always loved you Kirra," He said the words you wanted to hear. "Ever since we were little. You had always had your eye on Zack though, and I feel bad for saying this, but now that he's gone. I can show you how I feel." Cloud kissed your neck again and you fought back a moan that threatened to escape your lips. He continued to kiss until it turned into soft nipping, then you couldn't hold back anymore. You let out a soft whimper and Cloud smirked against your skin. YOu continued this soft whimper until Cloud stopped.
"Cloud.." The breathless moan escaped you mouth before you could stop it.
"Yes Kirra," His velvety voice came in your ear. A growl emitted from your throat as you leaned down to his ear. You bit at the top of it and you heard him moan in his throat. You kissed behind his ear until you got to his neck, and you began to nip as he did. You bit his jugular in attempt to tease him and he moaned out. Cloud lifted a hand to the back of your neck and forced your lips to his. You broke the kiss to lay your head on his shoulder. Your arms were still around his neck.
"I love you, Cloud," You told him breathlessly. You felt him tense under you and you looked into his eyes. "I do Cloud, I love you. You've given me so much. I'll never know how to repay you," YOu told him as you held his face in your small hands. You kissed his forehead gently, and you looked down at him with thoughtful eyes.
"Kirra. I don't expect you to want to be with me yet, and I'll give you time. I just want you to know that I'm yours," He said as his hands stroked you sides.
"Cloud, I do want to be with you," You told him in a whisper. His eyes became wide then closed in acceptance.
"Thank you Kira," He held you tightly to him and you kissed his neck again. You two stayed like that for a long moment. Just wanting to be with each other. You gently pushed Cloud to where he was laying on the couch and you settled beside him. One leg was on top of his and his arms were holding you close. You head was in the crook of his neck as you breathed in his scent. 'He is mine,' You thought. It was hard that after all these years of watching you with Zack, his love for you had never faded. Only grew, until he envied Zack so much. You looked up at the now sleeping blond and smiled. He had loved you for so long and now, he got what he deserved.
YOu moved slightly as you tried o fall back asleep, but couch was only meant for one person. You climbed over Cloud making sure not to wake him, and climbed up the stairs to your room. You climbed into the bed and fell asleep on top of the covers.
Cloud's POV
You woke to the sun in your eyes and grumbled as you stood. Your dreams had been amazing, but they were only dreams. Kirra had actually felt the same way in that dream and it was nice, but once again it was only a dream. She came bounding down the stairs in only boy shorts and a tank top. Rayne was on her hip.
"We'll make some pancakes then," She smiled at the toddler. She was such a good mother to her child.
"Yeah," Rayne said hungrily.
"You gonna help us Cloud?" She asked as she waited for your reply.
"Yeah," Your voice was hoarse from your dreams and she smiled at you and walked into the kitchen. You noticed small marks on her neck as she passed. Maybe they weren't dreams. She sat Rayne down at the table and walked over to the cabinet. She pulled out some Bisquick, eggs milk and everything else. She looked back over at you and blushed slightly.
"Will you quit staring at me and help," She grumbled and she began mixing the ingredients.
"What do you want me to do?" You asked.
"Get the skillet and put some butter in it, then put it on the stove," She said and you did what she wanted. You bit your lip as you turned back around.
"Okay," You said and she was about done with the mix. She had a little on her finger and she looked back at you before she licked it off. She giggled and walked toward the stove with the batter in hand.
"Thanks for a goodnight, last night," She said as she raised herself up to place small kisses on you lips. 'So I wasn't dreaming,' You thought with happiness. She was yours now and you were hers. You placed your hands on her hips as she poured the batter into the skillet. She bit her lip as you leaned down to kiss her exposed neck line.
"You welcome, Kirra. I'm happy I could be of service to you," You whispered in her ear before you bit it lightly. A shudder of pleasure passed over her and she turned to look at you. She smiled before placing another kiss on your lips.
She finished the pancakes soon and gave you and Rayne some before she made herself a cup of coffee.
"Your not eating?" You asked her and she shook her head.
"I'm not hungry. I'll be fine Cloud," She smiled at you as she drank from her steaming cup. She closed her eyes as she swallowed. You found yourself closing your eyes as well. She was perfect. The curves of her body were just right. Her midnight hair was tied back carelessly in a pony-tail and her bright blue eyes were like the deep pools of the ocean.
Kirra POV:
You were drinking your coffee when you could feel Cloud staring at you again, but why did he need to stare you were his..uh.. girlfriend, right? You opened your eyes again and looked at Cloud.
"He Cloud come here for just a sec," You said as you stepped out of the room. He followed you into the living room where he pulled you into a hug.
"What is it Kirra?" He asked with a smile.
"I think we should keep this between you and me for now. I wouldn't want Razor and Chain to flip out again. They would totally shit bricks if they knew we were. Well you know," YOu said as you motioned between you two dumbly.
"Together," He finished for you.
"Yeah, Together," You repeated with assurance. You placed your head on his chest and breathed in his scent again. He was perfect.
Mkay I know a bunch of people are probably hating me right now. especially my beta(HugsandBugsSmileyface), but i like this and I promise Erin. I have a plan.