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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="4651165837648fe529812038a89d5689"Life without Jim: he couldn't even fathom it. It would be wrong to just go back to the way things used to be; nights alone with only alcohol for company, going for weeks on end without talking to people. A Jimless life was a life not worth living, as far as Sebastian was concerned./p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="26963e25ba90bd05a55367cf179a1378""WELL FUCKING LEARN THEN!" Seb yelled at him and stormed into his room to get his wallet and jacket. Jim sat up and looked at him./p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="4651165837648fe529812038a89d5689"Life without Jim: he couldn't even fathom it. It would be wrong to just go back to the way things used to be; nights alone with only alcohol for company, going for weeks on end without talking to people. A Jimless life was a life not worth living, as far as Sebastian was concerned./p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="4aa28cab8106af80262d5fc5e8a745ff""I know... you're my em style="box-sizing: border-box;"strange exception/em, I guess," he lifted a shoulder, his face still pressed against his skin. He hadn't moved. His breath tickled Seb but he liked it. He ran his fingers through his dark hair and played with it. Jim found himself chuckling./p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="f600a89a3868337a31532603247682f2"He kissed his neck and his collarbone and then shut his eyes, "I'm always here if you need me, okay? I'm not giving up on you, no matter how fucked up you are. I've waited long enough for you to be my boyfriend and I'm not going to mess it up just because you have some problems. We all have problems. And I happen to like a man who isn't perfect."/p
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