Author's Note
The set for this is combined with Chapter 9.
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RenesmeePOV
I woke the next morning feeling incredibly relaxed. I stretched my arms over my head, arching my back. It felt amazing and I decided I wanted to take a long, hot bath. I wondered what time it was and I hear daddy said "10" from the other room. Sometimes him reading my thoughts is handy. I rolled over onto my side to grab my phone off the side table. My jaw dropped open in shock. Sitting on the table was a beautiful framed picture of La Push beach and an arrangement of vibrant orange flowers. What the hell?
I waited for daddy to answer my questioning thoughts but he didn't. I noticed an envelope sitting propped up against the flower arrangement. I grabbed it off the table quickly and tore it open.
"Renesmee,
I wanted to give you something to keep close to your heart while I'm gone. I know that I'm not actually leaving but between the extra hours at work and patrols, I know I won't be around as much as I would like. I'll miss you in every minute we are apart. I love you, I'll see you later today for dinner.
Love, Jacob"
I feel tears spring to my eyes from the gesture. I looked inside the envelope and saw a pink plastic heart necklace. I giggled through the tears at the cheesy-ness of the gift. It was something you would get from the quarter machines at the grocery store. I pulled out the necklace and clasped it around my neck. After smelling the flowers and running my fingertips lightly over the picture, I got up and went into the living room. Both of my parents were on the couch reading and I smiled. I find them like this almost every morning, sometime they'll be watching the news but they're always waiting for me to wake.
"Do you want some breakfast, Ness?" Momma asked me as I walked over and sat between them. They both gave me a quick hug.
"Sure, momma, but I can make it." I responded.
"No, Ness, I want to make you breakfast. I never get to anymore, I swear." She gave me the worlds saddest face and I couldn't help but laugh. She makes me breakfast almost every day unless I'm at Jacobs. Daddy joined in on my laughing.
"You know I hate when you do this, Edward! You too, Nessie! Stop laughing at my expense." She gave us both stern looks and we quickly tried to stifle our laughter.
"Okay, okay. I'm sorry, Momma. I love you and of course you can make me breakfast." I gave her my sweetest and most innocent smile. She rolled her eyes at me and went into the kitchen. I turned towards Daddy.
"When was Jacob here?" I asked.
"He came when he got done with patrols, around five. He wanted to drop off your gift. Did you like it?" He eyed my necklace and gave me a crinkly-eyed smile.
"Of course I do. The picture was beautiful. Did he take it?" I asked curiously.
"He did, honey. He actually took it the first time we took you to the beach..." He smiled at me wistfully and I knew he was thinking about me being younger. I knew it was hard for him and momma to admit that I'm an adult now. I know that they wish I wasn't but I couldn't help who I was. I often felt like I was the outside in a world full of people who weren't half-breeds like I am. I had met Nahuel a few times of the years but it didn't exactly make me feel any less alone or like an outcast.
"Renesmee, please don't think that way honey. No one thinks your an outcast. You've bought so much joy into everyone's life, we wouldn't change a single thing about you." Daddy wrapped his arm around me as he said this and pulled me towards him. He kissed the top of my head and I knew he was right. I just couldn't help feeling that way sometimes, like an outcast and guilty for the conflict my existence has caused. Daddy sighed next to me and hugged me again. At that moment momma peeked her head around the corner and announced that my breakfast was done.
She had made me bacon along with a pile of scrambled eggs with black beans, my favorite. I grabbed some Tabasco from the spice cupboard and dug in. I talked with my parents while I ate, talking about my lessons in the upcoming week along with what I was making for dinner tonight. I had decided on making a chicken penne bake with home-made bread on the side. I knew that the wolves ate like garbage disposables so I figured I'd grill some steaks and make a mixed greens salad. The kitchen was always stocked at the big house so I knew I'd be able to find everything I wanted to make. As I ate I found how incredibly hungry I was and ended up asking for a couple more eggs. I don't usually like eggs but they tasted so good that morning. As I had asked for more I saw momma and daddy exchange a look but I ignored it. They were constantly swapping looks and having silent conversations. I learned at a young age to not question it.
After I ate I took a long bubble bath, this time without annoying aunts to interrupt with torture. I was happy I had agreed to wax because my skin was still silky smooth and after last night, it was probably a good thing to regularly do. I wouldn't want any stray hairs ruining the moment. I stretched my bath out as long as I could, refilling it with hot water every so often. Eventually, I knew I had to get out and start to get ready. I went through my closet for awhile, looking over all of the dresses that filled one wall. I decided on a royal blue dress that had a thin black belt around the waist. It reminded me of the dress I had worn on my date with Jacob. I paired it with a pair of heels that were the same color and a pair of dangly flower earrings that matched the belt. I did my makeup quickly, a light coat of mascara and a purple/gray smokey eye. I left my hair down it its natural waves and wove a braided black head band through my hair. Just as I was finishing up, I heard my phone beep from my desk in my bedroom. I gave myself one last glance in the mirror and went to retrieve my phone.
"Ness- Missing u already. Cant wait for dinner. Guys want to know wut we r having. - J"
"Jacob - Miss u too. Cant wait to see u! We r having chicken pasta n steak. - N"
"Ness - Guys r already drooling over food... am just drooling over u. ;) - J"
"Jacob - LOL! Yea whatevr u say. When do u guys want 2 eat? 5? - N"
"Ness - Make it 530, Sam n Em r having hard time with Gracie. - J"
"Jacob - Hope everything is ok. See u later. Txt if u need me. 3 - N"
'Ness - 3 3 3 :) :) counting minutes - J"
I sat my phone down on the desk and picked up the pink necklace Jacob had left me. It didn't match my outfit but I decided to wear it anyway. I glanced at the clock and figured I had enough time to paint my nails before heading to the big house to cook dinner. I quickly painted my nails a royal blue that matched my dress that had a slight purple hue to it. I put the cap back on the nail polish and ran through the forest to the main Cullen house. I entered through the front door to find my family sprawled throughout the living room, engaging in various activities.
Everyone looked up as I walked in and Emmett made a low whistle as I spun in a circle, showing off my outfit.
"You look gorgeous, Ness!" Alice bounced over to me from her spot next to Jasper where they had been looking on their laptop at one thing or another.
"Thanks, Aunt Alice. Its kind of hard to find an outfit in that massive closet." I gave her a grin to let her know I didn't really mean it and the rest of the family laughed. They knew how Alice was, especially when it came to closet dimensions and clothing.
I greeted everyone as I made my way though the living room and into the kitchen. Grandma Esme met me there and we spent the rest of the afternoon making dinner for the family. We made three loaves of freshly baked bread, coated with butter, garlic and basil. We grilled chicken and grated huge blocks of cheese. We chopped vegetables and made an olive-oil dressing from scratch. We let the 'men' handle the steaks and the grill while Alice and Rose mixed colors for frosting. We had decided to bake three different kinds of cupcakes; strawberry with a cream cheese filling, chocolate with a coconut-caramel filling and lemon with a whipped filling. I let my Aunts decorate the cupcakes while momma and I set the massive, dark oak dining room table.
As I wandered around the kitchen cooking and keeping up a light conversation with the family, my mind wandered to Jacob. I couldn't believe that in just a few short days I went from being his best friend to his girlfriend, well, lover. I couldn't even begin to wrap my head around the fact that he wanted me in all the ways that I wanted him. It seemed so natural for this to be happening between us but at the same time, it was such a mind-fuck. I could hear dad grumbling outside to Emmett about my use of swear words and I rolled my eyes. Grandma Esme caught my eye roll from across the kitchen and gave me a stern look. No one really likes it when I swear whether its out loud or in my mind. The boys on from La Push constantly swear so it was an easy habit to pick up. I apologized to dad in my mind and gave Grandma Esme a small smile before returning my thoughts to cooking dinner.
I smelled Jacob's scent before I heard the cars pull up in the driveway. Sometimes the wolves would phase and run over but I guess they had decided to all travel together. I rushed through the house and out the front door before the parade of cars had stopped in front of the house. I jumped over the steps and landing on the path leading to the driveway as Jacob opened the door on his car. My breath caught when I saw him exiting the Viper with Seth, laughing at a joke that Seth must have just told him. Every time I saw him lately seemed like the first time all over again. My eyes raked his flawless body, the glow of his skin and the dark color of his hair. Before I could stop myself I was running down the path and into his arms. He laughed as he caught me in his arms and spun me in a circle while placing a kiss on the top of my head.
"Hey, Ness." He grinned down at me as he set me back on my feet.
"Hi, Jacob. I missed you today..." I trailed off, feeling myself start to get lost in his eyes. He stared back into mine and I could feel the love rolling off his body. He lowered his head and pressed his lips against mine, softly at first and then increasing in pressure. I lifted my arms to wind my hands in his hair. He slid his hands down my back and pressed me into his body. We continued our kiss for a few minutes before I heard a couple of coughs and muffled laughter. We pulled apart quickly, a blush creeping into my face.
"I missed you too, Renesmee. I love you." Jacob whispered in my ear before giving me a light kiss on my cheek. He slipped his hand into mine as we walked up the path to join our families. Everyone had come for our regular Sunday dinner: Grandpa Charlie, Billy, Sue, Leah, Seth, Rachel and Paul, Jared and Kim, Sam, Emily and their daughter Grace. Embry and Quil were there too and were already trying to get Jasper and Emmett to play them in basketball. We had a full court in the back of the yard, near the swimming pool. Grandpa Carlisle had it installed around the same time Esme had put in the pool. I ran my eyes over everyone gathered on the porch and felt a rush of love and gratitude come through me. I loved all of these people so intensely and I couldn't imagine being surrounded by a more loving family. My eyes rested on Grace and smiled at her when she caught my eyes.
"NESSIE!" She squealed and squirmed her way out of Sam's protective arms. She skipped over to me and I scooped her into my arms in one motion.
"Hey there, Gracie. Whats up ma chérie?" I gave her ribs a light tickle and she giggled a tinkly laugh.
"Nothing my cherry!" I giggled along with her. I always called her my darling and she always responded by calling me her cherry. It was adorable. She turned around to reach for Jake and I reluctantly handed her over. He started throwing her in the air and I laughed at the look on her face. It was a mixture of fear and complete excitement. I gave all of the girls on the porch a hug and we all wandered inside the house to eat.
We had a long dinner full of talking and gossip. We chatted about the Jared and Kim's upcoming wedding along with taking a shopping trip to Seattle, just us girls. Rachel complimented my aunts on their gorgeous display of the cupcakes they had made. They had placed them in a sterling silver cupcake stand and the colors and decorations they had used were complimentary of the flavor of the cupcake; a candied lemon peel, a thin slice of strawberry or a single chocolate pearl. Kim and Alice discussed the use of cupcakes vs a full cake for the upcoming wedding. The boys mostly ignored our "girl talk" and talked about sports while touching lightly on how patrols have been going. Nothing out of the ordinary so far, which is what we had expected. Throughout dinner, Jacob would place his hand on mine, giving it a light squeeze or rubbing small circle on the top of my knee under the table. All of the gestures, even though they were small, made my heart race and my thoughts turn to mush.
After an hour or so, when dinner was done, Esme and Carlisle offered to clean up while we relaxed on the patio. All of us offered our thanks and everyone complimented me on my cooking. I knew I had come a long way from that first dinner of slightly burned home-made pizza and crunchy spaghetti. As we all walked through the french doors that lead to the patio, Jacob took my hand on his and pulled it to my lips in a light kiss. I sighed softly, and pushed him the simple thought of love. Grandpa Charlie, Sue and Billy decided to head home instead of staying with us. I knew that they were getting older in years and although I knew they weren't too old, I knew they liked to get home before it was too late. I kissed them all goodbye before joining everyone outside. Embry, Quil, Jared, Jasper, Emmett and Dad decided to play a game of basketball - wolves vs the vamps - like usual. It was always a close game, mom always used her shield so that dad couldn't cheat. It was fun to watch so we settled into the small set of bleachers that surrounded the court. I sat in between Emily and Jacob while the rest of the family lounged across the wide steps playing a light game of poker.
"So, Emily, Jacob told me you were having some problems with Gracie earlier?" I turned towards her, an expression of concern on my face. She sighed and her eyes immediately went to Grace who was playing hopscotch on the edge of the court with Rachel and Kim.
"It wasn't exactly a problem, she's just at a stage in her life where she feels she is the boss of the world." She laughed but I could hear a slight tension behind it.
"I'm sorry, I'm not quite sure how... or what you could do to fix it. I've never really been around kids other than her and Claire." I looked down at my shoes feeling suddenly inadequate. I knew a lot about history, science and literature but I knew absolutely nothing about children.
"Ness, it's not anything anyone can fix so I don't want you feeling guilty that you don't have the magic answer." Emily reached over and gave my hand a squeeze. She always was able to pick up on things quickly. "Grace is an amazing little girl and my joy in life, even when she's being so difficult it brings me to tears. Usually, I wouldn't have reacted so strongly to her stubbornness but today was just a rough day for all of us, especially after the news from last night."
I knew that Jacob had informed Sam about the Volturi even though he has stopped phasing. I knew that the wolves would have a hard time taking the news that the Volturi were reaching out to us. I had spent so much of my time on the reservation whether it was with the girls or at the beach. It was normal for them to be protective of their tribe but what I have been realizing is how protective they are of me.
"You know, Nessie, we're not going to let anything happen to you." Kim turned around to look at me from where she sat in front of me with Paul and Seth. They turned to look at me too, their expressions serious.
"I know... I guess it's just hard because everyone has risked so much because of me to begin with. I don't think I'll ever truly understand that.. It's one thing for my family to be protective and want to keep me safe but I'm not even your guys' family or anything..." I trailed off as I saw their expressions turn to an emotion I couldn't understand and their eyes snap to Jacob. I turned towards him to find him moving from my side, the outline of his body blurring.
"JACOB! NO!" Screamed over a dozen people and in a second, Sam, Jasper and my dad were crouched protectively in front of myself and the other girls. Paul and Seth were dragging Jacob down the small set of bleachers and into the forest. I heard the unmistakeable sound of popping and I knew they had phased. Leah, from her spot near the bottom of the bleachers, commanded the rest of the wolves to phase as a piercing howl came from deep within the forest and echoed through the backyard.
Within in a matter of five minutes, the backyard was empty except for my family, myself, Sam, Emily, Grace, Rachel and Kim. Sam quickly scooped up Grace and carried her inside, she had been looking as if she would cry at any moment. I continued to sit there in a stunned silence while everyone relaxed their posture and settled around me. Kim, Rachel and Emily sat the closest to me, their arms around my back and shoulders.
"Renesmee, honey, are you okay?" Emily spoke in the softest voice. I slowly shook my head in response.
"Are you confused? Do you want to talk? It can just be us girls." Kim spoke in the same soft voice and I heard some shuffling around me. My eyes were trained on the forest, waiting.
I knew he was going to come through the trees at any moment and tell me that it was an accident, that he hadn't meant to scare me. He hadn't meant to phase so close to me or allow himself to get that upset. I knew this, I knew my Jacob. I knew how much he loved me and would do anything to protect me. I just didn't understand why he had run like that or why he had howled that way. It had sounded as if his heart had been broken. I didn't understand what had made him lose himself like he just had.
"Ness, honey, it's just Kim, Rachel and I. Everything's fine, we've all gone through something similar to this. It's all going to be understand." Emily's voice was still soft and I could feel her rubbing circles on my back. "Nessie, you need to calm down and breathe..."
I hadn't realized that I had been crying, let alone crying so hard I was barely breathing. I took a deep breath, my body shuddering with the effort. Kim got up from her place on the other side of Rachel and sat down on the step below me, facing us. She pulled out a pack of tissues and began to wipe my face clean. I sniffled, trying to control my tears and calm down. I found it increasingly more difficult with every second that went by where Jacob did not appear between the trees where he had disappeared. Minutes went by, close to a half an hour before I let my eyes stray from the group of trees. The girls hadn't said a word while we sat there, they just comforted me with their presence and their occasional hug or hand-squeeze. I looked at each of them separately, their matching brown eyes filled with concern and compassion. I realized that, in that moment, I was so lucky to have these three women in my life. I loved my Aunts and my mom but they don't always understand me. I knew they understood less about my relationship with Jacob, the imprinting, the bond, the intensity of every touch, the aching hole that appears when I don't see him. These three girls knew though and they understood. I looked down at my hands and picked up a tissue, quietly blowing my nose, before looking back up at them.
"He's not going to come back, is he?" My voice broke when I spoke the words but I try to hold it in the best that I could.
"Oh, honey, he's going to come back. He loves you. He just needs some time to..." Emily trailed off and looked over at the other girls.
"To cool off, refocus and figure out what he wants to say to you. He's probably really, uhm.." Like Emily before her, Kim trialed off and looked to Rachel.
"Embarrassed, he's probably embarrassed? And upset, obviously, and he probably... Oh Hell! I don't know, you guys! These damn wolf-boys are a mystery and we can sit here all we want and try to understand but we never will!" She threw her hands up in frustration while Emily glared at her
"Em, look, you know I'm right. We've all experienced the wolfy-freakout-run away-thing and I've been there for both of you, like you have me. It's not that I don't understand and I'm so sorry you had to go through this, Nessie. Especially right now when everything is new between you but you have to understand, this is what it's like to mate with a wolf. They tend to be over-dramatic, over-protective FOOLS!" Rachel's voice rose at the last part and she glared at the trees. "EXCEPT FOR LEAH! WE ACTUALLY LIKE HER!"
We all laughed a little at that, knowing that at least one of the phased wolves was standing in the trees, close enough to keep an eye on us, close enough to hear a raised voice. I knew what she had meant about the guys being over-dramatic and over-protective. I've seen those characteristics in Jacob many times throughout the years. I just didn't understand what had set him off. He had never phased that close to me before and I've never seen him truly loose himself like that. I glanced between the girls, knowing that they knew what my next question would be.
"I know that they can be a handful of fools at times, even idiotic. I've never seen Jacob like that before, though. Paul, yes." I gave Rachel a small smile and continued speaking, "Do any of you have any ideas to what could have set him off? I don't remember anything being done or said..."
I trailed off as the girls exchanged weary glances, even worried glances. They all seemed to be looking at the other one, trying to figure out what to say.
"Nessie..." Rachel started, she took my hand in hers and gave me a small smile. "I've known my brother for twenty-three years and although I was away for some of those years, I know him really well. He's an amazing person, full of life and he loves you so much. His love for you rivals that of the other imprinted wolves, it's extraordinary. I don't think I've had a moment to tell you how happy I am that has found you. You make him so happy, Ness. In turn that makes the rest of us happy. When you were talking to Emily earlier... I think something you said had set him off. I didn't hear the full conversation but I heard the end of it, about how you aren't our family. Honey, that is so far from the truth. You are Jacob's imprint, his mate, one day you will be his wife. You are one of the biggest parts of this family. Even without the imprint, we've seen you grow up over the years and that alone makes you a part of this family."
I blinked back tears, trying my best not to lose the composure I had managed to achieve.
"It's true, Ness, you are a part of this family. We all love you so much and care about you so deeply." Kim leaned over and gave me a quick hug. I pulled back and sighed.
"I just... I don't understand. I mean, I guess I understand why he would be upset but I don't think what I said warrants a full on wolfy freak out." As I said this I turned my head slightly to look into the trees. Even with my over-achieving senses, I couldn't see anything other than trees.
"It's not always easy to understand why they are the way that they are. I can tell you from experience, he feels horrible about himself and will return home once he is positive he has a hold on himself and won't hurt you. I think he phased like that because he felt that you were rejecting him, maybe? When you said that you weren't our family, he might have taken it deeper than that..." Her sentence was interrupted by Sam coming through the back doors of the house and walking over to us.
"Emily, I hate to interrupt this but Grace is practically falling asleep playing with Rose. We should take her home.." He looked between us, his gaze falling on me. "Ness, Jacob is just upset right now, he's beating himself over what happened. I know. He'll be back soon and will explain everything to you, I am certain of that."
"I'm sure you're right... Everyone is right.. It's just hard.." I trailed off but stood up with the rest of the girls and followed them into the house. The family, thankfully, didn't ask me any questions when I walked in. I was so happy they were giving me space and letting me deal with this on my own. The last thing I wanted was a bunch of nosy vampires asking me questions.
I told the girls, Sam and Gracie goodbye and told them to call if they heard anything. Each of the girls drove one of the cars home, except for Jacob's Viper. I sat outside on the porch steps and stared off into the twilight. I knew, eventually, someone would come out to check on me. I was surprised by who it was. As soon as I smelled the faint smell of beach and humans, I knew it was Carlisle. He sank down onto the step next to me and handing me a lemon hard candy.
"Thank you, Grandpa." I smiled at him and unwrapped it, popping it into my mouth. I raised an eyebrow as he did the same thing with another one.
"After years of working at the hospital, I found its easier to seem human when I pick up human habits. I hate chewing gum so I decided to try these after I saw other doctors sucking on them. I always kept a jar of hard candies in my office, like most of my co-workers do. I even kept them in my office here. It never seemed to be necessary though, not many of my co-workers have ever stopped by to chat or go over files. However, when a bright young girl was about a year old, she liked to sneak into my office and eat them." He turned to me with a wistful smile. "I still remember the day we found you up there eating them by the handful. Bella had her shield up so that Alice and Edward could play chess.. We hadn't notice you were missing until it was too late. You had probably eaten over three dozen of them by that point."
We both laughed together for a moment before he put his arm around me, pulling me close.
"You know, honey, Jacob isn't going to be upset forever. He will return home, return to you." He gave my shoulders a light squeeze.
"I'm trying to trust that, I really am. I know Jacob, he's the one person I trust more than myself, the one person who I truly love." I heard the slight tremble in my voice and I willed myself not to cry again. "I just.. I'm so surprised by what happened.. I never thought he would.."
"I know, Renesmee. I don't think any of us could of predicted it. It was scary for you, wasn't it?" Carlisle voice was soft and although I knew the rest of the family could hear us, I felt so comfortable talking with him. It's what made Grandpa such a good doctor and such a good man, he was an incredible listener and radiated comfort - much similar to Grandma Esme.
"It was terrifying, I've never seen that side of Jacob before. I've seen him upset but never in such a way where he would phase so close to me. I know he had been trying to move away from me but if it wasn't for everyone else, I could of been hurt. I can't exactly protect myself from something like that happening although I would be a lot more durable than a human girl. I don't think he would leave a scar." I was mostly talking to myself, working out my thoughts. Carlisle was allowing me to do this where everyone else in the family would of been overly reassuring or angry. "I guess the part the concerns me the most is that I don't understand why he phased. I talked it over with the girls from LaPush and they told me that it was probably a statement I had made about not being a part of their family. In their eyes, and Jacob's, I am and I always have been. They think that it might of sounded like rejection to him, like I didn't want to be a part of that family. I do though, I want to be his for the rest of my life."
I could feel the tears springing into my eyes and I couldn't help but let out a small sob. Grandpa pulled me to his shoulder and let me cry for a moment before he pulled away and forced me to look at him.
"Listen, Nessie, I've been around for a very long time, longer than I like to admit. I've seen many different types of love over my years and the love that an imprinter and imprintee has is incredible. It's so much more than a mate, it's a soulmate, a best friend, a lover. Jacob feels a fierce love for you fueled by protection and the desire to keep you happy at all times. I know, with no uncertainty, that he didn't mean to endanger you or scare you. I think he realized that once he phased and I think that's why he had sounded so heartbroken. He's probably on a nice long run with the wolves, talking it over in his mind. I don' t think he will return until he has emotions under control but I don't think he will be gone long. I don't think he could stand to be gone too long from you. I'm sorry this is happening, I know how happy you've been in your new relationship."
"We have been really happy. I actually... well.." I blushed deeply and Grandpa chuckled.
"We don't have to talk about anything that makes you uncomfortable, Nessie. I didn't come out here for that reason. I just thought I might have a more unbiased and professional way of looking at things compared to your parents." He gave me an encouraging smile and I took a deep breath.
"Well, before today Jacob and I have had a very happy, loving relationship. I talked to mom about it last night and she told me that if I was ready, I should talk to you about the health related aspects of progressing our physical relationship." I continued with my blush but I felt a since of pride in being able to handle the situation maturely and responsibly.
"There is no need to be embarrassed, Renesmee. I can say that there hasn't been a relationship like the two of yours before. You don't produce any venom so I don't see why that would be an issue. I do suggest going slowly with everything. A physical relationship requires a lot of trust and maturity. If you believe you are ready for that, then you should trust yourself. You need to be able to trust Jacob too."
I thought about what he said for a moment, it sounded similar to what mom had told me last night. I knew I trusted both Jacob and myself completely. I knew I was ready to progress, even with what happened today. I knew we need to discuss that first before anything else could happen. He actually need to come HOME before anything else could happen. I sighed softly and ran my fingers through my hair, combing out some of the tangles that had appeared through the day.
"I do trust both of us, Grandpa. I know nothing would happen between us that I couldn't handle and I know once we work out what happened today, everything will be alright." I yawned sleepily. I had no idea what time it was so I dug my phone out of one of the small pockets in my dress, the clock read 2:37 am. Damn.
"It's probably a bit late for you, especially after a long day." Grandpa smiled at me and I nodded.
"I just have one more question for you before I fall asleep." I laughed a little to hide my embarrassment.
"Of course, Nessie. You can ask me anything." He patted my hand lightly.
"Is there any way I could get pregnant?" My voice was quiet when I answered and full of emotion.
"Ah, well, I'm not completely sure. Your body hasn't gone through puberty although it has grown exceptionally. I would say the answer would be no. I would suggest keeping an eye out for any type of cramping or spotting. Just because you are unable to release eggs doesn't mean that there aren't any. Does that make sense?"
"It does, in a way. We will be careful, regardless. I know Jacob hasn't... been with anyone.. so there isn't a risk of catching anything.." I trailed off and felt a light blush creep into my cheeks. I knew that the family could hear us from inside the house but I was grateful that no one had laughed at my questions. I yawned again and stood up off of the porch.
"Would you like Grandma and I to come with you to the cottage? Your parents went hunting with Emmett and Alice tonight. Or if you prefer, Rose or Jasper? I don't think they would like you staying alone tonight. They did, however, want to give you some privacy while we had our chat. Also, Edward was a bit upset over Jacob. I think Bella had wanted him to calm down a bit before seeing you. Neither of them want to upset you."
"If you don't mind, could Rose come stay with me? I had been hoping to talk to her as well, maybe tomorrow though..." I trailed off sleepily.
"Of course, Rose?" He rose his voice slightly and the front door to the house opened behind us reveling the rest of the family who was home. Rose grinned at me while Jasper and Esme gave me more tentative smiles.
"I would love to stay, Ness. It's been awhile since we've had a sleepover, just us two." She hopped down the steps while I gave everyone a hug good night. I turned to face her and she held out her arms.
"You look dead on your feet, honey. Do you want me to carry you?"
"Normally I would say no but I really am exhausted. If you don't mind, that would be great." I replied.
"Of course not." She scooped me up in her arms and I settled with my head in her shoulder. We ran quietly through the forest and arrived at the cottage in no time. We entered the house, flipping on lights as we went through the rooms. We entered my room and Rosalie smiled at the slight disarray of my room.
"I bet Alice would freak if she saw this." She gingerly picked a white cashmere sweater I had tossed on the floor this morning. I grinned wickedly as Rose and laughed along with her.
"I'm just going to change really quickly, I probably won't be much company tonight." I frowned slightly.
"That's okay, you need to get some sleep. It was an eventful day." She gave me a slight push towards the closet and I went into it looking for pajamas. I selected a pair of yellow cotton shorts that had a white lace trim along with a yellow and white stripped t-shirt. I pulled them on quickly and then went back into my room. Rose had placed all of my throw pillows on the foot of my bed and had turned down my covers. She had also turned off my main light, just leaving the light on my nightstand on. I grabbed my phone charger from beside my desk and plugged it in so that I could leave my phone on my nightstand. I thought about sending a text to Jacob but I knew that if he had his phone with him and wanted to talk, he would of texted me. Instead I snuggled down next to Rose in my bed. She pulled the covers up around us, tucking them in between us so that I wouldn't get cold from her freezing body temperature.
"You know, Nessie... don't worry about Jacob. I know how much he loves you, sweetie. Hell, he even tried to fight me over you." We both giggled at that and she kissed the top of my head. "Have good dreams. I'll stay until you get up tomorrow morning. If you would like to have some girl time tomorrow, we could go for a drive for some privacy. Its up to you."
"That sounds great, Aunt Rose. Love ."
"Goodnight, Renesmee."
Author's Note:
I suck at updating, but I'm going to try to get better.
I'm going to try to post every Sunday from here on out.