AN: I do not own Teen Titans and REVIEWS are not to be given until the end.

Chapter 10

The hour passed and now it was Terra's turn to watch Raven. And she was less than thrilled. She entered the med bay and found Beast Boy up and stretching. She smiled when she saw him, as she always did.

"Hey BB," she said, practically skipping over to him.

"Hey," he said, tiredly.

"Everything alright?" she asked.

"I guess," he shrugged. "I'm just worried about Raven."

At this Terra immediately frowned. "Well cut it out," she said, rather shortly. "Worrying about her isn't going to make her any less crazy."

"Terra, quiet down," said Beast Boy in a hushed voice, looking over at Raven. "She might hear you."

"Well, good," said Terra and she marched over to Ravens bed. "I know that you're just doing this for attention!"

Raven had been asleep, but was awaked by Terra's yelling. She slowly opened her eyes and saw the blond looming over her. A strong feeling of fear quickly consumed her.

"Oh, good, you're awake," said Terra. "Listen up, witch, you can cut yourself and act all dramatic all you want, but that doesn't mean we're gonna play into your game. You're hurting the entire team by acting so selfish and I'm not gonna let you do it anymore. So stop being such a little drama queen!"

While Terra yelled at the injured Raven, Beast Boy stood back in shock. Then he noticed Ravens monitors. Her heart was racing very fast. He looked at her and saw that she actually looked terrified. He had to stop this. He quickly went to Terra, grabbed her arm, and led her away from Raven.

"What's the matter with you?" he asked, harshly.

"What?" she asked, just as harsh.

"Why are you yelling at her?" he asked.

"Because she deserves it," said Terra. "She needs to know that doing this sort of stuff isn't gonna get her the attention she wants."

"Yeah, well, you're scaring her," said Beast Boy.

"Good, it's about time someone put her in her place," said Terra. She then turned back to Raven and yelled, "Did you hear me? You're not gonna bully anyone around anymore!"

"Terra stop it!" he shouted at her. Then he grabbed her hand and led her to the doors. "Get out, I'm not gonna let you watch her."

"Then who's gonna watch her?" asked Terra, crossing her arms.

"I'll watch her," said Beast Boy. "Now get out of here."

"Oh no, you've watched her long enough," said Terra, grabbing his hand and pulling him out of the med bay with her. "God, you're even starting to care about her!"

"So what if I am?" he said, pulling out of her grasp and backing away, back towards the med bay. "Is there something wrong with me caring about my injured teammate?"

"You're choosing to spend more time with a psychotic, attention stealing, witch than me!" she shouted. "Yes, there is something wrong with that!"

Beast Boy frowned and said, "Just go get Cyborg and he can watch her."

"Fine," said Terra and she left in a huff.

As soon as she was gone Beast Boy closed the med bay door and locked them. He didn't know why, but he did. Probably because the doors slid and he couldn't slam them in protest to show how upset he was. He turned back to Raven and saw that she was trying to sit up again. He groaned and ran back over to her.

"Please don't sit up," he said, gently holding her shoulders down. "You'll tear your stitches again."

"I have to get out here," she said, her voice soft and weak.

"No, you have to lie down and let your body heal," said Beast Boy.

Raven then summed up all of her strength and put her hand on Beast Boy's, causing him to jump. "Please, Beast Boy," she said in a tearful voice. "I have to get out of here. Please help me." Raven never thought she would have to plead for help, especially not from Beast Boy, but she was at the end of her rope. Terra was ready to finish her off. If she was going to survive she had to get out of there now.

Beast Boy saw how frightened and desperate Raven was and that actually scared him. "Why do you have to get out of here?" he asked.

Ravens eyes went wide, knowing she couldn't tell him. "I… I just need to get out of here," said Raven.

"Well I can't help you leave if you don't tell me why you want to go," said Beast Boy.

"You just… you wouldn't understand," she said, trying to sit up again. And, again, he stopped her.

"Why? Why wouldn't I understand?" he asked, once he put her down again. "You said that to me before and I want to know why? Please, tell me what's going on!"

"I can't," said Raven, exasperated already.

"Why not?" asked Beast Boy. "Because you think I'm not smart enough to understand? Because you think I'm too weak to actually help you? Because you just wanna stay all mysterious and creepy? What is it?"

"It's none of that," said Raven. "I just don't have enough strength to tell you all that you want to know, Beast Boy."

"But why don't you have any strength?" asked Beast Boy. "And why won't you let me give you some of mine?"

"I can't say why I have no strength," said Raven. "But the reason I can't have you give me your strength is because in the process you would see into my mind and I can't allow that."

"So… we would, like, have a bond?" asked Beast Boy. "Like you do with Robin?"

"Yes, only much stronger," said Raven. "And, I'm sorry, but I can't allow you to see the things I've seen."

"So, you're telling me that you'd rather die than let me see into your mind?" asked Beast Boy.

"Trust me Beast Boy… it's better this way," Raven said just before slipping out of consciousness again. All of the movement she had attempted had worn her out and the pain was unbearable.

Beast Boy couldn't take it anymore. He hated seeing her like this. He felt so guilty for those past few months. He had ignored her and allowed Terra to make fun of her. Raven had saved his butt numerous times, far more times than he'd saved hers, and she never asked for a thank you. Friendship and care was all that she asked for in return. And he'd forgotten that.

Now she lay here battered, bruised, and a shadow of her once strong, mysterious self. She looked like she'd been through a war. And he knew she hadn't done this to herself. He just wished he knew who or what had been doing this to her. Who would be cruel enough to inflict injury on her every day? Who could actually hurt Raven to the point where she was like an injured animal, cowering when someone as harmless as Terra confronted her? Who?

It was then he made his decision. Darn the consequences and Ravens warnings, he was going to give her his strength. And if he could see into her mind then perhaps he could find out what was going on and who was doing this to her. This was the only way.

Just then he heard pounding on the med bay doors. "BB? It's Cy," said Cyborg's muffled voice from behind the door.

"Don't worry, I got everything under control in here," said Beast Boy.

"Beast Boy, come out of there right now!" ordered Terra.

"Go away I said!" he shouted.

"B, come on man, open the door," said Cyborg.

"I said it's all under control," Beast Boy repeated. "I'm about to find out what's wrong with Raven."

"How?" asked Cyborg.

"Yeah, how?" asked Terra.

"None of your business; now go!" he said.

"Is she awake?" asked Cyborg. "Cuz if she is then I've got some questions too, regarding her pain."

"Who cares about her stupid pain?!" Terra snapped. "Beast Boy, unlock the door this instant!"

"You know, you're constant yelling isn't helping anyone!" said Beast Boy. "Please, just give me like five minutes, okay?"

"Fine, but that's all you're gettin," said Cyborg.

"No, come out!" said Terra.

"Come on, Terra, it's just five minutes," said Cyborg's fading voice as he walked down the hall.

"I don't care, I want him out of there," said Terra's voice, which was fading as well since Cyborg was dragging her off down the hall.

Beast Boy sighed, relieved that they were finally gone. He turned his attention back to Raven. She seemed almost at peace when she was asleep. He leaned in close and saw all of the scratches and cuts all over her still beautiful face, including the large healing gash on her forehead that they had stitched up. He looked at her lips slowly moved his own towards them.

As he did memories from only a few years back flooded his mind. How he had once longed to sneak a kiss from Raven. How he would feel himself blush when she would roll her eyes and give him the smallest hint of a smile. How his heart would flutter when he caught her meditating on the roof, when she thought no one was around. Yes, he had sincerely liked her. And, in all truth, to say that she still didn't hold a special place in his heart would have been a lie. And, at the moment, with the way Terra was behaving, he would rather share a kiss with her than with Terra.

And it was then that his lips met hers. A familiar shiver ran down his spine, but a different feeling consumed him. This felt nothing like the kisses he shared with Terra. Those were like static shocks, quick and exhilarating. This… this was a lasting feeling that coated him, making him feel warm all over. The warmth spread through him like hot chocolate through a winter chilled body. And he liked it.

But it was all stripped away in an instant when he felt his whole body go tingly and nearly numb. He found that he could not take his lips away from hers. No turning back now, he guessed. And then he found his vision fading away to black. And once the darkness took him he was met with a bright light that consumed him and made him feel cold. He felt as if he was tumbling, spiraling in a nothingness void. And as he went pulse after pulse of memories, feelings, thoughts, and emotions hit him. He then realized that he was no longer within himself; he was in Ravens mind. He was feeling what it was like to be Raven, completely and wholly.

He saw the horrors of her past, the guilt of being alive, the fear of what she could become, the knowledge of what people thought of her, and so much more he couldn't even separate them. Her memories bombarded him, filling him with flash after flash of emotion. He saw her life on Azarath, the devastation she had caused because of her father. He saw how it was to meet him and the other Titans through her eyes.

And for the first time ever he saw the fight between she and Terra, something none of the Titans had ever heard about. He felt the betrayal that Raven had felt. He heard the evil words Terra had said to her, and he felt that she meant every word. And the worst of it all was when he felt himself, since he was experiencing Ravens experiences, drowning in the mud; Terra smirking as he was sucked down.

Ravens memories continued to stream through him until they seemed emblazed within his soul. And all of the feelings, the emotions she kept locked away flooded into him until he felt like he was drowning. He felt how much she truly cared for the team and their well being. And he felt that she held a deep affection for him, like he had once had for her. And he felt the pain that came with that affection.

And then, he felt Ravens mind melting away and another infect him. That was what it felt like; an infection. New feelings overcame him and he didn't like it. Ravens mind had felt cool and soft; this one was burning hot and uncomfortable. The atmosphere was so different he wasn't sure if it could be real. Ravens mind poured out one message; selflessness. This one bombarded him with messages of selfishness and conceitedness.

It wasn't until the memories played out before him did he finally know who this mind belonged to. He saw the darkness of her soul and the horrors she was capable of. He saw the way she treated Raven and the pain she put her through, emotionally and physically. And as all of this came together, for the first time in Beast Boy's life, he could see everything as clear as day. There were no questions, no uncertainties. He knew the truth now. And he knew why that was Ravens biggest fear.