I'm sorry I haven't updated in a few weeks... I've been busy and had MAJOR writers block I think I have the hang of it now so I decided to sit here at my boyfriends with a carton of orange juice and listening to Fall Out Boy. Also my anxiety has been acting up so I've just wanted to take a break and the only writing I have been doing in my blog (which you can find at . .uk ).But I'm sure you don't want to hear my sob story. I hope some of you are still reading this and I'm sorry I haven't been a good writer. Also I haven't been to high school in 2 years, so I need English project ideas! One that can get CLACE.

OH also it was brought to my attention that I didn't make it very clear in the previous chapters so I will change that but Jace and Clary HAVEN'T kissed, I repeat, HAVEN'T KISSED. They very nearly did but Jon pulled Jace away. I'm sorry if that wasn't clear enough.

WARNING; SCENES OF DEATH AND TOPIC OF ABUSE AND RAPE.

Chey xxx

Chapter 10

Clary's POV

After Jon's amazing confession, no one else spoke about what had happened. Even though Izzy kept giving us daggers and everyone else was looking weirdly towards us. The only two who still gave us the same smiles as before were Lana and Chey; they had told me that Indy was ill so she wasn't participating in the dance. I'm not sure if they're just pissed off we kept this from them or if it's something more. We were now currently in the Lightwood residents sat in a somewhat circle in their living room. Everyone was talking amongst themselves apart from me and Jace who were deadly quiet; we had nothing to say to them or ourselves. I kept glancing at Jace but he was too caught up in his head to notice. Izzy finally broke us out of our silence by stating "Right ladies and gentlemen, if you haven't heard of the rules of Truth or Dare basically you get asked the question truth or dare and you have to answer the question or do the dare or remove an item of clothing. Shoes and Socks count as one item and you may include jewellery. Everyone Ready?" She looked around the circle from Simon, Magnus, Alec, Jace, Me, Lana, Jon, Chey, Seelie and back to herself. "Since it was my idea, I get to go first" Izzy scanned the circle once more and landed on her brother. Alec immediately paled.

"Truth or Dare"

"Erm Dare"

"I dare you to sit on Magnus' lap for the rest of the game". Alec blushed but sat down in Magnus' lap, who grinned and wrapped in left arm around Alec's waist while leaning on his right.

"Clary, truth or dare?"

"Dare" I say confidently.

"Okay" He hesitates for a moment. "I dare you to kiss whoever's name you pull out the bag" Alec smirked. Wait! SMIRKED? He had to stop hanging out with Jace, he was beginning to pick up his annoying habits. All around us a series of "oooohhh" coursed around me.

"Okay, deal."

We all wrote down our names on a piece of paper and put them into a small bag, something was telling me we would be using these more often than once. I placed my hand into the back, feeling all the eyes on me. I felt around until I felt a piece of paper right at the bottom and I decided it would be that on, as long as it wasn't my brother. I unfolded the neat piece of paper, why was it so neat? I'm pretty sure I just scrunched mine up. Once I saw the very familiar loopy handwriting I immediately knew. The name on the paper was;

JACE

'Oh god' I groaned and everyone looked at me with a mixture of curiosity and amusement. "WELL..." I heard Izzy prompt but I was too far inside my own head to comprehend words so I just showed them the paper. I did everything I could not to look at Jace but I gave him a quick glance expecting to see him smirking, his golden eyes laced with amusement and see the wrinkles that form in the corner of his eyes when he's trying not to laugh, that was cute. WAIT, WHAT? Okay, I'm over thinking this. However when I look at Jace his face seemed drained of colour expect from his cheeks which matched my hair perfect. Anger rose up inside me. Was he embarrassed by the fact he had to kiss me and not one of his blonde sluts?! His eyes leak dread. Wow, I know where I'm not wanted. I glared at Jace while I manoeuvred myself in front of him. He looked at me wearily, his left eyebrow slightly raised so it was hidden behind his beautiful hair. Seriously? What is wrong with me? I've never described Jace's hair as being beautiful before.

"Well we better get this over with"I growled at Jace. He remained silent so I rolled my eyes and straddled his lap. I heard his intake of breath. God he really disliked this. For balance I placed my hands on Jace's shoulders pretending not to feel his body stiffen under my touch. I looked once more into the Golden Pools situated on his face, they still had worry and dread in them. I sighed in defeat and moved myself forward and slowly pressed my lips against Jace's not being as passionate as I wanted. I could feel Jace's lips trembling as if he was fighting them moving. His eye fluttered closed so I followed suit and decided to deepen the kiss. Eventually I could feel Jace coming undone under my touch. His lips twitched more and his hands slowly came up off the floor and fitted onto my hips keeping me in place. I smirked against Jace's lips knowing I was defeating him. His bottom lip was twitching quite badly so I took the opportunity to take it in between my teeth and tugged it none too gently. Jace's grip tightened on my hips and let out a quiet moan, one too quiet for anyone else to hear it. I took that as defeat and kissed him once more, more passionately but still he resisted. I give up, he's impossible. Just as I was withdrawing my lips Jace's captured mine and he was kissing me with such passion I didn't think he could have so much passion inside him. His right hand came up to play with my curls as he kept kissing me, this other hand staying on my hip; his grip firm but soft. JACE FREAKING HERONDALE/LIGHTWOOD WAS KISSING ME! His tongue licked my bottom lip wanted access, I granted him it with a sigh and our tongues fought for dominance. Then someone cleared their throat. Jace sprang away from me just as I shrieked off his lap and hit my head on the floor. I had honestly forgotten we weren't alone. I looked up at the upside down faces of my friends. I was met with the amused faces of Magnus, Alec, Simon, Izzy, Lana and Chey. Jon looked like he was going to throw up and Seelie looked like she wanted to kill me. I quickly straighten myself out and sat back in between Jace and Lana. I felt Jace's breath on the back of my neck as his whispered "Are you okay? You hit your head pretty hard." His breath gave me goose bumps and I could hear the worry in his voice. Not trusting my voice I just nodded and turned to Lana on my left who was trying not to laugh.

"Truth or Dare?"

"Dare"

"I dare you to kiss the hottest person in this room". Lana blushed and stood up scanning the room finally she walked towards my brother and gave his a kiss (a pretty long on if you ask me) on his lips. Now I know what Jon felt like seeing my kiss Jace. She sat down next to me and looked at me once more.

"Truth or Dare"

"Why me? Can you even do that?!"

"Just answer the question"

"Fine" I sighed. "Dare".

"Oh I'm so glad you said that my dear friend. I dare you to sit on Jace's lap for the rest of the game." I groaned in exasperation but sat on Jace's lap never less. Once again, I felt his body stiffen. I looked around at our friends and my gaze fell upon Izzy. My best friend smiled at me.

"Truth or Dare"

"Um" She paused for a second. "Truth"

"Have you and Simon had sex yet?" Izzy blushed while Simon paled and proceed to take her shoes off.

"Jace my Golden brother; Truth or Dare"

"Truth"

"Why didn't you tell us about Clary?"

"What about her?" Jace acted innocent.

"The fact you've known her practically all her life" She replied in a 'Duh" fashion. I felt Jace stiffen underneath me. I turned and faced him. "It's okay Jace, It's time they heard the truth anyway." Jace smiled. A real smile and took a deep breath to tell his no our story.

"I best start from the beginning. My parents, my real parents Stephen and Celine Herondale had two best friends Joceyln and Valentine Morgenstern. They were best friends in high school, they grew up together, lived their lives together when Jocelyn found out she was pregnant with Jon she was over the moon as were my family and a couple of weeks later my mum found out she was pregnant with me. 9 months later, Jon was 2 months old when I was born. Naturally seeing as our parents were best friends we became the best of friends quite easily. Over the next few months Valentine changed. My parents noticed it and they noticed the change in Jocelyn as a result. She became less herself and hid herself more in her house. Little did we know." He stopped and looked at me and Jon asking for our permission to reveal our secret. Jon nodded and smiled in agreement and I gave a slight nod and curled up in Jace's lap. So he continued. "Little did we know he was abusing her. A few months later as a result of a brutal rape Clary was conceived and Jocelyn was obviously over the moon but she worried for the safety of her child. Luckily enough Valentine had other ideas. He got it in to his head that Clary wasn't his but Luke's so he took Jon and left and no one saw them for two years. In that time Clary was born. I was at the hospital and vowed to myself that I would act like the brother that she would never have. Me and Clary grew up and we became good friends even at such a young age. Even at 2-3 years old my mum and Jocelyn helped me video chat Jon but after a few months the calls died down. Around Clary's second birthday Valentine came back and claimed Jon had been killed in a car crash. We all broke down in tears over losing a friend, brother and son." Jon interrupted Jace for the first time. "I remember that. That's when Dad told me you, Clary and mum died in a crash and I went to live with my uncle Jamie. I stayed their 5 years" Jace looked at Jon in pity but carried on. "Valentine stayed until just after Clary's seventh birthday. Over the course of the 5 years we got closer and closer and eventually inspirable. However months went past when Clary was around 6 and I noticed a change in her. She wasn't herself anymore and she would flinch if I came near her. One day I came in while she was putting a jumper on and I saw... I saw bruises and cuts all over her arms. I asked her who had done them and she told me it was her father and he also" Jace paused as a tear rolled down his cheek and landed on my head. 'He also abused her sexually. She made me promise not to tell her mum and I knew I wanted to but I couldn't go against my best friend's word. Eventually when Valentine left two years later Clary broke down and told her mum who broke down and told her he did it to her too and he left because she wanted to be with Luke and wanted Clary's opinion, obviously Clary was over the moon for her mum and we thought everything was going to be okay again. That was until a couple of week after my 10th birthday. I was at a friend's house and it was the weekend that Clary stayed at mine, we only lived a couple of doors down from each other so my parents brought her along in the car ride to get me. They were about half way there when a drunk driver hit the side of the car. I mean who's even drunk at 8am but this guy was. The car flipped several time and crashed into a shop. My father died and impact seen as he was in the driver's side which got hit. My mum apparently died on scene but a while after my dad and when they finally got Clary out the doctors said if they had been 5 minutes later she would have died. She shouldn't have been alive but something kept her alive. I stayed in the hospital for 2 weeks waiting for her to wake up. I wanted to make sure she was okay. Once I found out I was starting my new life as a Lightwood, that's what I wanted; a new life. That meant leaving my best friend behind. I regret it. I thought it would be better if I never spoke of it again but it only got worse."

After Jace had finished his story no one said anything. I was crying in Jace's lap and everyone look sympathetic. Jace cleared his throat.

"Clare. Truth or Dare"

"Truth"

"What did my mum say to you while you were in the car.?"

"What do you mean? I told you-"

"No you tell me she said she loved us both but every time you tell me, you get the crinkles around your mouth that you get when you hide something." How did he even notice that? I try to hide the look of fear on my face, I don't want him to know. I've kept that secret for so long.

"Clary, please I beg you"

"Okay..." I take a deep breath, this is going to be deep.

"Okay so we were in the car" Brilliant start Clary. "We were trapped and covered in blood I remember the pain in my left side. A piece of glass had gotten lodged in there and was bleeding a lot. I remember looking over at Stephen and seeing his lifeless body." Saying it out loud made my eyes blur with unshed tears. "I looked over at Celine and she smiled at me. She said "I thought you were dead, you didn't move"

"Oh Celine, I'm scared. Are we going to die?"

"No baby, you're going to be okay."

"What about you!"

"Don't worry about me pumpkin". She then looked at me so seriously. I didn't know she could be that serious, she was always laughing and joking. "Clare-Bear? Can you promise me one thing please?"

"Anything Celine"

"Stay alive for Jace. I don't have much time yet but you can save yourself. I don't want him to lose the three most important people in his life. He loves you Clary. Don't leave him, for me. I love you both so much." And with that I watched the life drain away from the woman I saw as my second mother. I cried for god knows how long. I was pretty ready to give up. I could see the light as they say and I was ready to welcome it. Then Celine's words echoed through my head and I knew I couldn't die I needed to stay alive for Jace. I imagined him looking at three graves knowing I'm the only person he'd want to talk to. I thought of my mother who had already lost one child and I knew I couldn't give up. I'd be selfish. I waited for so long. Waited until I couldn't wait anymore and my vision went black. The next thing I remember is waking up in a hospital room and seeing golden eyes looking above me into mine."

I finish my story and look at Jace who's looking at me wide eyed. "So you're telling me, you stayed alive for me and I shut you out?" his voice barely a whisper.

"Technically, but I don't mind you had your reasons and I respect that" I answered quickly but Jace didn't say anything. Moved me off his lap and left the room. Everyone looked at me not knowing what to say until Izzy cleared her throat "Okay, everyone. Bed Time Kiddies" and everyone left leaving me starring at the wall for hours.

Thank you for reading and I'm so sorry this is really deep but we found out the truth! And Clace kiss!

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