Hey every one well i know all of you hate me for taking so long but i'll finished any ways so lets start trying to continued this . .. umm

Okay I'm sorry about the grammar thing. You know I'm really bad at that. I'm also sorry if this thing is dragging on. You'd figure the worlds greatest detective would figure out whats going on faster then this. So if you're getting tired of this sorry. Oh and my comppy is still broken so sorry that's kind of why the up dates are late. About this yeah I've had a big lack of motivation to finish this but i will so don't worry.

disclaimer: did I forget this last time? oh well umm I don't own 'death note'

Oh and thanks for reading please review and sorry.

Ryuzaki just smiled "Oh kissing him is no big deal Yagami-san you should see what else I do to him." I knew my dad was scared out of his mind right now. I had to stop his thought process.

"Ryuzaki, if you don't stop that I will punch you." I lied but hopefully the lie is good enough to make my father think that he is just trying to annoy me. His expression lightens up a little and he takes my wrist pulling me back to the car. Ryuzaki is hanging on to me. His affectionate side, his kind side, can be just as annoying as the others.

We drive home at a slow speed. Ryuzaki is setting closer to me then my father likes but I just ignore it. I am getting to tired. I have felt like this for far too long. I just want to be healthy again. I want to use my computer for something other than a nightlight. I want to stop hiding everything. I want to fight with Ryuzaki with out fists. I want to eat without feeling like my stomach won't be able to hold it. I want to sleep a night were I don't have to worry about Ryuzaki hurting me. And I want my friend back.

I'm tired and I just want things to go back to normal. We arrive I get out and pull Ryuzaki out. "Dad you can go home I'll be fine and you need sleep." He smiles at me and drives away. We walk in to the building. Ryuzaki is smiling and holding my arm. I pull away from him then I get the hand cuff key out of his pocket and release myself.

I set down in my computer chair and put my head in my hands. I set there for a while like that while Ryuzaki just looks at me. I feel horrible and I'm mad at him. "Why do you have to do this Ryuzaki? Why do have to cause me pain? Why do you have to kill me slowly? I'm not Kira okay I'm not and you should know that. Do you do this to me because you think I'm Kira, Do you think I deserve to be treated like this?"

He walks closer to me and puts his hands on my shoulders "What did I do to you?" I know that he isn't even listening or even if he is there is no point because he will never respond. "Answer me! Just tell me what I did!" I cry out. I can feel my eyes burn with salt and water. I'm just to tired or I would never act like this. Even if I was Kira do I really need to be imprisoned like this?

"Light-kun you're tired." I pull away from him.

"I'm always tired, I always look sick. And apparently I'm Kira no matter what I say!" I look at him and he doesn't know what I'm talking about. "Just-just go away L." I look at the clock and its 7:05 a.m. I woke up around midnight then I got knocked out at around 1:05 then I woke up around 4:00 then it took 2 hours for the doctors to release me. So all in all this has been a horrible day and it's still morning.

"What happen to you Light, you use to be brave you use to be smart, now you are acting like a teenager, a normal idiotic teenager. You act so different Light, you have no fire in your eyes instead you are submissive, you only fight with me when it seems necessary or when you want to prove to me that you are acting normal. It's not you, you can not be submissive without others fearing for your health, you can not be idiotic unless you want us to worry. You can not be Light with out the fire."

I get up. I feel his eyes on me. Even if he is drunk. "Go take a shower Ryuzaki and go to sleep." He does as I suggest and walks to the bath room I walk to the bed room and grab his laptop the password has locked me out. "Come on computer I know you want the real Ryuzaki back as well so please let me in."

"You know Light-kun talking to inanimate objects makes you look a little insane." He said after 20 mins of me trying. He takes another drink of his alcohol then walks over to me and types in his password. I didn't even hear him come in. "Night" He says handing me the computer and going to bed. Sometimes I love the caring one. He takes a drink every now and again but other than that he is mainly asleep.

I walk in to the bathroom and set on the chair in there. Its nice and makes me more tired and i need to work. I look over the video tapes. I set most of them with just me and him sleeping. Most I put in the one instance that I tried to run from Ryuzaki and we both ran out of the building I froze that one and for 5 hours to make it look like we didn't return for a very long time. I did many of them like that if he looks to closely he will see that they repeat. I look at the clock it is now 10:00 I look over the footage once evidence is gone the people will never know.

I walked back in the bed room Ryuzaki must of gotten up and decided to sleep on the chair. I put the laptop back and walk over to Ryuzaki kissing him on the cheek. I hate him so, but when I'm tired I do what ever feels like and right now I just want him back . . . I'm not quite sure why I do any thing any more.

I need to grab my computer its down on the investigation floor. I start to walk down there thinking about my apprentice I'm sure I looked sickly. I haven't brushed my hair, my night clothes were still on and they were far to big. My eyes were as dark as Ryuzaki. My posture was like his as well. I straighten up just thinking about it.

When I walked in the investigation team was down there. I have no ideal why people don't know the meaning of a day off. My father looked a little mad but when he looked at me his face lightened. I smiled at him and walked over to them. Matsuda's smile was fake his eyes were sad and his body language said that he was scared, of what I don't know. "Hi, anything the matter I thought L gave you the day off." I said trying to look a bit better.

"Light," my father said walking up to me putting his arms around me in an awkward hug "We know."

Well I'll try to update again this week so don't worry and i really am sorry about things