Sorry so many chapters were missed last week but I am feeling better. Please note that this week I have family visiting. I will not skip any chapters but they might be short, especially next Saturday and Sunday.

Tonight is very short because as per usual my Tuesday was very very busy. I hope you enjoy it even though it's short.

Ch. 10 The You in Me

(CLARE)

"Here drink this," Eli says handing me a cup of tea.

"Thanks," I smile as he sits next to me.

"What if he never wakes up? What if he spends the rest of his life in a coma because he was fretting over our relationship?"

"Clare you're being too hard on yourself, Drew getting hit by a car wasn't your fault. If he never wakes up it won't make much of a difference right?"

"What do you mean it won't make much of a difference?" I exclaim.

"That's not what I meant, of course it will make a difference to his family and you but you don't even know if he was going to come to New York with you. You and I will raise this baby together with or without Drew. It's you and me like it's always been, like it will always be."

"I know we will but I'm worried about Drew right now. I know everyone keeps telling me I'm not the one that hit him but it doesn't change the fact that that he wouldn't be walking around if he wasn't thinking about us. None of this has been fair to Drew, I put pressure on him, my mom put pressure on him, his mom."

"Clare you need to stop stressing it's not good for you or the baby and it's not going to bring Drew out of his coma."

"I know but I can't help it," I sigh.

"Drink your tea and just breathe," Eli says.

I lean back on the sofa and sip at my tea it doesn't help though I'm still thinking and stressing about Drew. I finish my tea and Eli takes the cup, while he's washing it I begin chewing on my lower lip as I agonize, yet again over this whole situation and fearing that Drew may never wake up again.

"If he wakes up I should break up with him, this isn't fair to him, putting him through this, everyone waiting to see what he'll do and decide. Even if he does come with me to New York we may not stay together and then what? He'd have moved to New York and given up his life to be with me. What if hates me and the baby because of it. It's better if we part as friends."

"Are you sure?" Eli asks.

"I'm sure that I'd rather have Drew as a friend and that none of this is fair to him, as much as it hurt I should have broken up with Drew as soon as I knew the baby was yours."

"I've been waiting to hear you say that," Eli smirks before crashing his lips to mine. I gasp freezing for a moment from shock or familiarity I'm not sure but then I push Eli away.

"What are you doing?"

"You just said you were going to break up with Drew."

"But I haven't broken up with him yet and he's still in the hospital and in a coma this would not be the moment to kiss me," I censure him.

"Clare I…"

"Don't Eli I don't want to hear it just get out!" I demand pointing to the door.

"Clare…"

"Out Eli," I demand again and he finally walks to the door. I sink back to the sofa curling up a little but I don't want to be alone right now. Normally I would call Adam but he's with Drew and I don't think Audra wants me back there. Owen is at school and Alli moved away, Jenna is also at school but maybe Fitz is off today. I take the chance and call him.

"Clare?" He questions like he doesn't believe I'm calling him.

"Hi are you working?"

"No I'm off but I thought you'd be at the hospital with Drew."

"I was for a bit but Audra doesn't want me there. Eli was with me but…I don't really want to be alone right now and everyone else is either in school or gone or at the hospital with Drew. I know things between us haven't a…"

"I'll come get you," Fitz says cutting me off and I let out a sigh of relief.

"Thanks."

"Are you at home?"

"Yes."

"I'll be there in a few minutes," he says and hangs up. When Fitz arrives I lock up and go out to his car, he takes us to his apartment. "You want to talk about it?" Fitz asks.

"Drew is in the hospital because he was thinking about us. I put pressure on him to make a decision about us. My mom and his are wondering why we're even still together. He went for a walk to think, it was dark he wasn't paying attention and he was the victim of a hit and run. No matter what everyone says I have some guilt and responsibility for him being in the hospital. This whole thing isn't fair to Drew, this isn't his baby and asking him to come to New York was selfish. I shouldn't be with him; I should break up with him. I told this to Eli and he kissed me. I couldn't believe that he kissed me after that. He seemed to think I was saying I wanted to get back together but that isn't what I meant at all."

"Eli's still in love with you I can't blame him but he shouldn't have kissed you. Try not to be too mad at him you are pregnant with his child and he still has strong feelings for you. He should not have kissed you but Eli tends to have blinders on when it comes to you. I think maybe he heard you talking that way and he thought it was an opening. Now all that stuff about breaking up with Drew is that what you really want?"

"No I'm in love with Drew but that doesn't change any of the other facts, it's not fair to Drew. I never should have even asked him to come to New York with me. If I let him out of the relationship it will make our mom's happy. This baby will still have two loving parents and Eli and I will work it out together."

"Clare it doesn't matter what any of them want what do you want?"

"I can't think just about what I want anymore I have another person to consider," I remark rubbing my hand over my belly.

"That's true but even so that other life won't be part of this world for several more months you have time."

"I think that I don't want to think any longer," I groan putting my head on Fitz's shoulder.

"Okay let's not think, it's overrated anyway. I have a lot of movies," Fitz says.

He puts in a movie and eventually I stop thinking and watch the movie and then I fall asleep, guess I was exhausted. I wake up a few hours later when I smell food. Fitz has put a blanket on me and he's making lunch or early dinner it's hard to tell.

"You hungry?"

"Yeah I actually am a little hungry," I nod sitting up. We eat and watch another movie and I help him make dinner. I spend the whole day there and into the evening, I try not to think about Drew and everything but it's not easy.

"I need to go to the hospital I want to be with Drew. Audra doesn't want me there but I need to be there and be with Drew. I have to be there," I assert after the fourth movie. "Besides I've been here for almost ten hours," I add as I get up from the sofa.

"You're welcome here as long as you like but I understand that you need to be at the hospital. Come on I'll take you over there."

We leave Fitz's apartment and he drives me to the hospital. I hug him and thank him for the company. It's later than I realized and when I get to Drew's room no one else is here, Audra must have been forced home. I sit on Drew's bed and take his hand in mine.

"I love you Andrew Torres. I am in love with you and I don't want to think about a life without you. I don't want to but this isn't fair to you, this whole thing. It was selfish of me to ask you to stay with me and raise Eli's baby, move to New York with me. Because I love you so much I have to let you go. I'm breaking up with you Drew, when you wake up you'll be free and we'll be friends and nothing more," I tell him through my tears leaning down and kissing his lips softly, "goodbye Drew."

I get off his bed turning for the door, about to take a step when I feel Drew squeeze my hand. I look back, his eyes are still closed but he's squeezing my hand.

"Don't go," Drew whispers.

"Drew? You're awake," I grin sitting back on his bed. My heart is soaring I am so relieved.

"You can't break up with me," Drew whispers and then coughs a little, "I love you too much."

"I love you too," I cry happily and place my lips on his again in a blissful kiss.

Yay Drew's awake and it's not a cliffhanger! The update next Tuesday will pick up from about here.