AN: Last week or two weeks ago, I wrote that I might NOT have the time to upload before the end of May because of my exams, but my schedule has change so I will tell you if anything happens. As for now, I think I'll be busy during June.

1-I felt inspired to write,

2-I'm only building up for the next chapter that will be quite interesting..

3-As you might already understood, this chapter is only there to initiate well the rest of the story.. (don't worry, May 3th (maybe before if I'm done but don't expect it so it will be a good surprise IF I put it sooner. Please bare with me.!)

I tried to build it as real as I could but its hard to do it without readers to lose interest, because I don't know how people will react if its too sad.. I also to not be cheesy either..

I'm so sorry guys that this is not what some of you expected but as I said, I needed to built something for next chapter,, and then I'll be done and write more in June.

Thanks to Stox4Story& CherryBlossoming! and to all my others readers :D

Mature language. (they will curse)

Upload: Sunday April 19, 2015-Monday April 20, 2015

Recap : "I'm not lying." she said, out of breath. I looked at her and took her left wrist.

"Yes, you are." I replied, making her step back. "Listen, I get it that you might be ashamed and I shouldn't make a scene in front of our common friends earlier. But now, that there is only the two of us, you still don't acknowledge the truth." I said, bitterly as I squeeze her wrist without knowing it. I was hurt by her actions.

"I don't understand." was the only answer she gave me.

"Are you ashamed of me? Was it a mistake for you? WE FREAKING HAD SEX FOR GOODNESS SAKE!" I screamed at her, pushing her against the elevator wall.

Chapter Nine

The Explanation

Wednesday, May 3rd

8:30pm

Syaoran POV

It came so quickly that I didn't had the time to react. My eyes widened to the strenght of her hands.

'What the heck, usually I have the reflex to skip that kind of things' I thought as she was glaring at me.

The slap was violent and sharp and I sure wasn't expecting this. The imprint of her hand slowly began to disappear but my cheek was now a bit red. It didn't hurt as much as if some guy would punch me but it was rather uncomfortable.

"I thought you told me we didn't had sex yesterday night!" she looked at me, dangerously.

"It wasn't yesterday." I replied her before leaving her alone in the elevator leaving her with a puzzled look on her face. I had enough. I was sickened by the person I cared the most.

-x

Sakura POV

Earlier that day, 7pm-7:30pm

When the instructor was done with his lesson on how to proceed, we took the last sip of our sex on the beach (alcohol drink) and started working on our creative flowers crowns.

"Its so boring if we don't talk.. Let's play a game, girls!" whined Tomoyo.

"Okay, but I'm done playing Never did I.! Let's play something else!" said Chiharu, giggling about all the juicy informations we got about each other throughout the day. She wanted more.

"What about truth or dare?" proposed Naoko.

"Oh, its been a while since I didn't play this!" I exclaimed.

"I didn't play since high school!" said Chiharu.

"Then its settle!"`said Tomoyo.

-x

"Your turn Sakura! Truth or dare?" asked Naoko.

"Hmm. Truth." I mumbled, not feeling daring.

"Well. Who was your first?" asked a pouting Naoko. "I don't even had a clue."

"My first?" I repeated, I wasn't sure what she meant by first. "My first boyfriend?"

"Come on! We all know its this Mihai guy. From when you were abroad. But, we never knew how far you went in the relationship." said Chiharu, raising an eyebrow at me.

"Don't lie, Sakura!" asked Naoko. "Don't be shy. We won't judge if he wasn't your first."

"Well, he is my first everything." I answered, truthfully as a thought strucked me. It now felt kind of awkward because somehow it felt wrong that it was him. I meant I loved him at that time, I thought I would be okay even if I didn't stay with him forever. He was my first boyfriend but he wasn't my first love. I giggled as my thoughts were silly and I tried to chase them away.

"Seriously Sakura. Tell us the truth. Its called Truth or dare." someone suddenly said, disrupting my thoughts.

I turned around and saw Syaoran appearing from behind the pillar. My cheeks reddened as I felt shy that he just heard what he did. "Oh well, good evening Syaoran, hi Eriol." I said.

"Hello boys!" Chiharu and Naoko greeted us at the same time.

"Good evening hun." said Tomoyo winking at Eriol. "Hi Syaoran."

"So, is this Mihai guy, really your first?" he asked again.

"Yes." I replied immediatly, looking confused. "Why do you ask-" I continued before he cut me off. How rude. Why would he even care about who I-

"I don't believe you." he spat venomously before turning back. He walked back where he was.

"Sho, don't get mad at this." Eriol told him as I saw he glanced at a confused Tomoyo.

"Syaoran, where are you going?" I asked, worried about his strange behavior.

"None of your business." he replied, looking annoyed.

When he left, all eyes were on me and after I sat down to finish my flowers crown, everyone did the same. Eriol sat down next to Tomoyo in silence (a silence that last for a very long time) staring at her delicates hands and how she managed to do marvelous necklaces with the hawaiian flowers. He was looking at her dreamily as he also cheked his phone to see if he would received any calls or messages from Syaoran.

The atmosphere was very tense and I felt so weird of what happened. I mean there was no apparent reason.,Did he think I was going to preserve myself until marriage? I thought about it but it but we are so not in that time anymore. Even though it would have please my brother. Well, he's still please because I think he doesn't know about me and Mihai. Or did he know? I shivered at that thought because it would be so awkward. At the same time, if he knew, he would have done something to Mihai, which he didn't so, it just made sense that he ignores it. But at the same time, why Syaoran would be mad that I would have slept with another guy.

But it didn't make sense either the fact that he said that I was lying. And he looked like he truly believed that. Why do I feel untrustworthy about what he said earlier? He wasn't right.

After a while, I just felt like I had to talk to Syaoran and know what was going on. I just left the girls, saying I had to clarify stuffs with Syaoran and they all nodded understandably.

As I walked on the beach towards where he left, I thought about before. There was a time where I fantasize so much about Syaoran and when it felt so real that in a way he must be my first one but he wasn't supposed to know and he didn't either. I had so many dirty dreams and Tomoyo was the only one that knew about it. Well, I told her sometimes, when it bothered me too much. His footprints were still fresh on the sand as it rained a bit, and the water only emphasized it, so I followed them carefully as I ran.

-x

Hundred of thoughts went through my mind as I didn't like the feeling of being mad at.

Thinking that today, we were supposed to relax. Well it started quiet peacefully if we don't count the small kiss this morning..

I started walking faster as I wanted explanations as soon as possible.

When I reached the hotel, I saw that he was halfway accross the hotel hall, so I yelled his name "Syaoran, stop!"

He didn't even bother turning his head back and just continued walking forwards.

"What do you want, Sakura?" he just asked.

"I don't understand why you sound so mad about who was my first time or not!" I desesperately said, following him in the elevators.

"True. But I don't understand why you would lie to everyone, including me!" he yelled, finally turning around.

I started to shake a bit as I wasn't used to see him in such an unpleasant mood.

"I'm not lying." I said, out of breath. I had a hard time running earlier to catch him faster. He looked at me and took my left wrist.

"Yes, you are." he replied, making mestep back. "Listen, I get it that you might be ashamed and I shouldn't make a scene in front of our common friends earlier. But now, that there is only the two of us, you still don't acknowledge the truth." he said, sounding so hurt as he squeezed my wrist without knowing it.

"I don't understand." was the only answer I could manage to tell him. I was totally clueless about what he was referring too. Why did he have to be so mysterious? Could he just be-

"Are you ashamed of me? Was it a mistake for you? WE FREAKING HAD SEX FOR GOODNESS SAKE!" he screamed at me, pushing me against the elevator wall.

It came so quickly that I didn't had even realize what I did. It was the sharp sound of it that woke me up. His eyes widened.

The imprint of my hand slowly began to disappear from his cheek but it was now a bit red.

"I thought you told me we didn't had sex yesterday night!" I yelled at him as I welcomed a feeling of angst inside my veins. So, he lied to me?

"It wasn't yesterday." he replied before leaving me alone in the elevator, completely bewildered of what he was so hurt about.

Tomoyo POV

"What just happened?" I asked Eriol. After the big fight that occurred in front of me and the girls (and Eriol), we just finished our flowers crowns and left. It was so awkward that we just continued like nothing happened. I knew that deep inside, questions couldn't stop popping out of our head but not our mouth as we wanted to be respectful and waited Sakura's explanation. That's the kind of friendship we had, as much as we liked to gossip about each other, this time we know it wasn't a case that will be delightful or fun to discuss. After Sakura departuere, we just waited for everyone to finish their crowns.

-x

As Eriol and I walked Naoko and Chiharu back to their place I told the girls that everything will be fine by tomorrow morning, for Chiharu's big day.

As I grew up, I was constantly between my parents fight trying to calm them down even if it wasn't my job, as their only child.

I assured them that I will make everything in my power to stop Syaoran and Sakura to remove each other's head at the wedding and called a truce. For tomorrow, at least. And hell did the girls nodded and believed me because "No one can mess up with Tomoyo once she has a plan in her head." Eriol told me once. And he was damn right.

I was always a calm child, very shy and quiet and I stayed like this throughout my teenage years. However, after I almost lose Sakura because of her depression, I swear to myself that I'll do anything I can to protect those I love. Not only I would do anything but I'll succeed too. I mean, why people only try when they just can do it and succeed?

"Honestly, why the hell Syaoran was so mad against Sakura? Was he jealous or something? Because from what I know and saw, he must be but it is quite impossible that he loses control like this in front of everyone." noticed Tomoyo.

"I think it is because it is a big misunderstanding, honey." replied Eriol as he looked upon me.

"Don't conceal it, dear." I replied.

"I don't know about Sakura. But Syaoran firmly believes that.. Well I don't think I should tell you as much as I love you, precious but. I think its their business and Syaoran should tell her first. And then, she'll decide if she wants to tell you." the sapphire eyed man in front of me said. He looked so serious.

"I cannot believe this and I will certainly not accept that as an answer." I said, angst rushing through my body. "Listen, tomorrow is an important day plus what just happened upset my best friend a lot and I will not take any harsh treatment to her, even from Syaoran."

"Tomoyo. Calm down, as much as I admire how protective and loyal you are to Sakura.. Trust me, on this one, Syaoran is probably the one who's hurt the most here. The only thing I can tell you, its that it has something to do with why he left years ago."

His last words were spoken in such a broken voice that it brought silence between us for several minutes. Our eyes locked and I went straight in his arms and thought how grateful I was to be in a healthy and loving relationship with such a caring man. I didn't ask him anymore question nor did assumption. We walked to our room holding hands, feeling how lucky we were to not have been hurt by the love of our life.

Syaoran POV

9:15pm

As I was walking in the crowded bar, all I had in mind was to get a bit drunk. Not the kind of "I will get sick and throw up for two days" but more of a "Getting dizzy for the night". Plus, I liked how the taste of strong alcohol made me forget about things I didn't want to remember. As I sat down on the stool, I ordered two glasses of whisky. As I emptied the first one, my phone vibrated. Someone texted me and I hope it wasn't Saku-, oh nope. Only Eriol.

"Just checked out on Sakura, she cried and she's confused. Do you need to talk to me? I'm worried." -E

"No need to. See you tomorrow at the altar." -Sho

"Can't wait to marry you, babe." -E

"Lol."- Sho

"I can't let you alone. Tomoyo will kill me if you guys aren't reconcile before then. Don't you love me?" -E

"You stupid." -Sho

"Just tell her the truth man." -E

"She knows it already. She just won't acknowledge it. It kills me." -Sho

"Maybe she forgot. Maybe she was drunk. Give her a chance." -E

"You know I'm right. She's not the kind of girl who would deny anything." -E

"Maybe she's not who I thought she was." -Sho

"Found ya. Turn around." -E

"Can't live without me, Hiiragizawa?" I said to my best friend.

"You know the answer to this one." he replied, witty.

"Hmmph."

"So what are you up to now?" he asked as he ordered a martini.

"You know the answer to this one too."

"I meant, about Sakura." he said.

"Can't leave this one out for tonight?" I replied, annoyed.

"You know, we can't. Tomoyo will kill-" he started

"Kill you. And me too, probably. I know. What do you expect me to do? She's the one who "forgot" it." I answered. "OH MY GOODNESS!" I suddenly yelled.

"What?!"

"I think.. I think I just understand stuffs.. I noticed that Sakura can't take alcohol very well and she tends to be very hangover and to forget things when she's drunk." I started.

"See, I told you she might have forgot that you guys slept together!" he replied as I started sipping my second glass.

"Eriol. Seriously. I think its more than that. I think she might have a drinking problem. I thought about that, this very morning as she couldn't recall what happened at Takashi's bachelor party. And it might explains why she's denying, well not really. More like how she forgot.." I continued. "Wait, so all this confusion because of a misunderstanding? Really? Is it how fate is being cruel to us?" I asked, suddenly depress.

"Oh, I think its the alcohol taking effect. Come, I'll bring you to your room." he offered.

"No thanks. I don't want think she would want to share anything with me after how I reacted tonight."

"To be honest, you're right. But it wasn't your fault. You wouldn't say anything or do anything for that matter to hurt her. She'll understand. There's a wedding tomorrow where we'll be the best man so, don't even finish that second glass bro." Eriol told me before removing the glass from my hands.

-x

"Oi, you're so heavy, Sho!" Eriol complained. "Should have go to the gym to work out with you." as he removed his shoulders from my arms. We were now in front of the door of my room. The room I shared with Sakura. Confrontations were going to be soon.

"I told you, Eriol." I said. "I want to tell you something before you leave me here.."

"What bro?" he asked, worried.

"I'm not that drunk. I'm not even drunk. I could have manage to walk here without you. So well. I just wanted you to hold me to prove you that your arms are weak." I said, waiting for him to explode.

And oh, he did. (He did give me his two cent a few weeks after the wedding as he forgot because well, we got interrupted.)

"WHAT? HOW DARE YOU SYAORAN-" started a tomato red Eriol.

I was smirking at his face when the door opened revealing an auburn haired girl with the saddest but yet determined green eyes staring at us.

"It was about time." she started. She was dress in some light and sky blue pyjama dress and looked like she just got out of the shower. Her long hair was still wet and she had puffy red eyes. Oh shit. She looked like someone who cried. It was very tense and Eriol wanted to go but didn't know how to. Luckily, Sakura helped him.

"Well. Thank you for bringing Syaoran. You can leave now. Good night Eriol." she commanded.

Eriol got the hint and wished her the same before almost running to his own room. I shivered at her tone.

"We need to talk." she said as I entered in our room and closed the door behind me.

9:30pm

"Sakura, about earlier.. I'm so sorry I got mad. I had no reason to and I was just so-" I started, trying to make eye contact with her.

"How dare you make such a scene in front of everyone? HOW DARE YOU MAKE ME LOOK LIKE A LIAR?" she screamed loudly, throwing her arms in the air, looking at the night view throught the window in front of her.

"Look, I'm sorry and I feel bad and I mean- it isn't even your fault. Gosh, Sakura, I'm sorry. You should have told me and I wouldn't have judge you. You know me, I would have help you out. I would have done anything and everything to get you better-" I said, trying to calm her down.

"Wha- what are you talking about?" she turned around, with a perplexed look on her face.

"Don't try to deny it. I know you have drinking problems." I said calmly, trying not to mortify her that I know even if she tried to hide it.

"... What makes you think that?" she softly replied.

"Well, each time you drink, you seem to forget things and you don't seem to know how to handle the alcohol. At the bachelor party, you went pretty wild and yesterday night too. You forgot how frivolous you were and what happened on those nights. I mean you also forgot our prom night! Gosh, its the only explanation.. I'm so sorry I was blinded by my own feelings and didn't consider how you were and why you act the way you were." I told her.

At her dumbfounded look, I knew I had to start explaining what happened before I left, years ago. I signed.

AN: What do you guys think? Review please!
Also, I want to start another story as I got so much inspiration lately.. Even if I don't have the time. Are you interested in reading another story from the same writer? (me)