-Sasuke-
I do not sleep.
Your trembling sobs shake through me, every whimper echoing distantly in my mind.
With my back turned, I cry silently.
For you.
For me.
For all the things I do.
For the monster I have become.
I listen.
After what feels like a very long time you slowly begin to quiet, heavy breathing steadying, tortured whimpers fading.
Asleep.
I wait.
And finally, when I am certain you are not awake, I sit up.
Your face is pale, flushed with crying.
The tears still glitter dully on those whiskered cheeks.
I lean over you, running my fingers over that warm skin.
You do not stir.
Why did I do this to you?
My thoughts drift slowly.
Because...
Because...
"So are you and Sakura going out then?"
The words echo through my mind.
Flickers of hurt.
I can still picture everything so clearly...
The look in your eyes.
The frown on those soft lips...
"Yes, we are."
I stare at those lips now.
Parted slightly, full and tempting...
I had touched them not too long ago.
You had tasted good.
Sweet.
I find myself inching closer.
My lips hover hesitantly over yours.
Our breath mingles.
We're so close.
Centimeters away.
I can feel your warmth.
And I move back, letting my head fall softly against your shoulder.
The tears come fast.
And I lay trembling, crying silently into your neck.
It is a long time until I finally move away, settling quietly back beneath the covers.
My heart aches,
and I suddenly feel so cold.
-TO BE CONTINUED-