-1Disclaimer: I do not own the song Andrew Lloyd Webber does.
Ch.10: I don't know how to love him.
It was now Sunday afternoon; "Hannibal" was to be preformed this weekend starting Thursday. It would go on for about three weeks depending on how many seats were sold. If few seats are sold then they'll continue with Faust, Cleopatra, and other Operas. Odette changed from the dress Erik had given her and put on one of her favorite dresses. It was a long blue dress with its sleeves falling of the shoulders. This was her favorite dress because before her father died he told her that he loved when she wore a blue dress because it brought out her eyes. After she changed she went to the roof she sat there thinking of what to do. Just then Meg came on the roof.
"Odette, thank goodness your back everyone was so worried. Especially, Louis." She said with a sigh of relief. "Meg, I'm afraid, I don't know what to do he scares me." Odette said, her voice was shaky. "He scares everyone, but you have it worse because he wants you." She said taking Odette's hands. "Meg, he said he loved me and I'm fine till he gets mad or mentions love." Odette explained. "I like Louis but if the Phantom knew he'd kill him and to save Louis I'd have to love the Phantom but, I don't know how to love him." "Odette, I can't tell you what to do other than follow your heart, that's what Christine and Raoul did and look at them." Meg told Odette. "I'm going to go let everyone know your back, but I won't tell them where you are." Meg said walking away. "Thank you." Odette sighed.
"I don't know how to love him. What to do, how to move him. I've been changed, yes really changed. In these past few days, when I've seen myself, I seem like someone else. I don't know how to take this. I don't see why he moves me. He's a man. He's just a man. And I've had so many men before, in very many ways, He's just one more. Should I bring him down? Should I scream and shout? Should I speak of love, let my feelings out? I never thought I'd come to this. What's it all about? Don't you think it's rather funny; I should be in this position. I'm the one who's always been so calm, so cool, no lover's fool, running every show. He scares me so. I never thought I'd come to this. What's it all about? Yet, if he said he loved me, I'd be lost. I'd be frightened. I couldn't cope, just couldn't cope. I'd turn my head. I'd back away. I wouldn't want to know. He scares me so. I want him so. I love him so."