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Chapter 10 "Uncomfortable talks"
Alex went back to the shack and ran to the attic. He knew he needed to talk with his grunkles, but he really didn't want to.
The boy was glad the room was empty, the twins were probably helping in the shack or playing, he hoped they stayed out of the attic for a while.
He needed to practice.
"Hey, sorry for causing an apocalypse and trying to kill you in my past life." He mumbled before cringing at the thought of actually saying that to the two men "Ugh, no."
The boy jumped at his bed and he just stayed there, staring the ceiling while thinking.
"I'm sorry for being Bill Cipher?" he said his thoughts out loud "Sorry for chasing you through all the multiverse?"
The angry and hopeless face of Ford came to his thoughts, so he shook his head in an attempt of getting rid of that image.
"Sorry for torturing you so much? Sorry for haunting you? Sorry for.."
Alex interrupted himself with a groan as he hid his face with his hands, trembling.
"Sorry for trying to kill Dipper and Mabel" he thought with remorse, trying to erase that particular moment of the weirdmageddon
His dad trying to escape... his father's face when his past self threatened to kill either him or Mabel...
"Goddammit, I'm never going to be ready for this" he groaned, while getting out of the bed "I'm going to talk to them right now"
The boy got out of the attic and went downstairs. He walked into the kitchen only to find Ford silently reading a book while Lily and Lizzie cooked.
"Alex!"
"We are cooking lasagna! Wanna help?"
After hearing the girls' voices, Ford looked up and saw the boy standing in the kitchen.
Alex looked at him.
Ford looked back…
And the boy left.
"I'll… take that as a no?" Lily looked at Ford, with confusion evident on her face "Grunkle Ford? What was that?"
The old man just smiled calmly at the twins.
"Don't worry, your brother has a lot on his mind, that's all"
The girls didn't look satisfied with that answer, but they remained quiet and continued with her cooking.
Ford, on the other hand, pretended to read his book, while thinking on the poor boy.
Judging by Alex's expression, the teen didn't know how to deal with them, however, Ford didn't know if that was because of remorse or something else.
Maybe the boy was planning something…
"You know…" Lizzie's voice gained Ford's attention "My brother was a mess last night" she commented, casually "He cried until he fell asleep."
Ford raised his eyebrows at that comment "Really?" he asked, surprised.
"Yep" answered Lily "He just kept saying "I'm sorry."
Ford remained silent after that and the twins smiled a little,maybe that little piece of information would help Alex a little.
Alex was in the attic, again, hitting his forehead against a wall repeatedly.
"Idiot" he mumbled "I can't even look at him without panicking, this is horrible"
Someone knocked at the door, making Alex jump.
"Come in" he said, his voice trembling a little.
Dipper opened the door, with a bag on his hand, and smiled briefly at his son.
"So, did you talk to them?"
Alex hit his forehead again as a response.
"I'm not surprised" his father sighed after saying this.
"Where have you been today?" Alex asked, stopping his head.
"I went with your mother to the grocery store" Dipper answered "I hoped you would have talked with Stan and Ford by now"
"Well, that didn't happen" the boy mumbled "I can't even look at them without feeling guilty! Before, I easily threatened them and now I can't even say a single word when I have them in front of me!"
Dipper cringed slightly at those words.
"I don't really like how you compare yourself to your… old self" he said, quietly.
Alex sighed this "I know what you mean, but... in a way, it's… frustrating"
The boy hit his forehead one more time. He used to be Bill-freaking-Cipher! Sure, he wasn't proud of that now, but if there was one thing he wanted from his old self, was his confidence.
Also…
He really missed all his the knowledge, his abilities, his powers…
He missed all that, but he hadn't realized until that moment.
"Are you okay?"
Alex looked at his father, he had forgotten they were talking. Dipper's face was full of worry.
"I'm fine" the boy answered, I just… need a little time to feel better.
Dipper nodded and took a glance at his son before getting out of the attic.
Alex didn't leave the room for the rest of the day, and that made Lily feel very upset.
"You didn't eat the lasagna I made for you" she mumbled when she entered the attic that light, alongside with Lizzie.
"I'm sorry" the boy said, feeling a little guilty because of Lily's sadness "I will make it up for you, okay?"
The girl only nodded in response.
The three of them went to sleep, however, around two in the morning Alex's stomach started to demand food.
"Dammit" he mumbled "Stupid human needs"
The boy reluctantly went out of the room and headed to the kitchen, maybe there was some lasagna left.
However, when he entered to the kitchen, he was greeted with the image of Ford drinking coffee.
God, Alex freaking forgot that his uncle was a night owl, dammit!
"Well, hello" Ford said casually at the boy.
"Hi" the boy mumbled "What are you doing up so late?"
"I could ask you the same thing"
The boy walked slowly towards the fridge "I'm a little hungry"
His stomach growled in that moment, making Ford raise an eyebrow towards the boy "A little?"
Well, that just wasn't his week, was it?
In that moment, a few footsteps could be heard and seconds later Stan was in the kitchen.
Alex cursed mentally.
"Why are you two here at 2 am?" ask the old man and Ford raised an eyebrow to his brother.
"Stanley, you are here as well"
"Yeah, but only because I slept all day" the man replied.
"Just act natural, just act natural, just act natural" the teen's mind was a mess.
"Eh, kid, why are you staring at the fridge?"
Alex blinked at this.
He was just standing in front of the device doing absolutely nothing.
"Well, what a good ex-demon you are" the boy thought sarcastically to himself before opening the refrigerator.
Lily's cooking wasn't there
"You ate all the lasagna?" the boy looked at his grunkles with a frown on his face.
"Hey, you were in your room all day! You can't complain" Stan looked satisfied with his own answer "What were you doing all day anyway?"
Alex frowned at the question.
Ford and Stan were right in front of him now, he couldn't escape.
This was it.
The boy mumbled something but the old men didn't hear him.
"What did you say?"
Alex took a deep breath before talking again.
"I… wanted to apologize" he said, louder this time and surprising the two old men "You know, for what I did in my… erm… past life?" the boy couldn't look at the men, so he kept staring at the floor.
There was only a moment of silence after his words, but Alex was pretty impatient that night, so, he meet his uncles' gaze.
Ford was frowning at him, and his lips were pursed, while Stan had a clear expression of surprise in his face.
"You know, when someone apologizes it's common for the other person to forgive the other one" Alex mumbled.
"Well… in your past life you weren't a person" Ford stated "So, it's not that easy"
Well, that wasn't nice.
"The thing is, kid" now it was Stan's turn to speak "Even if you are human now, and Dipper's son… we can't completely trust you. We can pretend, but…"
"Yes, I understand"
Alex knew this was a possibility, the boy knew that his grunkles wouldn't forget so easily the suffering he caused them.
But damn, those words were painful.
"You know…" the teen began to speak again "Even when I know who I am, and I have the memories of all that happened, I… am not the same as before" the boy took a deep breath before continuing "I... also have my human feelings and emotions, I have my human life in my mind and... you know... I can… have sympathy towards you."
The boy had to stop talking, but it wasn't because he felt tears building up in his eyes.
Of course not.
He just had something in his eyes.
"And I'm so sorry…"
The boy quickly left the kitchen after saying this, leaving two shocked adults in the kitchen.