*I do not own Code Geass or any of the characters!!!!

The days passed by, and with each growing hour, the young prince became even more distant from his friends at Ashford. The closer the boy got to his real family, the more he pushed his friends aside. Nunnally and Rolo were the only family and friends he needed anymore. The only ones he could trust. Nunnally was the sweetest girl Lelouch knew, and Rolo, he would never lie to Lelouch. It seemed as if Lelouch had truly found happiness. The Black Knights were no longer Lelouch's followers, they had of course found out his true identity and several of the Black Knights could no longer take him seriously anymore. Kallen was their new leader, along with C.C.

"Lelouch, you're very quiet today." Nunnally placed her hand over Lelouch's.

"Oh I'm sorry Nunnally; I think I'm just a little tired from all this school work I've had to do lately." Lelouch kissed the girl on the cheek making her smile.

Lelouch felt safe here, unlike he used to. His father had passed; heart attack, figures that something like that would happen before Lelouch got to the bastard. The war had begun to die down, and yet, Lelouch was still not routing for either side, only for himself and his close family.

"Nii-san, could I go spend the afternoon with Rivalz?" Rolo tugged at Lelouch's white button down shirt and smiled innocently.

"Of course you can Rolo." Lelouch gave the boy a hug and messed up his hair.

Rolo blushed and ran out of the mansion. It'd been two years, yet Rolo was still getting used to Lelouch being his 'older brother', "Rivalz," Rolo practically tackled his blue haired friend onto the ground. The older brother stood in the doorway and laughed at the two then went to spend some time with his sister. The girl sat upright in her wheelchair, virtually perfect posture; as a princess should have.

"Lelouch, may I ask what happened between you and Suzaku? If it's not too personal that is."

The prince frowned and his sister sensed it, "Nunnally, I won't lie to you, I've promised you that," Lelouch sat down next to the young girl and took her hand, "Nunnally; Suzaku got me into trouble for things that I probably shouldn't have gotten into trouble for, but we both have different opinions on what happened-"

Lelouch was cut short, "No, I mean why did he turn you in for being, you know who? Are you really him Lelouch? Big brother; are you really Zero?"

Lelouch took his hand away from Nunnally and quietly whispered, "Yes… But Nunnally, you must understand… All of my intentions were for your wellbeing…" Lelouch's voice cracked as tears welled up in his eyes, "But I've been done with Zero for a year now, he no longer exists. He's just a memory of this God forsaken world."

"I understand…" Nunnally smiled; glad to know that Lelouch would truly never lie to her, "…So neither you nor Suzaku have the heart to forgive each other for the mistakes you've made over the past three years? Lelouch, I'm sure the both of you are equally sorry for everything, why can't you just forgive?"

Lelouch sat in silence, thinking over his sister's words, 'Why can't you just forgive?' Lelouch can't forgive Suzaku. Suzaku shot him, arrested him, gave him to his father, and erased his memory of Nunnally and everything known to him. Worse of all, he was a lover that betrayed him… Yet the love they had was real; maybe it was just a case of pride? Obviously both were very proud of who they were and what they stood for. Lelouch was just stubborn, and Suzaku was an impatient fool that didn't have the time or tolerance for Lelouch's stubbornness. It was just a bad combination for the two.

"Lelouch," Nunnally questioned his silence.

"Sorry, I was thinking. I guess; we don't have the heart." Lelouch placed a kiss on his sister's forehead before proceeding outside to watch the sunset.

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"Mm, Suzaku," Lloyd nearly sang the worlds that were flowing out of his mouth, "Is it true you were lovers with the alleged Zero?"

"W-what, Lloyd that's such a personal question and what makes you think of that anyways?" Suzaku blushed out of frustration and remembrance of his sexual encounters with Lelouch.

Lloyd flipped on the television only to show Lelouch standing with his two younger siblings and one older, "Hmm? He seems to be happy there now that he knows that he can no longer be used as a political tool by his deceased father." Lloyd shoved his hands into his lab coats pockets.

"Uh-huh…" Suzaku gazed at the T.V. ignoring Lloyd; it'd been a year since he'd last seen Lelouch. He didn't seem any taller, or older, but he was defiantly still gorgeous, "Lloyd, I'd like it if I could go visit Lelouch…"

"Well you are off duty until there's another attack so I suppose you…" by that time Suzaku had already left and the door slammed shut, "Oh in the middle of a sentence Suzaku?" Lloyd pouted and threw his arms up into the air.

Suzaku lay down on his bed and played with the pale blue sheets that covered him, 'If I go to see him, what do I say? Do I tell him I forgive him for his actions? Or should I just simply say I want you back into my life, I can't live without you, you are my, everything.' Suzaku sighed and rolled onto his side, looking at the full moon outside of his window, 'What if he's still mad at me…' Suzaku's eyes started to feel heavy and sting with sleep, but all he wanted to do was think about his prince.

Suzaku shot out of bed and looked at the clock beside him, 10:16 am. The day was bright and not welcoming, he was about to see the man he hated the most in this world; his ex lover. As Suzaku dressed, he thought of more possible things that could happen by going to see Lelouch. The boy could jump on him and kiss him, he could shove him away, he could punch him in the eye, could even have him arrested for assault. No, not assault but it sounded like a good possibility.

A tan hand reached up and pressed the doorbell to the large mansion. A servant answered the door allowing Suzaku in. The place was huge and beautiful; a sun porch could be seen from where Suzaku was standing in the doorway it looked as if it would be comfortable to spend time in. Footsteps tapped along the marble floors and stopped a near twenty feet from the green eyed boy.

Piercing violet eyes shot at Suzaku from across the room, "What are you doing here?" The tone was unpleasant, almost hurtful.

"I've come to talk to you, Lelouch." Suzaku replied in a soft and caring tone.

"Concerning what? Suzaku I'm very busy and don't have time to talk to you about nonsense."

"It's not nonsense! I just… I um; could we go somewhere more private?"

Lelouch raised an eyebrow before offhandedly walking up a spiral staircase, leading the light haired boy behind. The slender prince stopped at a door unlocking it and revealing his bedroom. As they entered the room, Lelouch closed the door relocking it.

"What is so important that we needed to talk in private?"

"Lulu; I'm sorry, I love you. I hope you understand where I was coming from, when I said that I couldn't trust you until I knew you were no longer a threat to me, or anyone around us. You don't have to forgive me for what I did, but it's been over a year now and I've come to realize that I can't live without you. You're a torture to me. You're beautiful and terrifying; a nightmare which haunts me every waking moment of the day."

The tension in the room was unbearable. Until Lelouch spoke, "I like it…"

"Like what?"

"When you call me Lulu…I like it when you call me Lulu…" Lelouch looked at the floor as if he had nothing more to say to Suzaku's speech than the fact that he called him Lulu.

"I-is that it? Is that all you have to say to me Lelouch?"

"No. Suzaku, I love you. But, I can't be with you. I'm happy here, you make me happy as well, and you're my first and only true friend. But right now, I have to say no to any request from you that involves intimacy."

Tears rolled down Suzaku's face as Lelouch directed him to the door with no more words to say to the apologetic boy.

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As the day dragged on, Lelouch spent most of his time outside on the sun porch avoiding any high amounts of company.

"What are you so depressed about Lelouch? Is it something to do with Suzaku, again?" C.C. stepped onto the porch.

"No it's not, and even if it was, it wouldn't concern you. Anyways, what are you doing here? You know I can't be seen talking to you." Lelouch folded his arms and glared at the witch.

"Oh I was just checking in on you."

Lelouch fell silent before speaking, "C.C; you have the power to give me geass; but do you have the power to take it away?"

"Lelouch, what are you asking?"

"C.C; I'd like it if my geass could be taken away…"

"Would you also like to forget that you were Zero?" The girl knelt down in front of him and placed her hand on his.

"I'm…not sure." Lelouch frowned.

"Lelouch; you will forget that you were Zero; you will have vague memories of everything that has happened over the past three years; Rolo will once again be your real younger brother, but Suzaku will not forget you being Zero."

"Ok…just make the pain stop…"

"Nii-san," Rolo walked into the room and looked at C.C. slightly stunned.

"I'm sorry Rolo…" At that instant, Lelouch gasped as every memory and emotional pain disappeared from his mind. The world around Lelouch started to spin as he passed out into darkness.

"Lelouch…" Rolo knelt beside his brother who lay on the floor, unconscious.

Oh sorry this chapter sucks… I feel like I'm totally drawing a blank with this writing… I'm not fond of where I'm going with this…Opinions please? I need to improve on things.