I have a break for a week so im trying to update my stories really quickly then think of what i want to do in the chapters after this story i think i will have the next two chapters be about the other couples i have then skipp a couple months of the pregnancy so Ichigo can have the baby and get to have some other events happen.

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Grimmjow Jaegerjaquez POV

It has been over two hours that I've been waiting on this bench across the street from carrot tops apartment complex. It's been so long I'm on my last cigarette and this pack was supposed to last me another couple days. Thinking about what Nel said made me walk a bit to fast to get over here without me really thinking of anything to say to this guy.

He inhaled the tar tasting smoke, holding it in his lungs as car headlights passed over his hard face in the darkness. The street was quit beside the hand full of cars going to their destinations or the meowing of ally cats in the distance. Wood benches were clustered together under thin trees and this is the spot Grimmjow had chosen. His usual stalking place.

What is she expecting me to say? There's nothing for me to fucking say that would put a band-aid over all the crap I've done to him, I mean goin down the list: I knocked him up, told him to get rid of the kid, practically held his friends and his sisters hostage, and to top it all off punched him while he was pregnant into a TV. What in the hell do you say to make up for shit like that cause I would really like to know.

Grimmjow sighed in frustration as he ran a hand through his spiky blue hair. Talking had never been one of Grimm's talents he had always resolved all of his problems through fighting or gaining enough power he could use the fear he instilled in others to get what he needed. Looking down at his scratched digital watch the red numbers told him it was nearly eleven o'clock at night and he still hadn't spoken to Ichigo and it was much later than he had thought.

"What are you doing here Grimmjow; did you not learn your ass does not seem to be wanted much around here?" Beside Grimm was Byakuya still carrying his school bag with him.

"Fuck off Kuchiki."

"Ow that hurt Grimm, what has you hanging out around here anyways?" he sat on the bench.

"You couldn't be apologizing now could you? Maybe even a stray dog like you knows when to roll over and beg for forgiveness." Byakuya said this not minding the eye roll he received from Grimmjow for his sarcasm.

"Nel has always been a kind of medicine for you so I can only guess she is the one who convinced you to come down here …get that death stick out of your mouth I can feel my lungs shriveling up from your second hand smoke."

I finished the last of it down to the filter and flicked it into the bushes. yakuya knows me better than I would like to admit. Sometimes it's like he can see exactly what I'm thinking and can just say it a hell of a lot better than I have the mind power to do.

"Yeah she got me down here but she can't get me upstairs. I don't belong up there with someone like him."

"Someone like him huh, so what type of person is that?"

Byakuya looked at me with those slate gray eyes as they scanned my brain for information and the headpiece he wears shined as one more car passed by us.

"Hell you know what I mean Bayakuya! I mean a good guy, a person that should never have started to be around me the …same as Nel should have never been around me."

Looking up at Ichigo's apartments I could see there were no lights on so they all must have been asleep. It was too late to say anything so I stood to leave.

"Grimm you're a good person you just tend to go down the wrong path for the thrill of the chase."

Bayakuya watched me start my lonely walk back to the Espada home. My only home, before he caught me in the back of the head with a swift punch that had me seeing stars.

"God dame! What was that for I'm leaving!"

"That is exactly what is wrong; you need to get your sorry ass up stairs to talk to Ichigo like you should have had the balls to do months ago! Not just give up and leave him with the weight of the world on his shoulders!"

After my head stopped spinning I could see his serious face looking at me the way a disappointed parent would look at their kid. I knew he was having his hopes of me acting right for once in my life but I really am just a bad person. Someone who seems to only have the purpose of bringing down everyone around them like a demon pulling an angel into the fire filled pits of hell by its wings.

Ichigo never deserved any of the crap I gave him, I know that. I should have been nicer to him or at least not leave the way I did, not when he was already having so many problems. He has to take care of his sisters and himself because both his parents died before he even graduated from high school. Not to mention that when he is at school students and even teachers are always rude to him. I have seen it myself, they talk about him like he is invisible and stare as if he was their own freak show to throw peanuts at while they point and laugh.

I've knocked a handful of the prepubescent a-hole's dicks in the dirt when I've seen them messing with Ichigo in secret but I can't do it to every person that walks down the street. It does seem to be everyone that sees him has to look and whisper and be stupid.

Byakuya stood from the beanch and leaning in close to his friend grabed the collar of the black t-shirt Grimm was wearing squeezing enough to make it become tight around the neck.

Byakuya had never cared for Ichigo much with him being a boy who was always with his baby sister but lately he felt pity for Ichigo. He thought of how Rukia might feel if she was in Ichigo's shoes and it was easier for him to have sympathy toward him. So watching Grimmjow completely not take responsibility for his actions infuriated him.

"Get up there and act like a father since you don't have much time till that is what you are going to be. There will be someone out in this world in a few more months that will be your son or daughter and that won't change whether you grow up and be there for them or not."

Byakuya didn't loosen his grip but instead for a brief moment remembered how it was when the last of the Kuchiki family had passed away leaving him and Rukia alone. He knew how it felt not to have a parent to love you and tell you what an important part of their life you were. Byakuya knew Ichigo's family knew the same pain and he was not about to stand for this trail of heartbreak to continue to an innocent child who had not done anything.

"You are coming with me."

He dragged me across the street in the middle of traffic and into the entrance of the apartments. I did not have the guts to say it out loud in a thank you but I was happy he had forced me here. Scared of what Ichigo would say to me or if he would get as far as opening the door for me I'm still grateful to be inside. Byakuya really is a good friend… my best friend.

Being a Kuchiki family member Byakuya acts in an aristocratic manner, I only seem to bring all the cussing and stuff out of him where he can act like a regular thug. Always serene and apathetic towards other people he acts like any other teenager when we are together or when he is with Rukia. I appreciate my friend more than I have a way of showing him that I do. This once I will swallow my pride.

"Thanks …thanks for everything I …well I owe you one."

"You owe me about a million by now but it is what I'm here for so I will take you doing this as payment for about half."

~Ichigo's apartment~

I am actually shaking a little standing in front of this door. Same as Nel Ichigo can unnerve me when I least expect it and this happened to be one of those times.

Childishly I looked back at Byakuya for what I guess was support since I was cornered by him, this door, and Nel who could come out of her apartment or who might be listening to my heavy breathing from inside.

Byakuya lifted up a hand and banged on the door. That was not exactly what I was wanting, I mostly was wishing I could go and get my special surprise from Nel while he said sorry for me. Oh well ya don't always get what you want.

I heard shuffling of someone's feet then the door opened slowly and there he stood my lost lover and baby daddy Ichigo kurosaki. He was rubbing his eyes half conscious; I bet he hadn't even realized he was at the front door yet.

Spying on him from far away is totally different from an up close and personal view like this because to be blunt he is kinda really, really HUGE!

He still is sporting the same spiky orange hair he hates but now it's in a messy just got out of bed spikyness that looks good to me with his brown eyes and peach colored skin. Ichigo was a good looking guy and he still is he just looks torn down. The brown eyes that use to be full of life are dulled with puffy circles underneath showing how out of control his life is. His shirt fits loosely on his shoulders while being pulled snuggly over his stomach that pokes out a little from underneath the white night shirt.

"Byakuya what do you want there can't be anything you could want from me this late at night."

Ichigo opened his eyes squinting to see in the bright hallway. Then his vision becoming clear he saw the scruffy exterior of Grimmjow slouching and avoiding direct eye contact by looking anywhere but at him. Without saying anything Ichigo suddenly attempted to shut the door but Byakuya suck his foot out stopping him.

"For real this shit is what you come over here for? Byakuya you were here the last time this bastard was and you think I want him here when Yuzu and Karin are in their room?"

Byakuya put his hand on Ichigo's shoulder as he forcefully moved him from the door way to the living room and not knowing what to do I followed and shut the door.

"Kurosaki I apologize for intruding on you and your sisters so late in the night but as Rukia's older brother she would hate for me not to help you when I saw a moment of opportunity arise." He gestured for me to sit on the couch and I did. I have to say I am shocked how easy it was for Byakuya to move Ichigo. The boy months ago was solid and sturdy with strength.

Little carrot top stayed standing refusing to sit in my presence even though I could tell being on his feet was uncomfortable as he kept shifting his body weight and had trouble keeping balance.

"Help me? Is that a joke? How is bringing trash that abandoned me and abused me helping or do you just have a twisted definition of the word?"

"No, I am knowledgeable in the meaning you are the one that needs to understand. It doesn't take a genius to tell that you need something more than what your friends or Urahara can offer you. Grimmjow is the one that you need to talk to."

Looking at me to speak up I guess he was handing the spotlight over to me to convince Ichigo to hear me out. Who knew a pregnant guy could be so intimidating even when he has that sleep crust people get in their eyes still.

"Ichi I'm a jerk and any other word that means it in any language. I'm impulsive, short tempered, blunt, sarcastic and bordering on psychotic in my opinion. To tell you the absolute truth I doubt I'm daddy material."

"Oh yeah your really changing my mind by stating what we both already know."

"Hey I'm not good with words so give me a minute to figure out what I'm trying to say!"

I put my head in my hands, what am I doing? He is a dimwit and so am I .Our freaking kid is going to come out not remembering to put its underwear on before its pants eating glue! But I gotta try and make this better my kid should have a better family than I did; a family that has parents that at least act humane to one another.

"Ichigo I am a sin bound person. A black soul and a cold heart is what I was born with and growing up with my dad beating my mom and beating me when she stopped being fun for him made it colder. I drink myself to happiness and only have one person who can deal with me being the way I am which is Bayakuya. I stopped having dreams long ago because when you live a nightmare everyday you don't comprehend what anything pure feels like. At some point good things start to burn because your not worthy of them.

Talking with my head in my hands was easier than looking at their faces I was able just to say what was going on in my head and maybe all of this is acceptable for him.

"I was lonely before I meet Nel I had never loved someone before the way things happen in chick flicks so I got caught up in our love so much I didn't see I was hurting her till she had had to leave. When she left I had a void in my heart and you...you filled the void Ichigo which seemed impossible. But I was selfish and used you to fill my needs and be a plaything that I wanted to be with me all the time. Sinners do not have blessings given to them but my child when I had one was going to be when I changed my life around."

Tears stung my eyes but I forced them back. An Espada does not cry.

"All of this happened before I changed myself and I didn't want to hurt you or your sisters and friends the way I did really I didn't and I'm sorry. I don't know what I could do to show you how sorry I am but I want all four of the people that make me better to be with me. Bayakuya, Nel , you and our baby."

I said a lot more than I thought I had been holding in so sitting here almost crying like a weak person I didn't know I waited for my better half to say something.

Ichigo Pov

I gave Grimmjow everything I had to offer someone I had feelings for. My time, affection and my body and all of that got thrown to the curb once he got scared. Is that really the type of parent anyone would want? If wish my dad was here.

Isshin Kurosaki, my father, was one of the greatest people I have ever known and I wish I had had more time to tell him that. Extremely over energetic he may have been embarrassing but took a real interest in us. We all chose to keep more to ourselves than he would have liked since it kept him out of the loop but he had the instinct parents seem born with to know when their child really needs them. He could tell this for me even when I was too hard headed and afraid to tell him I was pregnant. As I look back on it now I think he knew from the very beginning and that was why he was trying to get the family more money. I miss him making fun of me or talking to the poster of mom he had in our kitchen. Random pieces of advice I took for granted would come in handy but this decision is all mine so what should I do about Grimm?

"Fine."

"Fine? What does that mean?"Grimm still hadn't taken his head out of his hands so I was stuck talking to the top of his blue head.

"Fine as in your on probation."

I can try seeing if a blockhead like him can really evolve into something I can call a man. He had some un-recognizable expression when he decided he was done looking at the rug. A mix between surprise and realizing I was actually giving him a second chance is my description of it.

Grimmjow walked up to me and my unstable hormones chose to go crazy looking at him. Grimm is only a inch or two taller than I am but I always end up having to look up to see his face and his blue eyes stare me down every time. They're endless and vast in that icy blue color. I remember him smelling like diesel fumes and cigarette smoke which is an odd combination that strangely work together.

While he stroked my face that familiar sent came from his skin and made me feel like for the first time I could rely on him. That he would be there for me. He smiled the same evil kind of smirk he flashed at me every time he tried to make me go along with his half brained plans and I struggled to keep myself together. I have to resist my overwhelmed hormones and loneliness before I make any more mistakes.

Grimmjow POV

Ichigo's face is so soft and he is believing in me to be a better guy than I have been. Not many people have given me that much. It makes my skin crawl thinking about how hard all this is gonna be repenting for my screw ups but what other options do I have on the table right now? None so I will work hard for Ichigo and Bayakuya's respect and maybe find love again with Nel or gain it back from Ichigo.I really hate work though.

Bayakuya lead our way out of the apartment leaving me in the hallway alone as he made his way back to his own apartment, Rukia would be worried about him being gone so long and was probably still awake waiting for him. After all they only have each other.

Grimmjow stood in the hall not knowing where he wanted to go. He didn't want to go back to the Espada after all of the emotional stuff that he had just confronted so he was left with no where to would open her home to him but perhaps that was not for the best either. Maybe no matter how much he cared for her it was a better option to be a father to his baby and not have any romantic interest in his life.

A rumbling sound echoed in the hallway as the heart fired up through the complex warming the inside of the building and he sat on the floor warming his body. The weather had been changing from warm to cold all week and it seemed it was going back to cold today.

"You can come in if you still want to." Nel had come to her door wearing her hair in a ponytail wearing a yellow tank top with matching shorts. "I was not sure you could do it but I underestimated you."

"Not really Bayakua had to drag me up here but I did said what was on my mind."

"That's all I could have hoped for Grimmy." she smiled and her large incisors looked as funny as the first time I saw them.

"Are you going to sleep out there the rest of the night or are you going to come in?"

I came in and it was furnished similar to her room back with us. Full of crazy crap only she would 's apartment was a two bedroom two bathroom that was on the small side. She had eclectic taste in furniture with leopard patterned chairs and statues of animals ranging from bunnies to zebras. Mixed in were plants that typical house holds had covering any spare space with other ones like venues flytraps or multi colored flowers.

I love the girl but she has a…unique sense of how to decorate. I followed her to her bedroom and took of my shoes and tossed them in a pile of heels by the door. The bedspread was a gothic looking print with gray pillows and there was a tiny desk lamp covered with a green cloth making it give the room a weird green color.

She climbed under sheets after setting out some sweats for me to wear. I took of my clothes and put the pants on and joined her in the bed as she turned off the lamp and the streetlights from the street below streamed in from the window above the bed.

I didn't sleep the whole night. I laid there feeling Nel's body heat while feeling happy. I had her in the bed next to me , my best friend somewhere upstairs and my other love across the hall and it was the first time I had something close to a family.