-1DISCLAIMER IS THE SAME AS CHAPTER 1.

A/N: this chapter has a slight spoiler for the episode 'nesting dolls'.

A/N2:this is the last update today but hopefully I'll be back with more tomorrow. Please keep the reviews coming. They are like coffee to me when I need to stay awake and type more chapters for you.

Chapter 10

CPOV

I admit that I was shocked to see Sara like this, I mean I don't think I've seen her so venerable. I knew something was wrong when she had gone pale just at the sight of the agent but for her to burst into tears was heartbreaking. I could see all of this had taken a lot out of her because she was dozing in the car as I took her home.

I helped her into her flat when we got there and after she had taken her medication I tucked her into bed. As I turned to leave she grabbed my hand.

"Cat, don't go, please" she begged before bursting into tears again.

I crawled onto the other side of the bed and pulled her into my arms.

"Shush" I say comforting her "I'm not going anywhere, just let it all out."

Her sobs quietened and I thought she had fallen asleep until I heard her start talking.

"I guess you want to know what's going on" she said

"only if you want to talk about it" I replied hoping that she would but not wanting to push her.

"This is really hard for me" she says "it's about what I couldn't tell you earlier. It's about my past"

I just held her closely to me hoping she would use my strength to help her talk. With a big sigh she told me everything.

"it's funny the things you remember. I can remember the smell of iron in the air, the blood spatter on the walls, even the young cop puking up his guts. The violent end to the brutal past. It all started when I was 3, the beatings, the yelling, the trips to the hospital, ending on the wrong side of both my father and my mothers temper. I thought this was normal everyday behaviour. When I was 7 it got worse, my father started raping me. It was one day when he came after me that the dreadful day happened. I was crouched in the corner of my room when my mother stabbed my father to death. I thought she was going to come after me next but she just slapped me until I blacked out. Next thing I know the police are there and I'm going back to the hospital. It's there I first met agent Bruller, he told me they'd got my mother and I was needed to testify at her trial, which I did. And now…"

This is where she trailed off in her speech and cried again. Despite the tears running down my own face at her brutal upbringing I held her tightly.

"And now he's back" she continued "he told me that my mother has broken out of jail and is on the run and I'm so scared that she is coming for me"

"I'm not going to let anything happen to you" I said "but I need to tell Gill, he's your supervisor and this is too important to leave him out of the loop."

"He already knows some of my past. He forced me to tell him and I blew up at you and ecklie on the mail order bride case we were working on" she stated

I nodded in recognition as I realised why he had defended her so much to Ecklie that day. We stay cuddled together until I realised that she had fallen asleep. Knowing that I needed to speak to Gill I slipped out of her embrace and left the room whilst dialling his number on my phone.

"Grissom" he answered

"Gill, it's Catherine" I said

"Catherine, what's going on, what's wrong with Sara?"

"How much do you know about Sara's past?" I asked wanting to know how much detail I was going to have to give him.

"I can't tell you Catherine, that's Sara's choice" he replied

"Sara's told me everything. I just wondered what you knew so as what further information I needed to give you" I say honesty

"I know there was some abuse in her childhood and that her mother killed her father in front of her but that's it" he replied.

"Some abuse?!" I said "Gill she was seriously beaten by both her mother and her father, not to mentioned raped by him. It's more serious than she told you. But that's not all of it anymore" I sighed before continuing.

"Agent Bruller was the one assigned to her case. He has come back to talk to her as it seems that her mother has broken out of jail and is missing." I informed him.

"What?!" Gill shouted.

"Gill, calm down. I'm only informing you as you need to know but Sara doesn't want or need the whole lab to know about this. She's sleeping at the moment and right now all she needs is our support. I'll see you tomorrow night." with that I hung up the phone and went back to Sara.

I lay next to her and she finds her way back into my arms despite being asleep. I let myself drift off as well hoping things weren't going to take a turn for the worse.