So this is a good week for me. I have updated a lot in the last few days!! I will try and keep it up as long as I can keep up with my homework as well!

Chapter 10: The past and doing what is wrong.

The next two weeks went along with no problems. Bella was getting better but still closed about herself and her past. She wouldn't talk with the councilors or Edward about what was wrong. Though she denied it, Bella was still having nightmares almost every night about what had happened to her when she was in Phoenix.

"Bella" Edward walked in to their room with a sandwich for her. "I brought you some food."

"Thank you Edward" she smiled lightly she took the food from my hand. "I want to thank you for doing this from me. I would have never gotten better if you wouldn't have helped me." She smiled at Edward again

"Have I ever told you that you have a beautiful smile?" Edward kissed her forehead lightly. "Do you think that you will be okay if I hunt tonight? I can't hold out much longer."

"I think that I will be fine. We are having a small party after session tonight, so I will be later" she didn't sound excited about the party but Edward knew that she would only be going so that he could hunt.

"I will not be long. I will pick you up when I get back" He stroked her hair lightly and watched as she nibbled at the ham sandwich

"I am getting better Edward but I still need you here." She muttered under her breath.

"I will be here till you don't and even then I will not leave." Edward whispered to her as he became aware of another person at the door.

"It's time for session Bella" a man named Ed summoned her. He was in here for the same reason Bella was. They had gotten along well but Bella would still not open up to new friends.

"I will see you tonight Edward" She kissed his cheek and left the room. He sighed and made his way out the front door and to the car.

The party

Bella's POV

There were not many people here, mostly just the ones that had been her longer and had started to open up to people. I sat in a corner drinking my punch and watching all the smiling faces of the people around me.

"Bella, would you like to come out to the patio with me?" Ed offered me his arm. I took it slowly and he led me on to the patio. The dark cherry wood deepened the night's dark. I looked up to see a clear night sky.

"I am only asking you this because I trust you Bella. One of the other guys got a hold of some stuff. Do you want to be a part of this?" he looked in to my eyes as he spoke and I didn't look away. He knew that I needed for the drug, that's why he asked me. I felt a familiar want run through my vines. All I could think was 'I'm sorry, Edward.' I nodded to Ed. He smiled and messed my hair.

"Alright, we will meet in this room after the party." He explained to me what was going to happen and how we were to react when it did.

"What about the guard?" I asked in a small voice.

"We will take care of them, don't you worry" he smiled again as he led me back to the main room. I let go of Ed's arm and re-took my place in the corner. I wanted it so bad that Edward didn't matter anymore. My want, my need was taking over again and there was no way to stop it.

The party wound down earlier than expected. I, Ed, another woman and two other men stayed in the room talking. I knew that this was who was going out tonight. Suddenly there was a piercing scream from down the hall. The counselor that had stayed in the room ran out to find what was happening. The five of us ran towards the patio and jumped off in to the bushed below. After that we were up and running towards the darker part of the forest. I followed blindly knowing that Edward or the guard could find us at any moment but I just didn't care. The running, the danger and the promise of what I needed the most was pushing me forward, making me faster.

"Stop" someone commanded. We all slid to a halt and looked around. We were clear and free. A lighter flared to life and we could see around us again.

"Good job guys. Now if they find us we will just end up back in that hell hole again." He smiled and pulled out a bag of assorted paraphernalia.

I felt the cocaine flow through my body and I was whole again. I had never felt more alive since I first started on my trips. I didn't care about Edward, of being caught; I just wanted more, just like before. No one spoke, no one needed to now. We were all only here for one thing and it's all we needed. Ed handed me a needle of something I had never tired. I took it without thinking about what was in it. His hands wrapped a yellow piece of rubber around the top of my arm. The flashlight that someone brought alone was aimed at me. Ed's rough hands smoothed over my inner elbow and he saw what he wanted. I wasn't looking at him now because I now knew what he was going to do. I felt the needle point touch my skin and I bit my lip, ready for the pain. He pierced my vein with the small needle and pushed the contents in to my body. It all happened quickly…or slowly. I had no sense of time or where I was any more. After the momentary stop in my life, I felt a lurching in my stomach. I turned and vomited in to the grass. Again and again my body expelled everything I had eaten that day. When my stomach was empty I turned and fell in to the grass. I lay there motionless, my heart was pounding in my chest and I couldn't feel myself.

Edward's POV

I had driven 15 miles away to hunt. I didn't want to hunt in the same place twice. I knew that Bella would be fine so I went out of listening distance. A group of deer was close. I sighed heavily, I was hoping that I could find something better then this but I guess this is what I get.

I had drained the deer of its life and dug a hole for it. I was headed back to the car when my phone rang in my pocket. I saw that it was Alice.

"What's up?"

"It's all as I feared." She said simply but I knew just what she meant

"What happened to Bella?"

"Some of the men set of a scheme to get out. There are 5 of them all together about a mile from the clinic" she sighed. "I am sorry that it took me so long to call. It all happened very fast."

"Don't worry Alice. I will get her. Thank you"

I am going to end this chapter here! I really hoped you liked this one. I knew I had to make Bella mess up but I didn't know how I was going to do it. If you have any comments PLEASE let me know. Review!! Please! They keep me happy and writing more!