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Chapter 10

Addison rubbed soothing circles on Meredith's back as she cried onto her chest. They had been sitting in the same position for half an hour now and Meredith's crying still hadn't let up.

"I'm so sorry, Mer." Addison murmured into the blonde's ear.

"It's not your fault…I mean what was I supposed to do with the kid anyways? His father's a one night stand and Derek wants nothing to do with me. Maybe it's for the best you know?" Meredith replied as her sobs finally slowed.

"Mer, you have me and you always will, I need you to know that."

"Oh, Addie, I'm sorry baby I didn't mean it like that I just meant.."

"It's okay, don't apologize." The neonatal surgeon replied as she stood with Meredith still hanging on to her. "Why don't you go home and just relax for the rest of the day? I'll talk to Bailey and be home as soon as I can."

"Okay, thanks." Meredith replied as she dried a few stray tears from her eyes.

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It was only eleven in the morning and Meredith was already hitting the bar. After the morning she'd had she desperately needed something to distract her from her harsh reality.

"Hey, Joe." Meredith greeted.

"Hey…You're here early. Bad day?"

"Pft that's an understatement."

Noticing that Meredith had been crying, Joe poured her first drink on the house and left the blonde to bask in the relief that the liquor provided. Meredith felt the tequila burn a path down her esophagus and breathed a sigh of relief, relief that she was okay, relief that everything was over.

"You wanna talk about it?" Joe offered as he cleaned a glass.

"Nope, just want to forget it." It wasn't that she didn't want the baby, she did…She wanted for her and Addison to maybe have a family and be happy but since when did things ever go her way? Meredith snapped from her thoughts as she heard the sound of bells signaling that someone was entering the bar. The blonde hoped it would be Addison but instead it was the exact person she didn't want to see…Derek. He plopped down onto the stool next to her.

"Isn't it a bit early for tequila?" the neurosurgeon deadpanned.

"It's five o-clock somewhere." Meredith replied in an equally dry tone.

"So what's your problem?"

"You really want to know? You just found out I slept with your wife."

"Yeah and I'm extremely mad but I care too much about you to let you drink yourself to death so spill."

"Just remember you asked…."

Several tequila shots and hours later, Meredith had finished her whole story including the story about her and Addison and started crying. Derek sat silent.

"Derek? Say something."

"I-I…I don't know what to say Mer. You were sleeping with someone other than me even before Addison, what do I say to that? Everything you said was a lie."

"No Derek wait," Meredith grabbed Derek's arm as he stood to leave but he shook her off.

"I just…I just need some time." And with that he was gone.

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Addison sighed as she flopped down into her car. She had just picked up some dinner and flowers for Meredith and was on her way home. She made the short drive from the store to her hotel where she would meet Meredith.

"Hey." Addison greeted with a kind smile as she entered the room.

"Hi." Meredith replied as Addison kissed her and sat next to her on the couch.

"How'd your day go?"

"Okay I guess….I talked to Derek."

"Really?" the redhead replied as she raised an eyebrow.

"Yep. It was awful…He told me to tell him what was wrong and I did and he left."

Addison stayed silent and placed her hand on Meredith's. Meredith leaned in and placed her head on Addison's shoulder and let her guards completely down and shed a few silent tears and realized that this was what she wanted forever…Just her and Addison.

"I love you, Addison."

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