Chapter Nine

As I walked back home I couldn't help but worry about what I was about to do. It would be one of the hardest things I would ever do.

"I'm going camping with Leah for a few days," I called down to Jake as I started packing a suitcase.

"Leaving me?"

"Getting rid of the jitters and one of my worse days," I said kissing him as he came into the room. "Like your thinking spot."

"Alright. Have fun then." He kissed me back and walked back downstairs.

By the time he was finished with his dinner Leah was outside waiting for me. Jake walked over before I had time to open the front door and held me in one of the largest embraces he'd ever put me in before. The love behind his kiss was so hard to settle with till the end of my life. "Come back in one piece," he said.

"I promise." I chocked out kissing him again with as much love I could muster. If it were going to be my last, I'd make it memorable. When I pushed away he almost didn't let go. "Three days, that's all," I promised walking out the front door towards Leah's car.

"You're driving tonight."

"Fine." I said throwing my bag into the back of her car.

"Called ahead to Alice, she's got a tent and everything set up in that little clearing you love so much. We'll be getting a thunderstorm tomorrow. She put it out of the way enough so that you all could play baseball."

"Thanks Leah. You really didn't have to do anything like that you know."

"Yes, I know, but I figured you'd like one last pleasure in life if you didn't get Jacob. I still don't know why you didn't take mine, Emily's or Edward's advice."

"I did... As much as I hate to say it, you were right."

"Well alright then."

"You sound half disappointed. Now back out of my personal life!"

"Got it, got it." Leah said holding up her hands, "Slow down a bit though, you'll never see anything in the road driving this fast."

"Sorry." I slowed the car to just under eighty. "I'm not going any slower."

"You're going seventy-eight."

"I know, but this is one thing that I'm going to miss."

"Fast cars?" she asked.

"Yes." I hung my head slightly.

We got to the gravel road leading to the Cullens' house and I parked in the driveway. "We're walking from here, right?"

"Yep." She looked up at the house. "I think they'll all be waiting for you."

"That's fine. I'm sure Edward's told them all by now."

"Alice has told them all by now," Leah corrected me.

"Well fine." We walked into the clearing just a few miles away from the Cullen house. Leah was right. They were all waiting for us. No one had anything but a sad face on. And the faces didn't leave my memory until after they were long gone. They didn't have the thunderstorm the next day so there was no baseball but the following morning there was a nice thundershower and they of course let me in on the game though no one looked at all happy. Thunderstorms were the only way to hide the racket that the ball made when any of us hit it. A bit too hard we might say.

The game ended before the rain did and I just sat in my tent alongside Leah. It was so gloomy outside and inside that I could barely tell the difference.

In a few hours I would undergo the painful change from a vampire to a werewolf. Suffering my fate set aside for me so many years ago.

Leah left an hour after the rain saying she'd rather not be around to watch me suffer, as long as it was okay with me. I said it was fine but felt terribly alone after she'd gone. When my phone rang I let it go to the voicemail. Then checked the message. It was from my grandma. "Honey, I'm sorry I'm not there yet. I found something to help you, but I'm afraid I might not get there in time. Tell me where you're at and I'll be there as soon as I can."

The message ended and I dialed up Edward. Fighting back my tears as I told him that my grandmother thought that she had an antidote for me and that he was to meet her when she got to Forks in two or three hours. He'd recognize her easily.

By the time I hung up my phone and set it aside the convolutions had started. I thought about praying that I'd live through the transformation but I figured I deserved what was coming to me one way or another. Karma. I wasn't going to make anyone else suffer any longer because of what and who I was. I did pray that Jacob would get through it though. I wanted him to be happy even if I wasn't there, maybe he could learn to love Leah.

I went through what I already knew about a werewolf's transformation. They could hear the thoughts of other werewolves while they were in wolf form as long as the others were in wolf form. They almost couldn't disobey the pack leader once accepted in…that wasn't going to apply to me thankfully. Then something about it being painful and thinking that you're going insane.

The voices started up in my head first. I could tell that Leah had broken her promise and was telling Jake everything she could as fast as she could. I was hurt that she was doing that but I was also half glad, by the time Jake got here I'd be gone anyway. Then I blacked out. I could tell that my mind was still ongoing in the transformation but the rest of me was fading so fast that my mind started going with it. All I could make out was that Jake thought he'd make it in time and that Edward was getting my grandmother to me as fast as he possibly could. Wait, why could I tell what Edward was doing? He wasn't a werewolf, he was a vampire. I closed my eyes hoping that the pain would overtake me soon.

When I woke up I was outside the tent with my grandma bent over me mumbling something like 'it worked, I can't believe it. She's the prophecy' then I blacked out again. My mind wandered through the spirit world, seeing tiny shining animals hiding in the depths of different forests. I woke up again, in the tent and covered in blankets. My grandmother was humming in the corner.