Chapter 10

*Author's Note: Thanks for reading! Lyrics in the beginning DO NOT BELONG TO ME! They are from "Love The Way You Lie" by Eminem and Rihanna, so don't remove my story because I gave them credit people who monitor the website :D This chapter is a little short, but it is NOT the last chapter. I'm getting into the last little bit here…I think you'll like where it goes :) Otherwise…enjoy!*

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn?

Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts…

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry?

Well that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie…

The sun was setting and the sky was a rather dim orange as the two of them stood silently on the edge of the ocean. Murdoc's eyes seemed rather distant; they'd been this way for the past few months. It was as though he knew something wasn't right. 2D gazed upon him, ignoring the perfectly marvelous sunset that was taking place before them. Murdoc was the only thing he wanted to see.

"Wot issit, D?" the Satanist finally asked, catching the singer off guard a bit.

"Wot d'ya mean?"

Murdoc shut his eyes and winced a bit, frustrated as all hell, "you know wot I mean. There's been this…well…things are different between you an' I an' I wanna know why."

D lowered his eyes to the ground. He was very much aware of what Murdoc was referring to. There was this enormous distance between the two of them since they'd gotten back together. The singer had been struggling with so many different things. For one, he had a tremendous amount of guilt over what he'd done to Lily and he couldn't wake up a single day without thinking about it. It had lessened over time of course, it had been six months after all; but still, it bothered him. Other than that he had to deal with the fact that he was keeping the entire ordeal a secret from his lover. How could he be as close as they once were while he was holding something back from him? It was nearly impossible.

"I dunno, Muds," D replied before letting out a deep sigh, "maybe we're jus' different people now."

The Satanist bowed his head, shoving his hands into the pockets of his jeans. He looked incredibly frustrated.

"I want this ta work," he admitted, allowing a hint of vulnerability to show. It was rare that he was like this, and it really made D aware of the gravity of the situation. He was losing him.

"Me too."

"Fer Chris' sake, Stuart…I sailed across the ocean to git to ya…I…fuck…why issit like this? We been through so much shit…why issit like this? I feel like we can't even talk ta each ova anymore."

D felt a stab of guilt in his chest. He also felt incredibly fearful. He really was pushing Murdoc away…he couldn't lose him. Not after everything that had taken place. He had to make this right. Before he could even realize what was happening, the words forced themselves out his mouth.

"I was seeing someone when you came back."

Murdoc jolted his head up and made eye contact with the singer. His face was unreadable.

"Wot?" was all he could manage to come up with. He was shocked.

"I…I'm sorry Muds. I was…"

"Was it serious?" he cut the singer off, wanting every detail.

D swallowed hard and opened his mouth a bit to reply, but shut it quickly, not wanting to explain. He shouldn't have said anything.

"Was. It. Serious?" Murdoc drew out each word, showing that he was not going to let it go.

D was fiddling with his hands and looking at the ground, ashamed, as he responded, "we were engaged."

Murdoc widened his eyes and threw his hands up over his head before letting them slap back to his legs, "well, fuck, D!"

D shut his eyes as he struggled to hold back tears. He just knew Murdoc was going to leave him.

"How long were ya wif us at the same time? Were ya fuckin' us both? Who wos it?"

D was shaking now, though still managing to keep himself from crying, "A few months or so. I dunno exactly 'ow long. Yes…I wos sleepin' wif both of ya. Her name was Lily…we were livin' togeva…tha's why I moved in wif you…I gave her tha apartment we 'ad togeva. I'm so sorry Muds…"

Murdoc just put his hands back into his pockets and stared, emotionless, out at the ocean. He felt so sick to his stomach; it was nearly unbearable.

D watched quietly as a tear fell down Murdoc's cheek. Murdoc never cried. He'd never seen him cry. Not even when Noodle had disappeared. He'd hurt him bad enough for him to, not only cry, but to cry right there in front of him.

"Don'…don' cry Muds. I'm so sorry…I didn't mean ta hurt anybody. It jus'…ya came back an' I wasn't expectin' it. I shoulda left her right away…but…it was hard fer me ta hurt somebody like tha'…an' I wound up hurtin' ya both even worse," finally, tears were starting to slowly make there way out of the singer's eyes. Murdoc had only allowed the one to fall.

The Satanist gritted his teeth, not wanting to hear about the singer's sympathy for the person he was cheating with.

"Listen ta me," he demanded as he got in D's face. The singer remained motionless as his lover began to display his jealousy, "you're mine. D'ya understand that…you're fucking mine!" he insisted pushing the singer back. They were beside a giant wall of black cliffs and D was now pushed against it, trembling with fear. Murdoc was about to lose control. He put his hands up over his face as Murdoc grabbed his shoulders.

"Stoppit…stoppit I'm not fuckin' gonna hit ya…stop," he demanded, forcing the singer's arms back down to his sides and holding them there. His eyes were burning with intensity as he put his face about an inch away from D's, "you're mine. You git this once…this once! You understand me? If this ever 'appens again…I'll…I'll…" he was struggling to imagine just what it was he would do. To be honest, he felt like hunting this Lily person down and killing her.

D was staring at him, wide eyed. Murdoc could see on his face that he was expecting a beating, so he let go of him, though not before giving him another little shove into the rocks.

"We're leaving in tha mornin'," Murdoc announced, "I can' be here anymore."

And with that, he walked away, leaving the singer against the rocks alone.