Chapter Ten: My Heart Is Open
Blaine and Sam's kitchen table was covered with wedding stuff. Blaine and Olivia were looking through it all, trying to find some things they liked for the wedding. Blaine wasn't sure that he liked what they'd seen so far. Sam had taken the kids to a movie. Beth was with Quinn. Blaine opened another bridal magazine and started to flip through it. Blaine was so glad to be getting married to Sam again. Olivia had brought Daisy with her, who was getting big. He tossed Daisy a bone, who immediately grabbed it and started chewing. "You see anything that Sammy and I might like?" Blaine asked, stopping on a page that offered reception ideas. Blaine was glad that they were taking the time to do a real ceremony. He had always wanted a big wedding. It would be the first wedding Raleigh had seen in awhile. Blaine was hoping they wiuld have a great theme. Blaine just couldn't decide on anything. "Sam liked green, and I like pink. I'm just not sure that they go together." Blaine said. "I want to find something that goes together." He wondered if Olivia had an idea.
"If we got the right pink and the right green they do." Olivia said, she was looking at the bridesmaids dresses. Olivia saw some pink ones. "Do you like these?" She and Stacie would be the ones wearing them. Aimee was going to be the flower girl, Beth was too young yet. Olivia liked them, although it most likely wasn't in Stacie's size. She was only eight. "I'm sure that we can get something that goes with it for Stace. What do you think?" She asked, showing him the dress.
Blaine peered at it. It had an empire waist, it was sleeveless, and it was a gorgeous pale pink. Blaine said, "I love it, it's gorgeous. You'll look just amazing." Blaine said. "Bookmark the page so I can show Sammy." Blaine told her. He wanted Sam to like it too. They had to have a wedding that they both agreed on. Blaine was determined not to do anything that Sam didn't like. He didn't want to be a groomzilla. He said, "I want to make sure that he likes it too." Blaine added, going back to his magazine.
"Makes sense." Olivia agreed. She put a neon sticky on the page to mark it. She was getting ideas for her own wedding. "You know, maybe we should have a double wedding. Noah and I have been engaged long enough. What do you think?" She asked, as her gaze fell on a gorgeous wedding dress. She would love to get married in a dress like that. She hoped that Puck would be okay with that. Olivia brushed some of her black hair behind her ear. "It would be nice to finally be married." She said. "Oh, I also have news. I'm pregnant."
Blaine looked at her. "If Puck's into that, that would be amazing." Blaine would love to share his vow renewal with Olivia and Puck. Blaine peered at the dress she was looking at. "That dress is gorgeous. You would look great in that." He said, he knew his brother would love it too. Speaking of his brother, he came in with Aimee. Aimee ran straight for Blaine. Blaine reached down and lifted her on his lap. "We're looking at wedding stuff, Aimes." He said, as she looked around the table full of magazines. "What color do you like?" He asked, and she told him blue.
Olivia looked at her fiance. "What do you think of a double wedding, Noah?" She asked, as he leaned down to kiss her. Olivia showed him the dress. "What do you think? I bet I could find something like it." She knew that it would have to be off the rack for her. Olivia didn't mind though. The important thing was that she'd be married to Puck. She just wanted to be his wife. She also wanted to get married before she started showing. "We should finally get married."
He glanced at the dress. It was beautiful. "If you want a double wedding, babe, then let's do it." He said. He knew that they should finally get married. Puck went to the fridge and got out a beer. They were going to hang around and have dinner. When Sam and the kids got back they'd join them. He cracked open his beer. "You'll make a gorgeous bride, Liv." He said. He had already picked out some rings at the jewelry store. He was super excited to show them to Olivia. He knew she'd love them.
Blaine grinned. "I'm so glad! A double wedding is such a great idea. I bet Sam will be behind it too." He said, as he grabbed a sticky to mark a tux that he liked. Blaine knew that this was going to be a great wedding. Blaine wondered if Kurt would be annoyed by everyone in town being invited but him and Adam. Blaine wasn't exactly holding a grudge now that he was married, but he was still angry every so often. He and Kurt wouldn't ever be friends, and to Blaine it was sad, they could have been good friends. "Now we can all decide on a theme together. I love that idea because I'm all out of ideas myself. I have no idea what the theme should be. What do you think, Noah?" He asked, as he got up to get his own beer. Blaine set Aimee carefully on the floor as he did. She ran straight for Daisy and pet the dog, whose tail started wagging. Blaine opened his beer. He took a long sip. "What do you guys want for dinner? It might be easier to ask Sam to pick up some pizza. I'm not sure what we have n the house, actually." The kids all loved pizza, too.
"We've had pizza a lot lately. Fried chicken would be good." Olivia said, as Puck sat down with her, looking over a magazine. She loved that about him, he didn't mind looking at girl magazines. She knew that he was secure enough in his manhood. Olivia gave him a kiss. "I told Blaine about the baby." She said, she was hoping for a boy. She knew that Puck really wanted a boy. Olivia thought it would be fitting, they'd have one of each. She thought two kids was plenty.
Puck grinned. "Yeah, I'm good at getting you pregnant." He said, very pleased with himself. "We're going to have two kids. It's going to be great. Blaine, we've got to turn your room into the nursery though." He said. Puck wished that they didn't have to, but it was time. Blaine was married now, and his house was almost finished. Puck was happy for his baby brother. He deserved to be happy. Plus, Puck liked Sam loads more than he had ever liked Kurt. Sam was a really good guy. And he loved Blaine.
"It's okay. I understand." Blaine said, as he pulled up Sam's text conversation in his phone to text him. He asked him to pick up fried chicken for them all, they had a Popeye's. Blaine's favorite. He didn't really like any other kind of fried chicken. None of it was as good as Popeye's. "I'm married now anyway. I won't really need a room at your place anymore." He said. "Although I gotta say, this isn't getting a thing done on the wedding." He said. He and Sam were already married, this was Olivia and Puck's big day. He wanted them to be pleased with the wedding. He was glad that they'd finally be married. Although he knew that if common law was still a thing they'd be married by that. Blaine couldn't wait till he'd been with Sam that long. He knew that they would be. Sam was the one and he knew it. Blaine didn't regret being with Kurt. It had gotten him ready for Sam. Blaine supposed that a small part of him did regret it, but that was only because of how Kurt had hurt him. Blaine was surprised that he'd been so ready to be with Sam after that. He ran his hand through his curls.
Puck sipped his beer. "Whatever you guys want is fine with me. I'm just glad that I'll be married to Livvy. Officially. Not that I really need a piece of paper to call her my wife." He said. Puck knew that Olivia wanted it though, and he was glad to give it to her. She was the best thing about him. Except Aimee. Puck was glad that he had them both in his life. He didn't know what he would be without them. Puck brushed his hand along Olivia's bare arm. He loved touching her.
His fiancee looked at him. "That's so sweet, Noah, but not helpful." She told him. Olivia got up and got out a Diet Coke. She cracked it open and took a sip. "So it would be helpful if you tossed in your two cents." She added. "I'm so glad that I'll finally be married to you." Olivia said. It was going to be amazing. It's not like it would change anything, it wouldn't. Olivia just wanted to have that moment in that gorgeous dress. And to see Puck there at the altar waiting for her. She wanted to know what that felt like.
Blaine said, "I'd love to see Puck in a purple tux. Maybe purple could be one of our colors. That would be gorgeous, especially if it was lilac." He said, he loved lilac almost as much as pink. Blaine settled back into his chair, turning the page of his magazine. "Oh my God, Liv, look at this gown." He said, pointing to a fabulous Vera Wang gown. "I know you'd never be able to afford it, but look at it." He was a bit jealous that Olivia got to wear a gorgeous wedding dress. He loved tuxes, but he also loved wedding gowns. They were so lucky.
An hour later, Sam, Stacie, and Stevie arrived, with Sam carrying bags with Popeye's chicken. Sam went to give his husband a kiss. "Brought the chicken and sweet tea." He said. He helped Blaine gather up the magazines so they could set up the food. Sam brushed his hand over his long blonde hair. He was curious as to if they'd made any decisions regarding the wedding. Sam looked at Blaine. "Did you decide on anything for the wedding?" He asked, as they all settled in to eat. Sam moved to fill Stacie and Stevie's plates before his own. Sam didn't want them to do it, they'd get too much.
Blaine said, "We decided on blue and lilac for our wedding colors. And we're having a double wedding with Puck and Olivia." He said. "If that's okay with you, that is." He added. He hoped that Sam was okay with it, because he was really into the idea. And he knew that Olivia really was, too. Blaine filled his plate, going for a big chicken breast. He preferred white meat. Blaine poured himself a glass of sweet tea. He looked at Sam, who was now filling his own plate.
"Oh, that's a great idea." Sam said brightly. He loved the idea. Sam took a bite of his chicken. "And blue and lilac are great colors. I could wear a powder blue tux." Sam said, grinning. "That would be gorgeous. Good choice." He said. Sam was surprised that Blaine hadn't chosen pink, but he was okay with blue and lilac. It was gorgeous colors. He looked at Blaine. "Well, we at least have our wedding colors." He said, looking into his husband's hazel eyes. They were so gorgeous. He was a very lucky man.
The following day, Kurt was working on the finishing touches of a dinner he was cooking for Adam. He loved cooking, especially for Adam. He was trying to show his boyfriend that he cared about him. Kurt knew that Adam thought he was too hung up on his ex. Kurt was doing all he could to prove that he wasn't. Kurt wanted Blaine to be happy, despite all that had gone down, and Kurt knew that Blaine would be better off without him. Kurt was listening to Spotify as he cooked, and one of Sam's songs came on. He let out a groan. He may want Blaine to be happy, but this was a bit much. Kurt was up to his elbows in pasta though and couldn't change the song.
Alone again tonight
Without someone to love
Stars are shining bright, so one more wish goes up
Oh I wish I may and I wish with all my might
For the love I'm dreamin' of
And missin' in my life
You'd think that I could find
A true love of my own
It happens all the time
To people that I know
Their wishes all come true
So I've got to believe
That there's still someone out there who
Is meant for only me
I guess I must be wishin' on someone else's star
It seems like someone else keeps gettin'
What I'm wishin' for
Why can't I be as lucky as those other people are
I guess I must be wishin' on someone else's star
When Kurt listened to it, he realized how beautiful it really was. He found himself tearing up a bit. Damn Kurt….. He murmured to himself. He had to admit, he didn't know why Sam hadn't made it as a country singer. He was incredibly talented. Especially if he wrote this song as well as sang it. As he was thinking this, he heard the front door open and shut. "In the kitchen, babe!" Kurt called out. He had given Adam a key.
Adam was regretting his decision lately to stay with Kurt. It seemed to him that his boyfriend was a little too obsessed with Blaine and his husband. Adam thought it was very unhealthy. He suspected that Kurt might still be in love with Blaine, which honestly was sad. Blaine was married now. They had reached the point of no return. Adam was starting to really care about Kurt. He just wanted Kurt to care about him, too. Adam went to the kitchen, carrying a bottle of wine. He had known Kurt was cooking and had wanted to contribute. "Hello love." He said, genuinely glad to see him. He leaned to kiss Kurt's cheek. He peered into the pot of pasta. It was shrimp linguine. He liked it. Adam was glad that Kurt could cook these kinds of fancy foods. Adam hadn't ever really had time to learn. He'd lived off ramen and waffles and things of that nature. He opened the wine, pouring them both glasses. Adam didn't know how to bring up what he had to bring up. He didn't want to fight. He really didn't. But he felt that they had to discuss Adam's feelings. He needed to get them off his chest. "So, Kurt, we need to talk."
Those were the scariest words in the entire English language. Kurt wiped his hands on his apron and turned to Adam. "Okay. What about in particular?" He asked, sure that it was about Blaine, and he started to talk first. "If this is about Blaine…. I don't care that he's married, okay? I know that, and I'm over him. I promise that I am. It bothered me a little that he got married, but only because it seemed so soon after we broke up." Kurt knew it sounded like it was a lie. He did mean it, though. Or at least, he wanted to mean it. Kurt knew a part of him was still in love with Blaine. He wondered if he always would be. He didn't want to be anymore. Kurt knew that Blaine had really moved on. For good. Kurt thought part of him just wanted Blaine because he was unavailable. Kurt had never really had good choices when it came to men. Kurt knew that Adam was the breaking of that pattern. If he could avoid screwing it up now. That might be impossible.
It sounded good, but Adam didn't believe him. Adam started to set the table. "I don't believe you. You might think that you mean what you say, but I know that deep down you're still in love with him. It's been a year and a half, Kurt. Actually, almost two years. You have to move on. I believe that you care about me, but I don't believe that you're in love with me. You are amazing, Kurt. You really are. And I am crazy about you. I've never fancied someone as much as I fancy you. I just wish that you felt the same way about me." Adam said, he really did wish that he believed Kurt. But he didn't. Adam was sad about it, he was so into Kurt. He thought that they could really be happy together if Kurt would open up and let him in. Adam loved Kurt so much. He stopped with the setting of the table and turned to face Kurt. "We could be so amazing together, Kurt. You just have to let go of Blaine. You had your shot with him. You're all out of chances." Adam felt bad that he had to be the one to tell Kurt. He really believed that Kurt thought he was over Blaine. It wasn't his fault. Things just took time.
Kurt knew that Adam didn't believe him. He moved to put their dinner on the table. He and Adam both sat down. Kurt started dishing out the pasta. "Adam, I know why you don't believe me. It sounds like I'm lying, I know that. But I really do care about you. I admit, a part of me does still love Blaine, but I'm not in love with him anymore. I'm not. Blaine has moved on, and I'm happy for him. I wish that I hadn't hurt him like I did, but I can't go back. All I can do is apologize, and I did that. He's not ready to forgive me. I wish that we could have been friends." Kurt would always regret what he'd done. He knew that he had to stop beating himself up about it though. He'd done all he could do to make up for it. Kurt took a deep swig of his wine. It was really good. He loved it. He needed it, too. This whole conversation was giving him the need to drink. Kurt touched Adam's hand on the table. "I care about you so much, Adam. I want to be with you."
Adam let Kurt touch his hand for a bit and then moved his hand. Adam took a bite of pasta. "Kurt, I'm not angry at you. I know that you're not doing anything intentionally. You just don't know consciously that you love him. It's okay. I'm willing to wait for you to figure it out. You will get over him, Kurt. It just takes time. You still feel guilty deep down. It is very understandable." Adam just hoped that Kurt would figure it out before it was too late. He wasn't going to wait forever. "I really do want us to work out."
Those words hit him directly in the gut. Kurt wondered if Adam was right. Was he still in love with Blaine? He had cheated on him, that wasn't love. Kurt poured himself some more wine. He was going to get loaded tonight. Kurt took a bite of his pasta and looked at Adam. "I don't want to still be in love with him. I know that I don't have a chance anymore. He's moved on. I know that deep in my heart." He said. Was he ever going to get over Blaine? His eyes brushed with tears. "I really don't want to be in love with him."
"I know that you don't, Kurt. You'll figure it out and get over him. You just need some time. You and I will be together if we're meant to be. I know that you don't believe in fate. I do, enough for both of us." Adam stood. "I should go. Call me when you're over Blaine. Until then we shouldn't talk." Adam said, and leaned to kiss Kurt's cheek. Then he grabbed his keys, and his coat, and went out to his car. Adam got into his car, looking up at Kurt's place. He didn't know what was going to happen. But he was scared that he wasn't going to end up with Kurt. It all depended on Kurt. Adam wasn't sure that he believed that Kurt could get over Blaine. It had been almost two years, and he still wasn't over him. Adam started up the car, still looking at Kurt's house. It was going to be hard to go without Kurt. Adam just hoped that Kurt would be able to get over Blaine. Even if Adam wasn't going to be able to be with him. He loved Kurt that much.
Two days later, Sam and Puck were out back at Puck's, they were grilling out. Blaine and Olivia were inside with the kids, working on potato salad. Sam didn't know what was going on with Kurt, but he'd seen him a lot the past couple of days. Sam was starting to get worried. He'd seen Adam, too, and Sam had made small talk . Adam had told him, very reluctantly, that he and Kurt had broken up. He'd assured Sam that it wasn't forever, at least, not at the moment. Sam wasn't reassured though. It meant Kurt was still in love with Blaine. He didn't like that idea. Sam wasn't the type to be insecure, and he wasn't. But he was worried about what Kurt might do. He wouldn't be surprised if Kurt was the type to go after a married man. Sam flipped the burgers. "Can I talk to you about something?" He asked Puck. When Puck gave him a nod, he said, "I found out that Kurt and Adam broke up. Adam was the one that broke up with Kurt. It was because Adam's worried that Kurt isn't over Blaine." Sam did his best not to sound immature and worried about it. "I'm concerned that he's going to make a play for B."
That surprised Puck. "Oh. Well I'm not sure that I don't disagree with you. I wouldn't be surprised if Kurt does try something. But you know that Blaine loves you. Kurt hurt him over and over. You don't have to worry about Blaine straying. He was done with Kurt the moment he laid those hazel eyes on you." Puck said, cracking open a beer. "Don't worry. If Kurt tries anything, Blaine will turn him down." Puck said, doing his best to sound reassuring. He knew that Sam had to be nervous. Puck didn't blame him. Puck would be nervous if it was him in the situation. He would want to kick some ass. Unless it was a girl that he and Olivia had chosen to have a threesome. It hadn't happened yet, but they'd discussed it. It was one of the reasons that he loved her. She was willing to add another woman to make their sex life interesting. He hadn't brought it up again because Olivia was all that he needed. It might be cool one day though, it was still on the table.
Even though Sam already knew that was all true, he still was glad that Puck had said it out loud. It was nice to hear. Sam flipped the burgers again. They were doing pretty good. Sam ran his hand through his long blonde hair. "I'm glad that you think so, I want to be prepared in case he tries something. If he does I don't want him to think it's okay to try and steal Blaine away. I gotta admit, it's really hard not to go and punch him out right now. I don't have an excuse, that's what's holding me back. I bet he'd call the cops if I did as it is." He said with a touch of annoyance. He wasn't sure why Kurt had to be that type of person. He would really love an excuse to beat the fuck out of Kurt. Sam wasn't prone to violence, but sometimes it was your only option. He took off the burgers and added some hot dogs. "Blaine's not the violent type though. It's a lot frustrating." He said. Sam added some brats also. They were Blaine's favorite. Sam pulled his hair into a ponytail. "What do you think that I should do? I don't want it to be too over the top, but I don't want it to be too simple, either." He said. He cast his glance at his brother in law.
"It's hard to know what to do when you aren't sure what he's going to do. But I agree that you need a plan. Maybe Liv will have an idea. She loves that kind of stuff." Puck said, as he saw his fiancee and Blaine coming out with the kids and the potato salad. Puck turned the dogs and brats. "She'll be so glad to help you." He said. Puck swung Aimee up into his arms when she came running up to him. He held her on his hip. "Hey, Aimee." He said. When Olivia and Blaine came walking over, Puck told them the situation. "So, what do you think that Sam should do? We already know that you're not going to give in, Blaine." He said. He wanted Blaine to not worry at all. Puck looked at Olivia. "I told him that you love this kind of thing." He told her, still bouncing Aimee. He was sure that she'd have to come up with something. Puck passed his daughter off to Sam as she reached for him. She had really taken to 'Uncle Sammy'. He was glad. Beth really liked Sam, too. She was crawling in the grass.
Olivia leaned to pick up Beth as she got near. Stacie and Stevie were playing catch over by a copse of trees. She smiled as Beth played with her long black hair. She was getting big. "I do, but I don't think that Sam should stoop to that level. He's got to show Kurt that he's the better man. Kurt will hate that." She said, sounding very sure of that. Olivia accepted the bottle that Blaine handed her. She offered it to Beth, who took it immediately. She was missing when Aimee was a baby. She was glad that they were having another. "And I don't think that violence is the answer, either. But you definitely shouldn't rule it out. You don't want him to get complacent. You want him to be scared of you." She wondered what she would do if it was her. Olivia was quite sure that she wouldn't do it the way she was advising. Olivia knew that her way was the wrong way. But she wasn't going to take any guff or anyone flirting with her man. She would fight a bitch if she had to. She'd always been that way. She protected her relationship at all costs. She would do what she had to, it was just how she was.
Blaine looked at Olivia. "Do you really think that he's going to try something?" He asked. Blaine didn't want to think about it. He didn't want to have to deal with it. He honestly didn't care how Kurt felt, because he was fully in love with Sam, but he knew that even if he didn't care, Kurt would still try. Blaine just wished that he wouldn't try. It was long over with him and Kurt. Blaine had felt safer with Kurt taken. "I don't want him to try anything. I don't want to have to deal with that. We just want to be happy together." Blaine ran his hand through his black curls. He watched as his husband turned the meat. Blaine was finally really happy. He was with who he was meant to be with. He desperately wished that Sam had been his first. Now Kurt would always be in his life. Blaine hated that more than he could say. He would always have to know it was Kurt that he had lost his V card to. That stuck with you.
Sam touched his husband's arm. "If he does, we'll be ready, love." He said, hoping he was really making Blaine feel a bit better. Sam knew that this kind of thing could be hard to deal with. Sam put some more burgers on the plate as Olivia let Beth back on the grass, who immediately started crawling towards Daisy. She loved that big dog. She pet him carefully. He was glad that she was petting so very carefully. Sam loved that baby as if she were his own. She'd taken to him as well. Sam took Blaine in his arms, hugging him close. He wanted to reassure him that it was all going to be okay. He loved Blaine like no one else. Blaine was the best thing to ever happen to him. He cradled Blaine closer, wishing that he could find some way to get Kurt to back off. Sam stroked Blaine's back. He loved being able to touch him. He lifted Blaine's shirt and stroked the soft skin on the small of his back. It was so good to feel the skin of Blaine's back. "We're going to be happy together no matter what, babe, and you know it." He said. "You and I deserve to be happy." He kissed Blaine deeply.
When Blaine and Sam got home, they put the kids to bed, and then they headed for the shower together. Sam stepped under the hot spray, and tugged his husband with him. Blaine kissed him, pressing close. He wrapped his arms around Sam's neck. He pressed close, their cocks brushing together. Sam pushed Blaine's legs apart, and eased into his entrance. Blaine gasped and clutched at Sam, his nails gripping Sam's shoulders. They both grunted as Sam's hips set a steady pace. Hot water ran over them, Blaine's wet curls falling over his forehead. He let out a groan, pressing kisses to Sam's collarbone. He was loving this. He moved with Sam, and they were both breathing shallowly. Blaine's hands moved down and gripped Sam's hips, pushing him deeper inside. He gasped and gripped Sam's ass. They breathed shallowly together, Blaine clenching tightly around Sam. They both came then, clutching at each other tightly. Blaine stepped under the spray, kissing Sam.
They got washed up and then went to the bedroom. Blaine got into bed naked, and flipped on the tv. Sam got dressed in his pjs, and slid into bed next to him. Sam looked at Blaine. "I love you." He said, and got out the comic book he was reading. He loved comic books. He glanced at his wedding ring. It sparkled in the light from the bedside table. Sam loved looking at it. He ran his finger over the white diamond in the middle. Sam tucked some of his blonde hair behind his ear. He focused on his comic book, ignoring the television.
Blaine snuggled against his husband. "I love you too." He told his husband. Blaine had settled on a Property Brothers, and he did his best to focus on it. Blaine was hoping that they were going to be safe from anything that Kurt was going to do. Blaine didn't know why he couldn't stop thinking about it. It wasn't something that he should still be focusing on. He was focusing on it when he should get his mind off it. Blaine laid his head on Sam's chest and tried to focus on the house Drew and Jonathan were working on. Blaine loved this show. It was really magical.
Kurt stood outside Blaine and Sam's, not sure why he was here. He knew that Blaine was married. Kurt hadn't been on the rez for awhile. He was getting glares from people driving by. Everyone here was on Blaine's side. He walked up the walk. Blaine should be home from teaching. He had decided to sing Blaine a song, and he'd finally be able to move on. He rung the bell, and was glad when Blaine opened it.
It's inevitable everything that's good
Comes to an end
It's impossible to know if after this we can
Still be friends, yeah
I know you're saying you don't wanna hurt me
Well maybe you should show a little mercy
The way you look I know you didn't come to apologize
Oh why you wearing that to walk out of my life
Oh even though it's over you should stay tonight
If tomorrow you won't be mine
Won't you give it to me one last time
Oh baby let me love you goodbye
Unforgettable together held
The whole world in our hands
Unexplainable a love that only we could understand, yeah
I know there's nothing I can do to change it
But is it something that can be negotiated
My heart's already breaking baby go on twist the knife
Kurt finished the song, and looked at Blaine. "I know that you're married. But I had to take this shot. Or I'd regret it forever. Blaine, I still love you. I know that I hurt you. I wish that I could take it all back. I know that it's probably too much to hope for, but I had to take this chance. You can't really love Sam, you didn't even know him for six months before you got married. He's just a rebound." Kurt didn't think this was going to work, but he had to try. Kurt kept his eyes on Blaine's hazel ones.
Blaine folded his arms. This was unbelievable. He folded his arms as tightly as he could. "You've got a lot of nerve, Kurt Hummel. I know that you don't want me to be in love with Sam, but I am. Sam and I are forever. You and I were over months ago. You sang great, but it doesn't mean a thing to me. I knew you were going to try something as soon as I heard that Adam dumped you. You need to move on, Kurt. You and I are over for good. I don't love you. Sam is my entire life. Beth loves him. We're going to have more kids. Sam and I are extremely happy together. Sam isn't a rebound. He never was. You only want me because you felt guilty for hurting me, and I'm unavailable. You need to go. I'm staying with Sam. He loves me. He's good to me. Better than you ever were. I don't want to ever see you again in my life. You hurt me so much, Kurt. I never want to go through that ever again." Blaine didn't give him chance to reply. He slammed the door.
When the door slammed shut in his face, Kurt felt his heart break into a million pieces. Kurt honestly hadn't expected anything different. He ignored the looks he was getting and got into his car. He'd tried. That was all that he had thought would happen. He could move on now that he had tried. He stared at the house, his eyes filling with tears. He didn't know what he was going to do now. It seemed impossible at the moment. Kurt let out a shaky breath. He was going to go and talk to Rachel.
Letting himself into Rachel's, Kurt headed for the kitchen. Thankfully, he found Rachel and Haili there. He went straight to the fridge to get out a soda. "Rachel, I made a huge mistake." He said. "I can't believe how stupid I am." He kissed Haili, who ran out of the room to watch tv with her snack. Kurt sighed as he sat down at the island. Rachel was making coffee. "I went to try and get Blaine back. I sang him a One Direction song." He sighed. "I think I knew deep down that it wasn't going to work. But I had to try. I'd regret it forever if I didn't."
Rachel looked at him in shock. "It was one thing when he and Sam was just a dating relationship…. But they're married. As someone who was married, I am highly offended. You can't just hit on married people! I hope that you learned your lesson. That's such a dick move." Rachel really hoped that Kurt would listen to her. She couldn't believe that Kurt had had the gall to do that. He had tried to get Blaine while he was married. Rachel closed the lid of the coffee maker. "You have to move on, Kurt. I am so ashamed of you. I can't believe your gall." She said, turning to face him. "You shouldn't have done that. It was incredibly stupid." She kept her tone stern. Rachel had thought he and Adam were happy. "I didn't think that Adam was right about you. I honestly thought that he was just running scared. But he was right. You're still in love with Blaine. Adam cares about you. You might have just ruined a really good thing." She scolded.
The worst part was that she was right. It had been a complete dick move. Kurt sighed. "You can't be any more disappointed in me than I am in myself." He told her. He sighed again. "I can't believe myself." He opened the soda and took a long sip. "I deserve every bit of that lecture." He settled back into his chair. "Of course it didn't work. I shouldn't have expected it to. You're absolutely right. I did a completely horrible and despicable thing." Kurt didn't back down from her gaze. He knew that he was a horrible person. "I've got to face it. When Finn died I went over the edge and I never really got back to normal. He would be so incredibly disappointed in me." Kurt knew that he wouldn't do that again if he could help it. If he could turn back time, he would. He regretted what he'd done. Kurt took another swallow of his drink. "If I could take it back, I would. I'm glad that I came to you. I needed to hear that." He said. Kurt looked out the window then, his chin wobbling as he thought about what he'd done. This was truly one of the worst things that he'd ever done.
Rachel understood how he felt about Finn. "I know what you mean about Finn. I got a tattoo of his name on my hip. I did a lot of stupid things myself. But you can't keep using it as an excuse forever. You have to move on. Believe me, I know how hard it is. I don't think I'll ever really be over him. But I know that he wouldn't want me to wallow forever. He'd want me to move on. So I've done my best to do so. You have to do the same. Finn wouldn't want you to be unhappy. He also would be so disappointed in you." He would, Rachel was sure of it. Finn would have been incredibly disappointed. She had to admit, Kurt deserved it. She supposed that she got why he'd done it on some level, but it was the wrong choice. She reached for a coffee mug. She poured herself some. As she put in some creamer, she said, "Maybe you need some therapy. I'm thinking of going myself. I think I could really benefit from it." She mused as she took a sip of coffee.
What she said made sense. Kurt looked at her. "You're right. He'd be very upset with me. I need to stop using it as a reason to stay in the past." Kurt agreed. "You might be right about therapy. I should look into it." He mused. He reached for some cookies and bit into one. "I miss Finn so much. It's not fair that we lost him, Rachel. Haili has to grow up without her father. It's not fair. You have to go on without him." Kurt didn't know if he was a believer in heaven, but if there was one, Finn was up there. "I miss Blaine, too. And I need to move on. I really thought that I had. I don't blame Adam for leaving me. I just hope that I can get him back one day. I really care about him." Kurt did, he knew it just wasn't as much as he cared about Blaine. Was he destined to be alone? He really didn't want that to be true. Blaine deserved better than him, and Kurt knew it. He kept his gaze out the window. It wasn't fair that Kurt was having to deal with all of this. He had really tried to make up for what he had done. Kurt wiped his eyes as he kept his gaze outside.
The news of Kurt's faux pas traveled quickly. Everyone was talking about it. Blaine was tired of hearing people brag about how they all had thought that Kurt would try something. Blaine was walking into Luke's with Olivia. His curls were held back with sunglasses. Beth was with Quinn and Rachel, and Sam was at home with the twins. Blaine grabbed them a booth. Olivia sat down across from him. Blaine was going to get a burger and fries. "I can't believe that everyone's still talking about what Kurt did. It's been a week. It can't still be that important." Blaine said, shaking his head. "I am tired of people asking me about it. I'm sure Sammy is, too. I don't like talking about Kurt if I can help it." He said, he was going to get a blt and fries. Blaine rubbed his scruffy chin. He had moved on, and he didn't get why Kurt didn't get that. Blaine was tired of having to say so. Why couldn't anyone get that?
"I've been doing my best to tell people off when I hear people talking about it. I know that you don't want to deal with it. I don't blame you. It's just so much to deal with." Olivia brushed her hand through her black hair. Caesar came over, and they ordered their food, and then Olivia looked at her brother in law. "What did Sam say? Was he upset? I can't imagine what all of that must have felt like." She couldn't believe that Kurt had actually done something to get Blaine back. She hadn't really thought that he would actually do something. Not really. But he had. It was going to be hot gossip for awhile. Olivia wasn't sure how Blaine was going to handle that. She knew that he was tired of being talked about. Olivia didn't blame him. This town could be incredibly cruel at times. She wondered if that was ever going to change. She knew it was naive to think that it would. Olivia knew better than that. She clasped her hands together. This town could be so small, it felt suffocating. She brushed away some of her black hair as she looked at Blaine.
"He was pissed, and rightly so." Blaine said, as he looked back at her. He didn't know that he was going to be able to keep Sam from beating Kurt up. And he had to admit, Kurt would completely deserve it. Blaine was just hoping that they could keep going despite the entire town talking about them. He had had enough drama to last an entire lifetime.
Author's note: So, I hope ya'll liked. I hope to have some more Faberry next chapter, and of course Kurt and Adam need to get things worked out. Hopefully Kurt can get over Blaine because they're done. I hope one of ya'll feels like leaving a review!