Finally! After eight days, I finally completed another whopper! Then, for the official story; there's only two chapters left! But that doesn't mean I am totally finished this. I do have a three-part Bonus Chapter I am working on. I am not giving any more details about that.
No song this time, but this is really a semi-chill chapter before I head back into the action of Thunder Struck.
Reader's Descretion: this chapter covers the topic of PTSD, therefore the warning is the same as the previous chapter.
Enjoy Chapter Nine!
"Our wounds are often the openings into the best and most beautiful part of us."
- David Richo
Chapter 9: Healing The Broken Crane
Five Days Later…
15:30…
Friday…
23rd December 2003…
Canon: Post-Fighting Spirit
(Scene: Plaza, City Centre, Reefside, Earth/Tommy's POV)
After three days of observation, Trini spoke to the doctors in Reefside General Hospital; Kimberly was allowed to be discharged. We all decided to stay quiet about her PTSD and keep it among the rangers. The hospital would poke and prod too much, plus, Kimberly can't be talking about her past issues; the majority of which are ranger related to people outside the ranger circle. She can't even reveal the fact she is not human and was born on another planet. I decided to let Kim stay at my house again, Aegis felt she'd be much more comfortable with me. He noticed I seem to have this calming aura when she's around me. That meant Kim was happy enough to let Cassie stay are their apartment; of course Ashely was sad that she wouldn't have her best friend staying with her now, but conceded. The former Astro Ranger well knew that Cassie was happy with her Phantom Ranger. Also, Kira offered to tell her mom, their landlady of the small… switcher-roo.
Now, it's almost coming to Christmas, but it wasn't really anybody's worry. Yes, they were running around to get last minute gifts for friends and family. However, all we want is for Kimberly to get better and help her cope with her PTSD. Around Kim, we had to be very careful with our actions, such as: not sneaking up behind her or carelessly banging shut a cupboard or causing loud noises that will bring Kim 'back' to the war. Most of the time, Kimberly is struggling with nightmares; and she had a few bad ones during her stay at the hospital for observation. I was so glad that I decided to bunk in her room, with Trini's permission, she well knew if any doctor or nurse attempted to make me leave; I'd break their arm or make my eyes flash. The first time we saw her flashback was when Ethan accidentally closed or rather banged my cupboard. It was also when Aisha and Kat came over to see how Kim was, my guess was Trini broke the news to them, it also wasn't long since Kim's discharge from hospital; twenty-four hours after it. We decided to have a mini celebration between us at my house and that involved pizza, a lot of pizza. Of course Rocky had to come too; that god damn human garbage disposal, sometimes I wonder how he survives on Aisha's dinner! I'm sure she makes extras for him. Trini, also Jason were instructed in finding a therapist for Kim, who was a past or is a current ranger; so far, no such luck. Even the other veterans tried and came up empty. Surprisingly we managed to keep this quiet from our parents and they have no idea that Kim is here living in Reefside. Oh fuck! How am I supposed to explain to my mother that Kim and I are back together! She will chew Kim inside out!
Back to Kim having a bad reaction, it was yesterday. My team were present and so was Hayley, Cassie couldn't come because of family commitments back in Angel Grove; Aegis decided to go with her so he could be introduced to them. I wish the poor guy luck. I hope Cassie comes back without having a mortified or traumatised look on her face, she might need some consoling by Ashely. Anyhow, going off topic, some of the other rangers visited. Rocky, Aisha, Kat and Billy called over after hearing about Kim's comatose. As a matter of fact, Kim never explained to us how she got her Power Coin back, at full charge and revived, all she did was open the palm of her hand and there was her coin! Resting like it has always been there and gleaming with its unmistakable bright gold colour. Note to myself: ask her. Now, the accident that happened.
One Day Ago…
15:30…
Thursday…
22nd December 2003…
(Flashback/Scene: Living Room, Tommy Oliver's House, Outside Reefside, Earth/Tommy's POV)
I heard a loud laughter coming from the living room as the gang were hearing some stories from the past rangers. Kim was with me setting the plates for the pizza and getting the soda drinks ready. She was so glad to be out of the hospital, Dulcea was outside the back meditating. Kim told her aunt about her PTSD and she agreed to cover Kim's place as substitute History Teacher for a little longer. Kimberly wasn't bothered by it, she just missed her job and being in the classroom; but Jason insisted that his little sister did not need stress and with her condition, to avoid the term disorder, to keep away from stressful situations. The rowdy students wouldn't be much help either. Uh! Randall was asking questions about Dr. Hart and when she will return, Aegis and I informed she is well recovered from the flu. However, Kim has personal issues to resolve and needs more time off.
Randall threatened that if Kim is not back when Christmas Holidays are over, she said bluntly and I quote: "Dr. Hart can kiss her fucking job goodbye." Kim heard it and all, I heard Rhea muttering, calling Randall a power-loving bitch. I can't help but not notice, she seems to have something against my girlfriend; I hope she sees it that way, we never really talked about where we stood with each other. Ranger duties got in the way, Kimberly got frozen in amber and everything else went into crazy shit domino effect. Anyways, for once, I actually agreed with the Crane Spirit. That's Randall for you, cold as ice and she possibly hates life in general. Trini overheard the call too and really wanted to punch Randall to the New Year and beyond. I couldn't help but chuckle, I wish to do it too. It didn't help the situation when Dulcea was nearby as well. She mumbled something like stalking Randall and attack her in her owl form. Yeah, real subtle Dulcea; according to zoologists and animal behaviourists, owls aren't known for aggressiveness, unless you somehow piss one off. Suddenly, the door bell rang and I sprinted to the door, because knowing Rocky and Conor, they'll sneakily steal a slice. I grabbed my wallet and surprisingly reached the door before either of them. I gave the pizza delivery guy the cash and I took the pizzas off him. Placing the food on the coffee table, I called out Kim.
"Kim! Get the drinks!",
"Got it!" She replied, from the kitchen. I turned to Ethan.
"Help her with the cups.",
"No problem-o, Dr. O." Ethan got up from his seat to get the cups that I stored in the cupboard. Kim put the drinks next to the pizzas and rushed back for the plates. Wow, she's moving a lot quicker than Ethan. Kim reentered, carrying the ceramic plates, of course, I forgot to get paper ones. These are probably my third set, because I seem to have a habit of breaking things; i.e.: ninety percent of the time, due to my enhanced ranger strength. Then, we heard a loud bang come from the kitchen, looks like Ethan slammed the cupboard, not the first time; the next sound that followed was the noise of ceramic plates breaking; scaring the daylights out of Kat and Aisha. I silently groaned, there goes the third set. I looked to Kim, and I was not ready for what I was about to see; she was holding herself against the door frame, as if she's trying to support her own weight! Her breathing was beginning to get shallow and her eyes; they looked distant. Oh shit! While everyone was too frozen to move, they did not know how to deal with someone flash backing. I jumped, making my way to Kimberly. Once I got to her, even Ethan stood there frozen behind her! I tightly hugged Kim, whispering soft words of comfort to her; saying things like "you're not there anymore." or, "it's OK. You're safe here." Caesar was also sending out small waves of calm and soothing aura to tame the turmoil inside her, as was Rhea, sensing Kimberly's distress.
Kim was shaking as she screamed out, yelling orders to the Eltarian army that she thinks she sees; in her native home language; I did learn a little of Kim's language of origins, so I understood things like: "hold the front!", "push them back!" and then… "must save Bohan." That name again! I kept up my effort of comforting and consoling Kim, Caesar was doing the same and slowly, but surely, she began to come around; bringing herself back to reality. It took me a solid fifteen minutes to calm Kimberly down and bring her back. I brought her over to the couch and gently sat her down, I helped Jason with the broken plates as the girls kept a close eye on the Original Pink Ranger. Ethan entered the room, placing the cups down and began apologising to Kim as soon as she was relaxed. Kim smiled weakly at him.
"Ethan, it's OK. It was an accident, you meant no harm by it.",
"Thanks Dr. H." Replied Ethan, relived that there is no hard feelings. "I promise to be more careful." After that fiasco, the gathering went on as normal, everyone was talking, laughing and munching down the pizza. I couldn't help but feel it was to keep up appearances. That scene scared everyone, it scared me especially; if she sets off by a simple bang from a cupboard, will being outside in the city be any worse? The city is very noisy and I hate seeing Beautiful like this. I do pray we can find a therapist for Kim, I just still wish she would open up about the past. Admitting to having PTSD was tough enough for her, talking about what is causing it, is even tougher. I just want my Beautiful to get better, I know I won't have the old Kimberly back; I want the PTSD to just stop controlling and halting her life.
(Flashback Ends)
I'm still reeling from that day, it scared myself and Caesar so bad. The rest of the veterans had to head home for work and get ready for Christmas. Jason is also holding a reunion for us, not an official Ranger Reunion, but to meet and catch up with our families. I asked Jason how we are going to get Mr and Mrs Dumas to come, but his mother: Mrs Scott is already working on that. She and Kimberly's mother are good friends and speaking of which, I got a text from Jason saying her parents will be there by Christmas Eve tomorrow evening, in time for the reunion. There's no better Christmas gift than Kim seeing her family after so long. The mother-daughter relationship may have been shaky, but Kim loves her adoptive mother, as much as she loves her biological one too. Right now, Kim wanted to get out of the house; Cabin Fever these days, so it's just myself, the kids and Hayley. Hm… perhaps I'll ask Beautiful to move in with me at some point? If she admits that she wants me in her life again.
Since Ashely has nothing else to do and wanting to give Cassie and Aegis space, she decided to tag along and invited some of the Astro Rangers too. The former yellow told me Andros has come down for a break after helping get KO-35 back on its feet and carrying out intergalactic affiars; particularly with Eltar. Right now, we're all sitting down outside Starbucks in The Plaza, having some hot drinks. Reefside, being a port city, gets kind of chilly during the Winter months. I turned my head and whatever way I looked, I saw the former Astro Rangers in the distance. I warned the kids, especially Conor to be respectful to the veterans. I waved over at Ashely, signalling her and her friends to come over. Her group began to jog and soon enough, they were standing right before us.
"Hey Tommy." Ashely greeted. I shook hands with Andros, remembering him from The Forever Red Mission. I was then introduced to Zhane, Andros' close friend and behind them, was another blonde haired female. While everyone were greeting their new friends, I walked over to the woman who was standing near me, albeit, a little awkwardly.
"I'm Tommy. Currently Black Dino Thunder Ranger. You are?",
"I heard many good things Tommy." She smiled, "I'm Karone, Andros' sister. Also, the second Pink Lost Galaxy Ranger." We shook hands. I remember Andros mentioning Karone taking Kendrix' place after she… died. That was a dark time for the Lost Galaxy team. Then, Kim came up beside me and turned to Karone. I began to introduce her to the former ranger, obviously, pushing aside Karone's past as Astronema. "Kimberly, this is-" I was cut off as Kim's face turned to anger and her eyes began glowing red. Oh shit! Karone raised her hands, while taking careful steps back.
"Astronema." She growled. Andros twirled around, sensing danger. Before anyone could count to five, Kim left my side, charging at Karone.
(Kimberly's POV)
All I could see was red, Astronema has major guts to come back here! After everything she has done! How did she survive Countdown To Destruction!? Maybe she wasn't struck by my father's energy wave? Perhaps she was out of range of the radius. I'm going to make her pay for the suffering she caused, the pain she inflicted on me and her stupid invasion that took countless lives! My fingers wrapped around her throat and I began to choke the life out of her. It wasn't long when I heard an eerie whisper in my head.
"Kill her!" It sounded like Firebird. My whole surroundings were blocked out, I paid no heed to the yelling behind me, as I increased the pressure. Suddenly, someone pulled me off Astronema. I struggled against the person's grip, why are they saving her!? She's a monster! I gave the person restraining me a hard dig into their ribs with my elbow. Firebird continued speaking to me. "Don't let them stop you! She deserves to die!" I yelled out and charged at the Princess of Evil again, I just wanted to wipe that smug smile off her face. It's her fault that Bohan is dead, why so many lost their lives and I'm going to avenge them for it! I struck out with a side kick, Astronema dodged it and then… why is she putting her hands up? Like she is yielding? Why is she yielding!? Suddenly, I was caught and someone whispered to me, it didn't come from my head, but the real world. Tommy?
"Beautiful please!" He begged, "Snap out it! Astronema is gone." She's gone? I shut my eyes, hearing Rhea and pleading me to come back; saying that I'm… hallucinating? How am I hallucinating? I opened my eyes again, no longer seeing red and in front of me, was not Astronema, but Andros' sister: Karone. What have I done? I was hallucinating!
"Oh my god!" I muttered, "I'm… I'm sorry! So sorry!" I fell to the ground and clutched my head. I can't seem to perceive reality anymore, I saw Andros' sister as Astronema! I can't believe it. I felt Tommy kneel down next to me and held me close to him, comforting me. I feel so weak, my PTSD is making me feel weak. Maybe I shouldn't go to the reunion for everyone's safety, if I lash out; the same way I lashed out at Karone, I'm a danger to everyone and even to those closest to me. I can thank God and the Power that no one was around, other than the rangers; the next thing we need is the police involved. I felt a gentle hand touch my shoulder, raising my head I saw Astron- no! It's Karone! Astronema is gone, it's Andros' little sister.
"It's not your fault Kara. I'm the reason that you're like this. Had I not become Astronema and started the invasion, you would not be suffering." I'm sure she clearly remembers the torture she put me through for war intelligence, it must haunt her as well. That she let The Alliance treat me so cruelly, a prisoner of war. A part of me feels I should have died during the torture, I surprised myself that I didn't break.
"I understand Karone." I whispered. My gaze turned to Tommy. "Handsome, I'm suddenly tired. Is it alright if we leave?",
"Sure Beautiful." Tommy looked to the others, "I'm sorry to end this so soon." Everyone was just nodding and saying they're cool with it, understanding that I am not in the right mental state at the moment and need to calm down.
Leaving the group, Tommy led me to his jeep and we began to head in the direction of his house. While I was lost in thought, a part of me wondered how Aegis was handling being introduced to Cassie's family. I hope they're not killing him.
Meanwhile With Aaron and Cassie…
15:45…
(Scene: Chan Household, Housing Estate, Angel Grove, Earth/Aegis' POV)
I sat at the dinner table next to Cassie, as Mrs. Chan served dinner. I honestly thought I was just meeting her parents! But no! I'm now stuck with her grandparents to add to the fun! Now I wish Ashely accompanied us, but no! She thought she intruding. She would not be intruding! She would be making this meet up a lot less awkward, a hell of a lot. Damn it Kara, you got off easy with Tommy. Dinner consisted of traditional Korean dishes, none of which I never experienced. The closest to Asian dishes is Chinese. I decided to wait until everyone began eating, her father scares me! I bet he can read the nervousness off my face. Get a grip! You're the Phantom Ranger! You fought monsters, foot soldiers, deranged villains, almost died to life force drain and survived a war; however, for some reason, being in the presence of your girlfriend's family is the most terrifying thing you can ever experience in your life. Once Cassie's family started to eat, I started too.
The silence between the six of was awkward, lasted for about twenty minutes. Then the grandmother decided to me a question.
"Tell us dear, what was your name again?",
"Aaron. Aaron Callaghan ma'am." I answered. The grandmother chucked lightly.
"Boy, there's no need to be so formal. Feel free to call me Grandma Chan." I smiled a little at the warmth I'm receiving. Grandma Chan, continued her questioning. Please kill me, oh man! Mesogog! Why are you being so quiet right now? Perhaps the Dino Rangers' villain likes Christmas too and decided to take a vacation. "So, how did a fine, handsome young man like you, come to meet my grand daughter?" I blushed a little when Cassie's grandmother complimented me on my features, reminds me of all the times the Eltarian females were chasing me for my affections; before, when and after I assumed the role of the Phantom Ranger. It went to a point after my first trip to Earth, Kara had to chase them off for me, because the women thought I was playing hard to get!
"That's a funny thing." Cassie laughed nervously, "We actually bumped into each other. Everything just clicked, we felt right for each other." Then Mr Chan decided to join in. Dear lord! The Power, please help me!
"So Aaron, what's your position?" He asked,
"I'm… I'm a high school Maths Teacher. I also have a Masters in Mathematics." The father raised his eyebrows, looking… somewhat impressed, I guess?
"Not bad son. Any relatives?",
"At the moment, I'm staying in an apartment with my cousin, Kimberly Hart. She's also a teacher; a Doctor of History actually. We both teach in Reefside." I smiled, weakly. I swear I can feel microscopic beads of sweat running down my forehead.
"Academic standards are high in your family. Do the two of you do any sports?" Can I actually enjoy the food? Please? I cleared my throat, then answered Mr. Chan.
"I'm a Black Belt in Karate. Kimberly did Gymnastics, aimed for the Pan Globals, but personal matters stopped her." I explained to him, "While my cousin may no longer be doing Gymnastics, she does Karate. Though, she has no official belt standing, her skill and prowess can match any Black Belt martial artist." All Cassie's father did was nod. Does he like me or not? That's the real question. Does he silently disapprove of our relationship? I felt Cassie place her hand on my leg, under the table and gave me a reassuring squeeze to comfort me. I can't let Mr. Chan intimidate me. I have to prove to him that I really love his daughter.
Back With Tommy and Kimberly…
16:10…
(Scene: Living Room, Tommy Oliver's House, Outside Reefside, Earth/Kimberly's POV)
I sat on the couch with a blanket around me for comfort, it was actually the blanket that my biological mother wrapped me in. The grey blanket was soft, warm. There was a sense of security and it… smelled like home. It's actually keeping me calm, however, a part of me feels bad for lashing out at Karone; after everything she did to atone for her sins, then I threw it all back into her face. Not just that, I downright assaulted her and about to commit first degree manslaughter or murder; neither terms sound great. Plus, if word reached out that a fellow Eltarian murdered a Karovian, it will cause deep rifts in political relations between both planets. Not to mention, Eltar and KO-35 has a very strong and stable partnership, that neither want to lose.
Shortly, I heard footsteps, lifting my head, Tommy walked in with a cup of tea for myself and him. He sat himself next to, giving the hot cup. I smiled and thanked him, sipping the tea. There's also something comforting about tea. I decided to clear things up with Mr Rainbow Ranger.
"I'm sorry for ruining the day Tommy." Handsome looked back at me with soft, concerned eyes.
"There's nothing to be sorry for Kim." He said to me, "You acted out due to your PTSD. Karone or the other rangers don't blame you.",
"I'm such a mess. Perhaps, for everyone's safety, it is best I don't go to the Christmas Reunion." I confessed, "We don't want a repeat of today do we?",
"You know, myself or the others will not take 'no' for answer." He smirked, the light in his eyes dancing playfully. I could not help, to chuckle lightly. "Anyways Beautiful, we are trying our hardest to find you a therapist.",
"Even if you do find one," I whispered, "I don't know if I can talk about it. I don't know if I'm ready to go back there again." Tommy put his hand on mine, the same way he did when I was in hospital due to my coma. He gave me a reassuring squeeze.
"I understand it is hard Kim. You, admitting to us about PTSD was hard on its own; but you are the strongest person I know Kimberly. You've been through more shit than anyone, even me." He said to me, "You must find the strength in yourself and move forward.",
"I needed that Handsome. You're right." I smiled, "And as a matter of fact, I'll go to Angel Grove with you.",
"Great, because I have a surprise for you tomorrow." Tommy and his surprises, he loves seeing me get excited. I wonder what he has planned. The two of us stared into each other's gaze, time seemed to have slowed down and then… we both leaned in and our lips touched. After so many years separated, the two of us finally kissed. "I waited to do this for so long." Tommy whispered, "I love you Kim or I should say Kara." I laughed a little, I don't mind whether he uses my adoptive or birth name; it's all the same. "So… will you be my girlfriend?",
"Yes Handsome. It's time I stopped running." I smiled happily at him and the two of us pulled in for another kiss.
With Aaron and Cassie…
16:20…
(Scene: Chan Household, Housing Estate, Angel Grove, Earth/Aegis' POV)
I feel a headache coming and it feels like I've been punched by a Megazord, doesn't matter which type, any Megazord from the past and current ranger teams packs a wallop. Mr. Chan was still interrogating me, even throwing in a few questions about my cousin. Then, his final question took me completely off guard, I wasn't prepared for it at all and neither was Cassie. It was like she was hoping he would not bring it up!
"So, Aaron boy, does dating my daughter have to do with her being the Pink Astro Ranger?",
"DAD!" Cassie yelled. I decided to play stupid, feign ignorance humans call it.
"You are?" Mr. Chan glared at me and I instantly knew that was a bad move. I'm fucked!
"Don't play stupid with me son." He growled, the entire table became quiet. "Let's call it a father's intuition. You see, back in her high school days, my daughter was smitten, love struck almost by a mysterious ranger. He goes by the name Phantom Ranger." I gulped, now I'm really scared, my heart rate is increasing. Mr. Chan continued his little… talk. "Then without warning, he disappears and after five years exactly; he has reappeared in Reefside, which so happens to be where Cassie is staying with her other ranger friend. Now, he's an ally to the current team of rangers, along with the Original Pink Ranger, who hasn't been since nineteen-ninety-six.",
"M- Mr. Chan." I stuttered, "Where are you going with this?" Fuck! He's onto me! Cassie's father leaned over the table, glaring. It scared me, so much that I shrunk back into my own seat.
"I'm giving you two strikes. Aaron Callaghsn, are you the Phantom Ranger?",
"Sir," I scoffed, "With all due respect, that's an absurd question! I can't be the-" He cut me off,
"Are you the Phantom Ranger?" He repeated. I sighed, I'm really torn now. Cassie could see the conflict written on my face. She caught my hand in hers, squeezing it and she nodded; basically saying to tell her father the truth. I sighed and looked at Mr. Chan.
"Yes. You are right. I am the Phantom Ranger." Cassie's grandparents and mother let out a shocked gasp. Her father, stayed emotionless. "I disappeared because… because I'm not from Earth. My name is Aegis and I hail from the planet of Eltar.",
"And what of your cousin?" He grunted,
"Same goes for my cousin, except she lived on Earth most of her life. My cousin, Kara of Eltar was adopted and yes." I took a deep breath in, "She's the Original Pink Ranger." Mr Chan was quiet for a moment or two. I was expecting to be yelled, get of the house and never see Cassie again, instead, he smiled softly at me. Smiled! I must be seeing things. Why is he smiling!? I just revealed a very big secret to him.
"Thank you, for telling me the truth." He said. I heard Cassie sigh in relief. "While I am shocked that my daughter here is dating someone from another planet and looks exactly like us; I approve. You make my daughter happy, that's all that matters.",
"Don't worry, Mr. Chan. Your daughter's happiness means very much to me. I can't see my life without her.",
"Aegis, or I should say Aaron for the sake of it; please, you call me Akira." Then his face shifted. "However, hurt my daughter, I will hurt you in ways you can't imagine. Your Phantom Ranger powers won't save you son! Do we have an understanding?",
"Sir yes sir!" I squeaked, my voice raising an octave and everyone burst into laughter.
Next Day…
16:30…
Saturday…
24th December 2003…
(Scene: Youth Centre, Angel Grove, Earth/Kimberly's POV)
I stood beside Tommy and my friends, we were drinking, laughing and reminiscing as we waited for our parents to arrive. My mind drifted to my own parents; mother and my stepfather. I don't know if she'll forgive me for just vanishing off the face of the Earth and I barely know my stepfather. According to Earth, I would have been recorded as a missing person, no doubt mom had gone crazy trying to look for me. I can't tell her where I've really been, what I have been up to; the worse thing then, is her finding out my past as a ranger and then hear that I'm back in service. The last thing we need is all the parents figuring out what we have been up since our days in high school!
I rubbed my necklace out of nervousness, it has only been a day since Tommy and I got back together. If Tommy's parents are going to be attending, most likely they are, I'm still not in their good books; not after the stunt I pulled with 'The Letter' back in the Summer of ninety-six. I felt an arm touch me, I turned to see my close friend Trini. I smiled softly at her, but she can read right through me. Sometimes, it's a blessing and a curse to have friends so close to you, it goes to the point where they are more like siblings; which isn't a bad thing, but they can read you like an open book. Trini and everyone else are no exception to that statement.
"So, what has gotten the little crane so nervous?" Trini asked. I sighed at her, looking away, then back at her.
"All your parents, more specifically: Tommy's parents." Trini raised her eyebrow, "We got back together yesterday." My best friend no, sister squealed with joy and locked me in a very tight bear hug. I felt my bones straining and I thought Aisha's hugs were suffocating! I used my connection to contact Tommy, who was speaking to the guys. He turned and saw me, but instead of walking over to help, he chuckled and went back to talking! I screamed in his mind, calling him a traitor. Fuck sake! Now I hear Caesar laughing! Rhea wasn't impressed either. God damn it! Trini finally let me go, so I could breathe. Thank fucking god!
"I'm so happy Kim! I knew you two would get back eventually. Though, why are you scared about it?" She questioned,
"It's his parents." I said, "No doubt they hate me, ever since I broke up with him and then, I vanish for almost… or close to a decade. Now, I'm suddenly back in his life." Before either of us could continue the topic further, we turned to see the parents walking into the Youth Centre. I forgot, Tanya and Adam sadly couldn't be here, his wife has just gone into labour; looks like this poor child's birthday will be exactly today or Christmas Day. They'll call us when the baby is delivered. My eyes gazed on the parents of Jason, Trini, Zach, Billy, Rocky, Aisha, Kat and then Tommy. Everyone went over to greet their parents and since they're all married, it's more like meeting the in-laws. Sadly, Tommy's mother caught sight of me before Mama and Papa Scott; which I'd rather prefer. Vanessa approached me with a storm on her face.
"YOU!" She growled. Tommy was behind, as well as Chris, attempting to calm her down. "You have the nerve to be here! After what you did to my son!",
"Mom, please!" Tommy begged,
"No Thomas!" Tommy stopped in his tracks. "This woman here, hurt you and now, she's suddenly back in you life!?",
"It's complicated." He said to her, "We talked mom, we're both past the letter and we are giving our relationship another try." Tommy was trying to diffuse the situation as quickly as he could, he knew I was starting to hyperventilate a little. "Mom, listen. I forgive her, it's in the past. Kimberly told me it was a lie.",
"WHAT!?" The rest of the parents yelled out. I guess that means they all via word of mouth.
"I lied to Tommy because I was keeping him safe." I muttered, but loud enough for everyone to hear. Vanessa suddenly calmed down, looking almost sorrowful.
"Why? What were you protecting my son from?",
"Me." I simply answered. Then Mama Scott stepped forward.
"Kimberly, sweetie, none of us understand. Why did you lie to protect Tommy from you?" I closed my eyes to calm my nerves. Perhaps, after this, the parents deserve to know the truth. Zordon did tell me, there was a loophole in the third rule of being a ranger. That if push comes to shove, to just tell our parents the truth if they confirmed their suspicions about us. He merely placed that rule for our protection and theirs.
"Because I was fighting in Countdown To Destruction. I feared for Tommy's safety, I could not bear to see hI'm suffer, if I never came back." Tommy went over to my side, wrapping his arm around me. "I'm sorry I caused you all so much pain." Handsome knew at this stage, even everyone, that the parents need to know the truth about the Power Rangers. Everyone stared at me in shock and surprise, unable to speak. That was when Ernie appeared.
"I'm surprised, after all this time, none of you figured it out.",
"Figure what out Ernie?" Voiced Mrs Kwan,
"That your kids are the Power Rangers!" He revealed for us. The parents stood there, dumb struck, they didn't believe us. Looks like we'll have to kick it up a notch. I looked to Tommy, then everyone else, reading my mind. I knew they agreed that we should morph.
"Watch." Said Tommy. We each got in our respective teams, I'm betting Tommy is opting to not use his current Dino Ranger powers, but instead, use the Ninjetti morphing call. Jason stood with Zach and Trini, myself, Rocky, Aisha and Billy stood next to Tommy, then Kat was on her own. Aegis couldn't be here because he's still with Cassie and her family, while he's in the same area, neither he or Cassie couldn't really leave. He said something about being trapped in a huge family gathering. I feel sorry for him, almost. Ernie moved closer to watch the scene. Jason and his team were first to morph, getting into their stance.
"It's Morphin' Time!" He cried,
"Mastodon!",
"Sabre-toothed Tiger!",
"Tyrannosaurus!" After a few seconds of bright light, our friends stood before their parents in their original ranger suits. The three of them took their stances.
"Power Rangers!" Now it's our turn. The five of us focused on our powers, feeling a tingle of electricity, which is our powers, run through our fingers. We circled our right arms, then crossing them so our fingers are parallel.
"We need Ninja Ranger Power!" We all yelled, "The Falcon!",
"The Crane!",
"The Wolf!",
"The Bear!",
"The Ape!" And the five of us all got into our animal stances.
"Ninjetti!" It was finally Kat's turn.
"It's Morphin' Time!" She activated her Zeoioniser, "Zeo Ranger One: Pink!" We all stood before our parents, morphed. Myself and the other Ninjetti removed our hoods, so they could see our faces. The parents were awe struck and in shock, unable to speak. They couldn't find their words, so to break the silence, I decided to speak on behalf of the rangers.
"I know it's a shock to all of you, but we were all bound by rules to keep our identities a secret." I explained, "It was for the safety of those closest to us, those we love.",
"So, that explains the mysterious bruises." Mrs Hilliard said,
"Walking in like you have a limp." Papa Scott added,
"Tardiness, exhaustion, wearing the same coloured clothes." Chris finished. We all looked at our parents, bar mine, sheepishly. "It all adds up now." The nine of us powered down out of our suits, well… four had to command 'power down', myself and the Ninjetti simply threw off our garbs. I quickly went over to the table to get myself a drink and rejoined the group then. Vanessa asked another question.
"As great as it sounds, but what has this got to do with Kim and the invasion?" As I raised my drink, my hand was suddenly shaking. I used my right hand to clutch the other and try to stop the shaking, Vanessa does not understand! Countdown To Destruction was not just an invasion, it was an intergalactic war. Tommy noticed I was getting tense, he placed his hand on my shoulder for reassurance.
"I know you all have questions for Kim about it, but please," He begged, "Don't bring it up. Please don't push Kimberly into something she's not ready to speak about." Much to the reluctance of the parents, including Mr. and Mrs. Oliver, they all conceded into Tommy's plea on my behalf. I know Bohan wants me to move on, to stop living in the past, but it's just too hard! There's so many what ifs and what could I have done to change the outcome of many different scenarios I was in. What could I have done different to minimise casualties, loss of comrades and friends, civilians… it all comes down to the what ifs. Four years since the war ended, four years I wasted; the first two years: never gave myself the time to recuperate. I just dived into more work, not caring about my own wellbeing. I helped the survivors, rebuilding infrastructure, burying the dead, ensuring supplies are plentiful. It was the year two thousand-and-one myself and Aegis left for Earth, once again, dove myself into more work to keep my mind off it. I went to college to take my mind off recent events. I was suddenly jolted from my thoughts when someone called my name. I turned, seeing my mother and stepfather. I cracked a wide smile.
"Mom! Pierre!" I rushed over to the two of them and locked both in a tight hug. Mother holding me tightly in her grasp, not wishing to let go. I must admit, I missed her, I haven't seen her since I left off for Eltar. She must have gotten worried since I suddenly ceased contact.
"Kim!" Mom whispered into my ear, "I missed you so much.",
"I missed you too.",
"Kimberly, where did you run off to? You disappeared for so long! Police were going to announce you dead!" My mom rambled, "You even went so far to lying!",
"I know." I replied, "And I'm sorry. At the moment, I can't talk about it. I beg you mom, don't push me! I'm not ready." All my mom did was nod and pulled me in for another hug. After that, Tommy joined in.
"Merry Christmas Beautiful." I reached out to Tommy and hugged him. I missed so many Christmases because Eltar doesn't know what it is, there was no point in me celebrating it on another planet. Seeing my parents after so long, is the best gift Tommy could ever give me. Of course, it was easy to deduce that Tommy planned this, but he had help; he most likely asked Jason to get in contact with my mother and stepfather.
"Thank you Handsome."
(No POV)
The parents of the Power Rangers stayed together, watching their children interact with each other. They could see not much has changed between them all, despite going on with their lives and jobs. It was obvious to see that they're all reeling from the revelation they had seen, it is still processing. All that time, when they thought their children were worried about school and good grades, they balanced it out with saving the world! Being a hero, the famous masked defenders of Earth; since their first appearance in nineteen ninety-three. As the parents talked, Vanessa was still trying to figure her son's girlfriend out. It was clear to her that Kimberly has changed, her perky and optimistic personality was not there; sure Kim let out the occasional smile and laughed at a joke here and there, but it was not the Kimberly she knew. The Kimberly she met is more withdrawn, somewhat closed off; as if she built high walls around her. She was very reluctant to speak about her involvement in CTD, when Vanessa gazed into Kim's eyes, they looked haunted. They lacked the shine her doe-brown eyes used to have, instead, they merely flicker; threatening to die out. She had to ask herself a few times if this is the same Kimberly her son introduced back in high school in nineteen-ninety-four. Tommy's mother quickly figured that Kimberly must have been involved or seen something so horrific it traumatised her; no wonder Tommy was so defensive. Vanessa's thoughts were broken when she heard Caroline screech:
"MY DAUGHTER WAS WHAT!?" Vanessa turned, seeing Kimberly instantly wince as her mother screamed again. "KIMBERLY ANN HART! What's this nonsense about you being a Power Ranger!?" All eyes gazed on Kim, who looked like she wanted to crawl under a rock and hide. Poor Kim is now in a corner.
(Kimberly's POV)
By the Power! One of the parents must have told my mom and now, she's having a major freak out. Ha! Understatement of the year! Well, yelling out my name is more like having a heart attack and she is beyond furious. Primarily as well, I hid it from her for such a long time and she never made the connections. I may as well tell her the truth, most of it.
"It's not nonsense mom. I was a Power Ranger, I'm a veteran ranger." Truth also twisted into a lie, Tommy knows this because I'm forced back into service.
"I don't understand, how did I miss this?" She asked herself,
"The first sign was when I upped the Karate lessons with Jason, might I remind you, you protested against." Mom looked a little bit ashamed, she well knew she did not approve of me practising Karate. I still remember the time she yelled at Trini, giving her the berating of her life, much similar to Jason's verbal assault also. "Second, I kept coming home with bruises that healed in a day or two. It was because myself and the others were attacked several times each day, by our enemy's foot soldiers and monsters." Before mother could ask another question, Aisha's mother interjected.
"This may sound sensitive, but… the Pink Ranger went on a rampage through the city one time. Was that you?" I laughed nervously, rubbing the back of my head, as my friends did the same, recalling the time I was turned evil. It was after finding out, before his death, Zordon was my father. Of course, Zedd being the opportunistic asshole he is… or was, he took advantage of it. I stared at the parents slightly.
"I was uh… under the effects of a spell, but yes. I… sort of went destructive on the city centre.",
"You attacked your home!? So that was why you were missing for the two days! You weren't at Billy's house!" Exclaimed mom. Ah yes, that was unfortunately before she left with Pierre for Paris, France. I have to admit, I was locked up and chained in a damp cell, where she thought I was at Billy's doing a science project.
"Yes to that as well. I was captured by our enemy: Lord Zedd and he zapped me with a spell, to make me evil and I turned against my friends." My mom and everyone else looked like they were about to faint, that someone like me could get so destructive. Well, never mess with a pink.
"I can at least say: thank god that craziness is over." Not as over as you think. I was forced back into the suit, got frozen in amber, trapped in my suit and now, I'm dealing with my PTSD! "So what are you doing now?" Tommy leaned me, smiling. Oh no! He's not going to tell the, that is he!?
"Kimberly here, is a History Teacher now and as if she could not be fancy enough," He smirked. Tommy I swear to god! I will castrate you! "She has a Post Doctorate. Correctly, she is Doctor Kimberly Hart." I groaned out loud, as my friends laughed. They know I don't like making a big deal out of my PhD, but our parents, especially mine are surprised, proud and gobsmacked. Please kill me! Despite all that, the reunion went on smoothly and the rest of the day passed quickly into the late hours of night.
Next Day…
18:20…
Sunday…
25th December 2003…
(Scene: Living Room, Tommy Oliver's House, Outside Reefside, Earth/Kimberly's POV)
Tommy and myself were relaxing with Hayley and the kids. Hayley decided to close the café as it's Christmas Day and obviously, no one wants to work at that time of year. All people want to do is spend time with their families, unless you are some Scrooge and don't like the holiday for stupid or personal reasons. So far for the teens, their parents haven't asked questions about why they are spending time at their teacher's house; I assume their parents don't know, but it's best that it stays that way for now. The open fire was cackling, spreading heat and warmth around the living room, but… every time I gaze into the fire, all I see is the destruction it can cause. The homes and watchtowers of Eltar, burning and collapsing to the ground; some of the soldiers, my comrades were burnt alive. A very painful death, sometimes I still hear their screams ringing in my ear, others who survived miraculously, were bed ridden with Second or Third Degree Burns and are in severe pain. There were times I was asked to give them a mercy kill, to end their agony; then my hands be coated in their blood, blood that I just can't wash off.
Aegis is still in Angel Grove, Cassie's parents offered him to stay for the rest of the Christmas with her family and stay for dinner. He would also be meeting more of the Chan family, god help my poor cousin, he barely survived the grandparents. I did have a rant at him over the phone when he told me last night, he had no choice but to reveal to Cassie's father: Mr . Chan, who he really is. Aegis stated her father put him in a corner and he had to tell the truth, including revealing who I really am. I was a bit peeved at Cassie's team because they decided to morph in open public, which is why her parents know. Then Mr. Chan connected the dots with the Phantom Ranger. Once I calmed down, I told Aegis it is alright and as long as Mr. Chan and his family keep this secret, I have no qualms. He was relieved to hear that, as well as Cassie.
Aunt Dulcea asked me how I was, which I told her that I was managing and would like to back to work once the holidays are over. My aunt expressed that she hates Principal Randall for forcing me back to work, especially with my PTSD not exactly under control; but I told her I can handle it. I want to go back, get some normality for the second semester and she gave in. Dulcea also told me all Christmas Exams have been corrected and appropriately graded, so I don't have to worry about them. What I told my aunt however, is to return to Eltar and assure my mother that I'm alright and things have been a little hectic. I really don't want her to know I was fossilised in amber for about a week, then stuck in my suit for a further two. I do not want my mom reigning hell on me and giving out to why she hasn't been notified. Actually, I hope my uncle is alive, I know Dulcea has been updating him about my situation and I swear to the Power! I pray he did not run his mouth and let anything slip.
Back to the present, myself and everyone are gathered around the coffee table playing Monopoly. I did question Tommy is that such a good idea, since many people know how the game usually goes or ends. Ninety percent of the time, it breaks out into augments and accusations. I was told it was my turn. It was actually Ethan's idea to play this game since he brought it with him and it was a Star Wars themed board game, which is awesome! I picked up the die and rolled them both, revealing a combined total of seven. I moved my board piece, which is the Millennium Falcon, the ship which is famously quoted as 'a piece of junk' and it landed on a section of the board that hasn't been bought. It was 'The Jedi Mind Trick' scene and so, I bought it. Next, it was Conor's turn. I moved my head just to check something, then I heard Rhea saying Conor was trying to sneak his way out from paying rent, because he landed on my space of the board. I turned so quick, one would fear whiplash, just in time to see Kira about to roll the die for her turn. I glared at Conor and said:
"Conor McKnight!" I growled, "You think you could sneak away!? Pay up!",
"But it's passed my turn!" He groaned,
"Kira hasn't rolled yet, so technically it is still your turn!" I argued,
"Too bad! You missed the chance!" He grinned. My eyes narrowed at Conor, Tommy and Hayley looked like they were about to brace themselves for my temper and Trent was getting scared. Ethan and Kira were shrinking too as Conor, had the nerve to back answer me. Well, time to go Lieutenant Mode on him. I stood up, squaring my shoulders and looked down at Conor, who didn't have a chance to get up. The poor Red Dino Ranger gulped, as he stared at me with a 'I'm too cute to be mad' smile.
"CONOR MCKNIGHT!" I yelled, the same way I would be giving out to a disobeying soldier, "You pay the thirty dollars or I will make up run laps till your lungs burn and you can't feel your legs! You hear me pipsqueak!?" Conor was about to open his mouth, but closed it, deciding to hold his tongue. Grumbling under his breath, Conor reached for his money and passed me the thirty dollars. I smirked at him as he payed and I sat back down, satisfied. Tommy and Hayley looked me, shocked and a little scared.
"I feel sorry for the soldiers under your command." Hayley giggled,
"Trust me Hales," I responded as I sort out the money into proper order, "I had soldiers who didn't want to listen to me, because they thought I was more Earthling than Eltarian. Let's just say: I put them in their place." I saw Tommy shiver,
"I don't want to know what you did." All I did was smile innocently at him. Eathan had to go to the bathroom, so he left while Kira made her turn. Trent is after Kira, so the Triceratops Ranger has some time. By the time Trent started, Ethan came down, but not empty handed; in his hand was my PlayStation and a copy of Mortal Kombat II. Oh no!
"Dude! What's that in your hand?",
"I found it in a duffle bag. I think it's yours Dr. H." He placed both items on the table and picked up the game, staring at it. His eyes went wide in surprise and burst out laughing. More like having a fit. "Oh my god! You like Mortal Kombat!? The most violent and controversial game ever developed!?" All eyes were on me, now I felt like I wanted to disappear because my secret hobby with video games has been uncovered. Soon enough, Tommy burst out into a laughing fit, surprising everyone, because of his usual calm demeanour. I covered my face to hide my embarrassment. Someone shoot me please! Next, Hayley was laughing her ass off too.
"Why didn't I know this?" Tommy wheezed, through his laughter. Tears were coming out of his eyes too.
"Remember when I sometimes asked to cancel our dates the odd weekend?" I asked him,
"Yes. Why are you asking this?",
"Because I went to the local arcade to take part in Mortal Kombat tournaments. I'm…" I sighed, praying whatever dignity I have left to say this statement. "I'm the undefeated Mortal Kombat Champion and I still am." The entire living room burst into laughter, everyone clutching their stomachs. I know Ethan is a gamer, he's a geek, loves his computers and he began to crack his knuckles.
"So Dr H, are you up for a few rounds with me?" I smirked at him, my eyes glinting dangerously. I saw Tommy stiffen out of the corner of my eye; Ethan James, you have no idea who you are dealing with. Monopoly was set aside as Tommy gave me a hand setting up the PlayStation to his TV. I connected the controllers and in five minutes, everything was set up. I picked the character Scorpion and so, to keep to the classic rivalry as always shown in the trailers, Ethan picked Sub-Zero. Too bad for Ethan, I know Sub-Zero inside out, so I can easily anticipate his moves. Ethan, your are going to get your ass kicked!
"So Mr. James," I grinned, "Best of three?",
"You're on teach!" And so, the games began.
An hour passed and unfortunately, three matches became six and six became twelve. Ethan growled out of frustration and cried:
"NO!" As I input the command for Scorpion to perform his classic, well known fatality, by that; it's taking off his mask, revealing a skull and burning his enemies to a pile of ash. Then, Shao Kahn's voice was heard on the screen saying: "Scorpion Wins! Flawless Victory! Fatality!" Ethan barely got a hit on me. My character still had one hundred percent health. I turned to my History student, feeling actually sorry for him and I patted his back as he cried, literally. He was beaten by a teacher is close enough to a decade older than him… actually it'd be under a decade, because I'm only twenty-four.
"Why didn't you tell me Kim?" Tommy asked,
"I was afraid you'd laugh." I said shyly,
"Beautiful, I wouldn't laugh; sure I'd be surprised, but… I would have loved to see you at those kind of tournaments.",
"If the arcade does a throwback, maybe we'll go down for the fun." I looked at the clock, it was getting close to midnight and we should all hit the hay. Tommy agreed and decided to call it for the night.
Four Months Later…
13:30…
Wednesday…
28th April 2004…
Canon: Pre-Thunder Struck
(Scene: Kimberly's Classroom, Reefside High School, City Centre, Reefside, Earth/Kira's POV)
Oh man! The holidays went by too quickly! Now it's back for the second semester of our final year in high school! I wish I stayed in bed. I can't believe it's April now! It's the year two-thousand and four and four months have already passed, even the two week Easter Holiday is gone! Of course what's making the days go faster is Mesogog back in the game after a period of silence. We then had some momentary distrust issues after it was revealed that Trent knew Mesogog's true identity: his father, Dr. Anton Mercer. That was after defeating the previous monster: the Ruby Dragon, a creature based on a card game Ethan and his friend played. I continued to pay attention to Dr. Hart as she continued teaching; I made some small side notes for anything extra.
No offence to her aunt, as much as I liked Dulcea, I preferred her niece when she taught; before being frozen in amber and then stuck in her suit. Next, we heard laughter coming across the corridor, Dr. Oliver is doing a lab with the grade below us; demonstrating some kind of experiment. The walls here are not exactly soundproof, so I heard something about a recap or refresher on Alkaline Metals. As class continued, there was suddenly a loud bang, like a very small explosion coming from the lab, followed by breaking glass and a group of screaming students. I turned my head and instantly paled. Dr. Hart stopped mid sentence, dropping the piece of chalk in her hand, I heard it hit the ground, breaking in two. She leaned against the blackboard frozen, muttering something; oh no! Her PTSD is acting up! The explosion from the lab must have triggered it! Crap! It's like the cupboard scene all over again!
Jumping into immediate action, I took control of the situation, standing up from my seat.
"Conor, get Dr. O! Pronto!" I ordered. I turned to Ethan and Trent, "Get the students here out of the room. Go!" They all jumped, carrying out the orders I have given them. I rushed over to Dr. Hart and gently touched her shoulder. "Dr. Hart? It's me, Kira! Your student." I said to her. "I know you're in there, a part of you is not in that forsaken place! You are in Reefside teaching. Come back, please!" I turned my head and saw Dr. Oliver burst into the classroom, as Ethan and Trent ushered the other classmates out of the classroom. Cassidy, however, was being stubborn, wanting to get something to report; sadly, we can't let her do that! It will be detrimental for Dr. Hart and she'll risk losing her job! Also, Principal Randall will show no mercy too, if she hears. Dr. O took over for me, while I walked over to handle Cassidy and Devon. I grabbed them both by the arms and pulled them away.
"What are you doing!?" Cassidy complained, "This is something to put on the paper!",
"No! It's not!" I hissed at them both. "You could single handedly cost Dr. Hart her job! If you write about her panic attack, I or the others, will never forgive you! You could cost this school a great teacher and other high schools might not accept her! Do not and I repeat: Do. Not. Write about this!" I turned, then Cassidy asked one question to me.
"Was Dr. Hart in the army before she came here?",
"No comment." I answered smugly. If she reports this on the paper or in a gossip paper; she's not only going to have myself and the others on her, but the past rangers too and the worse of them is the Devil's Trio: Aisha, Trini and Kat. I walked back to the classroom and poked my head in, seeing our Science Teacher hold Dr Hart in his arms, comforting her. It looks like he managed to bring her back. The veteran rangers are still trying to find a therapist, I hope they find one soon, because I think our teacher is going to crack soon.
Three Days Later…
17:25…
Saturday…
1st May 2004…
(Scene: Kitchen, Tommy Oliver's House, Outside Reefside, Earth/Kimberly's POV)
The weekend finally came, I'm so glad, especially after the shock of having a panic attack in the classroom. I'm grateful to the kids, thanks to their calmness and taking control of the situation, the whole scene lasted for about ten minutes and it took Tommy less time to bring me back, compared to the first incident. I sat in the kitchen of Tommy's house, correcting some History homework; down in the last of my school schedule, instead of a standard written paper, the students will have to write an essay on a topic in any point of History; excluding myth and legend. I did warn them about that when a student asked about them; legends and mythologies are tricky, the lie on the fine border of truth and storytelling. They may or may not have happened, I remember asking one of my professors about this sort of topic. I ended up speaking with him for a full hour. We finished off the subject and told me to reflect on something he said:
"Myths are usually based on some version of the truth. Think about it." My dad said something similar, he was looking into a myth about an ancient crown, holding five coloured gems; said to grant the bearer unbelievable power. That's just a myth, it can't be real; he was chasing fairy tales, but… what if the professor was right? I was too young to even see what dad was researching, he was quite protective and evasive about it and kept to more traditional history. A knock on the door, brought me back to the real world; I got up from my seat, thinking it was Tommy. He left an hour or two ago to get shopping after the kids, once again, cleared out his fridge and cupboard when they came over for a sparring session. I maybe partially responsible for that because, I used training exercises from my time preparing the Eltarian Army and I guess it pushed their limits. Even Hayley thought I was a bit excessive. The kids thought if I became a PE Teacher instead, they would most likely ask or beg for an exemption.
Reaching the door, I put my hand on the door knob and opened it. It wasn't Tommy, it was Jason, not that I'm happy to see him. I hugged my big brother, greeting him and let him into the house. Jason entered and made himself comfortable on the couch.
"So, I heard Tommy asked you to move in with him." He smiled. I couldn't help but do the same.
"Yeah, he asked me last month. I'm adamant I am not letting him go this time.",
"That's my sister. That means Cassie has moved in with Aegis?",
"Those two love birds? Yes to that too. Of course, we did notify the landlady of the changes. She's fine about it." I replied,
"I… I was also told about your panic attack in the school. Are you OK?" Jason's worried tone was coming through. My whole body stiffened, I was about to answer with my usual 'I'm fine', but in truth, I'm not. I'm not fine, I'm hurting!
"No." I said, "I want to let the past go, but I can't! Letting it go means I have to talk about it." Jason stayed quiet, listening to me and trying to understand. "But talking means I have to bring myself back there and I see it all! It's like a flood and the only thing I can do is place a dam there." I felt the tears rolling down my cheeks and Jason came over to hug me.
"Dams eventually burst Kim." He whispered to me,
"I lost so much. I lost too much, I was afraid to be near you all. I was afraid to lose Tommy." I told my brother,
"A lot sacrificed for you too." Jason sat me down across from him on the couch. What does he by sacrifice? It was more loss than anything else during that forsaken war!
"As if there's a difference." I grunted,
"In fact, there is." Jason said softly, "You know more about loss than anyone else. Loss is a choice made for you. Sacrifice is a choice you make." I remember doing something like that, I was leading a platoon on the planet of Edenoi; aiding Prince Dex to destroy a control tower belonging to The Alliance. We underestimated the protection of that tower and we were outnumbered. Some of the soldiers insisted that they stay behind to distract the enemy, while the rest of us fall back to regroup and get reinforcements. I couldn't let any more of my men die, I refused such order; but this is what Jason was on about. It was my choice to leave behind those soldiers, so we could retreat; I made a sacrifice of their lives, that we could go back and return to destroy the tower. However, Jason is correct, that was only one time I made a sacrifice, I suffered loss, more than anyone could imagine. Just like I lost Bohan.
"I think I see where you're coming from." I said to Jason, "Since when did you ever get philosophical?",
"When I saw my little sister was quietly suffering." He answered. "Oh, Trini and I finally found a therapist. She actually wants to see you tomorrow.",
"That's… great… I guess. Who is it? And where is the therapist based?" I questioned,
"You'll be going to Mariner Bay. Your therapist is Dana Mitchell-Grayson." The name rung bells; Dana? Isn't she the daughter of Captain William Mitchell? The same person who ran the Lightspeed Programme? I was still on Eltar when their fight was going on. Hold on a second! I know Dana is a fellow Pink Ranger, but I thought she's a doctor!? "If you thought she is a doctor, you're not wrong; but she finished a one year, part-time Psychology course. She wants to help you.",
"How did she find out so quickly?",
"Word travels fast among the Ranger Circle." Jason smirked. "I rung Tommy too, he's urging you to go. You don't even have to ask him." That's Tommy for you.
"What time does she want to see me?",
"Around two o'clock." Replied Jason,
"Alright then." I sighed, "And Jase, thank you." And the two of us moved for sibling like hug. I'd be lost without my brother.
Next Day…
13:55…
Sunday…
2nd May 2004…
(Scene: Dana's Office, City Centre, Mariner Bay, Earth/Kimberly's POV)
Tommy decided to drop me off to Dana's office in Mariner Bay, which is only a one hour drive from Reefside. It's a slightly longer distance if you travel from Angel Grove. Like Reefside, Mariner Bay also sits along the coast, facing out to the sea; which is why it's a competing port as well. I told Tommy he could head back, while I get the bus or taxi home; but my dear stubborn boyfriend insisted he'll wait and said to give him a call when I'm ready. Now here I am, standing outside Dana's office, wondering if I should knock or not. Am I really ready to talk about the horrors that is causing my PTSD? Can I tell her it's not just my involvement in Countdown To Destruction, but also The Ooze and Muranthias Incident? Two different events, one nearly making me lose those closest to me and the other… released a dark side I didn't think I had. If we were not for Tommy snapping me out of Maligore's control after Lerigot failed to free me; I could have ended up on the other side of the war.
However, that's not what hurts the most, it's the fact I hurt my friends, I hurt Tommy, Adam, that kid Justin, tanya… and Kat. I hurt her after she did so much for me, including keeping the secret of me being on Eltar. Taking a deep breath, I knocked on the door and was told to come in. I entered, seeing Dana at her desk. Her room was… cosy, warm, somewhat trying to make the person feel a little more relaxed. The former Lightspeed Ranger gave me a warm smile.
"Kimberly! It's great to finally meet you.",
"It's nice to meet you too Dr. Grayson." Dana groaned, rolling her eyes as I smirked a little.
"God damn it! No need to be so formal! My first name is just fine." I let out a little chuckle. "Oh yes, I'm going to keep it medical for a brief minute of two. An anonymous source told me about scars on your back. Are they… causing pain?" I'm guessing that source is Aegis in case I try to leave anything out. Although… Dana wants to help me, there's no point in lying to her, a fellow Pink Ranger like her will read through the lie or I shouldn't close up on her either. She will want me to break down the walls I have built up over the years.
"That person is not wrong. I do have scars and sometimes… I get phantom pains.",
"Is it OK if I examine them?" She asked me. I wordlessly nodded, standing up and turned my back to her. I removed my shirt, so she see my scar ridden back. Dana let out a small gasp in shock, she's never seen scars this severe. Suddenly, I felt her hand on the longest scar that usually lets out the odd phantom pain. Her fingers were cold and it made me inhale sharply, a brief flashback hit, I saw Darkonda slashing the dagger into my back, between my shoulder blades. I could feel the blade slicing my skin open, reaching the small of my back. I placed both hands on the arms of the chair to stop myself from falling.
That's the most severe scar out of all of them. Dana continued to examine the rest, most being small, less severe scars and are near invisible. I knew Dana could tell by the scars, I wasn't just struck with blades, I was struck with whips; fuck! I was electrocuted at some point. I know the phantom pains will never go away, I just have to control myself. Dana knew in an instant that was tortured, but she didn't broach the topic yet, instead she just told me to sit back down. I put my shirt back on and did what I was told.
"Kim, I know CTD was not really what caused your PTSD, it's factor. So what actually started it?",
"I lost a lot during the war, so much. You are right though, it wasn't just that, it goes back quite a good bit." I said,
"Please tell me." Dana soothed, "Help me understand, don't shut me out too." I sighed, but I could hear the plea in her voice, she genuinely wants to help me. My grip on the chair tightened, the wood silently groaning. Damn Eltarian strength again.
"The factor of my PTSD was The Ooze Incident, on top of that… the things that happened on Muranthias. The war was just the final straw.",
"Well then Kim, what happened back in the Summer of nineteen ninety-five?" She questioned and all I could do, was answer and let out some buried feelings and emotions. I sensed Caesar, which means Tommy is near and they're happy that I'm finally letting go. It's a long road to recovery, sometimes PTSD might not go away at all, but it's a start.
I'm surprised I wrote all that and of course, I am sorry that Description-Dialogue Ratio is a bit more off than usual. Hopefully I will find that balance again, but it is really tricky to do so.
As you may or may have noticed, if you really know your Ranger History; I foreshadowed Operation Overdrive, but as a mention; I don't think I'll be expanding this story any further than the Bonus Chapter I mentioned.
Anyhow, I hope you enjoyed this chapter; hit that Favourite/Follow and the odd criticism is nice. Stayed turned for Chapter Eleven!
Bye!