Hey everyone! Okay so I lost a lot of this chapter, which really made me mad. I am seriously about to kill my computer. I worked with what wasn't lost though, so I hope it's okay.
Final Chapter!
Yeah! P-A-R-T-Y
"Jared it's going to be okay, it's going to be okay" I whispered clinging to the little boy in my arms as if all life depended on it. Running my hands through his dirty blonde hair repeatedly, he sniffed a couple times trying to stop his flow of tears.
"You monster James" I hissed shaking from rage.
He must pay!
Yes, he must!
"Me a monster, dear Bella, who is it that left this poor boy to another family because she couldn't stand looking at him."
"Shut up!"
"I didn't abandon him Bella, I adopted him. I took him in and answered his questions about why his mommy didn't want him."
"I said shut up!"
"Do you know that he carried a picture of you around with him?"
"Stop it!" I screamed again, sobbing.
It's been one and a half years since I've seen my son. I gave him a picture and a teddy bear to remember me by, hoping that someday I could look him in the eye. He's three now.
"You're the monster Bella." James hissed leaning down so that he was face to face with me.
"No, you're lying!" I clutched Jared closer to me, he held onto me just as tightly, no longer trying to control his crying.
"You want to ask mommy the questions you asked me Jared?" James said sweetly, Jared shook his head furiously his face still buried into my shirt.
Edward's Pov
"You want to ask mommy the questions you asked me Jared?" a male voice asked with forced kindness. I peaked around the corner to see Bella clutching a little boy and the guy I suspect she ran into at the library. Bella looked pissed.
"What was that?" The man asked.
"He said no James." Bella growled shooting daggers at him with her eyes.
James stood from his kneeling position, I looked around, there was no way for me to sneak up on him, damn. My entire body froze when I noticed the gun in his hand. On impulse I jumped out grabbing his arm, a loud bang ringing in my ears as everything went black.
Bella's Pov
"Edward!" I screamed dragging Jared over to his body. James was backed up in the corner breathing heavily, scared shitless. Apparently he didn't know Edward was there.
Shaking my head I turned my attention to the man before me sprawled out on the floor. "You idiot!" I screamed grabbing is shoulders, shaking him. "You fucking idiot why didn't you just leave, call the police… something!" I shook him more, but he wouldn't move.
*Flashback*
"Don't Bella me promise me that you won't bring them into this Edward, promise!"
(End Flashback)
I… I killed him.
No, James did Bella.
No… Edward's smart he would have called the police, but I made him promise.
Bella, listen to me. James, you need to make him pay, it's his fault it's all his fault!
No… No it hasn't been James it hasn't even been Charlie, it's just been me.
No Bella no, you're wrong. It is James, it is Charlie.
No, it's me and because of me Edward is dead!
"Mommy, don't be sad." I looked at Jared, he reached up and touched my cheek with his hand whipping away my tears. I wasn't even aware of the fact that I was crying, everything seemed to be moving slowly, my head feeling heavy. James was walking around the house, scouting for anyone else. With shaky hands I grabbed the gun he dropped it after shooting Edward.
"Down" I ordered putting it to his head.
He did as I said, putting his hands behind his head.
"You got me Bella." He whispered.
I clutched the handle until my knuckles were white- closing my eyes I put all of my energy into one blow hitting James on the head. When I opened them he was on the floor, a gash on his head but he was still breathing.
"Bella" I spun around, the gun out in front of me. It was Alice.
"Bella, give me the gun, please?"
"I… I can't do that."
"Mommy" Jared hugged my leg, I took one hand and ran my fingers through his hair gently.
"Bella, it's over everything is fine now. I called 911. I've been listening the police are on their way. You don't have to be afraid." Alice was calm, holding her hands out in front of her, she took a step towards me.
"Stop!" I screamed firing at the ceiling. A loud crack rang through my ears, the same one that I heard when James shot Edward. He was still on the floor. Blood pooling around his body, Alice took a couple steps back. Walking backwards I kneeled by Edward stroking his cheek gently, barley touching him.
"Bella, James shot Edward, he tried to kill you to but you got the best of him, it's over. Edward may not be dead, he needs medical attention, please give me the gun and calm down."
"No! You don't understand. I did it. I shot Edward it's my fault Alice. I can't keep blaming Charlie or James for my problems it's not their fault it's mine. I let this happen, all of this. I didn't stop it."
"You couldn't have stopped it Bella,' Alice said calmly her voice cracking; tears were running down her face.
I wanted to cry, to feel her pain but I felt numb. Everything was fuzzy, it wasn't right. It wasn't right at all.
"No, I should have. I should have ended this a long time ago Alice, I could have prevented all of this but I was a coward, I was afraid."
"It's okay Bella."
"No it's not! Nothing is okay, look at what I've done Alice, look!"
"I see Bella and it's not your fault. I can't lose Edward and you Bella, I need you both, please give me the gun."
"NO! You don't understand." She wasn't getting it. I did this it's all my fault.
Repositioning myself I held the gun shakily. Jared was still clinging to my leg. I wasn't going to let Alice convince me that what I did was okay. I pulled the trigger another deafening crack and then silence.
The wind tugged at my hair sending it flying in all different directions. I pulled my jacket tighter around me smiling as Jared laughed happily playing on his swing set with Jasper and Emmett. They hardly ever left the poor kid alone. Sighing I looked up at the sky, the sun was setting we probably had about thirty minutes left of light.
"How are you doing?" I didn't bother looking back, there's only one person that asks me that anymore. I nodded, letting the silence take me on a trip down memory lane.
"It's been over a year Edward." Sighing I sat down in the grass running my fingers through my hair, a habit that I haven't grown out of yet.
"I know Alice… I know."
"She loved you, the way to looked at you, the way she stroked your cheek." Alice gently brushed her fingers against my cheek, as if to reply a moment that I have no memory of.
"Daddy!" Jared screamed running towards me, opening my arms I caught him as he launched at me.
"I want to go see mommy daddy, can we please?"
I looked at Alice, she nodded smiling.
"Sure thing, let's go take mommy some flowers, you think she'd like that."
"Yeah, mommy would love that" he grinned happily taking off towards the house bouncing as he went. For a kid he got over everything that happened quickly in fact I'd say that he hardly even remembers it. Too bad Bella wasn't more like him.
Welcome back Edward" Angela greeted giving Jared a hug. Everyone here knew us, they didn't know what happened with Bella, but we come here enough to know them all pretty well. Jared loved talking to everyone. He always picked out a different flower.
"I want this one for mommy this week daddy" he came bouncing up with a white rose in hand. I'm actually surprised that we haven't already gotten her that one, then again they seem to have something new every week just for us and Jared has a hard time choosing usually.
"No charge" Angela said wrapping it out and handing it to Jared. We thanked her before leaving remember to pay her back sometime.
"Do you think mommy can hear us?" Jared asked looking at the stone before him.
"I'm sure she can" I smiled as Jared went off into a story about how Emmett ate his sandwich the other day. It's going to be another long visit.
Okay, yes I know its short T_T
It was longer, but my computer is being a butt and I guess it decided that it didn't want to be long anymore.
So, I'm glad to say that this is the end!
Not really how I wanted/it was supposed to end but it's going to have to work I guess.
All in all crappy ending if you ask me. *sigh* OH well.
Anyone want to give me a list of what I need to work on?
P.S. I might rewrite the ending one day. Heck, the whole story. I need to go back sometime and go over it from start to finish and just write. Well I hope it was okay, thanks again everyone! =D